NOTE!
I realized something, for my story to come out right, I must tell you all that this story takes place a few months before Sasuke leaves. Okay? Okay, good, now on with the story!
Chapter Six: Pains of the heart
December 24
So yea, it's been awhile since Sasuke has come home. I went to the Hokage the other day and found out he was on a mission. He still owes me dinner. Right now in my world it's Christmas Eve. I really don't think I care because it's stupid. I hate holidays. My family doesn't give a shit about me.
Shiro and Kuro say that I might be able to activate the dimension traveling thing soon. I wander when I'll leave here. I mean, it's kind of like home anyways. No one knows what's going through my head, no one understands, no one cares. When I told Kuro and Shiro that, they said that Sasuke did. He watched over me when I was unconscious. And it was him that tried to defend me when I was getting kidnapped by the Akatsuki. It was him who danced with me on Tsunade's birthday.
I guess its okay that he cares. Although, I've learned that depending on people too much is bad. Because when you fall and the ones you depend on aren't there to catch you…it hurts a lot more than the fall itself.
I guess I should finish up here. I want to go out for a walk. Clear my head, not talk to the crazy voices in my mind.
Kuro and Shiro told me that they could read my emotions, thoughts, and feelings, and so they told me…
I love Sasuke.
I put up my diary and went to change my clothes. I wore something…normal looking.
I wore and orange long sleeved shirt that hung off my shoulders, a pair of dark blue faded jeans, and my tennis shoes. I tied my hair up, only to pull it back out and walk to my dresser. I dug through my dresser for a while till I found the pair of chopsticks that Sasuke got me.
I grabbed my bag with my CD player and CDs in it, then walked out the door.
(…)
3rd POV
Tsunade sat in her office with paper work surrounding her like a wall. She was about to do something when a small 'POOF' in her office alerted her. She looked over to her left and found Hatake Kakashi standing there. He gave her his infamous lazy smile and said, "Mission Accomplished."
Outside the door, Team 7 was assembled along with Gai's team. They waited outside for Kakashi to turn in their report so they could all go out and find a certain red head girl. The silence was eerie for Naruto, so he was about to scream something stupid when none other than Gaara of the Sand was standing in front of him. His sister and brother were there too, but that really didn't matter at the moment. Naruto pointed an accusing finger and Gaara and yelled,
"AHHH! YOU SCARED THE CRAP OUT OF ME!"
Sakura glared at Naruto and then yelled, "Naruto you idiot! Be quiet!"
Finally after some yelling and exasperated sighs from Neji, Naruto ended up on the other side of the room, and Sasuke saying "dobe."
Kakashi finally came out of the room and said, "Alright, lets go find her."
Gaara looked at them and asked, "Who?"
Naruto immediately jumped up and started explaining the whole thing to Gaara while the ground of people went off to find the girl they all knew.
(…)
Bichson's POV
I was currently talking to the voices in my head when a man's voice cut through my thoughts.
"COME ONE COME ALL! THIS IS THE ALL KNEW KARAOKE MACHINE! SING YOUR HEART OUT AND SEE IF YOUR VOICE IS A CROWD PLEASER OR A BOOER."
I sweat dropped and was about to walk away when Kuro started talking.
Why don't you give it a try? Maybe it will shut that idiot up.
Oh please do. I just want to whack that idiot upside the head. Besides, you're a good singer. If you like to sing, sing to please not only yourself, but other people too.
Uhh, sure. Whatever you say, but it's not like I can say no to a personal request from you guys.
I smiled and walked up the man. I handed him my home made disk and he said, "Would you like a sing along or would you like-"
"Put it on instrumental, and track seven."
"Alright lady, please say your name and the title of the song you're singing."
I looked to the crowd. There weren't many people, but a small group caught my eye. I wanted to jump off the stage and run. There was no way I was singing with them there.
Just do it. Imagine yourself with just me and Kuro in the crowd. It will help.
I guess…
I took his advice. Well it was kind of too late to leave because they were headed this way and the music had already started. When the first beats came on, my vision blurred and when it cleared it was just Kuro and Shiro standing there. I gave a small smile.
Illusions?
