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Hey again.

It was really hard not to follow Starfire. I mean, she just up and left. She didn't give me a warning, didn't give me any kind of sign. She didn't even tell me, her boyfriend, that her stay on Earth was temporary. I thought we would always be together. But we won't.

It's only been a week, and already I feel as though she's been away for an eternity. The tower is so quiet now. No one's ever in it. We get up in the morning, we train, and then we all go our separate ways. Are we really even a team anymore? Cyborg is always out, whether he's alone or with Bee, at the movies or the latest mechanics convention. Beast Boy is at the arcade 24/7. Raven practically lives at her café. These people I once knew, who used to be my best friends, are here but gone. They live with me, I see them every day, but I don't remember who they are.

I remember her, though. Her soft red hair and her delicate green eyes that could show me the universe. I still wake up expecting to see her delighted face as she tells me breakfast is ready. I would do anything to eat another plate of garnoflgus, if only I could watch her make it. Has it really only been a week? Will I really never see her again?

That letter she left. It's still under my pillow. I won't move it. I won't even read it again. I cry every time, because along with the silence in the tower, it ensures me that she's gone. I'm the leader of the Teen Titans. I shouldn't be crying. And in that letter, she expressed her gratitude to us. That was it. There was no special word to Robin, her boyfriend. There was just goodbye. She said she was grateful to me; she didn't say she loved me. She said she wouldn't forget me; she didn't say she would spend every waking moment wondering if I was all right. I love her. I spend every waking moment wondering if she's okay. Did she not care for me the way I thought she did? Was she not in love? Would she have really just left me if she were? Somehow that doesn't sound right, and while I don't want to admit that it might be true, I can't see any way around it. Did she only date me out of pity? Was I still only her 'best friend'? All of these doubts come after she's left, of course, when I can't ask her. Not that I would. Asking her these kinds of questions would be terrifying. She'd either laugh at me and wonder why I doubted her so much or flush and bow her head. The first would make me look stupid, but the second would break me. Neither are emotions I enjoy, so I'm not sure I would've asked even if I could. But at least then I could. Now that I can't, it's ripping me apart inside. I want to follow her just to ask her those questions, but I know that if I went, I wouldn't be able to come back without her.

I have thought of just going up there and staying on Tamaran. Why not? If she could make Earth her home, couldn't I make Tamaran mine? Sure, the food is repulsive in appearance and taste, but wouldn't it be worth it just to be with her? Honestly, I haven't counteracted this idea very much, so I don't know why I'm not on a ship trying to reach her. I guess I need to stay here, to save the city. Jump City needs its superheroes. But then Raven, Beast Boy, and Cyborg would still be here. Couldn't they save the city? No. Of course not. They were strong themselves, but without a leader to keep them together, they would fall apart. And the Teen Titans were never as strong without all five of them.

Maybe that's why we're drifting away?

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A/N:

'Ello again! Hmm… I don't particularly have much to say on this one. Just…

MERRY CHRISTMAS, AND A HAPPY NEW YEAR! -love-

Riles