A/N: That last chapter I found quiet funny. The part…their eyes became literal dots. That was my favorite. It was hilarious. This chapter…however isn't exactly…funny as the previous two chapters. The title being 'new found feelings', meaning…new feelings. So…the pervious episodes Sesshomaru had to deal with Rin with two different events. For this chapter, however, He'll being going through real love and understanding. Please understand that Sesshomaru has 'matured' and has become slightly more open to Rin…and it seems a bit out of character…but its only because that's how we've come to know him. You'd probably think that if they made episodes or mangas 11 years later, that this is how Sesshomaru would be like. And it's only fanfiction --'Enjoy! Warning: Rape, mild lemon
Disclaimer: Kazuma belongs to me…but everyone else doesn't.
I smell danger. And…I can smell InuYasha's blood…very close by. I am curious to know what is happening.
"Rin…stay in this village until Jaken and I return." Sesshomaru told the 17 year old Rin, who was wearing her brand new kimono, of different greens, and pinks. Also carrying around her little back pack that Kagome had given her. She carried other things, like snacks she finds, and other things of the sort, so it made it a little less obvious about whether or not she had her period.
"Why my lord?" She asked him curiously.
"There is danger up ahead." He replied. She didn't reply but made a 'hm' sound, and nodded her head in agreement.
"My lord?" Jaken asked. "What is this danger?"
Sesshomaru did not reply, instead, he walked away, with Jaken following behind. "Bye my lord." Rin said, and she too walked away into the village.
Rin was a young lady. Old enough to make her own decisions…and she still was not only thankful, but strangely curious for why Sesshomaru still let her follow along.
"Hello." A man, about her age said. "Who are you? I don't think I've seen you before."
"My name is Rin." She turned around to him. The man had short brown hair, a little bit of it was tied into a low ponytail. He wore a yukata that was green, with gray strips across the shoulder. He also carried a sword with him.
"Rin…"The man echoed to himself, hearing that name before. "What a wonderful name."
Rin was slightly clueless. "Wow, thanks…I didn't think my name was that great." She smiled, and made a nervous laugh.
The man walked closer to her. "My name is Kazuma."
"Ka-zuma? Kazuma with the little annoying brother…named…" Rin thought.
"It doesn't matter now. He's dead." He told her.
"Aww, I liked him too."
"It's been a while Rin. You've grown up beautifully."
Kazuma and Rin had grown up together. But, when Rin's parents died, she was forced to live by her self, and to move somewhere where she could find a job.
"Where have you been lately?"
"Well, my lord and I have been traveling for a long time."
"Oh really…" He seemed slightly upset. "You have a lord?"
"Yes…for about 11 years now."
"He was your planned mate?" He asked.
Rin gasped. "No…He's not my mate. I am…" She felt doubtful. "His companion. He brought me back to life when I was a child."
"Interesting story. How would you like to come to my hut for a while? Is your lord with you?"
"No, he went off…not really sure why." She said honestly, and then thought carefully to herself.
"Would you like to come over then?" he asked again.
"Alright." She smiled. He walked her to his hut. His hut wasn't really big, but it seemed as if he lived on his own.
"I live by myself." He told her. "My parents died when I was 10."
"That's…the same with me too, as you remember…when I was 7. And then…I died when these wolves ate me…but my lord brought me back to life."
"How'd he bring you back to life?" He asked her, puzzled.
"Well, his sword has this power of bringing people back to life." She told him. "His brother has the sword that can kill 100 demons with one swing. My lord wants that sword so much."
"How interesting." He told her. "What does your lord look like?"
"He's a dog demon."
"Oh?" He gasped. "Really…"
"Yes! He's got long silver hair…and wears this big fluff thing around his shoulder." She told him, happily.
"Well…I've never seen a demon with a fluff thing…but, a demon passed by…asking for help. Strange huh. He had long silver white hair…wore a big red outfit, and traveled with a woman who's pregnant."
"You must be talking about InuYasha. That's my lord's brother." She laughed. "Kagome's pregnant? Wow!" Rin told her self and felt cheerful.
"Oh." He said stunned; then he smiled.
"I want to be outside. I want to make sure my lord can see me when he returns." Rin told him, as she got up. "Thank you…"
The man followed her up. "Have you ever been in an intimate relationship?"
"Huh?" She stopped walking then turned to him. "What the…what are you talking about?"
