Author's Note: This chapter was a little difficult to write. I didn't know whether I should included more of her finding out or not, but hopefully you liked what I decided and that was just focus on Ellie's feelings. Once again thanks to Spuffy-Spike-91, Justawritier, Queenmilarulez & One of the Crowd for your reviews. It really means a lot to me that you like the story and I hope you like this chapter. Enjoy! And remember to leave feedback!
Chapter 3/8
She knows. You can see it in her eyes. She knows. From the moment I walked into school, I could feel her eyes burning into me from a mile away. When I looked up, I couldn't even look in her direction. She was filled with anger, betrayal most of all pain. Pain that I had caused and it hurt me, made the guilt ride on my shoulders like a ton of bricks.
No one else knows, but I know it is only a matter of time. Tomorrow. Tomorrow everyone will know and then once again, I'll be the outsider, the loner, the one everyone talks about, the one everyone whispers about when I walk by. I'll be the slut according to them. I'll be nothing in a matter of hours.
I knew it was coming, we both knew it was coming. That night she found out we met at our spot in the park at a table off in the corner, almost hidden underneath the trees. Me in your lap, you held me, telling me softly over and over again that everything would be ok. I could see the look of fear in your eyes, not knowing what was to come, but your pretended not to care, pretend to be strong, for me.
The following day, it came. The day we had been dreading. Everyone knew. The whispers came, the stares come, their eyes burning into me the entire day, trying to break me down and succeeding. But just like all the time before this, you were there to pick me up.
"So they know who cares. All I care about is you" he held my hand, squeezing it gently, for reassures.
"But what about everything you've worked for. What about your friends?" I spoke softly, turning my eyes to the ground
"They stopped being my friend. They never saw the new Jimmy. She never saw the real me. Just like them, she couldn't see past the chair, like you can. You accepted me for who I am, you never tried to change me. You saw past this and saw me, you saw me." He kissed my hand, and then with his finger, he lifted my chin up and kissed my cheek before placing a final kiss on my lips.
Our foreheads touch, are eyes leveled with another's and were peering into each other souls and in that moment I knew we would be ok, that everything would be ok. And in that moment I knew I loved him.
Preview of Chapter 4: It was you and me against them, against the world.