The Girl Who Sold the World

"Talking"

'Thinking'

Memories

Stressed

'This is pathetic,' Kagome thought with a sneer.

She was dressed in a bunny pajamas lying on her futon in a fetal position. Her curtains were closed and she was surround by darkness. She snuggled into her pillow and let out a sigh. The door to her room creaked open and a bit of sunlight leaked over her face. Kohaku sighed as he sat beside and offered a comforting smile. Kagome rolled over so her back was to him. Kioku took a chance and curled up next to Kagome in order to comfort the girl.

"How are you doing?" Kohaku asked as he shuddered at the darkness.

"I'm alive," Kagome gave him Kanna's usual answer.

"I informed Naraku of our success," Kohaku announced.

"Did you tell him about…my lose of control?" Kagome asked.

"No, I wouldn't betray you like that," Kohaku assured her.

Kagome sighed and bit back the tears that threatened to fall. Everything inside was slowly breaking apart.

"What did you do to help the pain of the memories?" Kagome asked.

"I just accepted that what happened was reality. I knew I couldn't change that fact and so slowly, I forgave myself. Plus, I had Sango to forgive me," Kohaku quietly explained.

"I can't help but feel like all my memories are lies," Kagome finally cried.

'That's because they are,' Kohaku sadly thought.

Kohaku stood from her side and left the room. The door shut and darkness surrounded her once more. She sighed and closed her eyes knowing that she would never accept the memories.

The village was perfectly fine save for the scene she watched. Sango was hidden behind a hut peeking out from behind it. Her brown eyes were filled with tears as she stared at the cause of her pain. Kagome followed her gaze to the Houshi that deeply kissed another woman. Kagome growled in disgust as Sango approached him and smacked him. She knew those emotions in her eyes for she had the same ones. Hurt and betrayal were swimming through each tear.

"Why? Why did you…how could you do this to me?" Sango demanded as she pointed to the smirking female.

"Sango, don't you understand? I just wanted your body?" Miroku coldly answered.

Kagome's mouth fell open as she watched the rest of her friends fall apart. Sango stepped back in horror when these words left his mouth. Her hand rested on her stomach where his child…their child now grew. A gentle smile crossed her face as she took off into the woods. Kagome stood up and smacked the Houshi as hard as she could before running after Sango. Miroku grinned as he watched them go into the forest.

Kagome froze in the forest when she heard it. A gentle whimper echoed through the darkness. Terror washed over her and she ran towards the whimper. Her pace slowed as realized what the smile Sango gave was for. New fear coursed through her body as her mind began to close off. Her eyes filled with tears as she noted the onsen. The onsen was slowly filling with the color of blood.

"Sango!" Kagome cried out as she waded into the water.

Kagome pulled her sister from the water and onto shore. She looked onto the nearby rock to see the katana coated in blood. Ripping material from her skirt, she fought to seal the wounds on Sango's wrist. Sango smiled up at Kagome as her eyes began to dull. Kagome waited with Sango's head in her lap until her breathing stopped. She closed the woman's eyes and cried over her body.

'This is all your fault,' the voice whispered to Kagome.

"Sango, I'm sorry," cried Kagome, "I should have been here sooner."

'She didn't deserve this pathetic end,' the voice grew stronger.

"You were supposed to grow old and die with plenty of children or you should've had a warrior's death," Kagome sobbed over the corpse.

'Shouldn't she be avenged?' The voice taunted.

"I'll make sure you gain your peace," Kagome promised as her eyes began to dull.

Kagome's emotions began to slowly fade as she walked closer to village. Anger swelled within her when she realized she was back at the Goshinboku. A cry brought her out of her mind when she heard her name screamed. She ran towards the tree and felt a little bit more of her break away.

"Shippo," Kagome whispered feeling herself become more broken.

Her world had just broken into pieces as she fell to her knees in shock. She slowly crawled over to Shippo and carefully pulled his broken body to her. Her fingers gently pushed his bloody bangs from his forehead. His emerald eyes were dulling as he softly smiled up at her. Kagome placed her hand over the deep gash on his stomach. His blood was flowing through her fingers as she cried. Shippo weakly placed his hand in her own trying to comfort her.

"I should be the one comforting you," Kagome sobbed as she squeezed his hand tightly.

