Chapter Nine: Dirty Little Secret

Let me know that I've done wrong
When I've known this all along
I go around a time or two
Just to waste my time with you

Emma

"We have some good news for you today," the nurse said, smiling.

"Really?" I asked. Usually I had a different opinion than the doctors on what good news was.

"We took Oliver off the respirator last night and he is breathing on his own," she told me. A huge smile made it's way across my face. I hugged the lady and she just hugged me back. I guess she was just being nice and doing her job.

"Thanks," I said. I walked into the room and sat down next to Oliver, grasping his hand in mine. He almost looked a whole lot better because he had one less tube coming out of him.

"Hey Oliver, I guess you're doing better," I said. "I can't wait until you wake up and everything can go back to normal. I have to confess something that I haven't told you yet. I know that I mentioned a few weeks ago that Sean kissed me, but we talked and set everything straight. But the same thing happened over a week ago with Craig.

He was being a jerk so I kicked him in the balls. And when he was on the ground, he pulled me down and kissed me. Don't get all mad though. He was just fantasizing about us being a real family. But I set him straight, so don't worry. I explained that I'm in love with you and that I knew he was in love with Manny, and I told him that he needed to leave. So he's been gone for a week now, and I'm glad that he's not living at our apartment anymore, but at the same time, I'm a little sad because I'm just so lonely. I wish you would wake up and come home. I really miss you.

And never mind the whole love triangle thing; I'm in a friggin love pentagon! I guess Jay, Sean, and Craig all want to be with me to some degree, but all I want is you. I never thought that an ex-stripper turned car dealership girl/teenage mother could be so desirable. Well, I understand about the stripper part. But I'm sick of all this attention. I just want everything back to normal."

I looked at my watch. It was getting late, so I figured I should pick Danica up. Joey had me work all day because it was Halloween and there was no school. Dani stayed with my dad all day and she must be tired. It's already 8:00 and kids will be out trick or treating. I'm not sure if anyone will come through the apartments but I got candy just in case.

"Bye honey, I love you," I told Oliver. I squeezed his hand before standing up and kissing him softly on the lips. As I walked away, I heard a beeping sound. The beeping got louder and faster. I turned around and saw the monitor going crazy. "Something's wrong!" I yelled to no one in particular. I ran to the doorway. "HELP!"

Jay

"Will you two get a fucking room!" I yelled. I had just walked into my apartment, and there are Sean and Brooklyn, screwing on my couch. That's just disgusting. I dumped my bag of liquor on the kitchen table and sighed.

"We can't go to my place; Emma's parents are too nosy!" Sean yelled.

"Then go to a hotel or something!" I yelled right back.

"Trust me, if I had the money, I would." I heard Brooklyn giggle and then start moaning again. Great.

I grabbed the bag right back of the table, stormed into my bedroom, and slammed the door shut. I turned the stereo on and "Bound To Violence" by Hatebreed came blaring out of the speakers. I turned the music up even higher and lit a cigarette. Taking a long drag on it, I plopped down on my bed.

Okay, as much as I hated Sean and Brooklyn doing what they were doing, they had the right idea. I definitely need to get laid on Halloween. I sure as hell am not handing out candy. As soon as this cigarette is done, I'll go to a place where I know I can have a good time.

Emma

I can't believe it. They took him off the respirator and now he's right back on it. It was horrible, standing there and watching them work on Oliver while not being able to do anything to help. As soon as I knew he was going to be okay, I left. I picked Danica up and went home.

After I fed her and put her to bed, I got the candy ready for the trick or treaters. As soon as I set the bowl down next to the couch, the doorbell rang. I grabbed a handful of candy and opened the door.

"Oh…hey," I said. I was definitely surprised to see him.

"Can I come in?" he asked.

"Yeah, sure." I stepped aside and let Jay come in. Dropping the candy back in the bowl, I sat down on the couch. He placed a brown paper bag on the floor and sat down next to me. "What's up?" I asked, trying to make conversation. We hadn't talked in a while.

"Well, Sean and Brooklyn are on my couch…doing things…and I had to get out of there. Do you mind if I hang out here for awhile?" he asked.

"I don't care," I sighed. I tried to keep talking to him, but my mind kept wandering to Oliver.

"You okay?" he asked.

"Not really." I couldn't take it. I just burst into tears. "Oliver was taken off the respirator and then something happened, while I was right there. He stopped breathing and they had to put him right back on it. I thought things were going to get better, but they're not!" I rambled. Jay put an arm around me.

"Everything will get better, I promise," he told me. "I brought something that will at least let you have a little fun," he said. He pulled a huge bottle of vodka out of the bag. "How about I make us some drinks?" he asked.

"No thanks Jay, that stuff is disgusting," I said, shaking my head and wiping the tears off my face. "Besides, I don't need to get drunk with you. Only bad things would happen," I pointed out.

"Not if I'm getting drunk along with you. I brought some other stuff anyway." He pulled out some Bacardi Silver. "Just try it. I guarantee you'll like it. He opened the bottle with a bottle opener on his keys and handed it to me. I took it and stared at the bottle.

"Jay, I can't," I sighed.

"Trust me Emma, it'll at least make you forget about everything bad that's happening for a little while. Don't you want to have some fun?" he asked me.

"Yeah, I do, but I'm not sure this is the way to go."

"Taste it, we'll have some fun. I'm going to go make myself a Screwdriver. Got any orange juice?" he asked.

"Yeah. It's in the fridge."

