One SlowDance
This is my first fanfic so be easy on me! I would like to apologize in advance because my spelling is horrible so I'm sorry if there are any spelling mistakes. Please review so I know whether to post the next chap. Well anyways hope u like it.
N/A- Thanks to my friend gem for proof reading and helping with ideas.
I do not own J.K Rowling's characters or the ending all I own is the plot.
Summary
So what really happened in their final year of school that made Lily changes her mind about James Potter? "You think you're funny, but you're an arrogant, bullying toerag, Potter." Did the infamous Potter grow up for the love of his life? (LJ 4eva)
Chapter two – When I'm With You
September the first
Lily's point of view:
I had wanted to get to the head compartment before anyone else got there, I didn't want anyone to see me until it was absolutely necessary. I was starting to look a bit better because I had started to eat a bit more now and was sleeping a few hours a night, but still I looked horrible.
I was an hour and a half early and there was no one on platform 9 ¾. I had apperated to Kings cross station (I had passed my apperision test before my parents had passed away).
I sat in the head compartment staring out the window. I wanted to get away from London as fast as possible. Tears fell down my pale cheeks as I remembered the first time I had come to this platform.
----Flash back---
"Lily, now you write to me as soon as you get to Hogwarts" my mother said to me.
"I will mum don't worry I will be fine!"
"Now watch out for boys. They may promise you the world but there can only be one boy that can do that!" my father had all ways been the type to give me advise about boys, he had always told me that the one that you love most is usually the one you hate with a passion. However I found that hard to believe.
Just as my father had finished his sentence, a boy with messy black hair that stuck up at the back had just come out of the barrier at a run and ran straight into me. He was lying on top of me when our eyes meet and for a second there was a serge of electricity through our bodies.
"Lily dear are you all right?" I heard her mother ask.
He got off me and apologized "I-I-I'm really sorry."
"Hey mate there you are" a young boy with long black hair came up to the boy who had fallen on top of me, "now who is this young lady huh?" His gaze landed on me.
"Oh, I'm Lily, Lily Evans" I said shyly. The boy with messy black still hadn't taken his eyes off of me and it was becoming unnerving.
"Jammmsie there you are!" a blond girl come up to the boy with messy black hair, I guessed jamsie must be a nickname for James. The blond girl had pulled his hand into hers. James pulled his hand away, which greatly upset the blond. I had spotted this and smirked to myself "James who is this?" she said in a jealous high pitch squeal pointing at me, when she noticed me smirking at her.
"Jenny, this Lily Evans." James answered all most in a dreamy voice.
"Well I want to go now!" the very agitated blond girl started to pull James away from where he was standing.
"Bye Lily, see you around I guess!" James's friend said as he followed the girl but James was still staring at me.
I turned to my parents "now honey do be careful and remember that we will always be proud of you no matter what!" my mother said starting to cry.
I kissed them and turned to my sister.
"Don't come back freak!" Petunia said with disgust.
"Now Petunia be nice"
------End flash back------
I looked out the window it was blurry because of the tears that were falling freely down my face I could make out people moving around.
James' point of view:
I came an hour early without Sirius, Peter or Remus. I really wanted to get to the head compartment early to ensure that I could make a good impression on the head girl. I didn't want her to get the wrong picture of me, whoever she may be! I had been thinking of who would be the head girl ever since I got the letter and the only girl I could think of was Lily Evans. I hope it is her, because then I could get to know her and maybe she would get to know me!
I was now standing in front of the head compartment and I saw the shadow of a girl sitting in the corner, I didn't want to disturb her so I opened the door slowly and tried not to make any noise. I looked to see the fiery red head sitting in the corner staring out of the window with tears falling down her face. She still looked horrible but she looked a bit 'healthier'. It was amazing even when she looked upset she still had an awe of beauty.
However I couldn't stand it; I couldn't stand seeing her in pain! I walked over to her and kneeled in front of her. I stayed there and she didn't object so I lifted my hand and wiped a tear away from her face. She rested her head in my hand but all of a sudden as though she had just remembered what she was doing she moved away. Using the back of her hand she wiped the rest of the tears way.
"So you head boy huh? Potter" she said so softly that if I had not been kneeling in front of her I wouldn't have heard.
