NOTE: Another BETA reader is gone… thus, this fic too is left unBETAed. Please, keep reading this nonetheless.
MasterFranny: I was moping about wanting to write angst, and Kammyh told me to post this. I said, I am waiting for my BETA! And she said, Shut the Fk up and post it already! I was scared and I posted it… -.-U
Rei: plus, she said she wanted to show how she can keep up with all the fics she's posting and not discontinue any. Now to some of the questions…
MF: Bryan won't get pregnant. First because it's not in the plot. Second because, I like Rei as uke with him. In this one, bed preferences are stated and won't change.
Hope you will still read this though.
Maybe I haven't said this before, but this is going to be angst. I mean, one would expect it seeing my other fics, but still, ANGST!
Sorry, this is still short.
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Rating: T may get higher
Summary: Alternative Sequel to "Just say it…". Kai is faced with a decision which involves not only he and Tala, but a baby as well. He can die. But he's willing to take the risk. Meanwhile, Rei's having his own problems too… YAOI Tala/Kai and Bryan/Rei Sideway of Spencer/Ian.
Warning: you need to read "Just say it…" before this one to actually understand. Oh, and this is YAOI so if you don't like then don't read, I warned you. Also there will be angst and male pregnancy.
Disclaimer: won't own in this life. Maybe in the next, but I don't like being a man. Will settle for InuYasha owning in next life, then.
"Talking"
'Thinking'
"(Talking into other languages)"
-Dreams sequences, flashbacks, memories-
Dangerous Love
CHAPTER 02: So sensually carved and bleeding
Rei waited not too calm for the clock to sign it was time to call China.
He'd said to Kevin and Gary he needed to speak with Lee as soon as possible, so they'd agree to have the teen come at the Chinese restaurant the following day, same time. He couldn't wait to hear his best friend's voice at the other end of the phone, and he knew it would be ok as soon as he spoke with him.
As he continued pacing around just like a feline in a small cage, he wondered why on heart Kai was so dazed out when he returned home yesterday.
Rei had finished his second sandwich and was looking for something similar with more fish in it as the slate haired blader entered the front door, eyes slightly unfocused as if he was deep in thought. He'd merely saw Rei greeting him and he paid no attention to the half emptied fridge, merely walking to the shelf they usually kept medicines in and picked out something for head ache.
Rei had really tried to speak with him, for a moment forgetting about his state to worry for his other best friend, but Kai simply ignored him, though the Chinese teen was sure it was not intentional, and went to his room closing the door behind his back.
Rei knew Kai had gone to see the doctors of the Abbey, he heard him speaking with them at the phone, he thought it to be fine, but noticing how he was acting he couldn't but fear something was deeply wrong.
Kai didn't come out of the room for dinner, and when Tala called Kai didn't come to the phone. When Rei entered his room after knocking twice, he'd found the older boy deeply asleep on his bed, so he told Tala to call the next day.
In the early morning Rei had to cope with his very first sickness, even though it was not the last bit strong as female ones, but still he woke with a light nausea and the sudden desire to eat soup -he hated soup.
As he passed Kai's room to prepare himself the horrible food his stomach urged him to eat, he could hear Kai stumble to the bathroom and he knew something was really wrong.
But he also knew Kai would not speak until he was ready, so he ignored it all and continued his way to the kitchen.
Later in the morning Tala came and found a really shocking sight in Rei eating a bowl of soup, thing the Russian teen knew Rei hated with all his heart, and no sign of Kai.
As Tala entered Kai's room without knocking as he was usual to, he was rewarded by said teen spread on the bed with a book in his hands. Kai had looked up for a second, and Rei -who had taken the opportunity to sneak up to see what was wrong- was sure he saw a flicker of something akin to panic in his crimson eyes, vanished so quickly he doubted it ever existed.
But as the clock signalled him the time was come, Rei forgot all his musings and picking up the phone he dialled the number of the restaurant.
He didn't know what he would say to Lee, but he was willing to try.
"(Yes?)" A known voice answered.
"(Kevin, it's Rei,)" the Chinese blader was on the edge, wondering silently to himself if Lee was there so he could speak with him.
"(Well Rei, I knew you would call, don't worry, Lee's there,)" was Kevin's reply.