"A love relationship. Do you like it rough?" He continued asking her. "You're old enough…and not to mention…your lord is a man…I'm sure he'd love it rough. Ever done it?"
Rin's eyes widened and she stood shocked. "I can't believe you would say that sort of thing. My lord has come a long way of his past. I wouldn't be here if it weren't for him. Even if I wanted to be in a relationship with my Lord, why would I just give him 'rough sex' if he didn't want it?" She told him slightly annoyed with the questions. "Besides…we've only just met after 12 years. Why are you asking me these stupid questions?"
"Your lord may not…say…that he doesn't want sex…or any relationship at all, but, why do you think he brought you back to life? So he could have a little annoying girl follow him?" He tested.
"He brought me back to life, because I saw through him of a demon. I took care of him when he was injured, and I wasn't as frightened as most people would be." She said angrily.
"That's what you think. I'm a guy…I would know." He laughed.
"He told me he had no intention on being mates with me…and I accepted that."
"That's not what he thinks."
"What do you mean?"
"He didn't want you to run away if he told you that he did."
"But at that time…I DID want to be his mate."
"Ah hun." He agreed.
"All the more to prove my point." He told her. Rin didn't understand what he meant by that.
"Excuse me." She squinted her nose, and turning around not wanting to believe him.
She started to walk away. "You know it's the truth." He yelled to her. Rin started to run, and hid in the forest, so he couldn't see her, but so she could see out of the forest.
"No…Lord Sesshomaru…you couldn't have kept me only for that…" Rin cried, covering her ears with her hands, and scrunched her self. "Noo..." She repeated to her self.
She woke up later with Sesshomaru staring at her. "Come along Rin." He told her. Rin's eyes widened from being frightened to leave, but did was as told, and hid behind Sesshomaru.
"Rin, what's wrong?" Jaken asked. Rin said nothing, and just held onto the back of Sesshomaru. They started to exit the village, when Kazuma ran up to her.
"So…this is your lord eh." He told her.
She hid further. "Yes…"
"Rin…who the devil is this?" Jaken asked her. Sesshomaru turned around.
"My name is Kazuma. I grew up with Rin…we were practically best friends. Hm. You do look like your brother there."
Sesshomaru punched him in the face, and made him going flying. Rin stood frozen, and as Sesshomaru started to walk away, Rin ran back to Kazuma.
She leaned over him. "I'm so sorry. Lord Sesshomaru does not like to be referred to as InuYasha."
He woke up, and sat up, rubbing his jaw a bit. "That's alright." He said. Just then, he grabbed her arm, and pulled her to his hut. She didn't say a word because she was in shock and his force was very strong, and she couldn't seem to escape from him. Sesshomaru didn't notice she was gone.
Kazuma threw Rin up to his wall, and gave her a dirty look. "You like it rough eh."
Rin cried. "I…" She looked up and tried screaming, but Kazuma took a piece of fabric from his pocket and tied it around her mouth so she couldn't make noise. Tears streamed down Rin's cheek, as Kazuma grabbed both of her arms and threw it above her head, and pushed him self against her chest. Kazuma licked her around her lips quickly, and then pushed her up further so her body was against the wall, and so she couldn't touch the floor. Kazuma made his yukata rise a little, so he would be able to push him self so he could entered himself in her, but that's when Sesshomaru walked in, after realizing Rin was gone, but didn't know that she went there to do that. Kazuma and Rin did nothing further, when Rin's head swirled to him, tears down her face and her trying to speak to him, along with her face terrified. The fabric tied around her face showed that she did not want that, and so Sesshomaru took another step. Kazuma dropped Rin on the floor, which left her falling onto the ground, and passing out.
Sesshomaru raised his hand.
"Oh like your hand can threaten me." Kazuma laughed, unaware of Sesshomaru's power.
Sesshomaru made his hand a flowing motion, and a green whip flew out of his hand, and Kazuma was left in two halves and puddles of blood surrounded him. Sesshomaru became worried inside, but did not show it on the outside. Sesshomaru could not pick Rin up anymore (especially with only one arm), so he waited until she woke up a few moments later. He had taken the fabric off her mouth, and he was standing there above her. Rin sat up slowly, and then tears streamed down her face again. She crawled to his feet, and wrapped herself around his foot.
"Th..a…a…n..k.. You…"She cried more.
"Rin, get up." He told her. Rin slowly got up, as Sesshomaru started leaving again.
