This is the last chapter of this story. To those who were reading this because of the sex (I hope that's none) you might get disappointed in this one. But let's not give anything away. Give me some feedback please...But enough rambling and over to the story…

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This was all becoming too much for you. You heard your mother's fake laugh not far away from you and you wondered what the hell you were doing here, why you were living this life at all. Normally, you wouldn't question it, just accept it, but something had happened with you after Alex. The blonde beauty had opened your eyes and made you feel without even doing anything. She hadn't even tried to make everything right like everyone else had. No, she hadn't been the one running to you, it was the other way around. You had reached out for her in desperation and she had answered without a second thought. So why were you here at a stupid rich party for all the superficial people that only cared about their image?

"Marissa, honey. Come over here."

Oh that's right, your mother had demanded it because you were the 'perfect' family without flaws. If only all these people had known how untrue and false that was.

Plastering that all too known fake smile on your face, you slowly made your way over, wanting to withhold the torment for as long as possible. As soon as you got over to the small crowd of people you faked interest as your mind wandered far away to the place you wanted to be, in Alex' apartment. A real smile played on your lips as you thought of everything that had happened from the very minute you walked into that club and saw the beauty with silky blonde hair that made her face look angelic. You remembered her playful smile and stormy eyes. The shy look she'd gotten when she led you into her apartment for the first time, her soft, loving touch…that was where you wanted to be. You were brought out of your thoughts when you felt a nudge.

"Excuse me?" you asked as you were brought back to reality.

We were just talking about how good you're doing lately, that you seem really happy. Is it because of Ryan?" Julie asked and as she spoke his name, your fake smile faltered for a moment.

"Um, yeah, I guess," you stuttered out as you felt ashamed of saying it, as if you were betraying Alex when you said those words. Then the others were of talking nonsense again and your thoughts moved away again. When you stood there with your eyes unfocused you could imagine her in front of you. You licked your lips as you remembered how her lips felt against your own, how soft and delicious they were and you could see those shining eyes in front of you. Those sea coloured eyes that showed so much emotion and intensity.

Someone spoke again and your eyes moved back in focus and you nearly shrieked as you realized those amazing eyes of a certain blonde was in fact standing in front of you, staring at you intently. Instantly your face lit up.

"Oh Marissa, this is Alex, a friend of Seth," Julie said.

The two girls just stared at each other.

"Hi," Alex finally said as she smiled shyly.

"Hey," you answered with a smile that wasn't fake this time.

Before any of you could do something else though, you felt an arm snake firmly around your waist as hard lips pressed themselves against your cheek. Your eyes darkened, but you kept your face expressionless. Looking around at the small crowd and at the blonde, you quickly realized no one had seen your reaction. Except Alex. Somehow you knew she had noticed as you could see her usually shining orbs becoming just as dark as you were convinced yours was, if not darker. But her face remained motionless, just like yours. Ashamed, you looked down at your feet.

"What are you doing?" Ryan asked as he pulled you closer to him and you had to fight the urge to push him away.

"Socializing of course," you mumbled as you looked up, but made sure to avoid eye contact with both your 'girlfriend and boyfriend.'

"Want me to save you from the boringness and take you somewhere private?" Ryan asked.

"Um, I was actually having a nice conversation with Alex," you replied nervously.

"Oh," he said, clearly surprised. "I'll go to the pool house. Come over once you've finished?"

You turned to give him one of your fake smiles. You knew it wasn't really a question he had asked, he had demanded it. And you knew what would happen once you got to the pool house. Just like every day since you had met Alex, you weren't in the mood to keep up the pretends with him. You just weren't strong enough now that she had made you feel again. You didn't want Ryan touching you and kissing you. Didn't want to think about the pressure he put on you because he wanted you two to sleep together so he could be satisfied. The thought disgusted you.

When he finally left, you turned around towards the blonde girl of your dreams, only to find she was gone. You felt your heart skip a beat and your breathing quickening as you felt the panic start to well up in you. She had left. Was she angry? You had to find her.

Quickly moving towards the exit, you frantically looked around for any sign of your girl. Reaching the exit you practically flied out of it as your head turned around quickly to try and get a glimpse of her. You stopped dead in your tracks as you saw her standing leaned up against the house wall with a cigarette in her mouth. Slowly, uncertainly, you walked closer to her as you examined her body language to try and predict what would happen.

"I-I didn't know you…smoked," you said shyly as you bit your lip nervously.

"Usually I don't, but it calms me down in confusing situations," she answered, her voice just as soft and loving as it always was towards you, but when you looked into her eyes you could see confusion, anger and hurt.

"Alex I-" you started, but stopped, not really knowing what to say.

The blonde cut you of before you could try to continue though.

"It's fine. You should probably get back in there, go hook up with your boyfriend."

Her voice came out as careless and she purposefully kept her eyes away from you and you knew it was because if she looked at you, she knew you would know what she really felt.

"Alex-" you tried again, but she cut in again.

"It's fine really. I mean, we don't even really know each other. It was just a good time, I understand."

You heard her voice cracking as she quickly pushed herself of the wall and tried to move past you, but you grabbed her arm and spun her around and then put a hand under her chin, forcing her to look into your eyes.