"Why weren't you here?" Shippo softly asked as the blood ran from his mouth.

"I'm so sorry," Kagome whispered.

"You didn't get here fast enough, run before he gets you too," Shippo pleaded.

"He'll pay," Kagome cried as his body went limp.

Kagome placed his body back on the ground and covered her face with bloody hands. Blood smeared onto her face as she continued to sob. She wiped her eyes and heard something came flying out of the forest. A beige blur sped towards her. She let a scream tear from her throat as more blood smeared against her body. Kagome backed away letting another horrified sob and scream loose. Hesitantly she reached out and stroked Kirara's head. Her eyes were still open, dead to the world. Kagome turned the body over and turned her head away so she could throw up. Kagome wiped her mouth as she forced herself to look at the dead Nekomata. Her stomach was torn out and half her body was ripped apart.

'Who would do this?' Kagome thought in horror.

'You know who,' the voice whispered.

"Why Inuyasha?" Kagome whispered.

'So much pain,' the voice whispered.

"I want this to all go away," Kagome whispered.

'Come with me,' the voice whispered.

"Where?" Kagome asked.

'Never look back and you'll never have to feel again,' the voice promised.

"What do I do?" Kagome asked.

"Just close your eyes," the voice echoed through the field.

Kagome closed her eyes and felt arms wrap around her waist. She broke down as a firm hand cover her forehead. She had nothing left living for. Shippo was dead, Sango was dead, Miroku was a bastard, and Inuyasha…she couldn't think of a word for him. A sense of warmth filled her and everything became so light. It felt like everything was being sucked from her mind, it felt wonderful. Her blue-gray eyes opened and she was allowed to turn around and face the man with his hand on her waist.

"Who are you?" Kagome asked.

Her gaze took in surroundings and she noticed a well and a giant tree. Everything was so clear and beautiful to her.

"Who am I?" Kagome worriedly asked.

"You are Kagome," he softly answered as a smirk formed on his face. She noticed a gleam in crimson eyes; it looked like he won some sort of prize. A memory passed through her mind and she watched a little Kitsune with emerald eyes bounce up to her.

"Where is Shippo?" Kagome suddenly asked. The man frowned before he took on a look of grief.

"I'm sorry for your lose," the man sadly replied.

"What lose?" Kagome worriedly demanded.

"You don't remember?" The man asked in fake shock.

"Remember what? Who are you?" Kagome quickly snapped in aggravation.

"I'm Naraku and you are the Miko Kagome. You began traveling with me to find the Shikon no Kakera. You met some other companions, but they betrayed you and killed your brother," Naraku whispered to her. Something told her he was right.

"Shippo," Kagome cried.

"Everything will be alright, everything will be perfect," Naraku purred as he embraced her.

Kagome groaned as she rolled over and growled in annoyance. Memories kept haunting her; she couldn't get a decent night's rest. Wanting to cry at the sudden flashback she bit her lip and choked back the sob. Her nose twitched when she heard a knock on the main door. Footsteps softly walked over to the main door and she listened to it creak open. Kagome pushed the sheets away and stood to her feet. She opened her door and placed her ear at the crack. She wanted to hear who the visitor was.

"Is Higurashi-san home?" The male voice softly asked. Kagome's eyes widened when she realized Suiichi was here.

"She's not feeling well," Kohaku hinted at him to leave.

Kagome opened the door and stepped out. She didn't care that she was still in her pajamas. Emerald eyes locked with her blue-gray and she felt guilty. She cursed him half-heartedly for making her feel guilt.

"Suiichi-san, please come in," Kagome invited before she disappeared back into her room.

"You can go to her room," Kohaku mumbled as he shut the door. Suiichi raised an eyebrow at this and Kohaku rolled his eyes. "Our rooms are like our offices."

Suiichi didn't know whether to feel relieved or stupid. He took off his shoes and walked towards the room. Deciding to be polite despite the invitation, he knocked. The door creaked open and Kagome smiled at him with a half attempt of it being convincing. He noted that she wore scarlet hakama and a white haori. It looked exactly the Chihaya of a Miko. He smiled back at her and she allowed him to enter. She left the door open to disclose any discomfort the room might bring. Kagome sighed as she walked over to the drapes and opened them.