Rin followed even more closely to Sesshomaru. "Thank you…" She said slowly again.
"Rin where did you go?" Jaken asked densely.
Rin didn't look at him. "I…"
"It's none of your business." Sesshomaru said to Jaken.
Jaken stood speechless. "Hmph."
The way to out of the village was very quiet when they stopped by a hot spring where Rin could take a nice hot bath to make the day's worry flow away…but she knew that event was something she couldn't forget.
She was about to take off her Kimono when she turned around and saw Sesshomaru behind her. "Why was that man trying to…" He started, somewhat worried.
"About that…he…I…" She broke.
"Don't worry about it. Forget it. He's a stupid boy." Sesshomaru reassured her.
"Lord Sesshomaru. I can't just…forget. He really was…my best friend when I grew up."
"A best friend would not hurt you."
"He was alone." Rin sympathized for Kazuma. "His parents died…his brother died."
"Were you not alone when your parents died?" He asked her.
"He's be alone his whole life…for me? You came along…and I wasn't alone anymore." She looked up at him.
Sesshomaru stood slightly touched.
"And neither were you." She told him.
"I enjoyed being alone when I was." He replied stilly.
"That's crap. No one enjoys spending a life time by them selves." Rin made sure he knew.
Sesshomaru said nothing. "What did you tell that boy about me?"
"Well, he asked…if…I was in an intimate relationship with you." She told him honestly, looking ashamed.
"And?"
"I told him I wasn't…and that I was only a companion. You are the lord, and I'm the little annoying girl who will never have anything better to do." She said.
"Nothing better to do?" Sesshomaru asked, feeling insulted.
"Oh…my lord. I didn't mean it that way. I mean, that I'll probably never get married…or have children. That sort of thing." She said, wishing in her heart that he'd be the one that she'd get married to and have children with.
"Oh." He said quickly. "Go take your bath." He told her, and then he left her.
Rin turned around and walked back to the hot spring. She took off her kimono, and sat herself down in the water. She leaned her head back, in the steam, letting her long dark brown hair down flow in the water. She held her breath, and she went completely underwater, and let her hair flow at the surface.
Sesshomaru stood at the trees looking at her in the distance. It wasn't like him to peek on a girl, but…this was one time he couldn't help. He stood between two trees, that if Rin turned her head, she could see him, but he wasn't thinking at the time.
Rin couldn't hold her breath any longer, and so she came rising into the air, with her fully developed breasts, her hair and her whole body in general was wet. Sesshomaru thought she was gorgeous…a goddess in his eyes…and wouldn't want to turn away for the world, except when Rin turned and saw Sesshomaru staring at him, where she flopped down in to the water, and Sesshomaru turned around. The weird thing was, was that she wasn't mad at him at all. She found it a compliment… (And finally about time) that he would try and peek at her.
Rin got out of the water, and placed on her kimono, before Sesshomaru turned around again. "Lord Sesshomaru."
"I'm sorry." He said to her, as he made a small blush. Rin stood helpless, it was not like she could turn back time, and fix anything. Sesshomaru stared at her helpless face, as she looked down thinking. "Rin."
She looked up at him, dry tears on her cheeks, slightly red eyes and feeling a bit helpless. He was going to dare it. Something that hopefully would lift Rin's spirits a bit. He knew as a full demon…and how he's despised humans. But, within the 11 years of knowing Rin, he had slowly changed that thought…well, at least made an exception for Rin (And became grateful to Kagome and Sango.) He bent down slowly over her, as her eyes widened, and his hand had touched the side of her cheek. He opened his mouth slightly and kissed her. His lips touched her wet, soft lips. Rin didn't move until she noticed a moment later, of what was going on. She then closed her eyes, wrapped her arms loosely around Sesshomaru's neck, and deepened the kiss. It didn't last much longer after that, when Sesshomaru pulled away, and stood straight to her. Rin's eyes widened as before, and smiled lightly.
Sesshomaru turned around and started walking away. Rin didn't move from her spot, but she knew that'd probably be the first and only time Sesshomaru would ever express his feelings toward her. It was a strong kiss, so it meant that he cared for her deeply, and that he would always protect her, no matter what.
Rin didn't know what to do. Would she go to sleep? But…then again, that moment with Sesshomaru was a little too extravagant to sleep on…she'd be up for hours anyway. Would she go back to the hot spring? Yes, that would be a good option. Rin went back to the hot spring, took off her kimono as earlier, and sat back in the water and relaxed like earlier. She only laid still for a moment, took a deep breath, and closed her eyes.
