You still give me looks sometimes, like you're sorry.

But I knew it, I knew what I was getting myself into.

I knew that you belonged with her, everybody knew that.

Even Pavarati asked what I was trying to accomplish.

-He's in love, she used to say, but not with you and you know it.

I don't know what I was trying to accomplish, why I spend so much energy in this relationship a relationship that was doomed to fail.

Maybe I wanted you to look at me like you look at her.

Maybe I just wanted you to like me for who I am, you see many boys don't really like to know me, just use me.

And you too I guess, you were just like them.

You just wanted the experience because she had it with that quidditch player,

and if I'm going to be honest I don't think she did anything with him.

But I let you use me for revenge and I don't know why.

Why do I let boys play with my heart, stab it, burn it, split it, pound it, puncture it, drown it and melt it?

My heart wasn't hole before you came along it broke years ago, to much strain I suppose.

I been that girl, that girl you can use ,the slut.

I don't want to be that girl.

I don't want to be the dumb, superficial, weak and sleazy girl.

I want to change, I'm going to change.

Maybe try to focus more on my studies, but not to be more like her so that you would like me, I know it's a lost cause.

I'm going to say no to the boys , all the cute no-good boys or the boys who try to revenge their last girlfriend or the ones like you, the lost causes.

I promise you Ronald Weasley that I Lavender Brown is going to change.

But not because of you.

Because of me.

I'm going to find somebody mark my words. Probably not tomorrow ore next week but someday I'm going find a man who love me for the sweet and positive person I am.

So you can have Granger I don't care, well I would if you dumped her for another slut.

You really fit together. She makes you do better and you make her lose up, it's a perfect match.

So don't lose her, don't give up when things get rough, you know they will and don't mess up you are likely to do that, but try not to. She's worth it.

Cause she's the one for you it's written in the stars I know I have top marks in Professor Trelawneys class. And I knew that you where not the one for me but I always have a special place in my heart for you, because you made me come to strong realisations.

Love Lavender.

Lavender read through her letter once more, she checked some spelling mistakes, she put the lid on the ink and put her quill down. She carefully put the letter in the envelope and sealed it.

She looked over the envelope once more before she decided to write the address, it seemed more real that way she thought before throwing it into the fire and she watch it burst in to flames before heading up towards her room just to glance once more at the fire before taking the final step.

In her dormitory she couldn't help but to take a look at the sleeping know-it-all thinking she was lucky, but things wasn't looking so bad for Lavender either she was full of hope to change, be better and meet somebody and that made her go to bed with a smile on her face.