Yup, now it's just us. Sing…
I tapped my foot the sound of the music and let the words flow from my mouth. (She's singing 'Crushed' by Rosette)
I told myself today was gonna be the day
no more excuses 'cause i knew exactly what to say
was gonna make my play but just like yesterday
my mind erased,
and i let the moment slip away
another night got me sitting here all on my own
picking up the phone
but i cant get passed the dial tone
racking my brain
going insane
again and again
i can't keep going this way
CHORUS
crushed,
by the sweetest lips i've never kissed
and your fingertips
and the warmest touch that i've always missed
crushed,
by the softest hands i've never held
probably never tell,
you're the strongest love that i've ever felt
crushed,
that i haven't ever let you know
how it always goes
'cause i lose my nerve whenever you get close
and so i'm left,
short of breath
with that heavy feeling in my chest
baby im so crushed
so i told myself that tomorrows gonna be the day
and i keep on telling myself that i'm gonna find a way
and i wont be afraid just like yesterday
won't walk away
never gonna let another chance slip away
'cause i gotta know which ever way its gonna go
rest my heart and soul
'cause there can never be no more
rocking my brain
going insane
again and again
i won't keep going this way
CHORUS
crushed,
by the sweetest lips i've never kissed
and your fingertips
and the warmest touch that i've always missed
crushed,
by the softest hands i've never held
probably never tell,
you're the strongest love that i've ever felt
crushed,
that i haven't ever let you know
how it always goes
'cause i lose my nerve whenever you get close
and so i'm left,
short of breath
with that heavy feeling in my chest
baby im so crushed
crushing,
i'm so into you
don't know what i'm gonna do
gotta find a way to you
i don't know just what to do
crushing,
i'm so into to you
don't know what i'm gonna do
gotta find a way to you
ohhhh i'm
crushing,
i'm so into you
don't know what im gonna do
gotta find a way to youuuuuuohohohhhh
and so i'm left,
short of breath
with that heavy feeling in my chest
baby im so
CHORUS
crushed,
by the sweetest lips i've never kissed
and your fingertips
and the warmest touch that i've always missed
crushed,
by the softest hands i've never held
probably never tell,
you're the strongest love that i've ever felt
crushed,
that i haven't ever let you know
how it always goes
'cause i lose my nerve whenever you get close
and so i'm left,
short of breath
with that heavy feeling in my chest
baby im so crushed
crushing,
i'm so into you
don't know what i'm gonna do
gotta find a way to you
overlap and the warmest touch i've always missed
crushing (crushed),
i'm so into you
dont know what i'm gonna do
gotta find a way to you
you're the strongest love that i've ever felt
crushing (crushed),
i'm so into you
don't know wat i'm gonna do
gotta find a way to youuuuuu
and so i'm left,
short of breath
with that heavy feeling in my chest
baby im so
cruuussshhheeddd
When I finished singing the illusion faded out and I saw a huge crowd in front of me with basically everyone's mouth agape. Especially the group of people that consisted of, Naruto, Sasuke, Sakura, Kakashi, Neji, TenTen, Lee, Gai, and….
Gaara of the sand, Temari, and Kankuro.
I was about to blush from embarrassment when Naruto jumped up and started cheering. Soon the whole crowd was cheering and wanting more. I sighed inwardly.
Sing for the crowd and for us? I'll create the illusion again if you want.
No, I'll sing, but you don't have to.
I turned to the guy and said, "Turn it to track twelve." (Angel by Amanda Perez)
It's been five months
since you went away
Left without a word,
nothing to say(nothin to say)
When I was the one,
who gave you my heart and soul,
but it wasn't good enough for you
No.. Oh oh oh oh
So I asked God
Chorus:
God send me an Angel
from the Heavens above
Send me an Angel to heal my broken heart,
From being in love,
'cause all I dooo...is cry(is cry)
God send me an Angel
to wipe the tears from my eyes
And I know I might sound crazy,
but after all that I still loved you.
You wanna come back in my life,
but now theres something I have to do.
I have to tell the one that I once adored,
that they cant have my love no more,
My heart cant take no more lies,
and my eyes are all out of cries
soooo...God
repeat chorus:
Now you had me on my knees
Begging God please
to send you back to me
I couldn't eat
I couldn't sleep
You even made me feel like I could not breathe
one night all I wanted to do
was feel your touch
and to give you all of my love
but you took my love for granted
want my lovin now
but you cant have it
Oh God!
repeat chorus
Ohhhh God!
