Chapter 27:

-To the hell with Feelings!-

Both went fastest way back to the village. Casey supported Michael somewhat, since Michael had still this bizarre dizziness. The people in the village looked after the two, again they had already the premonition that the beast had stroke again. But Michael saw something quite different in them. Grieve... despair... fear and hate, he could feel it and he could see it in their eyes. Michael's gaze wandered from the look of the people away and he stared at the ground and he didn't look up again, until they had arrived at the house. The sheriff sat at his work at the office table. He still looked exhausted, but could he only distract himself with work. Michael broke away from Casey's support and tried to stand on his own legs, even if he first stood there somewhat wobbly.The first thing what strikes him at the old man, was the black eye patch. Michael felt pain to see him like this. Casey cleared the throat and won so his father's attention. He looked up only briefly and hit Michael's looks. A cold shiver ran through his bones, as he saw these human eyes. Was it again one of his bad deceptions? But Michael didn't reply his look and saw instead out the window.

"What's the matter with him?" he asked Casey. He only twitched with the shoulders. "He seems... not to be himself."

"And whether he is. He's again he."

"How do you mean this?"

"It means, that I have myself under control again. My feelings are admittedly confused but my senses are still sharp."

"You came here, we gave you a housing and as thanks you slaughters us down and now you come with feelings." one could hear the anger in his voice and, Michael tried to behave quietly, however nevertheless a quiet growl came from his throat and his eyes changed from the green blue to the beaming cobalt-blue, but only for a short moment and they became again green blue. Casey and Grey Wolf looked at itself and didn't know, whether, Michael had his once again mood, however he was quiet.

"I really can't apologize for what I've done and if I'm ready, you will never see me again. I don't know what's about this place itself however, he completely confuses my mind. My reason to vanish from Detroit was, to find myself or to find a way to knock me out. I failed. I only realized that I cannot change the past and I'm not allowed to run away eternally from my shadow and that I do this since ten years. I have enough."

"What do you want to do now?"

"I will probably withdraw somewhat and will think about things, to the example how I should explain to my son why I was away for a very long time and how I should teach him, that I am differently as others."

"You don't have to tell him, Michael." Grey Wolf recommended.

"I have too, before he finds it out on his own. The first problem appeared a few years ago. I owe him the truth, when he is old enough and hopefully will understand it what I assume will become difficult."

"This sounds really complicated, my friend." grinned Casey.

"Sometimes, I wish that this never had happened."

"No, you don't. Even if your relationship is… somewhat differently...as usual, it was nevertheless love or approximately not?"

Michael lied to himself, if he answered now that it wasn't correct. He had loved Selene from the first moment as he saw her in the underground. He had fallen in love with a girl without suspecting that she had a dark secret. He said quietly:

"Yes, it was love. The feelings were new for her and foreign, but she allowed it. I gave her the feeling to be a human being again, however, from this moment, I knew that she won't survive. It's my fault that she's dead."

"Hey, Michael, listen to me. See it from the brighter side, you could experience the most beautiful moments with her, even if it was only a night, but she gave you a son out of love... because of love. She knew the risks and dangers but it didn't matter for her, as long as she could make you happy." it sounded, as if the old Native American spoke from experiences, but he was right. Selene also like him knew the risks and for a moment they forgot that the war between the immortals existed. They forgot, that Michael was a hybrid and she a vampire. All was perfect... so very beautifully. But it was the night, when Michael tasted the first time immortal blood and had almost torn Selene into the death.

"You don't have any idea, however I leave the past behind and concentrate me on Alex. If you need me, I'm in my room."

Michael left the two alone and vanished without words. Casey and his father, they could only nod and tried not to keep Michael back. Michael was now somebody quite different in their eyes. Michael used to be somebody very worry-full and good-natured and this did make him special and exceptional also after his transformation. Everyone who was bitten, no matter from which side, their temperament and character changed and astray all their interests in mortal. Michael worried more about the one around him and the one, which were dear to him and that were the people and... Selene that had left him on tragic way. Grey Wolf looked long after him and spoke:

"Is he a human being?"

"Far from it off and however near. No, he isn't. Didn't you see his eyes?"

"Those are normal, I assume."

"Didn't you see this blue previously? That isn't normal. He is more dangerous than ever before. nobody suspects, what lurks behind his more innocently facade. I mean really nobody."

"Not even you immortals? You have the ability to somebody smell for miles, why can't you track him down?"

"Because he doesn't have any smell or rather a confusing one... I don't know it. If I didn't know him, I never would have found out it."

Casey put on his hat and climbed outdoors on his horse, that he had dropped here last night and rode home... to his family.