Disclaimer : I don't own the characters ..and the song ain't mine either , the song belongs to Ace of base .

Chapter 2 : We just can't

I know I'm not the first one
You have love in the path before me
But when your lips touches my lips
It felt like I was kissing destiny

Haruka's POV ..

Even though i love Michiru very much , we can't do this . It's wrong , so damn wrong . I see her eyes are watering up and i can feel my heart break . Why can't i ever do something right ? What should i do now ? She needs an explaination , doesn't she ?

'' What's wrong ? '' She asked me sobbing at the same time .

Why is this so hard for me . You wanna know what's wrong Michi ? We are both women , that's what is wrong . I know you'll tell me you don't care and that all that is important is that we love eachother , but the truth is ... It ain't that easy Michi , it is so much more diffucult than you could ever imagine , we wouldn't last long eventually .

'' Ruka ? '' She now cries afraid that she did me wrong by kissing me . And i can't blame her . She shouldn't have kissed me . And i shouldn't have kissed her back . I close my eyes for a second before turning away from her and started to walk .

'' Ruka !'' She repeats , sounding more desperate by the minute . I guess i had just lost my friend . And why ? Because i'm too weak ...

'' I'm sorry Michiru .'' I whisper knowing she could hear me .

'' Please ..talk to me .'' She begs .'' Don't walk away ..please Ruka .''

I stop there , I just stood there still not facing her .

Angel eyes with your angel eyes
Will you always be there to hold me
Angel eyes I'm satisfied
I don't want to hear your story
'Cause I can see the things
I really want to see
I'm in love

I hear her sigh in relieve and that was when i turned around . Her eyes were red from her crying and still tears were streaming down her face .'' What did i do wrong ? I thought you loved me too ..? I mean you said those things to me ...I mean about ..you know...when you guessed my thoughts .''

'' Damn Michi , you know i always am flirting with you , why would you take it that serious ! '' I yell . I know she's right . I started this whole thing .

'' Well it's your fault then , because your damn flirting made me lose it ! I tried to keep my emotions away from you but whenever you'd say a sweet and caring thing to me a part of that barrier i made around my emotions dissapeared ... I love you Haruka .'' She whispered the last part but i could hear it . Those words were louder to me then any other ever could be .

'' You ..love...me ?'' I ask . I didn't know what else to say . Sure i loved her too but i never expected my feelings to be returned by her so i never had the chance to think about...well Something like this happen .

'' Yeah you Haruka ! I love you ! What are you going to do about it ? Just turn around again and walk away ? Or are you going to give me a chance to prove to you i can't be the one for you .'' She sounds so helpless , so lost . But what should i do ? Maybe i should just forget the past and start all over again , with her .

'' I love you too , Michi but ...'' I hesitate . She isn't going to like this .

'' But ? '' She asked while her tears were still falling down her face .

'' But we can't be together Michiru , we are too different it would never work . I'd probaly hurt you .''

'' You never hurt me before ...'' She cried walking over to me . She wanted to hug me and comfer me . I shouldn't let her , should i ? But when her head hits my shoulder softly and she started to cry louder i couldn't take it anymore . She shouldn't be crying like this . I could hear her ragged breath , It was the sound of someone lost and confused . I hated it . I wish she would stop crying .

I believe in what I'm feeling
I'd give everything up just for you
Love is devoted to those who see
That the last dance, you dance with the truth

'' I'm hurting you now .'' I say while i put my arms around her feeling angry with myself . I shouldn't act this way , I shouldn't let my feelings stand in the way . But i can't find it in my heart to push her away .

'' Well ...you...can always ...say ...'' She sobs and suddenly i feel a hot tear slide down my cheek . Damn Am i crying ? Why ? Stupid question ..i know why . We all know why i am crying !

'' Maybe you should go home .'' I whisper and sofly tried to pull back but her grip on me was too stong . She wasn't going to let me leave this position . Maybe only for tonight i could hold her , tomorrow will never be the same . If i tell her now ...she'll die . I can't love her .

'' I'm not going anywhere until you tell me why you can't be with me ! ''

I sigh loudly hoping she would just leave me alone . Should i tell her the truth ? She deserves to know .

'' Because ...'' I can't say it . I haven't accept it myself either .'' Because ...I'm sick Michi .'' It was out ! I finally said it . She lets go of me and watched me with those blue eyes , I wish i could drown myself in .

'' You are sick ...Ruka ...what exactly do you mean by that ...? She's confused but i know deep in her heart she knows what it meant .

'' I'm dying Michiru ...The docters told me i maybe only had a week .'' I answer her , letting my tears fall .

'' No you...can't ...what about me Ruka ? '' She asked me . Ah here we go with the guilt talk . I had always flirted with her in the hope she'd be mine some day . But when i heard i wasn't going to make it till that time i gave up . This couldn't be happening . I don't want to die . I don't want to leave her behind . But do i have a say about all of this? No i don't Michiru . But i'll love you wherever i am .

'' You should go now Michiru .'' I said and she nodded . I guess this was goodbye then . I will miss you Michi ...I wish i could say that to you . She walked away from me to the hallway . She turned to look at me one last time before she dissapeared , She just left me . '' Goodbye Michi ...''

I fall on the couch crying loudly . Why ? It was the only question repeating itself in my head . Why ? I close my eyes trying to imagine how life would be without her by my side . But again . I was right . I hurted Michiru ...'' Forgive me Michi . Maybe in another life ...I hope ...'' I felt guilty . Why did i have to flirt with her . She was the only one i ever cared about . And now i had to leave her .

Angel eyes just want you here to hold me

Setsuna sat on a chair in her own house her eyes were closed but after awhile they flew open . '' It isn't your time yet , Tenoh . You belong to Michiru , we both know .'' She smiled and stood up holding her henshin into the air before screaming : '' Pluto planet power Make up ! ''

R&R I hope you liked this chapter ...I tried hard to make it worth reading even though most of you maybe think it's boring . Well for those who wanna know what's going to happen next ...Review and i'll update . That's a good deal isn't it ! Anyway i think this chapter was kind of sad . The last chapter is almost done ...so hold ya horses and review !