Disclaimer: I do not own Inuyasha, but I do own Love Pentagon!
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I've decided there are only going to be 6 chapters in this fic. :( I wish there were more, but I'm just out of ideas for this one. But I promise that doesn't mean it sucks. It's great. I love the ideas put into it. I think the chapters will be longer than regular LP ones.
Date(s): August 18th, 2005
Mood: eneh…
Music:
Wake Me Up When September Ends – Green Day
I'm updating, like, a day early.
Because I'm nice.
And because it's a holiday.
Happy Thanksgiving, Everybody!
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Love Pentagon episode II
Chapter 2
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Was I…crying?
"…Inuyasha…?"
He smiled wide, flashing me the fangs I missed so much. "How are you?" he sounded so happy!
When I opened my mouth to respond, salty tears dripped in. "Oh," I said, bringing a hand up to my face to wipe them away.
"Hey, it's okay! I missed you a lot, too!" He took my hand. "Let's walk. So what do you do for a living?" he asked.
"I own a nightclub. I'm sure you're heard of it. Fukai Odoru."
"Hm, yeah, now that you mention it. But I've never been there…"
"You haven't? It's by far the most popular club in Tokyo!"
"Nope, sorry."
"…"
"Do you make a lot of money?"
"Psh. Let's just say I'ma thousandtimes wealthier than I was in high school."
"That's good."
"What do you do?"
"Ah, I'm unemployed. Guess I should start looking for jobs, ne?"
I laughed. "Yeah."
"You've gotten a lot prettier since I last saw you. Look at you!" He exclaimed. "I bet you have all the guys chasing after you!" He squeezed my hand quickly.
"Actually, no. I'm single."
He smiled. "Me too."
There was a pause for a minute or so until finally – "I still remember your last words to me."
I looked up at him. "What?"
" 'I don't need to listen to your bullshit. I'm never seeing you again anyway!'"
"…"
"What happened to you anyway? You never signed online again, you disappeared from town, from school. You never told anyone you'd leave. To tell you the truth… everyone thought you were dead."
"I'm sorry," I muttered. "My mom got a job in the United Kingdom. It was a once-in-a-lifetime offer! We all had to move. I was going to tell everyone, but it was so hard. It tore me apart leaving everyone. So I never said anything. It's a little gay and confusing, I know…"
"Kagome," his voice was very low and tense. "A day didn't pass that you weren't on my mind. I thought I lost you forever. Hell, I even set up a funeral for you. Your grave is in the local cemetery."
"You did that? Why?"
"Because…" he sighed and looked me in the eyes. "I loved you. And you hated me. I honestly thought you killed yourself because of Kikyo and me. We didn't even last two weeks. I said to you I loved you but you didn't believe me. Do you know how much torture I went through thinking you committed suicide because of me? You died and it was all my fault? I had to live a life of guilt for God knows how long! I couldn't eat or sleep, let alone go to school. I mourned your grave everyday. Every morning and every night, I prayed you would forgive me."
"I'm so sorry!" I squeezed his hand and blinked away small tears forming. "I didn't think you'd care… but I guess I was wrong." I wore a fake smile.
He grabbed me and hugged me while liftingmeup in the middle of the street. My eyes got a glimpse of another white feather before swelling up with tears. I wanted him to hold me like this for the longest time after I left. I missed him… even if I said I didn't. I put my arms around him slowly in response.
"Kagome, you don't know how good it is to see you," he said and gently took his arms away and gave me a sad smile. And for a second there, I swore I saw angel wings on him. Must've just been tears messing with my vision.
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"So where are you staying?" he asked before dropping me off at Fukai Odoru.
"Right upstairs. I'll have to show you around sometime. Thanks for dropping me off," I said and stood on my tippy-toes to give him a kiss on the cheek.
He smiled. "When can I see you again?"
"Ashita. Tomorrow."
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I punched my pillow in my dimly lit room. "DOUSHITE! WHY!"
Tears were swarming down my face. "Why did he have to come back! Everything was just fine! All these memories… I don't want to remember. I don't want to feel the pain he left me with…"
Escaping into the night, I told myself
That I was not at all alone,
But after all, it became clear that
There is nothing but my painful loneliness…
On my way home from the buzz of the city
It was no different from any other day.
I thought that I would repeat this pattern of life
And tears suddenly appeared in my eyes.
Feeling weak and heartbroken, uneasy and lonely
I wanted some warmth in a faded voice
But then you appeared suddenly
As a ray of light in my darkness.
You smiled a little, told me it was all right,
Took my hand and we started to walk.
I saw angel's wings on your back.
It was not because I wanted to be unaffected by pain
That I wished to be strong.
You helped me and supported me,
We gave and forgave one another,
I've received what I wanted to protect on that day.
Sometimes you are too unprotected
When coming face to face with me with all your strength;
It's so amazing that I even spare a second for this.
You have angel's wings on your back,
I sincerely hope that you will not be
A victim of this sad age.
I sing this song today just as I pray
So that what I am feeling now can reach you.
(ayumi hamasaki - angel's song)
My eyes met yours again, and we talked a little
With a smile, I masked the struggle in my heart.
I was afraid I might not be able
To go back to the times when I didn't know you.
The wind has already became cold,
Laughing voices fill the air with the white breath;
Perhaps because of the winter
I feel like crying for nothing…
I still remember that night when we first met, even now-
We came to know each other slowly;
But suddenly I see that I know nothing about you –
Please tell me what you feel…
For me to understand it, you can even scream.
My love grew when we couldn't meet,
My heart ached because my voice didn't reach you,
I found that I couldn't go back to the times
When I didn't know you.
please don't smile with such sad eyes
As if you were about to be broken and disappear.
What can I do?
My love grew when we couldn't meet,
My heart ached because my voice didn't reach you,
I find I can't go back to the times
When I didn't know you.
Why is it that sometimes I can't speak honestly?
Why is it that sometimes I can't be tender?
Why is it that sometimes we hurt each other?
Why is it that sometimes things are so different?
Why is it that sometimes my heart aches so much?
Why is it that my heart always goes out to you?
I can't think of anyone but you.
(ayumi hamasaki - because of you)
The summer has come again since then,
But why am I looking back upon the past again,
Tracing the footsteps?
I remember everything even now
Your voice calling my name, your casual habits.
I want to forget, and I don't want to forget
Did I choose the right way?
But I understand there is no answer
No Matter whom I will ask.
Please tell me some day that you are happy
And smile.
I quietly lock the memories away
Leaving them to be beautiful.
This feeling, this feeling, go up into the sky
And be scattered beautifully like a firework.
(ayumi hamasaki - hanabi episode II)
(theme songof the fic)
The wound from long ago begins to ache;
I hide my heart, tremble and pretend to smile.
Even now I'm the same as before,
I've only learned how to pretend to be strong.
My heart is filled with unspoken feelings
That I cannot change into fine words.
If I would not have met you
I wouldn't have such a maddening pain.
I have firm feelings now
But I cannot always put them into words.
People are living this way
Clinging to the feelings they can't communicate…
(ayumi hamasaki - no way to say)
(i might be wrong on this one... if anyone thinks I'm wrong about the song title, please tell me)
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