Lost, crazy, out there, out of touch
I think I'm losing it now
And everything is crashing down
I don't know what do , what to do
What to think
What do feel
I'm slipping, losing my touch
I'm losing all senses
I'm caught between wanting things to change
And hoping they never do
Steady on now, I try to stay steady
For days gone by and days to come
And I want to live just for now
Father your crushed me
Ruined me with your broken promises
Mother you lost me, let me go
I'm slipping, losing my touch
I'm losing all senses
I'm caught between wanting things to change
And hopin they never do
Steady on now, I try to stay steady
For days gone by and days to come
And want to live just for now
Stop world look at me
Don't leave me now
I'm a lost little girl, afraid of the dark
Don't leave me, don't loose me
Touch me
I want to feel
I'm slipping, losing my touch
I'm losing all sense
I'm caught between wanting things to change
And hopin they never do
Steady on now, I try to stay steady
For days gone by and days to come
And I want to live just for now
Broken hearts
Just trying to pick up the pieces
And trying to go on
Steady on now
The last chords of the acoustic guitar strummed out slowly and there was silence in the studio as Tommy and Kwest stared in amazement. Jude too, in the background was amazed. The girl had performed her first ballad for them and it was heartwrenching. It really was. Jude was amazed at how Danni made that work. None of it rhymed, there was no syllable patterns and yet they way she sang it, it worked. Her voice slipping over the words, from high soprano to a tenor. On the acoustic guitar it was just right. Jude was talented, this girl was genius, a true musician dedicated deeply to her craft. Everytime Jude saw her the girl had a pad of paper, a pen, and a guitar in case some inspiration came to her. It made her feel inferior just to watched the dark eyed beauty perform. Finally Kwest came out of the trance first and punched Tommy in the arm. Tommy gave a little jolt and nodded his head.
"That was great Danni. Come on out we'll let Jude have a turn."
Danni smiled and walked out holding the neck of her guitar. She floated by, her head held high and proud with confidence as smile on her lips. Jude got up too and walked past her. When they got with in speaking range of eachother Jude acknowledged her.
"I liked the song." she said politely.
"Thank you! I read some of the lyrics you gave Tommy. They were wonderful." Danni told her in her soft, low voice. The girl might have come off as mischievious and seductive but she was nothing of the sort. In fact Jude had learned that Danni was a complete sweetheart. That made Jude even more mad. It was almost like having her sister around in the studio. Beautiful, perfect, the center of attention. Except for the fact that Sadie could be such a bitch and Danni wasn't anything of the sort. It was all so frustrating. Jude had expected the new Instant Star to be like her, scared, in need of a lot of pointers, a little overwhelmed. But Danni seemed perfectly cool and in place, as if she was born to do this. Ignoring her frustrations Jude went into the spot that Danni had just vacated. Through the glass she could see Tommy and Kwest both shaking the girl's hand and talking to her with big smiles though Jude couldn't hear what they were saying. Danni was smiling too before sitting down and settled her dark eyes on Jude who shifted a little uncomfortable under her steady gaze. Tommy turned his attention back to Jude and smiled brightly making her stomach do a little flip.
"Ok Jude let's hear it." he said into the little microphone and she was glad to oblige. She launched into a fast melody, playing with the keys, making new and edgy sounds. Jude smiled, enjoying the attention being on her once more as she looked down at her guitar, tendrils of red hair falling into her face. It seemed that no matter what she was always pushed out of the spotlight. First by Sadie, then by Eden, by Shay, and by Tommy even. And now Danni was threatening to do the same and Jude couldn't handle it.
I wanted to be by your side
I never wanted to hide, away from you
But you pushed me away, no you threw me away
And there's nothing I could do
I thought you had me under your wing
I thought you would protect me from everything
But life...it doesn't go that way
And you threw me away
Walls, you put up so many walls
I can never get around them
You've stumbled, you've had your falls
But you know, you never seem to reach the end
Jude stopped when she realized that the rest of her lyrics weren't good. For some reason she didn't want to sing them. Tommy and Kwest looked confused and Tommy pushed the little button and spoke into the mic.
"Um Jude. That was good but really short."
She shook her head indicating that she had nothing to say, then she pulled her guitar back over her head and went out to where the others were sitting. Tommy was on his feet, approaching her looking both frustrated and worried. He caught her by the shoulders and shook her a bit as to wake her up from whatever she was thinking. Jude looked up into his eyes and just sort of stared.
"What's going on Jude?" he asked, his voice hushed so the other's couldn't hear him. But Jude just stared for a moment before pushing him away and turning to leave.
"I can't, it isn't good enough!" she cried out as she stormed off. Suddenly she felt this need for perfection like never before. It was probably from hearing Danni's song and Danni's voice. Seeing her damned self confidence, walking around like she was queen. God! It was starting to grate on poor Jude who felt like she couldn't measure up. She shot a look over her shoulder and saw Danni there, stand at Tommy's side and saying something to him, reassuring him it seemed. Jude screamed a little in anger and was out of G Major in a heartbeat. She was going to head home and write something to knock that perfect girl off her feet. Jude now had a proclaimed enemy, one much more formidable than Eden ever was. Because unlike Eden, Danni actually had talent. They were playing a whole new game now.