Suiichi's eyes widened at the room. Her left wall was filled with all types of weapons. His eyes picked out the Hami-Yumi and the katanas. Kagome motioned him to sit on the mat next to the low level table. He sat down and watched as she followed suit. Kagome's eyes avoided his as he tried to make eye contact. It seemed like she was lost somewhere.

"I'm sorry to have dropped by so suddenly," Suiichi began. Kagome snapped out of her daze and smiled.

"It is not good to apologize when you have done nothing wrong, the visit is unexpected but welcoming," Kagome assured.

Kagome's eyes took in his features and noted that there were remnants of a cut on his face.

"I see that you like to really follow your ancestors," Suiichi teased.

"Not really, this is my training outfit," Kagome quickly said and then cursed her mouth.

"Perhaps we could train together one day," Suiichi suggested. Kagome looked at him with surprise and intrigue.

"What do you study?" Kagome asked in interest. She was glad to be distracted from the memories.

"My job requires me to know martial arts and a few weapons," Suiichi vaguely said.

"Being a waiter can be really dangerous," Kagome teased with a true smile. Suiichi laughed at this and agreed.

"It is dangerous when you have angry customers."

"What brings you to this part of town?" Kagome asked once her own laughter died down.

"I was going to visit a friend and decided to stop by to see you since I don't have your number," Suiichi explained.

"I don't have a landline, and my cell phone is for…business," Kagome mused.

"Then maybe I could give you my number," Suiichi mused with a smile. Kagome felt herself begin to blush.

"My friend is taking his girlfriend to the O-bon Festival at the nearby park…I was wondering if you'd like to attend with me?" Suiichi asked while trying to remain calm. It had been awhile since he met a girl that didn't want to jump him.

"It's been years since I paid any type of respect to the dead," Kagome quietly said. "I think I would be honored to attend with you."

"Years," Suiichi repeated in slight shock. He didn't celebrate O-bon that often, but he personally visited the spirits on a daily basis.

"What's today?" Kagome seriously asked.

"Today's the 15th," Suiichi responded.

"This is the night they'll send the Toro Nagashi down the river," Kagome remembered.

"This year we're going to the Tokyo bay," Suiichi softly said.

"I just need to get some things and then I'll go with you," Kagome said with a smile.

"You can bring Kohaku if you want," Suiichi offered.

"Suiichi you're sweet," Kagome honestly said in a moment of truth.

He softly chuckled and scratched the back of his neck in nervousness. Kagome stood from her place and went to find Kohaku. Suiichi listened to her footsteps and noticed that Kohaku wasn't that far. He heard the boy sigh and lightly sob. Suiichi felt like he was intruding on a private moment. He couldn't help but listen.

"Do you want to come with me to celebrate O-bon?" Kagome asked.

"No," Kohaku sternly said.

"Kohaku…please don't be this way," Kagome softly pleaded.

"I know where my sister is…we both know her soul won't return to greet us. There's no use in sending some stupid boat down the river," Kohaku argued.

"It's just to honor the dead," Kagome softly argued back.

"You want to honor a suicide victim?" Kohaku questioned in disbelief. Suiichi heard an intake of breath before a smack.

"You never talk about our sister that way! She was a great Taijiya and woman," Kagome warned as she glared at him.

'Taijiya?' Suiichi questioned in thought.

"She took the easy way out!" Kohaku weakly said as his eyes watered. "She took the easy way out when we had to suffer…when I had to suffer."

"Kohaku," Kagome softly whispered as she embraced him, "you and I know she didn't kill herself."

"That's what your memories tell you," Kohaku softly said as he tried to wipe the tears away.

"I hate to doubt master…but I remember enough of Sango to realize that she…she wouldn't do that," Kagome confided.

"I still won't go," Kohaku whispered.

"I respect your decisions," Kagome offered him some peace.

"After all these centuries and you chose to respect my decisions now?" Kohaku teased before Kagome whacked him over the head softly.

"Get out of here," Kagome teased as he ran off laughing.

Kagome walked into her room with a soft smile on her face. She felt as if some truth had been revealed and yet she didn't no what was revealed. Suiichi carefully looked up at her and she sighed. He stood up and Kagome led him to living room where he could watch TV and wait for her to change. He smiled at her and Kagome skipped off. Suiichi noticed Kohaku was watching some anime and decided to sit down with him. The anime he viewed couldn't keep questions from his mind.

