After the song was over, Mark came over and grabbed my arm and jerked me around to face him and then pulled me aside so no one could hear us…
Mark said and said, "Damn it Erin…you're supposed to tell me when you go somewhere…remember?" I said, "Gee…I'm sorry, I didn't want to disturb you…you looked like you had you're hands…uh…full this morning." Mark said, "What I do in my private life is none of your business…but you however are my business…I was hired to do my job...and I can't do my job if you don't tell me when you leave the damn hotel."
I said, "Just a warning…you're private life isn't to private…and you might want to get yourself tested cause after she left your room she went and visited a few of your friends…and apparently you're still mad about last night…which I haven't figured out why…because you honestly have nothing to be mad about…you still got a piece of ass…it just wasn't mine." Mark said, "That has nothing to do with what we talked about last night…you was acting like a slut…and I called you on it so now you're going to act like a bitch?"
I said, "Alright fine…I'm sorry about last night okay…I never meant for it to happen…is that what you want to hear? That if I had to do it all over again I wouldn't have kissed you…does that make you feel better?" Mark said, "No…that's not what I want to hear." I said, "What do you want from me?" Mark said, "The truth…why did you freak out last night…you had this look of sheer panic on your face when you pulled away the second time we kissed…like you thought I was just going to throw you on the ground outside of the pool and take you right there…what was that shit?"
I said, "The truth?…The truth is, if I had it to do all over again…I'd still kiss you…but not for the reasons your thinking…Because it was beautiful kiss…and I really enjoyed it…the first time I let my guard down in a long time…don't make me regret kissing you last night…because I really liked it…yes probably more then I should have…but even if I could take it back….I wouldn't. And the look of panic your talking about…happens all the time…fear sets in faster then my brain will let it…panic and terror are the only things that keep me from totally freaking out. Just chalk it up to you got kissed by a girl last night who got the shit scared out of her…"
I walked away to find Samantha.
Mark looked over and saw Jaden watching what was going on and she shock her head no…Mark walked over and said, "Jaden I think it's time me and you had a little talk." Jaden said, "I knew this was coming…you want to know why Erin freaked out last night when you guys kissed…especially since she's the one who initiated the kiss both times?" Mark said, "Yea…so get to talkin'." Jaden said, "Have a seat…"
Mark sat down and said, "It was right after our parents and brothers' murders…Her record label decided to throw her this big party for selling 45.5 million albums in the first week it was released…everyone from the company was there, including other artists signed with the label and managers bands, whatever…the party was huge…anyways…Erin met this guy and they hit it off…about 6 or 7 hours later the party was still going and she was kissing the guy…and things started to get heated between them…but she was nervous…she was still a virgin…the guy started moving way to fast…and before she knew it he had pushed her into a room that was pitch black and started seriously ravaging her…he ripped her shirt off and pulled her skirt up…he was about to rape her…when someone who'd seen the guy push her into the room, busted through the door…and stopped it before it happened…she never could look at a guy or even want to kiss him since then…and the well the whole freaking out thing…she's still a virgin…but apparently she trusts you enough to kiss you…"
Mark said, "Christ…Why didn't she tell me?" Jaden said, "Good luck…she doesn't like to talk about it…I think right now she's just trying to get past the whole kissing without freaking out." Mark exhaled heavy and said, "I wish she would have told me…I said a couple of mean things to her." Jaden said, "And I'm willing to bet she fired back about seeing that little hoochie leaving your hotel room this morning huh?" Mark said, "Gee bad news travels fast doesn't it…I don't even know why I did that last night…" Jaden said, "You was frustrated with Erin…you seem to like her more then you're willing to let on…just like I know she likes you but will never admit it to anyone…but you."
While Mark had food for thought…he walked away…time to do some serious thinking.