Hey guys, I'm sorry I haven't updated in forever. I deserved to be flogged and punished profusely. :(
But yeah. Christmas so, yay :) Still have nothing to be sued for. ummm except. well. okay. My pet rock kind of had kids :blush: but it would just be cruel to take them away :(

I'm sorry about this chapter also, I wrote it so long ago andI just wanted to put something up because I've been getting so many messages to update my stories, thank you for which by the way. So here this is, and if you like it I guess I can put up the other stuff, because I just found this folder in my email with all these chapters that I wrote forever ago and forgot to publish.

Chapter Two

Buffys POV

" Well that's the last of it Buffy." Willow tells me, but I barely register. All I keep thinking is why isn't he here yet? He should be here, he knows I leave today, he knows there's nothing stopping it, I've tried everything. I hate my mother with every fiber of my being right now. Just because dad cheated on her and moved out does not mean we have to too.

"Buffy?" says my idiot mother," It's time to go."

"Ok mom" I say as fresh tears start streaming down my face because I know that last goodbyes are of the now.

We never were ones for individual hugs if everybody got one. We figured that it would take to long and one big pile would be good enough. This one was different though. He wasn't in the middle, hugging me the hardest. Like he usually is. Like he should be.

"Mom, turn here" I say suddenly

"I already am Buffy. Do you really think I would let you leave without saying goodbye?" She says as she pulls into the driveway.

Giles has the door open before I'm halfway up the steps. I don't even pay attention, I'm just running, running as fast as I can, so that I can breath again. I get to his room and I stop. I don't think I can do this. How can I say good bye to him? We don't say goodbye. Not to each other. It's to... final.

If I don't do this now I won't be able to do it. I open his door and feel my heart explode.

"So I guess you finally decided who it was gonna be huh?" I say, ruining their moment, "I'm sorry Darla, I really don't mean to be ruining your first well probably not your first sexual experience, but I just had to see what was so important that your lover wouldn't come to say goodbye to me before I leave. Now I know."

I turn to face him and see the horror and guilt in his eyes. I really don't care. It isn't half of what I'm feeling right now. "I hope you have a good time." I say fake cheerfully

"Bye Angelus" I leave with the final sight of him cringing as I use his full name. I have never once used his full name. I always thought he was more like an angel. I guess I was wrong.

I go back to the car without looking in on Giles, I just close the door behind me, get in the car, and tell my mother to drive. She doesn't ask questions, she can see it in my eyes. I have to get to my new life NOW.

Angels POV

I know I should go and see her, but I can't. She wouldn't understand, I would die if I had to say goodbye to her, yet, I know I'll probably die if I don't too. But that doesn't matter, she leaves in a few hours. I think to myself as I down another Dr. Pepper at the Bronze.

Huh. Her favorite drink, Her favorite place, next thing you know it'll be her favorite song

I think glumly as I sense someone approaching me. By the amount of perfume I can tell it's Darla, the school whore. She'll give it away to anything that moves, but lately, for some reason, she's taken to me, even though I'll never be able to do it with anyone but Buffy. But Buffy is out of the question now. She's gone. Out of my life forever. I mind as well pick up a prostitute off of the side of the street, that's how little it's gonna mean now that she's gone.

I don't know how we got here, but we're in my bedroom, me and Darla. Oh god Buffy, maybe if I close my eyes, I can imagine it's you. As I give myself to Darla I hear this weird...squeak. I open my eyes and look at the door, and then I wish I was dead. It's Buffy. In my room. While I'm in my room. With Darla. I look into her eyes and want to kill myself. All of the pain, hurt, disgust. All caused by me. Funny how what I spend so much time and effort trying to protect her from, I end up causing. Suddenly I'm startled from my thoughts as she amazes me, yet again, by being able to form words while in that much pain.

"So I guess you finally decided who it was gonna be huh?" she says as I fight to keep from crying. She looks like she's doing the same.

"I'm sorry Darla, I really don't mean to be ruining your first well probably not your first sexual experience, but I just had to see what was so important that your lover wouldn't come to say goodbye to me before I leave." Oh my God. I'm Darla's lover. oh god oh god oh god…

" Now I know." She says quietly.

I want so bad to just get up and take her in my arms, plead her forgiveness and explain the past six years to her. But somehow I think that will only make it worse. Suddenly she tells me she hopes we have a good time, and I realize just how far down her hurt goes. This isn't just because I'm her friend and chose to have sex with a slut instead of saying goodbye to her, this is because I had sex with a slut INSTEAD of her. And it had to be Darla of all people. The one person she actually admitted to hating.

"Bye Angelus" I cringe. She's never said that name before. I've broken her. I can tell. If only I had gotten up the courage to ask her out when I had the chance. I new now it would have made her lifetime. My final thoughts blur together as I finally break down and start bawling. I hear Darla leave and just lie down on my bed and cry. What have I done.