Send me an Angel(send me an angel)
An Angel!
Wipe the tears from my eyes
God send me an Angel from the Heavens above
Sent me an Angel(to heal my broken heart)
God send me an Angel
from being in love
send me(an Angel)
ohh God!
send me an Angel
send me(an Angel)
(an Angel)
After I finished this song, I felt a pang of hurt in my chest. I was thinking of my ex boyfriend. We did break up about five months ago. I smiled and asked the man for my CD back.
When I jumped off the stage, I was bombarded by a group of crazy fans. I sprinted for it. After I thought I was far enough, I stopped and tried to regain my oxygen that I lost. Then a voice right behind me made me jump.
"KYAH!"
I turned around really fast and sent a punch to the person's face.
When I finally actually looked at the person I found Kakashi only the ground with swirls in his eyes. I gave a nervous laugh and said, "Opps, I didn't know it was you."
I turned and looked at Gaara, in the small instant of when my eyes met his; I felt a jolt of emotions run through me...pain, hatred, cruelty, loneliness, sadness, and sorrow. The look in his eyes were much like mine when I looked in a mirror.
Before I could do anything else I was tackled by the hyper active blond.
"Bibi! I MISSED YOU!"
I looked at him with a funny face then asked, "Bibi?"
He grinned at me and said, "Yup! That's my new nickname for you!"
I smiled and got up off the ground and then pulled him into a headlock and ruffled his hair.
"Don't tackle me like that though! At least give me a warning you dork!"
Afterwards when Kakashi woke he told me that I hit like a guy, and was about to kill him when I found myself stuck in sand. I sighed and gave up.
Kakashi and Gai took us walking somewhere and said it was a surprise. I lagged behind with Gaara who was watching intently. Finally when we lagged so far behind we almost couldn't see the rest of the group, I started talking.
(Script)
Me: Shouldn't you be in Suna?
Gaara: -Glare-
Me: -Sigh- mumble why are all the hot guys cold and distant. Mumble
Gaara: -Stops walking-
Me: What?
Gaara: What did you just say?
Me: Nothing, I just said that-
(End of script)
I stopped talking when I felt a jolt through my body. It was painful. I fell to the floor gripping my body. I was shaking like a leaf. I didn't know what was going on, but my vision faded and a new scene replaced it.
Flashback (3rd POV)
A young girl about the age of 11 was standing before her mother with her head hung low. The woman looked at the girl and then slapped her, and before leaving the room, the woman said,
"You're a pathetic excuse for a daughter, Bichson."
End of Flashback
I opened my eyes again to see Gaara staring at me. I was on the floor and my breaths were short. I got up and was about to walk when I felt sand snake around my leg. I looked at Gaara. The sand was wrapping itself around my arm. I looked at him and said, "Let me go."
He looked at me and said something, but I didn't hear because of Kuro.
What was that?
That was a memory of mine.
Really now? Who was the woman?
My mom…
I see…
I was brought out of my thoughts by a sharp pain in my arm. I looked at Gaara only to see he was glaring at me.
My next sentence caught him off guard.
"Was it hard growing up without friends?"
He looked at me with wide eyes. The sand recoiled from my body like I was a disease. I walked over to Gaara, who was now on the floor gripping his head in pain.
I kneeled before him and pulled him into a soft hug. He stopped shaking and looked at me in shock. I didn't know what the hell I was doing, but if I was going to meet Gaara then I was going to help him through his pain.
Back home, when I first started reading Naruto, I wanted to cry when I read about Gaara. I looked at Gaara and started talking again.
"I…I'm sorry you had to go through all that alone. I know how you feel in a way. I grew up bad too. Not was bad as you, but in ways I can relate to you. I know what it's like to be alone and not have friends. I just want you to know though, even if we never meet again, you're not alone. I'll be here for you if you need someone."
I looked at me in shock. So many unreadable emotions flickered through his eyes. I gently ran my fingers across the tattoo on his head. I closed my eyes and kissed it softly. I gave him one last hug and then stood up.