A second later there was shuffling at the other end of the phone, and Lee's voice echoed in Rei's ear filling him with relief.
"(Rei! It's nice to hear about you, we were worried you know, it's been a while since you-)"
"(Lee, please, listen,)" Rei interrupted him with a slightly uncertain voice. "(I need you and Tao to come here to Russia, is that a problem?)"
A silence greeted him.
"(Rei, is there something wrong?)" Lee's voice was filled with worry.
The Neko-Jinn pondered if to tell Lee his current status, but decided otherwise. He needed to tell him face to face, not in a phone.
"(I need you to come, Lee... please, trust me when I say I'll explain when you're here,)" Lee must've heard Rei's desperate tone, because he didn't reply for a while.
Finally, when Rei thought he would be going nuts, Lee spoke again, "(That's fine Rei, we'll be coming to you with the next fly to Russia, just tell me, it's something the matter? Are you sick? Is someone dead? Please, I need to know if I should worry)".
"(No, Lee, I'm not sick and no one is dead, I just need you here and I'll explain you as soon as you're there with Tao)".
Being the older member of the clan and one of the Council of the tribe, Tao was the very one who knew all about the Neko-Jinn roots of their clan, and he knew all the remedies and all the techniques of fighting, he looked old and frail, but he was as strong as an oak and as fast as a panther -not to mention, but this was not a good thing, he liked to drink every kind of alcohol he could find. And he was never drunk.
Not completely, truthfully.
Closing the call, Rei felt a strong wave of relief wash over him. All he had to do was to wait until Lee and Tao came, and it would be all ok -except Bryan and the baby, that was it.
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Kai slept badly that night. It wasn't for the aches in his stomach, he could bear them with no many problems apart the nausea, but it was the very idea of something growing into him that freaked him out.
He returned home in a somewhat dazed state, he couldn't keep his brain from thinking about the baby, his mind filled with images of the will-be boy or girl. Would it be healthy and normal? Or the experiments done on him would have him/her grow with serious damage, physical or mental?
The scientists had been not just shocked, but stunned by his decision to keep the baby, and Kai knew they considered him insane, but every time Kai thought about it, the mere idea of getting rid of it was unbearable.
Kai felt afraid, much more afraid he'd ever been, but at the same time he was sure about his decision.
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A baby.
The scientists tried hard to have him recede but he never let his determination fall, he wanted to keep the baby and no one was going to stop him. So they had to accept it, and had told him he would need to come to the Abbey to do a check up ever two days, and if the aches turned more painful he had to come pronto. He promised them not to strain himself, he knew this was something that had never happened before and he needed to be considerate about his well fare.
He thought back as he remembered what the older doctor told him. He said he would have a pregnancy of twenty-two, twenty-three weeks, roughly six months, mainly because a normal pregnancy would have been nine months but his developed system would speed up things a little.
His baby would turn from embryo to foetus during the first two months, and seeing he was at his eighth week, it had already happened. The scientists didn't know when exactly his belly would start to show his pregnancy, but they were thinking it would happen around his eleventh week.
Kai let his right hand stroke softly his belly, his eyes growing softer as he tried to picture the baby growing in his head.
Then another thought entered his mind.
Tala.
He was supposed to tell Tala.
He saw Tala early in the morning, but he managed to send him away with some lame excuse. He couldn't tell him, not now. He had the irrational fear Tala would reject him and the baby. Oh, sure he knew Tala loved him, he'd proved it hard enough for Kai to believe him, but a baby?
He couldn't be sure Tala was ready for it.
Hell, he wasn't even sure he himself was ready for it!
It was an obvious thing still, he never knew before he could conceive.
None to mention the pregnancy was risky.
Would Tala be at his side or would he reject the very idea of a male conceiving?
He couldn't force himself into telling him, not now, not for the present moment. He would wait and try to probe him so to know how he would react to a baby. He knew he should take it slow.
A baby growing inside him, slowly and painfully, and he could just picture out he would be identical to Tala… a little kid with Tala's face, Tala's eyes, and Tala's red hair.
Kai felt another wave of nausea hit him but this time he forced it down. He was willing to hide it all for some more time, so he needed to act normal.