She heard some shuffling, but yet again she was in a forest. What else would she be able to do about it? Sesshomaru would protect her if anything. But, this shuffling came from Sesshomaru, although Rin still didn't know. She continued to keep her eyes closed, when she heard a small splash in the water she sat in. An animal? She opened her eyes, and there was Sesshomaru…in the water with her. Not only that, but he was naked, like she.
"Lord…Sesshomaru?" Rin asked surprisingly.
Sesshomaru looked at her with a gentle look. "I thought I should keep you company." He told her.
She remembered that time when she asked Sesshomaru why he wouldn't bath with her.
"I thought it was wrong." She corrected him.
"You're older now." He replied. She smiled happily, and then laughed. He had no clue what she was laughing at, but in either case it didn't matter.
After a long time in the spring of nothing but awkward silence, Rin moved a little closer to Sesshomaru. He didn't budge, but it was the first time Rin had actually seen him relaxed as he was. His eyes were closed, and he seemed at peace. She budged closer and closer to Sesshomaru. He opened his eyes to not see Rin in front of him, but beside him. She looked at him with large eyes, and smiled. Sesshomaru was slightly confused, and was somewhat tempted…being a man himself, to look down at her breasts…which were close to see even through the water. Rin however, placed her right hand on his chest, and left arm bent across his back. She placed her head by his armpits, and closed her eyes.
"Rin. This is why I said men and women do not take baths together." He said sternly.
Rin let go of him. "Do you not like it? I'm sorry. I won't do it ever again." She assured him.
"No…"He started. "I like it." He said which utterly shocked Rin. It slipped. He hadn't meant to say it. That wasn't him…but…he had matured. He had become a man…and demon he may be…he had become a demon that felt love, like his father. His father finding love disturbed Sesshomaru, but soon he came to understand why his father was in love, and he…respected that.
"Why…why lord Sesshomaru." Rin said in complete shock still. "That's…I'm so happy."
Sesshomaru didn't know what to feel. Instead, he moved his body slightly, so he could wrap his right hand around Rin's waist.
"Oh…lord Sesshomaru. I know this seems weird to bring up now…but InuYasha is going to be a father."
Sesshomaru blinked. "With that Kagome girl?"
"Yes."
"I saw InuYasha today…but Kagome was not with him, how do you know?" He asked.
"Kazuma told me. He said that they were passing through their village the other day." Rin explained.
"Oh." Sesshomaru said looking straightforward.
So little brother…you're going to be a father. Figure that you would pull your human side together and mate with that Kagome girl. I wonder how the child will turn out.
"My lord? What are you thinking?" Rin asked looking at him.
"InuYasha."
"Oh…I guess you're not very happy about it?" She wondered.
"It's not that I'm not happy. It means now that once he has that child his power will grow because he has someone else to protect too."
"So you're happy about it then?" She smiled.
"I would say congratulations to him…but I am not happy to my brother in general."
"What about Kagome? Don't you like her?" Rin asked.
"Yes, even for a human…she is a very strong woman. I first met her when InuYasha had just. She has great faith in InuYasha." He grinned.
"She's a priestess. Of course she's powerful." Rin joked.
"I don't think she knew she was one at the time." He guessed.
"I suppose."
Just then…to ruin everything they had possibly gained up to that whole night, Jaken came around yelling at them.
"MY LORDDDDDDD! WHAT ARE YOU DOING WITH RINNNNN! I THOUGHT YOU LIKED HER! DON'T KILL HERRRR…" He stopped for a moment to see both Sesshomaru and even Rin's death looks. (He's rubbing off…ha-ha.) Jaken then screamed for his life, and Sesshomaru turned around as Rin got on her Kimono. She ran and chased Jaken angrily as a diversion so Sesshomaru could get his clothes on.
…A while later…Jaken sat down on the ground quietly with over about 50 pounding marks all over him.
"I'm sorry my lord."
"Jaken…I told you leave and do something." Sesshomaru said standing up staring at him. (Yes he has all his clothes and armor on)
"I got bored. What WERE you doing anyway?"
"None of your business Jaken. Lord Sesshomaru and I were having a talk that's all." Rin said.
"Mi lord. I've never seen you so…peaceful when you were in there. And Rin was…so on you." He whispered to Sesshomaru, which only gained more poundings on him.
