Author's Note: I know, I know, it has taken too long to get this last chapter out. But between handling my mother, the Christmas Nazi, and the NYC bus strike making me walk everywhere, it has been hard. I wanted the last chapter to be good but I don't know if it is. Anyway thanks for all of you that read the story and left Reviews. I did enjoy writing it and I hope you enjoyed reading it. Anyway here is Chapter 10. Thanks.
Chapter 10
It's been a while since I wrote in this book. My life has change a lot I must say. My name is Martin Brewer and these past years have been a learning experience for me. I know I wrote to you about my daughter. Yeah she is 6 years old right now starting the first grade which she is excited about for some reason. Yes she is very excited that is all she has talked about for the past few months. It is driving me up the wall but I do love seeing my daughter happy. After the whole trail Ruthie had insisted that Lillian get professional help as well. It has worked too. I mean she does get a random nightmare here and there but it has calmed down a lot since.
Right now you are wondering why I choose to write in this journal. I guess the explanation is simple. I felt this is the day that my life as come full circle. I mean it's amazing to think about it. This day was the day that I kissed Ruthie Camden for the first time. This was the day that I final told her that I loved her that I will always love her. I mean it's important you know. It's important because this day even though sometimes painful was one of the most monumental days of my life. It was the day that I finally admit to myself that I, Martin Brewer was in love with this angel. Yes I said Angel because that is what she is to me. I guess you are wondering what these last 4 years have been like with Ruthie. Well let me break it down for you.
Flashback………………….
4 years ago:
Ruthie and Martin was sitting in their living room. It was just a random day really. They had gone to school and picked up Lillian afterwards.
"Lillian eat your peas", said Martin.
He rolled his eyes when she gave the peas a disgusted look. Ruthie giggled.
"Oh baby you know that peas will make you strong and that means that you will live a long time and be with me and your dad forever, don't you want that?", asked Ruthie.
Lillian smiled and dug into her peas. Martin shook his head. Ruthie was so good at this.
"SO Ruthie when are you going to make an honest man out of me and marry me", said Martin smiling.
Ruthie smiled also.
"Christmas, Martin, Christmas", said Ruthie smiling.
Martin smiled too.
"Christmas it is", said Martin kissing her forehead.
The next couple of months had been hectic trying to get the marriage plan underway.
"Mom I'm not going to make my bridesmaids wear green", said Ruthie rolling her eyes and sighing.
Her mother was driving her up the wall with this but she knew that her mother just wanted what was best fro her.
"Alright baby what color do you want then?", asked Annie.
"Red, I want a red and white wedding. Roses have to be red and white", said Ruthie.
Annie nodded her head smiling.
"So how has school been going?", asked Annie.
"Great mom, I finally decided what I want to do", said Ruthie smiling.
"Well what is it?", asked Annie.
"Well I know it sounds a little out of character for me, but I want to be a social worker, I want to help children that have been abandoned", said Ruthie smiling.
"No Ruthie that job seems really into character, and very much a Camden tradition", said Annie smiling obviously proud of her daughter.
"What about Martin?", asked Annie.
"Ironically even though he loves baseball that's not what he wants to do, he wants to be a lawyer, and also deal with family affairs, he wants us to work together to make sure that the foster care system is working right, that adoption agencies place children correctly, everything mom", said Ruthie smiling.
"SO he would deal with the legal aspect while you deal with the personal aspect", said Annie.
"Yes exactly", answered Ruthie.
"Ruthie, I don't know if I ever say it enough, but me and your father are so proud of you, I mean you have stepped up and have become a wonderful mother, you will have an excellent career, and be a great wife to a man that loves you. It has been what me and your father has always wanted. I am so proud of you", said Annie with tears in her eyes.
Ruthie was crying as well. She hugged her mother. Today was a great day. It was however only one of the many great days that she would enjoy though.
Christmas Day……….
"Are you nervous?", asked Mac smiling at his friend. He knew what a long journey it took for Martin to get here marrying the love of his life.
"No I'm not, I always hoped that I would you know. I love her and she is marrying me", said Martin in awe.
He still got butterflies whenever he thought about it. Ruthie Camden was marrying him.
Martin walked and saw Lucy standing in front of the church. She was going to marry them. Eric Camden wanted to play the role of the father giving his daughter away. The church was beautifully decorated with white and red roses like Ruthie wanted. The men were in black tuxes with a red or white rose in their lapel. Martin smiled when he heard the first chord of a song that Ruthie picked out. Ruthie had picked her brother's and sisters to walk in the ceremony. Martin had a huge smile on his face. Nothing could ruin this day for him. It was the day he would marry Ruthie Camden. Martin looked up. It was time.
(I do swear that I'll always be there. I'd give anything
and everything and I will always care. Through weakness
and strength, happiness and sorrow, for better, for worse,
I will love you with every beat of my heart.)
Kevin walked in with Annie. However Kevin only had eyes for his wife. He was remembering the day he married his soul mate. Martin smiled when she smiled at him. His heart was beating fast. Mac stood proudly next to him. His smile was wide. He couldn't stop smiling.