He washed his face and he cleaned himself a little, deciding to take a walk -some fresh air would do.
As he walked outside his room he found Rei shutting down the phone, his entire shape dripping relief all over, and Kai decided to ask what was happening.
"Hey, what's with the relieved expression?"
Rei stiffened but then he turned and smiled at him, "nothing, it's just that Lee's coming here and I'm happy to see him again, that's all".
"You missed them, right?" Kai let a small smile grace his features as he nodded, "They'll be welcome here, don't you worry".
"Thanks Kai, you can't understand how grateful I am," suddenly Rei's face turned serious. "What about you? Yesterday you looked so out of it I thought you were under some sort of drug, I wonder if you're sick?"
Kai strained his smile a little, his body tensing up, but then he saw the concern in Rei's eyes and he willed himself to relax.
"Nothing's wrong, Rei, it's just that I felt a little sick lately and I went to the Abbey to make sure it wasn't something serious -but it wasn't, they told me it's all ok".
He felt bad about lying to his friend, but he assured himself it wasn't needed to let Rei know about his pregnancy.
"Maybe you need to lay down," Rei suggested, "You look worn out..."
Kai smiled and shook his head, "I'm going out for a walk, I need some fresh air to clear my thoughts, what about you?"
"I think I'll go to Bryan, but Tala will come later you'd better leave a note".
With that Rei waved goodbye and putting on his coat he left. Kai looked around and picking up a pen he left a quick note just in case Tala did come.
Then he left, breathing the cold air he liked so much, cold air that made him think he was at home.
It was unusual from him to think about family, seeing Voltaire was the only living family he had, but his thoughts trailed to his parents. They had been killed of by Voltaire and Boris, so they could have Kai -the same happened with Tala's parents, as well with Bryan's. Spencer's parents abandoned him when he was four before the Abbey's front door, and Ian was found in a street, his father killed by some drunken men while trying to protect his wife from being raped by them.
Kai could remember some things about his mother, but his father was a lost memory to him. He could remember the soft hair of a light blue his mother, Marya, owned, as she hugged him when he was little, he could still recall her warm smile directed to him and him alone, as if he was her sun, he could still remember her melodic voice calling his name, but of his father, Voltaire's son, he remembered nothing at all.
Voltaire killed them so to have the legal custody of Kai, and there were times in which Kai really missed having parents, a real family.
His hand found its way to his belly as he remembered, now he was going to have a real family, a family of his own. A little baby that would look just like Tala.
His feet took a known way, his entire body tensing up as he knew where he was going, and as he saw the cemetery appearing from around a corner he felt the anxiousness catch up with him. It was a lot since he last came there, almost one year, and he felt he neglected the graves the care they deserved.
He entered the gate, having it squeak as he opened it, his feet walking on the grass and on the path as he headed towards the farthest part of the cemetery. Soon enough the graves of his father and mother, buried together to be never parted from each other, appeared before his eyes.
It was a simple grave, with an angel figure carved in stone above it, the angel holding in its hands two flowers. Under the angel there were two paintings, one of his mother, the other of his father, with the carving of the dates of their birth and death.
Marya Ivanovna born 12.5.1960 died 13.10.1990
Loving mother and wonderful wife
Shuuichi Hiwatari born 23.8.1957 died 13.10.1990
Loyal husband and caring father
They died when Kai was four, too young.
Shaking his head the slate haired teen let himself fall gracefully on the grass before the graves, his eyes admiring the beauty of his mother in the picture above the grave, before looking at the father he couldn't remember.
His eyes were red pools of fire, just like Kai's own, and his hair were a deep shade of blue, short and messy. He looked serious even if in the picture he was smiling, an aura of strength surrounding him and making him look like untouchable.
It was such a shame he couldn't be there to see his son growing up, Kai thought with sadness. Would he be proud or would he be disgusted by what he was?
Would his father accept that his son was pregnant?
'Would you be proud of me, father?' Kai closed his eyes sighing. 'Mother, would you smile at me, content in looking at the baby I carry?'
He shook his head, he couldn't stop and think like that, he knew there wasn't a suitable answer, and the dead could not come back.