Both Rin and Sesshomaru were silent, and looked away from Jaken who was in front of them. "I said was I was sorry already." Jaken said.
Rin turned to Jaken. "Master Jaken. That means nothing!" She yelled. "You just walked in on us!"
"Well how on earth was I supposed to know what you guys were doing…"He told her.
"Jaken. That was whole point of sending you away." Sesshomaru told him.
Jaken stood gawking. "MI LORD.WHAT! NOO! You would throw your servant away just like that!" Jaken continued to yell. 'Yes' was swarming both of their minds, but both they just rolled their eyes in despair, and just wished Jaken would just die for that time that they could have actually shared something.
"Well, my Lord? What are we doing now?" She asked Sesshomaru, who looked back to her.
"Do what you will." Sesshomaru said, as he continued to lie against a tree. Sesshomaru closed his eyes. Jaken walked away disappointed and walked not too far off, and lay on the ground and was asleep very quickly. Rin assumed that Sesshomaru wouldn't be asleep as fast as it would seem…but Rin wasn't tired and would not be able to sleep.
Rin walked a bit off in the distance to a cliff, where the moon, happening to be a full moon, seemed ever so bright and beautiful from where she stood. She stood almost at the very edge, as the wind blew her hair, being down to her waist, tied in a low ponytail still, flew fluently in the air. Her kimono, which was knee length, flew about trying to push her sideways, but she closed her eyes and held her arms out as if she was going to jump. But she wasn't going to. She smiled, and wanted to cry she was so happy. She was finally able to push her self to get Sesshomaru to relax around her…and perhaps one day…actually becomes her mate. She was sure that he could never admit that even after 11 years, she was no longer just a companion, but more then even a friend. She couldn't help feeling that what Kazuma was talking about, was more or less correct. He probably did want a relationship…he was just one not to make the first move, and that's how she'd figure it. Although he did make the first move, and what's better is that he made more then one in even that night alone. She was proud of him for doing that. She knew that he wanted a relationship… and again Kazuma was right on that. He was just a man. Sesshomaru may be a demon, but he was still his father's son. And his father had two wives, one being Sesshomaru's mother, and the other being InuYasha's mother, who was a mortal princess. Rin guessed that Sesshomaru thought of his father a lot enough to think that if his father loved a mortal woman, why couldn't he? He hated humans, had no use for them, and only wanted power. But that changed when she saw through his reflection of demon, and decided to help.
A shadow came behind Rin, as she made a large exhale, and put down her arms. About to head back, she turned around to see Sesshomaru's emotionless face standing there.
"Oh my lord." She smiled to him. "Is this where you normally stand on nights like this? I'll leave if you'd like." She protested.
"No, it's alright." He told her. Sesshomaru then took another step forward a little off of Rin and stared at the moon.
"Beautiful isn't it?" She asked him.
"Yes." He replied dully.
She stood next to him, and looked at him, "A full moon. Special things are suppose to happen on nights like this." She informed him, then turned back to look at the bright moon.
"Many special things have already happened." Sesshomaru said a moment later.
"My lord…please, tell me what you feel right now." Rin demanded. She turned back to him, as Sesshomaru turned to her.
"A strange emotion that I've never felt before in my life." He admitted. "Except when I first met you."
Rin's eyes lit up slightly. "Love?"
"Perhaps." Sesshomaru said, to deny the truth. "Concern. Understanding. Frightened." He said.
Rin smiled to him. "So you feel like that now?"
"Yes." He said immediately then turned back to look at the moon.
Rin got closer. "Now you're a man." She told him.
He turned to her. "I am nothing like a human."
"I'm not saying that my lord. I'm saying that demon or not, feeling emotions is life in itself. As a man you are, a real man admits his feelings…and feels new ones. Someone who is not a man, never has emotion."
"So you're saying that before now I was not a man?" Sesshomaru asked.
"No. I'm not saying that. You felt emotion when you met me…and you probably had emotions before even that…you never admitted to those feelings and that you hid or locked them away. You just never realized them."
Sesshomaru felt that Rin had made a point. He really was growing up. He never admitted to his feelings before, and he actually felt…happy…to have told the one person who would make him happy would help him understand his emotions he felt.
"So…Lord Sesshomaru, what is happening tomorrow? What is our next journey?" Rin asked him, changing the subject.
"I don't know." He told her truthfully.
Rin smiled.