Chapter 9 - The Inner Jealousy

Summer woke up at 11:00 that morning. It had been well after 3:00 AM when Seth had come to her door earlier that morning. She was still tired, but knew she was set to meet Nathan in about an hour and a half, and she'd be a little late already. She jumped into the shower, and tried to think of what to wear, instead of Seth. After getting out of the shower, she got dressed into some jeans, and a tank. She wore her hair curled a little, and natural make-up. She decided she'd really dress up during the night when she could go to Haley's with Nathan. But was that wrong? Wanting to her look her hottest around Seth and Nathan, to show Seth and Nathan was there? Who cared. She didn't.

"Mmm-bop do-wah dee-do whap." Summer sang. "I love that old song." She was talking to herself.

She pulled into the rest stop, where she was meeting Nathan. She got out of her car, and waited outside of it. When Nathan pulled up, he jumped out of his car, and they ran at each other.

"NATHAN!" Summer yelled, she hadn't realized how much she missed him.

He leaned in for a kiss, and she had forgotten how much she missed that too. "Hey Summer." He said.

She grabbed his hand, and they headed for the car. Once they got to her house, they decided to be chill, and watch movies. They were holding hands, and acting like a couple still. Probably because they never really, stopped liking each other. Pretty soon they were making out, and half of Summer didn't know what she was doing, but she didn't care at the moment. She'd sort of missed Nathan's lips on hers. His hands on her. Him touching her whenever. The doorbell rang, and Summer jumped up to get it. Her hair all frazzled. She opened the door. Her jaw dropped.

"Summer." Seth said.

"Seth." She said back.

"Busy?" He asked, looking at her hair. And wrinkled clothes.

"Sort of. Nathan's here." She said. "So I better go, see you tonight at Haley's." She began closing the door.

"Oh you guys are going." He said, trying to continue the conversation.

"Yeah... Later Cohen." She shut the door in his face.

What in the world had he done. He really wanted to know.

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That night Summer had dressed up for the occasion. She wore a hollister mini-skirt, and a pretty white shirt that had a lace line at the bottom. She wore a brown short-sleeve shrug over her the tank, and some cork wedge heels. She had her hair all curled and wore some dazzling diamond studs. Her make up was kind of heavy, but it suited her face. She looked undeniable. Nathan walked into the room after she had just finished putting on her last shoe.

"Oh My God." He said looked at her. "You look freaking hott." He smiled at her, and kissed her cheek.

"Thanks Hun." She said, and grabbed his hand. "Let's go!"

Nathan and Summer pulled up to the beach house, and walked in together. It wasn't anything different. Marissa and the rest of Summer's new clique were hanging out in the same place, including Seth, without Haley this time. Jaime getting drunk, and the rest of the guys joining in. Summer walked up to them, and for some reason Jaime came and picked her up.

"SUMMER!" He said. "My friend." He gave her a hug, and made it seem to Nathan she really belonged here.

"Hey this is Nathan." She said. "My boyfriend from Laguna."

The word boyfriend stung Seth's body like a whole bunch of jellyfish. He didn't know why she thought he wasn't genuine, and started treating him like crap. And then brought her boyfriend, or lover from Laguna to Newport, and to one of their parties. Too bad that Nathan was already getting along with Jaime and the rest of the guys. And all of the girls thought he was just "oh so hott." It almost sickened Seth to her Lisa say that Nathan was "oh so hott," because he knew that Summer probably thought that still too. Seth walked out to the deck, down the stairs, and too the beach, where he found Summer sitting in her usual place, watching the waves.

"Tired of the party already?" He said, startling her.

She looked up and saw Seth standing above her, she swallowed her pride. "No, I just felt like cooling off. It doesn't matter anyways." She said it like she wasn't asking, though.

"Ah." Seth finally said, sitting down. "Want to talk to me?" He asked her.

"Not really." Summer said pretty quickly.

"Oh." He said. "So you're sure that you don't want to talk to me." He said.

She looked over at him with a quick glance. "About what Cohen? ..What would we even freaking talk about?"

He paused for a couple of seconds. "How come you think that I'm not genuine? I want to know." He said.

She sort of looked at him with shock, but it wasn't visible. She had started putting the puzzle pieces together, and she figured that Seth had heard her conversation with Aiden. "Great." She thought, knowing that he had heard her crying and all upset over him, because the boy she wasn't dating was all over another girl. Then she realized while rambling thoughts were going through her head, that Seth was probably just sitting there wondering why she wasn't answering.

"It's hard to explain." She finally came up with.

He looked at her like he was aching for the answers, why she thought that about him. She looked into his eyes and saw pain and emotion. "Just tell me." He said touching her shoulder. "Please."

She moved her shoulder in a motion when signaled to Seth to get his hand off her. What if she didn't want to tell him that she had really liked him, even though it had just been a month since they had met each other? What if she didn't want him to know that when she saw Haley's tongue slip into Seth's mouth, and his hand go to the small of her back, that it killed her inside. She felt like she'd just been toyed with? She was so angry, but so hurt at the same time. It was an equaling out of the two, that even allowed her to talk to Cohen without getting totally angry. And how about the fact that she'd liked him in grade school, and 7th grade? And how he seemed to be the one that was nice to her.

"Summer?" She said after about 3 or 4 minutes of nothing but waves.

She looked up from her thoughts in the sand, and peered into Seth's eyes making her almost melt. She figured that she'd just tell him, get up, and walk away, but she didn't want to give him that much. It was ridiculous to attempt to even fix things, look at them, they were already having issues, and they'd only known each other for a month.

He peered deep into her eyes, making her feel worse. "Just forget it." She got up quickly, and walked off. She didn't even grab her shoes. Summer was almost to the beach house already, and Seth still hadn't budged. He couldn't believe this was happening. Summer was that girl that any guy would kill to have on their arm anywhere, and he didn't even get the chance to tell her how beautiful she was, not even once. He turned around slowly, like it was slow motion, and got up, and ran after her.

"Not letting go this time." He ran up the beach. "SUMMER." He yelled.

She tried to pretend she didn't hear him, and kept walking, but it was hard, when he wouldn't just shut up. But what did you expect, it was Cohen.

".. SUMMER." He kept going on.

She couldn't take his half-mumbling, half-yelling anymore. She whipped around faster then those electric mixing spoons. "WHAT?" She screamed at the top of her lungs.

He looked at her with a hint of fear. She looked back at him, running her hand through her hair, and blinking slowly, she looked up at him. "What do you want from me Seth? What can I do for you?" She was worn out, and she was emotionally drained.

"Just tell me Summer. Tell me what I did."

"You know, most people take a freaking HINT that I wouldn't want to talk to you? Just shut up, and leave me alone okay? I'm so sick of your rambling and making me feel worse then I already did. K? BYE COHEN."

Summer felt terrible, as she turned around pretending to not care that she'd just treated Seth worse then trash. When she walked into her bedroom, she changed into her favorite pajamas, which happened to be an extremely skanky night gown not much longer where her finger tips touched when her arms were against her thighs standing up. She put on her Stripped CD, and listened to "Walk Away" over and over, until she fell asleep. So much anger, hurt, emotion, and love was filled in her heart and soul all at the same.

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"every step I take, I make the same mistake." - Walk Away

–Next Chapter:

Will things get fixed?

What happens to Seth after Summer leaves him at the beach?