"Yeh I guess I am, dunno what Dumbledore was on, but here I am" I said as a smile crept on her face but it was soon gone. I got up and sat down on the bench opposite her, she hadn't taken her eyes off of me. The silence in the room was starting to get tense and I know she wouldn't want to talk about what was troubling her so I asked the one question I've wanted an answer to for 6 years now "Lily why do you hate me so much?"
Lily's point of view:
I looked at him thinking it must have been just one of his arrogant questions but I saw the seriousness in his eyes. I sighed, this is going to be one psychotic year! I looked down at me hands "I don't hate you, well not really actually. Its just……" I looked up in to his eyes.
"It's just what?" he looked at me all most pleading me to go on
"Ever since that first time I saw you - you know when you landed on top of me – I-I-I…." I looked in his eyes and down again… oh god why is this so hard? "I liked you." There! I said it! He'll probably jump up and down saying he had finally got Evans to admit she likes him but went I looked up I saw confusion on his face.
"So why didn't you ever say yes when I asked you out?"
"Because every time you asked it wasn't sincere James, you would make a joke about it and then you would go off and snog some bimbo in your fan club!" I said as if that was the most obvious answer in the world "and I didn't want you to drop me like the rest of em" I finished with me head down….God why did I chose now to become shy!
"But I wouldn't have done that! I care about you Lily! I never cared about those other girls!" This time I looked start into his eyes and he stared back. "I don't know how I can convince you that you are defiantly not like any other girl and I would treat you differently Lily" he looked away and shifted in his seat… Merlin! James Potter is nervous!
"You're my flower" he whispered. There was silence again, but it was broken yet again by James "this is definitely not how I imagined our first meeting this year – you know – I imagined you would yell 'Potter You think you're funny, but you're an arrogant, bullying toerag'." I looked up to see how those words made him feel.
"I'm sick of fighting! I'm sick living in this stupid life where everyone we love dies!" I noticed that my arms were showing so I made to move them away from his sight, pulling my sleeves down. But James reflexes were too good from all the Quidditch. He grabbed my wrist (not painfully, but more gently) and slowly he pulled up my jumper sleeve to reveal three cuts up my arm.
James' point of view:
I breathed in deeply. How could she do something like that to herself? How could my Lily flower want to kill herself! I looked up into her watery emerald eyes. A single tear fell down her face. I wiped it away and pulled her into a tight hug she held on for dear life. I could feel more tears falling on my t-shirt but I didn't care. "Lily, tell me what happened?" I asked her in a concerned voice.
I sat there for the next half hour as she told me everything about her family and about the bloody Death Eaters that had killed her parents.
"And every time I feel a little happy I remember that I should be sad. And then I cut myself by accident first and I felt pain so I did it again and again" she finished. I noticed that she had gone through a whole box of tissues. "James I'm sick of this I don't want to be sad anymore," it felt good to hear her say my first name, it just rolled of her tongue as though it was just so natural for her to say.
"Well don't," I told her "I mean your parents are dead and you have grieved so now start healing, your parents will have wanted you to be happy. Lily they maybe gone from your sight but they're not go from your life, they are still here just not in person." She had stopped crying and looked up at me with a funny expression
"What?" her expression was kind of creeping me out.
"James Potter you are smarter then I though, actually you're quite different from what I though you were!"
"Arrrhh not the bullying, toerag, arrogant prankster you though I was then?" I said with a smile.
"Well the bullying, toerag and prankster yes but the arrogance still remains," she said with a smile "James do you want to start over? Friends?" at this my heart nearly jumped out of my chest Lily Evans wanted to be friends with me James Potter!
"Is that a rhetorical question, what do you think I would say 'hell no, I don't want to be your friend!' Of course I want to be your friend!" I said as the smile grew wider as she leaned in to hug me.
Lily's point of view:
It felt so good hugging James….James it sounded so nice to call him that instead of Potter. A smile grew on my face. I heard my mum's voice in my head 'give him a chance lily he seems so nice' well mum I think I might just take your advice.
Forty-five minutes later we had finished discussing most of the plans for the year.
"I think we need to go talk to the prefects and then we can go see our friends or hang!" I said looking at my watch to see what time it was. The prefect meeting was quite simple James did most of the talking and I helped out every now and then. We gave them there petrol times and they left in groups except for one of the girls. She was the Gryffindor prefect and was one of the bimbos in 6th year that worshiped the ground that James walked on.
"James! You look good" she said looking him up and down with a hunger expression. She put her hands around his neck but James pushed her off but she placed them there again but James again pushed her away. "James!" then she turned and saw me standing with my arms crossed "Oh James I get it now, you want to wait till that bitch gets out of the room...Evans woul…."
