Chapter 4 (No…)
"What! Rinoa screamed, "What do you mean? What do you mean gone?" She stared angrily at the headmaster waiting for his reply. "He's gone Rinoa, he just went and left and told me to tell everyone goodbye and I'm sorry." Cid replied softly and shyly. "But headmaster, it can't be! Squall won't just leave like that!" Quistis replied. "Yeah, he's gotta have a reason!" Zell added. "I'm sorry, but I couldn't stop him! I tried, but Squall didn't listen. He told me that it was his decision. He said he was sorry, but he couldn't stay with us anymore. He told me it was all to make you all happy." Cid told them. "But Squall wouldn't do that! Squall might be hard to figure it out and comprehend with, but we know deep down he's a good person! Tell us the reason headmaster!" Selphie screamed. "I'm sorry, but I can't do that. Its not my place to talk." Cid said looking at the ground. "Man, I can't believe this, this can't be true! Headmaster tell me this isn't true!" Irvine blurted out. "It's true…"The headmaster replied shyly. "He's gone. Gone… No!" Rinoa screamed and ran to the elevator to exit the headmaster's office. "Rinoa wait!" Zell said running after her, but she had already gone down the elevator.
Rinoa ran to her dorm and locked it. He's gone, just left without a goodbye.Didn' he say he just loved me yesterday? Did he leave because he thought he wasn't for me, or did I do something wrong? "Oh Squall! Why did you leave! Was it me? What's your reason!" Rinoa buried her face on her pillow and sobbed uncontrollably. She remembered when she and Squall had first met, in the ballroom. She had thought he was the most handsome guy in the ballroom and danced with him. He hardly said anything and he made lots of mistakes while dancing. Then he finally learned. "I left. After that dance. I didn't even ask for your name yet Squall," Rinoa whispered to herself. "That can't be the reason why you left right?" Rinoa said to herself as sank back down on the pillow alone with her thoughts. She remembered Squall's coldness and isolation on people. She used to call him a meanie because he would hardly talk to anybody. No one could get him to speak, and he was a little rude at the train mission. She remembered when Selphie performed with her band and she had to go and talk to Squall. She just ended up disappointed for Squall still wouldn't open up. No Rinoa, don't think that. That was Squall before, when he wouldn't open up, when he wouldn't reveal the real Squall. Think hapy thoughts. Rinoa remembered the happy thoughts, like the time when Squall was glad to see Quistis, Selphie, and Zell after they appeared in Fisherman's horizon. The time when Squall had rescued her in space. "I knew that you really wanted to rescue me Squall, you were like taking suicide, for you didn't even know if we were going to the Ragnarok. Yet you still went. Went to get me, to make me feel safe. So I wouldn't feel alone. You knew you could die out there, but you still went. I was so happy. I wouldn't have cared if we had died together in space, I'm just happy that you had cared for me. But why did you leave! Why!" Rinoa said bursting into tears once again. Rinoa fell asleep while crying.
Squall was sitting in his isolation in chamber in Esthar, thinking. "Rinoa…I'm sorry, but this is for your own good. Maybe its better this way." Squall whispered while watching Rinoa with his new sorcerer magic. He was at least able to see her, to see her briefly. But to see her crying and sobbing this way wasn't very pleasant. "Rinoa…don't cry…if only you know my reason…you should go look for someone else to love you…for I won't be able to love you anymore…" Squall said to himself. "I can't even let a strong emotion in my mind, for the emotion will turn into power and destroy the world. Because I love you Rinoa, I have to do what's against your wishes. To lock up the real me again… so please, find someone else to love…" Squall said to himself sadly.