"I don't want to go back to him," you said firmly.

The blonde looked shocked at you.

"You-you don't?" she said surprised and hopefully.

"I don't like him like I like you. Every time I'm with him, all I can do is think of you, wishing I was with you, that it was you touching me instead of him," you blurted out in fear of her leaving.

Her jaw dropped as she processed what you had just said. Then she smiled and you looked at her confused.

"Let's go," Alex said cheerfully as she took your hand.

"Go where?" you asked, still confused about her behaviour.

"To my place."

"Oh.," was all you could think of as a reply.

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As the two of you yet again stood outside her place, you smiled to Alex' back as you noticed this time her hands weren't fiddling with the keys. A good sign, you thought, because it showed she was getting more certain and comfortable with you. You were brought out of your thoughts as the blonde took a hold of your shoulders and pulled you inside. You opened your mouth to say something, but was stopped by a pair of lips as they softly connected with your own. Letting your lips move gently against hers, you pulled away after a while with a smile.

She grinned back before capturing your lips again as her hands moved slowly over your hips and sides, under your shirt as her hands moved up your back, making you let out a soft moan at the gentle caress. You were sure you could never get tired of the way she touched you, so sweet and caring, like you were the most delicate flower.

"Can you do something for me?" Alex asked softly.

"What?"

"Be with me?"

"I thought I already was?" you answered and she smiled shyly as she bit her bottom lip.

"I mean, stay. I don't want to wake up alone in the morning."

You became silent as you considered the question. Was it the right thing to do? You wanted to stay, but wouldn't that be moving a little fast? You almost smacked yourself at your stupid reasoning. You two were already having sex, waking up with her in the morning wouldn't be a big deal.

Your eyes refocused on the blonde in front of you and you saw she was standing there patiently. You smiled slightly at her. She knew you so well and she was treating you with understanding and care and…everything you'd ever wanted.

Suddenly you felt nervous as you looked down on the ground and started fidgeting with the hem of your sweater.

"I need to talk to you about something."

She took a step closer and lifted you cheek as she smiled at you to say go on.

"I'm not satisfied," you blurted out and you saw her face fall in shock.

"Um…okay, am I doing something wrong?"

"No, I mean," you said embarrassed as you looked away from her again. "I mean, I want more. I don't want to just have sex-make love to you, I want to…you know," you stuttered out, your eyes all the time focused on an invisible spot on the wall.

"What? Be my girlfriend?" she asked in a whisper.

"I know, it's stupid," you said quickly, but the blonde cut you off by putting her finger over your lips and you looked into her shining eyes.

"It's not stupid at all. I want to be your girlfriend too."

"Really?" you asked surprised.

"But you have a boyfriend remember?" she said as neutral as she could.

Picking up the bag you had dropped to the floor, you retrieved your cell phone and dialled a number.

"Where the hell are you," the voice said annoyed.

"Ryan, we're over."

"What? Where are you?"

"I'm somewhere," you answered with a smile towards Alex.

"Is this some kind of bad joke? Are you drunk again?" he said angry.

"No, I'm not drunk and it's not a joke. In fact, you remember that blonde girl from that club a few days ago? The bartender? I'm at her place, about to spend what could easily be the best night of my life,"

"Marissa, this isn't funny. You need to think about this. Come home."

"Fuck you Ryan. You've been treating me like shit and unlike you, Alex actually cares about me so I think I'll do what I want instead of what everyone else wants for once," you said as you started getting really angry with him.

"Tell me where you are and I'll come get you," he said sternly.

"I don't think so. I don't want you to come for me, I just want you to go away and stop bothering me. I like it here so why don't you just find someone who will actually give into your selfishness?" you said before hanging up on him.

When your eyes locked with sparkling sea coloured ones, you smiled shyly.

"Sorry about that."

Alex just smiled as she leaned forward and kissed your lips shortly. When she pulled back though, you moved your hand to her neck and brought her closer again. You slowly massaged her lips with your own just revelling in the feeling of her lips on yours. This, this was right and you knew it the second her lips touched yours. This was how it was supposed to be, the butterflies and anticipation, the content feeling whenever she touched you or just when she was present.

You opened your mouth as an invitation and merely seconds later you felt her tongue move gently against yours, making you sigh in appreciation. When both of you pulled back to take deep breaths, you stared intently at her, your eyes locking in a loving gaze.

"I could look at you all night," you whispered as your eyes was kept firmly on hers and you could see her sea coloured ones shining brighter than ever.

"I could do the same," Alex answered as she moved closer and wrapped her arms around you, burying her face in your neck as she hugged you tightly, lovingly and breathed in your scent. You closed your eyes as you just enjoyed the comfort and security that hug gave you.

When the two of you eventually pulled apart, the blonde entwined your hand in hers and lead you over to the couch where she sat you down before snuggling close to you, her head against your shoulder. You smiled at her actions as your fingers started playing gently with her hand as you just devoured the perfect moment you two were sharing.

As you sat there, your mind far away with thoughts of the blonde girl sitting snuggled up against you, you just knew everything was going to be better from now on. Everything would be alright and work out because Alex would be there with you.

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That's the end people. And nothing you say can change my mind.