"Sarah don't you ever call her that!" James was getting angry.
"What? Evans?" she asked confused. Merlin save this girl! She really is a bimbo!
"No bitch. She is not a bitch, it's more like you're the bitch!" he said really getting angry now!
"Sarah you heard him, get the fuck out!" I said with great disgust. The glare that she gave me was hilarious. What was she trying to do? Kill me or something?
"Evans, you think that you are so good. That your shit don't stink! Just because you're popular and you have every guy after you! You know what? I think the Death Eaters did your parents a favor."
"How did you know about my parents?" I said going white.
"My dads head of death identification department. And it's only a pity you weren't there too so you could have died with them, because believe me all the girls would have be glad to get ride of you!"
I couldn't take it! I saw that James was about at the end of his thread if it had been a guy insulting me he would have been jinxed ages ago. But before I knew it, my feet were traveling by themselves and I raised my hand and punched her right in the nose as hard as I could.
James' point of view:
I was so shocked! I knew Lily had a temper but I did not know that she could throw a punch!
Sarah fell on to the floor. She was holding her nose crying how now she had a broken nose. Lily muttered a healing charm and pointed her wand at Sarah's nose. And with that she turned and walked out of the room….I watched her ass sway as she walked to the door. Merlin, she's sexy! 'James stop thinking about it its only going to make matters worse in the crotch area' just as she reached the doorway she turned to me.
"You coming or should I leave you alone with that trash?" even though she sounded angry I could see the smile on her face.
"Of course I'm coming with you!" and with that I step over Sarah and follow Lily out the door. Out in the corridor I turned to Lily "Lily Evans did you just punch someone?"
She smirked, "You know what James I think I did. I guess more of you rubbed of on me then I thought!"
"I guess so." I looked her over again. "Let's find our friends. They're probably together since last I heard they were dating each other!" I said and the look on Lily face was of confusion. Then it hit me Mel and Rose had not told her they had been dating Sirius and Remus! "Ummmm so they didn't tell you, did they?"
"Obviously not" she sighed, after a long pause she spoke again "was I that much of a bitch?"
"Of course not! We just didn't get a chance to know each other properly" I said softly to her.
"No I was. I only listened to the bad stuff people said about you and all the pranks you did. To think what you did for Remus. Merlin! You put your life on the line to help him out……I'm such a BITCH!" my jaw dropped! How did she know about Remus, and what we did every full moon
"Lily?"
"Yeh?" she asks staring in to my eyes.
"You know about Remus? You know about all of it?" I asked slightly uneasy, I didn't know how she would react.
"Yeh I've known about Remus since first year and I've known about you, Sirius and Peter since the end of four year."
"Oh! And you never told us? The amount of times I had to make up those fake excuses for all the scratches you know all along!"
"Yeh pretty much, it was cute seeing your face try to think up a good excuse!"
"Did you tell any one" I said more panicky. If she told someone I would be in a whole lot of trouble.
"What do you take me for James? I would never tell anyone, I'm not an idiot, and I know how people would react. Most people would be prejudice!" she said slightly annoyed that I would think so little of her.
"I just had to check so you are the only one that knows, right?"
"No, Mel and Rose know too, but before you get ideas they found out by all by themselves and no, they haven't told any one." I let out a breath, feeling relief that he wasn't mad and everything's finally out in the open.
Lily's point of view:
We continued through the train knowing that they would be in their usual compartment, the very last one at the back of the train. All the time I could sense the closeness between myself and James when our hands occasionally brushed up against each other and every time I would smile. We finally reached the end and opened the compartment to find Mel and Rose jumping out of the laps of Sirius and Remus.
"Lily we were just playing around, it's not like we like them or anything!" Mel said quickly and Rose nodded. I couldn't believe my friends they wouldn't tell me that they were dating people and further more they kept lying about it. I look at Sirius and Remus who were looking very hurt by what the girls had just said.
"Is that how little you think of me, fuck Mel! I expected better from you! And you Rose! You promised you would never lie to me! Great friends you are!" I yelled. I couldn't take it, I had already been through hell and now my friends were lying to me!
"Lily it's not as bad as it looks. You're over reacting really!"
"Yeh Rose is right Lily, it's no need for the swearing, its not like your parents died!" at the second that Mel had said it I took a sharp intake of breath and James moved in front of me and told every one to leave me alone but I pushed him aside.