Tell me all that you've thrown away
Find out games you don't wanna play
You are the only one that needs to know

Jay

Now this is what I'm talking about. I peered over my shoulder as I walked away. I saw Emma taste her drink. Then she took a big gulp of it. A smile crept up on my face as I walked into the kitchen.

I grabbed the orange juice out of the refrigerator. I was about to pour the vodka in my glass when I got an idea. Why should I get so drunk that I won't remember this in the morning? I poured just a little bit of vodka into the cup and added a whole lot of orange juice. It would be a very weak drink. And Emma won't know the difference. Before I went back into the living room, I poured some of the vodka down the drain so it looked like I used more than I really did.

When I sat back down on the couch, I noticed that Emma had already drunk about half of her bottle. Smiling, I took a sip of mine. It just tasted like orange juice, but I'll deal.

"Feeling better?" I asked her.

"A little, I guess," she said.

"Go ahead, have some more." She looked over at me skeptically, so I took a huge gulp of my orange juice. I winced a little to make it seem more convincing.

When we live such fragile lives
It's the best way we survive
I go around a time or two
Just to waste my time with you

Five bottles of Bacardi and three glasses of orange juice later, Emma was wasted and I was pretending to be. This is what I call fun. I never thought that precious little Emma Nelson would get drunk, but then again, people can really surprise you.

"You want that last bottle?" I asked her.

"No thanks!" she yelled for no reason. It was completely quiet in the room. Then the doorbell rang. "You want to get that, or should I?" she asked me.

"Just ignore it. The little kids don't need anymore candy," I told her. Then all of a sudden, she leaned over and kissed me. Hard. It felt so right. I mean, I know I shouldn't have gotten her drunk, but she is a great kisser. And I can't resist any girl. Especially not the one I love.

I was surprised that Emma wasn't puking her brains out yet. The girl really can hold her alcohol. Smiling, I pushed her down on her back and kissed her, shoving my tongue in her mouth. Her hands ran up and down my back, but then she pushed me off. I was about to protest but then she got up from the couch.

"I gotta pee!" she laughed, stumbling off to the bathroom.

"Hurry back!" I called after her. I got up and did what I knew I was going to. After throwing all the cushions off the couch, I pulled the bed out from inside. You gotta love pull-out couches. I noticed that there was already a fitted sheet on it, so I ran to the closet and got a blanket out. I threw it at the end of the bed and lay down just as Emma was getting out of the bathroom. She ran over to me and jumped on the bed next to me.

"You are so great Jay. You know just what I want," she said, jumping on top of me and kissing me. Just a few seconds later, she was reaching down and unzipping my jeans. I let her pull them off, and lay there in my boxers and t-shirt. She grabbed me through the boxers and I knew I had to have her. I rolled her over, putting myself on top, and pulled her skirt off.

As I pulled my shirt off, she took hers off too. So there we were, me in only my boxers, and her in her bra and underwear. She looked so beautiful, and I started to feel bad. I mean, I was taking advantage of her. But how can I pass this up? I love her, and she should love me back.

The way she feels inside
Those thoughts I can't deny
These sleeping dogs won't lie
And all I've tried to hide
It's eating me apart
Trace this line back

I shoved Emma down and began kissing my way down her neck, her stomach, and finally to the edge of her underwear. Instead of taking it off, I kissed my way right back up. She giggled and aggressively flipped me back over, resuming the top position.

Reaching behind her, I expertly unhooked her bra with one hand and pulled it off, throwing it aside. She smiled as I cupped a breast in my hand. We started making out again, and she finally found her way to my boxers. She pulled them off as fast as she could, and I grabbed her underwear and yanked. All of the clothes were pushed onto the floor and we were completely naked. I had never felt so exposed in my entire life.

What Emma did next really surprised me. Instead of switching positions, she climbed right onto my dick, shoving me inside of her. I groaned with pleasure and she laughed as she started bouncing up and down. It was the greatest night of my life. I love Halloween.

Shortly after we finished having sex, Emma and I were making out again. Our tongues were tangled together as she lay there on top of me. My hands were traveling all over her body, and I was in heaven.

We rolled one more time, and I was on top again. I grinned at her and she smiled. That smile tempted me. I shot her a questioning glance and she nodded. Pressing my body onto hers, I slipped myself inside of her once more, and we were at it again. Pumping in and out, Emma and I moaned together as our bodies met in pure ecstasy.

I'll keep you my dirty little secret
(Dirty little secret)
Don't tell anyone or you'll be just another regret
(Just another regret, hope that you can keep it)
My dirty little secret
Dirty little secret
Dirty little secret
Who has to know

A/N: This chapter takes place on Tuesday, October 31. Okay, this might sound stupid, but I don't live in Canada so I don't know if they celebrate Halloween or not. In case they don't, in this fic they do. I just wasn't sure. Oh and as for the Hatebreed song, I'm not completely positive that's the name of it, but it's on the XXX soundtrack…the movie with Vin Diesel. Anyway, I thought it might be something Jay would listen to. Anyone surprised at what just happened? Jay's a naughty boy. The song is "Dirty Little Secret" by the All American Rejects. Hope you liked the chapter. I wanted to keep things interesting.

TemporaryxInsanity: I'm happy to know that it was your favorite chapter because that tells me that it wasn't as horrible as I thought it was. I just thought people would be like: ok...and? Anyway, thanks for all your reviews!

WishinWell43: I don't think they'd be icky together, but I just have different ideas for them. I think that at a time, in the past, they would have been better together, but now (on the show) it wouldn't work out.

JemmaFan: Thanks! Your review was awesome. Sorry it's taken me so long to update!