Chapter 40:
-You have to change yourself, Kathleen-
Totally shattered he entered the apartment and curbed straight away into the bathroom. As he came out again, he met Alex on his way to the room. Alex wasted no time only to throw a look at Michael. Michael stopped him with a soft touch and asked him, despite all had had occurred, in an uneasy manner:
"How are you"?
"Lousy."
Kathleen came from the kitchen and saw the two standing in the hall she, however, could see, that Alex moved away more and more from Michael, more instinctive.
"What's wrong, you two? I thought you understand..."
"Ask Michael. He can explain it to you. All what I want is rest." Alex hissed.
"What happened Michael?" she saw at the pale boy and noticed red signs at his throat and saw again aghast at Michael. "What happened? Was he attacked by..."
"Oh please... sham saint fuss. My father... did this to me... killed his son." he shouted and hissed at Michael, then he pushed her on the side, passed by at him and closed itself into the room. Kathleen was shocked.
"You bit Alex? Are you actually insane?"
"I didn't have any choice, he got out of control and besides he was on under drug influence. He didn't know, he did what however, he was shortly before... to lose itself and to change."
"And you thought it's right to suck him simply half empty, how noble. Damn it, he could have died!"
"I know what I'm doing. I know, when the critical point comes at which everyone can die. Alex was distant far from it. He is only weak and pure. The cocaine is out of his blood. I will do a few practices with him tomorrow night."
"I don't know whether I should wish that you better never have come back. We didn't have any serious problems before, which we couldn't handle ourselves."
"You never would have made it. Alex is stronger as you can imagine and how I can assess him, he would just kill everyone, that only tries to change something in his life. Human being, vampire, Lycan, friend or enemy... doesn't matter. You could never have explained it to him and you at the all fewest, Kath." Kathleen was deeply hit from which what Michael thought of her.
"You don't trust me, is it that?"
"Here, the thing isn't trust, the thing here are experiences and don't get m wrong, you have as good as none. If you want it you can still learn and it will help you with surviving."
"I don't want to be a killer like... you or Zed and Caleb."
"I cannot always take care on you, neither can Zed and Caleb. Be aware for this."
The guest room was furnished for him and he really didn't have any more desire to discuss. All became more and more a burden for him. Maybe he really shouldn't have returned and was supposed to have left Kathleen and Alex their fate. He lay on his bed and closed his eyes. Within short a time he fell in a long one sleep. It was again one of his usual nights and the same dreams or memories, what better applied. Selene's memories filled his dreams and showed him her past, when she was happy but then he could see the fire again, as if he could feel it and he saw everywhere corpses and a small crying girl in the chaos. Michael was sweating and he was tossing an turning restlessly in the bed. then, he had with-look again Lucian's torture, as he had lost Sonja... the scene sloshed to another, when Kraven and Lucian agreed a pact and a moment later, Lucian was shot by Kraven from the back and he fell to the ground. And again, the strange scene appeared. Blizzards and everywhere fir trees and then in the dark a sarcophagus with the big C. Michael awakened and panted and drove itself through the hair. Ah my God, it was five o'clock in the afternoon.