"No it's not like my parents died because I already know how that feels. It hurts like hell but you lying to me is – is – is like a slap in the face!" I ran out of the room and I didn't stop running till I got to the head compartment. How could they do something like that? I would have been a bit upset that they were going out with Remus and Sirius well more Sirius, Remus is kinda like a brother to me. But I would have accepted it I'm not all together a bitch!
James' point of view:
"James what does she mean? 'She knows how it feels?'" Mel said worriedly
"Mel, Rose you might want to sit down!"
"James this is not time for your shit! Tell me now what she means now!"
"Mel, don't fucken loose your temper with me! You're the one who hasn't been there for her when she needed you and further more you lied to her!" I could feel the anger rising in me.
"We didn't tell her because she would have told us off or been angry!" Rose yelled at my face.
"Okay she may have been angry at you for 10 seconds but she would have gotten over it and you know it!" he paused.
"Why are you even standing up for her, after all she did to you she was a complete BI…"
"Don't you even say that about her, I'm warning you?"
"B.I.T.C.H…James she is a bitch!" I with all the rest of the guys along with Rose was completely shocked at Mel! She had just bad mouthed her best friend.
"Mel you want to know what she meant by it, well here's what she meant. Her parents were killed on the holidays, her sister has disowned her, she's stopped eating and has been cutting herself, and she has no one. And you ask me why I defend her after she has been mean to me well here's the thing, it's because I love her and she had reason to bad mouth me!" I turned out of the compartment. I couldn't believe Mel, she had some nerve. And had I just said what I think I said? Yes I had and it was true I did love Lily Evans with all my heart. I would do anything for her!
Compartment after James and Lily left:
Every one was shocked. The guys for one reason but the girls were shocked for three reasons. Remus and Sirius looked at each other, how could Lily go through that? She's the nicest girl they both know! Yes, she has had a few problems with James but she was still caring and considerate. The girls slid down the wall in a sitting position on the floor. How could they have not sent one letter to her asking how she was? How could they be so stupid? Lily would have been happy for them, that they had found someone that they liked! And further more James had said that he loved her, they had known he had a crush on her but they though it was nothing more than an infatuation!
"We should have sent her a letter; I mean I don't think I even thought about her while we were away!" Rose said.
"I'm so stupid! Stupid, stupid, stupid! Who was the one that was there when my parent divorced? Who was the one who helped me when Ben dumped me? Who has been there no matter what! Her, Lily Evans! And the one time she needs help I make things worse by thinking the world revolves around me!" Mel muttered as tears fell down her face.
"I think you need to talk to Lily ASAP because if you don't everything is going to get worse" Remus said in a soft voice.
"Yeh she needs you guys, your all that she has." Every one looked at Sirius at these words "it's not too late to repair things."
"You know what Sirius, for once your right" both Mel and Rose got of the ground and clean them selves up and head out the door to find Lily.
Lily's point of view:
I sat in the compartment by myself I didn't know what to think now. 'The two people I though were my friends were – were – were I don't know what they were. I don't know! I'm so lost I don't know what to think any more!'
James walked in to the room, he seemed to be angry and I had a pretty good idea what had happened after I ran out of the compartment.
I watched him as he paced back and forward in the compartment, he looked cute. My eyes traveled over his body he had certainly been working out or something because he was really tone. His t-shirt clung to his torso he looked so hot, no he looked sexy. Now I under stood why girls threw themselves on him. Lily what are you doing thinking about James like that? I should be thinking about my friends but all I could think of was what it would feel like to touch him or have him touch me. Did I just think that? Lily concentrate you have to figure what to do about your friends.
James finally sat down; he looked like he had something on his mind that was confusing him. I wonder what it is?
James point of view:
I love her! I lover her! Oh my god I'm 17 and I'm in love. I noticed that she was looking me up and down, is Lily Evans checking me out? Nah I cant have been she only wants to be friends, nothing more! I moved to the bench and sat down.
There was a knock on the door and I looked over at Lily "should I open it?" she shook he head and went back to looking out the window. Another knock came and I looked at the door for 2 seconds and went back to staring at Lily.
