Chapter 6: Lets go
The next day Ginny woke up to the sunlight on her face. For a moment she was groggy, as she was usually when waking up in the morning on a Saturday. Slowly her memory returned and she smirked. The events of last night. It sure had been fun. Really fun, she thought as she remembered Blaise. She should really go down and see if he was doing anything. Maybe something that didn't include his favourite 3 letter word (a/n. and we all know what that is). She sighed and got out of bed, feeling momentarily dizzy as her body got used to standing again. Then she went to get ready.
After a shower she got dressed and put on some light makeup, as she always did in the morning. She looked at herself in the mirror and nodded, then left the dorm. As she walked down the hall she smiled and waved at people she knew, which surprised them immensely. Something had obviously happened to Ginny Weasley, but no one wanted to ask her in case this mood was only temporary.
Once she got to the great hall she looked around for Blaise. Not seeing him at the Slytherin table she decided to sit down and eat, before trying to find him. Maybe he had not come down yet. As she was moving to the Gryffindor table she looked at the Ravenclaw one and stopped in her tracks. Standing there with a Ravenclaw girl was none other than Blaise Zambini. He was standing fairly close for just friends. Then again, it would surprise her if Blaise actually had any friends who were girls that he hadn't layed. Her eyes narrowed as she watched the scene. Ginny composed herself and walked towards Blaise.
She came up behind him, and he seemed too pre-occupied to notice there was someone behind him. The girl seemed in about the same state. Ginny tapped him on the shoulder and waited. He didn't do anything, and seemed quite satisfied ignoring her. So she tapped him again, more forcefully. A couple of the Ravenclaw students were watching the scene, though trying to hide that they were interested. Blaise still didn't turn around. So she cleared her throat.
'Having fun?' She asked. This seemed to get his attention and he turned around. The girl had very evident red marks on her neck and glared at Ginny. Ginny pretended not to notice and smiled sweetly up at Blaise, who frowned then looking incredibly pissed. Ginny tutted.
'Oh dear, not having fun with your slut, Zambini?' She asked. More Ravenclaws were looking at the scene now, and a couple of Gryffindors and Slytherins had started to look over curiously. Blaise grimaced.
'Actually I was having a good time, Weasley. Until someone came and interrupted us.' He said looking at her with annoyance. She just smiled at him some more.
'Ahh you see, I'm really sorry to have interrupted your fun, but I thought that maybe you had forgotten what you were doing last night.' She said smirking. Blaise seemed momentarily stunned, but then he smirked back at her.
'Well I do remember last night, but I am afraid it was defiantly not up to standard per se.' He said. They had attracted more attention from all the houses, and whispers littered the hall. Even a couple of teachers were watching discreetly. Ginny laughed.
'Well I'm sorry that I'm not up to the standards of some of your one night stands,' She said looking critically at the girl 'Though I am a little surprised. It wouldn't take much to be better than one of your whores.'
There were a couple of gasps and whispers from the people who could hear, and the others hastened to find out. Blaise smirked at her.
'Now you see that's where you think too much of yourself, Weasley. You are a whore.'
Ginny just raised an eyebrow at him sarcastically.
'At least I'm not one of yours.' She said in a deathly whisper. More gasps were heard, but only from the closest Ravenclaws, including the girl who was now glaring enough to sour milk. Blaise smirk became wider.
'You were my whore last night.' He said. She laughed sarcastically, and he raised an eyebrow in question. The whole great hall seemed to be watching them, but neither seemed to notice. Ginny then kneed him right in the groin.
The whole great hall erupted in gasps, wolf whistles, various calls and talk. Blaise fell to his knees in pain, grasping where she had caused him great pain. She grinned triumphantly, and then kneeled so as to be at his level. He looked like he was in great pain. And he would be, since she had put great force and anger into that. She smiled sweetly at him.
'Oh, so sorry, did you need those?' She said, causing some close Ravenclaws to snigger. The girl knelt down beside him and tried desperately to make an act of helping him. Ginny stood up and walked out of the Great Hall with a satisfied smirk on her face, not looking back.
It was only when she returned to her dorm and lay down on her bed when feelings other than satisfaction started to sink in. She sat up as realization hit.
'What the fuck have I done?' She cried to herself. She threw herself back down on the bed and stared at the ceiling.
What had she done? She had fallen for Blaise, who already had a huge reputation for one-night stands, and what had he done? What he was expected to do? She couldn't believe how stupid she had been, to even imagine he would wait around for her. But this wasn't the thing that was making her feel so stupid. The thing was Harry.
She had not only kissed someone else in front of his face and been a complete bitch to him, but she had also not accepted his apology. It was now that she realised what she had done. She may not have thought it at the time, but now she felt more than terrible about what she had done. There was no return from where she had gone. No apology to be said and believed. For the first time in many days she cried. Not for herself, but for Harry. For what she had done to Harry, and how she could never make it up to him.