From this moment life has begun
From this moment you are the one
Right beside you is where I belong
From this moment on
Next came in Matt and Sarah. Matt gave him a nod telling him to take care of Ruthie. He nodded back telling Matt that he would. Sarah was glowing because well she was expecting.
From this moment I have been blessed
I live only for your happiness
And for your love I'd give my last breath
From this moment on
What was shocking was Mary. She came to the wedding telling everyone that she was pregnant with Carlos's baby once more and that they decided to fix their marriage. She walked the aisle smiling at Martin. Carlos could only smile at his wife.
I give my hand to you with all my heart
Can't wait to live my life with you, can't wait to start
You and I will never be apart
My dreams came true because of you
Simon walked in next. Ironically he wasn't with Rose but rather with his old girlfriend as well as Martin's old girlfriend Cecelia. It was apparent that they were back together again. Simon held her arm tightly walking towards them.
From this moment as long as I live
I will love you, I promise you this
There is nothing I wouldn't give
From this moment on
Charlie as well as his daughter came in after, in between them was Happy the dog decorated with roses as well. Everyone in the church was smiling and chuckled when they saw Happy. Happy walked proudly down the aisle. Martin felt the tears coming down his face. He loved his little girl. He saw the proud look on Carlos as well as Mary's faces when they saw Charlie. He knew that it was the same look on his face when he saw Lillian. Mac placed a hand on his shoulders. Martin looked up and the world stopped.
You're the reason I believe in love
And you're the answer to my prayers from up above
All we need is just the two of us
My dreams came true because of you
His heart beat harder in his chest. She was beautiful. Her white dress. Her veil covering her raven hair. She was simple but perfection. The tears came down unchecked down his face. Ruthie the love of his life. She was walked slowly down the aisle with her father. Eric was holding tightly to her arm with his eyes filling up with tears. This was his last little girl. When she reached him. Martin was holding on by a thread. The tears were flowing down his face. She smiled at him giving him her famous smiles. Eric looked at Martin gave him a hug and placed Ruthie's arm into Martin's arm and kissed her cheek before taking a seat next to his crying wife. They both face front. Lucy gave them a smiling trying to hold onto her tears as well.
From this moment as long as I live
I will love you, I promise you this
There is nothing I wouldn't give
From this moment
I will love you as long as I live
From this moment on
Shania Twain From this Moment.
To Ruthie and Martin the wedding was a blur. All Martin could feel was Ruthie gently running her thumb against his palm. He only looked up when Lillian ran towards them begging to be picked up. Ruthie did that without any consideration for her dress. Ruthie just kissed her forehead as Lillian leaned her head against her shoulders. Martin held tighter to Ruthie's hands smiling. He smiled when she repeated her vows, he smiled when she placed the ring on her finger, and he most of all he smiled when she said "I do".
"You may kiss you bride Martin", said Lucy smiling.
Martin looked at Ruthie and bent his head taking her lips. He felt stars go off in his head, his heat pounded faster. Oh yeah this was the life.
"I present to you Mr. and Mrs. Martin Brewer", said Lucy.
Cheers went up. Ruthie smiled and she grabbed Martin's hand while carrying Lillian and they as a family walked down the aisle.
End of Flashback…………………….
You see that was one of the best days of my life. Ruthie Camden became my wife. I don't even remember the reception. I remember the honeymoon though. I made love to my wife gently and slowly. I came apart when she was reaching her climax and she locked eyes with me biting her lips sweat on her forehead and she exhaled my name slowly. I breathed in the word and felt my world come apart. She made me come undone totally. She gave me her soul that night. I'm convinced. She transferred her soul to mine. Our souls met up that night. Nothing can ever convince me otherwise. She had given me her heart and body, but that night on her honeymoon she gave me her soul and I gave her mine as well.
"Martin", yelled Ruthie.
Martin closed her journal running to the room.
"It's time", cried Ruthie holding the wall.
Martin looked down at the puddle of water on their bedroom floor and looked up to her round belly.
"It's time", said Martin grabbing Ruthie's arm.
Martin was panicking.
After a crazy ride to the hospital, getting pulled over by a cop, Martin almost forgetting Ruthie in the car, twins Eve Ruthie Brewer and Adam Martin Brewer came screaming into the world. They were the love of their parents lives. Their older sister Lillian smiled and played with their fingers telling them promising them really that she would always share her toys with them and protect them.
Well that is my story, I showed you my life and I think is time that I stop writing in this journal. I think that this journal has come full circle as well. I'm glad that I wrote in this book. At the time I needed it to express what I was feeling but now I am only feeling one thing. I am Martin Brewer and I must say that I'm totally and utterly just happy.
Martin closed his journal and walked to his children's bedroom that were waiting with his wife to read to them their favorite bed time story. Ruthie smiled at him.
"I love you Martin", whispered Ruthie.
"I love you Ruthie", answered Martin.
And that was all that mattered.