Mel's point of view:
I walked out of the compartment with Rose following right behind me. "Where would she be?" I asked Rose
"Well my guess would be the head compartment, which is up the front so we can pass all the other compartments and check while we go pass." I followed Rose as we made our way down the train checking for Lily's vibrant auburn hair. "I guess this is the head compartment." We had reached an oak door with frosted glass which had 'Head Compartment' in gold cursive writing. I reached for the handle but just as I was going to grab hold of it a squeaky girlish voice said "Password please!"
I looked a Rose and mouthed 'password?' "Excuse me miss, but we don't have one, can you just let us in?"
"Its really important" I pleaded
"Sorry, but no password no entry." she giggled
"Please we need to talk to the head girl. I promise it won't take long!"
"I would let you but I'm under tricked instruction from the Head Master not to let anyone in unless they have the password" she said sympathetically.
"Try knocking!" suggested Rose, I lifted my hand and knocked once. No one answered. I looked at rose and she shrugged. "Try again" so I knocked once more but still no answer.
"Maybe we will talk to her at the feast" Rose nodded and we walked back down the carriage.
Lily's point of view:
There was only one more knock and then if fell silent again. I looked over at James and to my surprise he was staring at me I blushed and turned my gaze back out side the window. 'Lily what's up with you? You've never blushed when James stared at you!'
He cleared his throat and I turned to look at him "we better change in to out school clothes because were nearly there."
I nodded and got up and stared to rummage through my trunk pulling out my skirt, shirt and robs. I started to lift my top off but I felt his eyes on me. "Ummmm may be we should turn around and take turns to change?" I said a bit unnerved by my situation.
"Yeh that's a good idea." He said huskily. He turned around, I pulled my top off and buttoned up my shirt, sliding of my jeans I picked up my skirt and stepped into it.
"You can turn around now" I said as I put my robes over the top of my shirt. I walked to the corner and turned around for him to change. But I couldn't help but peak.
He had pulled his t-shirt off he had clearly been working out over the holidays because he looked so hot. 'Lily take your eyes away' I said to my self 'I can't.' His tone body was tanned and smooth. As she swung the shirt around is body I could see the muscles tense and un-tense. He had buttoned his shirt up most of the way but he still had some chest showing.
He went to his jeans and undid his belt as well as his fly. He let them drop to the floor revealing his boxers that were white with love hearts all around. As I looked more closely I could see the front of his boxers seemed to be a bit tight. I blushed as bright as my hair and turned away it seemed to be getting really warm in the compartment. "I'm finished, you can turn around now," came his deep male voice.
I turned around still a bit flushed and stared right into his eyes, I blushed again and he smirked. 'Oh shit he knows'
James point of view:
She turned to look at me and found I was all ready focused on her she blushed and turned a way. I couldn't help but smile 'I had made lily blush!' the silence in the room was getting tense so I looked at my watch 'It's time to get changed.' I looked up and cleared my throat. "We better change in to out school clothes because were nearly there"
She nodded and got up to look through her trunk. I watched her every move as she lifted out a skirt, shirt and robes, she moved with such grace. Her hand reached the hem of her shirt 'Holy shit she going to pull of her top in front of me?' she stopped just as she was about to lift it up "Ummmm may be we should turn around and take turns to change?" 'So close'
"Yeh that's a good idea," my voice came out husky. I turned away to face the corner. 'One little peak couldn't hurt, could it?' I turned my head just to see her lift the shirt of her head. Her hair fell done her back away past her bra line. She had a push-up, black lace bra on. As she put her shirt on I could she her hips move they swayed as she pulled the shirt around her. I could feel it getting very hot in here and as she dropped her jeans to reveal a matching black lace g-string. I could feel my pants going very tight and it seemed to go from hot to boiling in the room. I couldn't look any more so I turned away. I tried to keep my breathing steady.
"You can turn around now" her sweet voice said as she walked to where I was standing. I moved over to where I had my clothes laid out. I pulled of my shirt and let it drop to the floor. Moved to pick up my shirt and as I did so I could see Lily's reflection in the window.
She let her eyes wonder up my body, I pulled my shirt on swinging it around me and did up the button not all the way though. I could still see her looking at me as I undid my belt and fly. I let them fall to the ground a moved slightly so I could see her face out of the corner of my eyes. Her eyes surveyed me favorite boxers and came to a stop at the front were I could still feel me having a hard on. Her eyes widened and she went as bright as her hair. She turned around and I finished getting dressed.
"I'm finished, you can turn around now." As she turned around she met my eyes, once again she blushed and I couldn't help but smirk at her.
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