Days turned into weeks, and every day dragged on for an age. Ginny walked the corridors with feet dragging, and did everything absentmindedly. It was much as before, but this time if you looked closely, you could tell that there was something different. You could tell that she was upset about something, but no one was near game enough to ask her why. Ginny continued on lost in hopelessness, and put down. She didn't think she would ever forgive herself for what she had done. In fact she knew. She had screwed up not only her own life, but Harry's as well. And that was what she felt worst about.
One night Ginny was attempting to do her Charm's homework, which she wasn't doing successfully, when she heard a knock on the door. She didn't really want anyone to come in, but it could be one of the girls from her dorm, so she thought she should really let them in.
So she placed her quill down and picked up her wand.
'Alohamora.' She said, which unlocked the door along with the right hand movement. The person on the other side knocked again and she said.
'Come in!' She said exasperated. The door opened and Ginny looked up.
It was Hermione.
'Hey Ginny.' Hermione said. Walking up to her bed. Ginny smiled slightly.
'Hermione, hey,' She said. 'What are you doing here?'
Hermione sat down next to her and moved her quill and parchment off her bed. Ginny looked at her questioningly. Hermione smiled knowingly.
'I've come to overload this mental breakdown of yours,' She said. 'But first.'
Hermione then slapped Ginny hard on the cheek. Ginny cried out, and grabbed her cheek.
'Owww. Hermione! What was that for?' Ginny cried. Hermione grinned.
'That, was for what you did with Blaise.' She said. Then she slapped Ginny again, only harder than last time. Ginny now had two very red cheeks, both of which she was holding.
'And that, was for what you did to Harry,' Hermione finished. Ginny was gaping in pain and shock of what her friend had done, but Hermione looked fairly satisfied. 'Now why the fuck did you do this?'
Ginny mouth widened in shock at her friend swearing, and she gawped for a few seconds, until she finally got herself together.
'I don't know 'Mione. I don't know why I did it, and I don't know what caused me to do it. All I know is that I feel terrible now.'
'Well obviously. I've heard from Neville how you've been acting, and it's pretty obvious that you do.' Hermione said as-a-matter-of-factly. Ginny raised an eyebrow.
'Have you been stalking me?' She asked accusingly. Hermione laughed.
'No, not stalking exactly. But when Harry told me about what happened I just wanted to find out how it had turned out for you, and if your senses had returned.'
'Wait, Harry told you?' She asked.
'I could tell he was upset about something, well more moody than usual. And I managed to get it out of him. He's really upset you no. Still, even.' Hermione said. Ginny frowned.
'Why wouldn't he be? I was a bitch to him. More than a bitch. I don't expect him to ever forgive me, cause I'm never going to forgive myself. What I did was more than wrong. And I can't expect him to forgive me.' Ginny said sadly. It felt good to get what had been weighing her down for the last few weeks, though it still did not purge her soul. Unexpected tears started to fall down her cheek. There was no hope. Hermione wiped the tears off her face and smiled sympathetically.
'You can expect him to forgive you. Just say you're sorry. Its simple, Ginny!' She said. Ginny shook her head.
'No, its not. I hurt him, with no reason for it. There is no way he will forgive me. I can't show my face to him again. Even if I did try to say sorry, there would be no reason for him to forgive me.'
Hermione shook her head sadly at Ginny and patted her leg, getting up from the bed.
'One day, Ginny, you will realise that that statement is wrong, and you know it in your heart,' She said. 'I have to go now, but keep your chin up.'
With that, Hermione left, leaving an extremely bewildered Ginny.
The next couple of weeks Ginny changed slightly. She tried to look happier and act happier; keep her chin up as Hermione had said. People seemed to notice, and gradually talked to her more. Though her mind was still elsewhere. Inside she was still worried about Harry, but she was also pondering what Hermione had said and what it meant. Every time she tried to think of possibilities, she found dead ends. It annoyed her, but in the end she decided to push it to the back of her mind.
But then one night change her routine of the last week.
She was doing her homework in the common room with Neville and a couple of other Gryffindors when the door was hastily opened and in came a puffing red head she knew all too well.
'Ron!' She cried standing up and running over to him. 'What are you doing here?' Then she saw that he looked troubled, and extremely puffed out. 'What's wrong?' she asked concerned.
Ron was puffing hard and rested his hand on the table.
'Ha-Harry…went af-after…dar-dark lo-lord.' He puffed.
'What?' Ginny asked. Ron puffed a couple more moments.
'We found all the horcruxes. Harry…he went after he-who-must-not-be-named by himself.' Ron said more clearly. The Gryffindors were looking on with concern.
'What?' Ginny cried.
'He needs help Ginny.'
'I'll come with you,' Ginny said. 'Come on lets go!'
'No you can't get hurt Ginny.'
'Now, Ron! I can help!' She said. 'Now lets go!'
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