I smiled at him and said, "Come on, we need to hurry and catch up with them." I smiled and started walking. Well I would have if the sand hadn't tripped me. I was waiting for the concrete ground to say hello, but it never came. (A/N: how rude. XD)
I was being held in the arms of the sand. I turned around and looked at Gaara. He watched me and finally let the sand go and I was now standing right in front of him. To be honest with you, he's really short for a twelve year old. He's probably about 4'10? I looked at him and was about the ask him something when he said,
"Thank you."
Those words made my day. I flashed him one of my rare real smiles and clasped his hands in mine.
"Come on! We're going to lose them!"
(…)
At the restaurant everyone was waiting outside for us. Naruto was screaming his head off because he was worried, until Sakura pointed out that me and Gaara were still holding hands.
I quickly let go and turned my head to hide my blush. In doing so, I didn't see the glare Sasuke sent at Gaara. Sparks were flying.
When we got into the restaurant, we were seated in a circular table. It went like this, starting with me going to the right: Me, Sasuke, Sakura, Lee, Gai, TenTen, Neji, Kakashi, Naruto, Kankuro, Temari, and then finally Gaara.
I was wander about the thick tension between the two boys next to me. Somewhere along the dinner, Kakashi stiffened at something. He called the waiter over and asked for the bill. When we got outside the restaurant we walked a good deal away from civilization, till Kakashi and Gai stopped. They pulled out kunai and Kakashi said, "Come out…Itachi."
(A/N: To stop or not to stop? Hmm, not to stop. )
Itachi and Kisame stepped out of the shadows and it was Kisame who broke deadly silence.
"Oi, Kakashi, we can do this the hard way or the easy way. Just hand over the girl."
Kakashi glared at him, and then said to Sasuke, "Sasuke, take Bichson out of here. Now." He sounded like he was going to kill someone. Sasuke growled and said, "No, I'll kill him."
Kakashi glared at his pupil and yelled, "Don't be foolish, take her and the Sand nin and go!"
Sasuke refused to budge. I felt the voices in my head yell.
Call us damn it!
How! I don't know what to do!
Just do the hand seal for tiger and then say that long ass chant we taught you! Now fucking do it damn it!
Geez, and you say I'm vulgar.
Don't fucking joke around they'll kill you friends! Summon us now!
I sighed quietly and obeyed. The small movement from me caught everyone's attention. I did the hand seal for tiger and whispered ever so softly,
"I summon thee. Here my call and obey me. I, thy mistress, summon the gods of Yin and Yang!"
On the ground around me the symbol of Yin and Yang came. Out of no where two big…no, not big enough…GIGANTIC beasts came out! A black dragon wrapped around me, and a white phoenix landed behind me.
I gave a small sigh and said with exasperation, "Geez that was such a dramatic entrance."
Everyone looked at me funny, and finally, Kuro made the first move. He launched himself at Kisame fully intending to eat him. The battle ensued. Shiro stayed behind me, protecting me from any harm.
(A/N: Just saying, none of them know anything about what happened when she was with Itachi and Kisame the first time she got kidnapped. She made up a lie and told it to the Hokage.)
After awhile, Kisame was in terrible condition and Kuro was in his "human" form. Itachi and Kakashi were battling all out, and the others were defending themselves against Itachi clones.
Finally, Itachi looked at me and said in a mocking voice, "What the matter? Why are you hiding? Afraid you'll kiss me again?"
Now, that…that stopped all movement from Kakashi, Neji, and Sasuke. Everyone else was kind of shocked. Naruto was too busy fighting so he didn't hear. Sasuke looked at me along with Kakashi and Neji. I didn't know why Neji cared, but Kakashi asked, "Did you really kiss him?"
I stood still not saying a word, then I screamed, "You fucking bastard, just shut the hell up!" Itachi smirked and then said to Kisame, "We're leaving." And with a poof, the two Akatsuki members disappeared.
Everyone looked at me for a long time till Kuro broke the silence with a small cough. "We should "leave", shouldn't we?" I gave a small curt nod and in a flash of light, the two gods disappeared.
(…)
We went to the Tsunade's office in total silence. I kept stealing glances at Sasuke to see his face, but every time we made eye contact, he would look away in hate and disgust.
When we arrived, I was forced to tell them everything. After all was said and done, Sasuke and I went home. It was quiet in the house for awhile, till I broke the silence.
"Sasuke, please, let me explain."
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