'What did she mean by centuries? Was it figure of speech or was she serious?' Suiichi wondered as he glanced at Kohaku. It was impossible, the boy looked only thirteen, and Kagome looked about nineteen.

'What did she mean she said Master?' Suiichi let out a grunt of frustration.

"A word of advice if I may," Kohaku said while not removing his eyes from the anime.

"Go right ahead," Suiichi offered with no interest.

"I can see you're thinking really hard because your face was turning red. I'm giving you the same advice I gave Kagome, don't think too hard because you're head might explode," Kohaku advised before he turned all his attention to the TV.

Suiichi just blinked before he turned away from the boy. Kohaku seemed serious about what he said. He wondered how a thirteen-year-old boy could sound so serious. They both remained silent as they watched the TV. Kagome came into the living room fully dressed and glared at Kohaku. Kohaku noticed an ad come on the television. Suiichi noticed the boy's distress and looked towards the TV. Kohaku quickly turned the TV off and all Suiichi saw was a boy with reddish-auburn hair and emerald eyes.

"Where you watching something dirty?" Kagome growled.

"No, just some stupid commercial came on," Kohaku calmly replied.

"Whatever," Kagome replied.

She turned to Suiichi and smiled at him. Kagome had thrown on a pair of jeans with a dark purple sweater. Suiichi stood up and they both left the apartment to meet his friends. Kohaku sighed and walked into Kagome's room. He walked to wall with the weapons on it and gazed into the mirror set in between the weapons. Naraku appeared with a look of annoyance.

"Is she doing her job?" Naraku asked.

"Kagome is working to find a weakness in the spirit detectives," Kohaku assured.

"Good," Naraku mumbled.

"Do you doubt Kagome?" Kohaku asked. Naraku's eyes narrowed at the boy before he smirked.

"Her loyalty is questionable ever since she refused to slay that wolf," Naraku admitted.

"I'll make sure she doesn't stray," Kohaku assured with his own inside smirk.

"Do not cross me again Kohaku," Naraku warned before his image faded. Kohaku scowled as he walked back into the living to finish the anime Fruits Basket.

"Bastard," Kohaku muttered for good measure.

A woman gazed into the darkened sky with a stoic gaze. Her lilac hair was braided down to her lower back. Her eyes danced around each cloud in the sky searching for something. Her antennae on her head slightly twitched at the soft breeze. She leaned on the balcony railing and smiled softly. Anticipation filled her eyes as she watched a group of larger wasps fly towards the balcony. The group remained in the sky as one descended and dropped a scroll into her heads. She quickly took the scroll and watched the Saimyosho vanish. Walking into her room, she opened the scroll and let her eyes scan it.

Shiori,

I'm sorry that haven't sent you mail in awhile. It's been two hundred years since I last saw you. You were always good company despite the fact I forgot about you. The memories that I have, other people are slowly coming together thanks to your beautiful skills. Who would of thought that bat youkai were psychic? The memories I have of Sango, Miroku, and Shippo are still distorted. I don't think I'm ready to remember the truth about them yet. I remember when Naraku first came to me and I remember what Inuyasha did.

Inuyasha had been the hardest memory to deal with. I can't help but believe it's real and yet I feel in my heart that it's fake. Confusion has spread through me like a disease. I don't want to bring out any more of the fake memories because I need to work on the ones I have. I know you warn me against Naraku, but I have to follow him for now. Thanks for being there for me all these years.

Kagome

Shiori sighed as she tossed the scroll into the fire. Kagome still wasn't ready for the truth. The memories she had now really warped her mind. Shiori sighed again in anger. If Kagome knew the truth then she would really break down. Then she would be lost forever. Shiori began writing another scroll; she had to inform Kouga of the recent events.

Author's Note:

Remember the little bat hanyou Shiori? I've been meaning to have her appear in one of my fics!
I haven't added any new characters beside the little Nekomata Kioku. Kagome is able to link with him mentally and tap into his powers. Kagome was able to control the dead through Kioku.

If there are any more questions, I'll answer.

Please review!