He wanted to live at his best, giving to the son he was carrying the love his parents couldn't give him when he was little.
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Tala looked around the shop, his eyes glowing at the sight of the many things he could buy to his Kai.
He wanted to give him something special, since he saw how down his lover was in the last few days, and he wanted the smile to grace his face back just like before.
He looked at the books, he knew Kai loved reading but what he wanted was something even more special than the last book of Harry Potter, or the Vampire saga of Anne Rice, or the Animorphs books.
So he turned and looked at the other end of the shop, and found what he was searching for. The oils and the incense.
He would do a massage to Kai, to relieve him of the stress and the tenseness, and maybe he would be rewarded later.
With a smirk he headed towards the oils, seriously wondering what would be the best incense to lit up for the beauty Kai was, not to count the oils to pour on Kai's soft, smooth skin...
Tala's mind was too near a perverted trail of thoughts when a salesgirl, who had been peering at him ever since the red haired teen had entered the door, slightly touched him on the shoulder.
Tala was started out of his shoes as he turned to the intruding girl, who was at the moment smiling at him in a sickly nice way, and cleared his throat.
"Do you need something?" the girl was way too ready to please him, Tala thought but not without a little flash of pride. He still attracted people, even though he cared nothing about any of them apart from his Kai.
"I was searching something special for my boyfriend," Tala stated clearly, stressing the word boyfriend as he spoke. "Some massage oil and incense..."
The girl's eyes lit up with a glint that made Tala want to run away, but he managed to not show his tension as the girl -who was a little shorter than him and had black hair and blue-greenish eyes, and wore glasses- smiled a predatory smile.
"Way too easy," she replied kindly. "Let me see what we have..."
With shining eyes and a slight squeal the girl started to zoom around the oils and incenses with a sort of dreamy face, having Tala wonder if this wasn't one of those yaoi crazy fans, the one that read yaoi manga and loved this kind of things -not that he wanted to complain, it was better this way than homophobes, or this kind of people.
But as the girl looked back at him, eyes still glinting mischievously, Tala wondered if a homophobic would really be a worse choice.
Coming out of the shop twenty minutes later with three bags full of bottles and packs, Tala was sweating profusely, shuddering at the thought of the insane girl.
She continued babbling about how cute it was to hear a guy admit he loved another guy without the usual fear of what others would think, and she continued saying she was sure his boyfriend was as hot and cool as Tala himself was, then went babbling about the various incenses Tala could use to have a romantic atmosphere, and which oils would be better for ministrations such as massages.
He was obviously satisfied about the things he bought, but all the same, he'd been scared off by the girl, he half expected her to ask him if she could watch them as they...
Luckily she didn't.
But he was sure she would've liked to do it.
Strange twisted girls...
Usually he found people who would be disgusted and would call him names, telling him he was a sinner, and such, or he would find nice people who were by his side completely, or people who cared nothing about it, or even guys who would try to hit on him.
He cared nothing about them all, he loved Kai and that was it. But the people who looked at him like he was fresh meat even after he told them he was gay, and started babbling about how cute it was, just like the girl, crazy yaoi lovers, that was creepy.
As he walked to Kai's house to prepare it for the show, he saw Spencer and Ian walking happily towards the same shop he came out seconds before, and he wondered if he should warn the two about the insane yaoi-lover but he decided otherwise.
He hadn't been aware of the danger as he walked in the shop, and he was sure he would never ever walk in it ever again, so why should he warn the two of them about her?
So as the couple looked up, waving at him with big smiles, Tala simply smiled back, waving his hand as he watched with a devilish grin the two enter the shop.
His mood improved from his latest decision, hentai thoughts flying in his mind at the sole thought of the oils in his bags, imaging it being smeared on Kai's creamy skin, Kai's shoulders, Kai's chest, Kai's legs, Kai's...
He shook his head, and smiling like a stupid he resumed his walk towards Kai's and Rei's home.
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MasterFranny: ehm, dunno what I was thinking about the cemetery, really, it came it all out from itself. Sorry if it was somewhat out of place, but I thought it would be good there.
The girl in the shop, that was me!
Review! Please!
MF signs out
PS: I feel like I neglected Spencer and Ian. I feel bad.