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A/N If Italics is used it will either be a dream sequence or a journal entry.
Chapter One
She looked so beautiful sitting there in the front yard with the sun glittering on her long blonde hair. I thought not wanting to interrupt her peacefulness but at the same time wanting her to be excited with me. "Sadie come in here I want you and Mom to hear the new song Tom – err I mean I finished last night" I said excitedly trying not to mention the dreaded "T" word that would inevitably make Sadie stomp off in a huff. "Oh Jude I will be there in about a ½ an hour."
"Sadie can't you just forget about yourself for a damn minute and do this one thing for me." I replied just a bit hurt that my sister didn't want to rush in and hear the song. "But Jude the sun is just right." She whined at me as she rolled over and closed her eyes. "Thanks Sadie. With a sister like you it makes me wish I was an only child." I retorted nastily. I'll go upstairs and work on the new song I've been playing around with I thought as I walked to my room. As I reached for the door knob I heard the blood curdling scream and then the horrific screech of metal on metal and then the crash of shattering glass.
I woke up startled by what I had just dreamed. "Oh my god that was some dream." I said out loud to no one in particular as I looked around the room. It was then I realized that I didn't recognize the room. Panicking I jumped out of the bed and ran for the door just as it opened. "Hey girl I was just coming to see if you were up yet. Did you sleep well You where a bit out of sorts when you came home last night. Where did you go?" he said as he reached out to pull me into a warming hug.
"Tommy, what the hell are you doing?" I cried frantically trying to push him away from me. He looked at me confused, "Trying to give my beautiful wife a hug! What's the matter with you Jude?" he replied exasperated. Her mood swings were really starting to try his patience.
"Your wife!" I yelped "Tommy you are my producer you're my sister's ex-boyfriend not to mention I'm way too young for you remember?" I said with deliberate venom in my tone. Tommy just collapsed on the bed hysterically laughing "Oh that's rich Jude! Are you trying to be a stand up comic now too?" Not bothering to hide his amusement.
"You're really are starting to piss me off Quincy. You say that like I do so many other things besides write and sing" I said to him now I was getting scared. This didn't make any sense to me. The laughter in his eyes quickly dimmed as genuine concern and then fear flicked through them. "Jude, are you really serious?" he asked as he got up and crossed the room to where I had backed myself into a corner. Real smooth Harrison now he's got you cornered I thought to myself when I realized what I had done. I sank down onto the floor and sighed
"Tommy I am deadly serious. The last time I checked I was Jude HARRISON not QUINCY and we were in the studio recording "Saved" and it just didn't sound right so we were going to dig deep until it did" I told him in all honesty.
Fear took hold of his heart and gave it a tight squeeze. "Jude that was 5 years ago, you really can't expect me to believe that you have totally forgotten the last 5 years." He said on a long sigh as he reached his hands down to me I instinctively reached my hands into his. That's when I noticed the ring.
It was a beautiful 18 karat white gold princess cut diamond with 2 rows of 8 smaller princess cut diamonds on both sides and the matching wedding band glittering on my left hand. I felt like reality punched me in the gut and I jumped up in a panic. "Tommy please help me. What's going on? This has got to be a mistake I mean not a mistake, I mean it's what I always dreamed but it's wrong. You were with Sadie" I said with tears streaming down my face. I searched his eyes for the answers that he always had for me but they weren't there. I only saw pure and naked fear and pain.
The pressure had hit him in the chest and knocked him to his knees and with tears in those beautiful eyes he said "Jude call call an ambulance" he told me trying hard to breathe and clutching his chest.
"9-1-1 what's your emergency?" the operator squawked in my ear. "I need an ambulance to um to to" I stuttered frantically "Miss please calm down and give me your location" she said to me calmly
"I don't know where the hell I am" I wailed at her hoping she could shed some light on that little situation since by now Tommy had passed out. "Please, please send someone I think he's having a heart attack and he's not conscious" I pleaded with her.
"Ok miss we are tracing the call to get the location what's happened to your friend? What is your name?" The operator asked trying to soothe me. I was staring at the rings on my left hand as I answered her. "Jude Harri um Quincy and he's he's um Tommy my husband and he was having chest pain I think and he couldn't breathe and he passed out." I rushed out in one breath hoping that she could understand gibberish.
"Ok Mrs. Quincy My name is Gail and we have your location and the ambulance has been dispatched it should be there shortly just stay on the line with me until they get there ok hon?" she said calmly. How the hell could she be so calm Tom Quincy I mean THE TOM QUINCY could be dying in front of me an this woman was calm.
Just then I heard the sirens approaching "Oh thank god I hear them coming" I told her minutes later there was a banging on the front door and a booming voice shouted "Mrs. Quincy? Paramedics were coming in." and then I heard them coming in and trying to find us. "In the bedroom" I yelled back and dropped the phone and the very calm Gail who had be cooing and soothing me the whole time.
As I rode in the ambulance Tommy came to. While I had a million and one frantic thoughts running through my head trying to figure out what was happening to him and to me. "Hold my hand girl. Please I am so scared." Tommy said laboring to breath despite the oxygen mask over his very pale face.
This couldn't be happening Tommy is the strong one he's the one that's supposed to hold my hand to take away my fear. "Oh Tommy don't be scared they're going to help you you'll be alright" I said to him hoping it was true as we pulled up to the hospital with my tears flowing freely I prayed that I wouldn't lose the one and only true love I have ever had and the only one I wanted.
As they rushed Tommy into the ER they told me to go and give the nurse any information I could at the desk in the waiting room and after they checked Tommy out someone would come and get me. I gave the triage nurse what information I could and sat down in one of those uncomfortable hideously colored plastic chairs that emergency rooms tend to have. I sat there for what seemed like days and cried.
I must have fallen asleep from crying so much because it was over 2 hours later when a nurse shook me and told me I could come in and see him. I rushed to his side crying with relief when I saw him sitting up his eyes lighting up as he saw me. "Oh Tommy are you alright? What did they say? When can we go home? Why didn't the Doctor talk to me? Where is he? What happened to you?" I questioned him in rapid fire succession. "Whoa girl slow down. To answer your questions, I'm fine thanks to you. They told me I need to relax and not get so stressed out. In about an hour. He went to talk to you but you were sleeping and you looked exhausted so he let you sleep. He'll be back in a couple of minutes. And finally I had an anxiety attack." He finished hoping that he got the answers in the right order.
I let out a loud sigh as though I had been holding my breath "whew you had me really scared Quincy" I said punching his arm lightly. "I could say the same to you Jude. As soon as we get home we have got to talk." He told me. "I know" I said weakly. I was afraid of what he was going to tell me about the last 5 years of my life. I mean what could have been so horrific that I would mentally wipe away 5 years to protect my own sanity?
That's all for now. Please let me know what you think.