Emotions
Chapter 4: Lighten the Mood
Disclaimer: Starwars: KOTOR II: TSL belongs to Lucas Arts, Bio-ware, and Obsidian.
Alanah's POV
I meditated in the silence of the cargo hold for about an hour and a half; I centered myself and pondered about my previous actions. I opened my eyes and stared at the palm of my right hand. 'How could I let my emotions get out of control like that?' The redness had disappeared, but the memory didn't. I could still remember the sound of my hand colliding with his face. 'I let anger get the best of me... but...' I sighed, 'I couldn't help it... I couldn't control it...' My thought eventually found it's way to the one person who had caused all these emotions to arise. He was the only person who could irritate me so effortlessly. 'Hell, he gave Atris a run for her credits.' I shook my head disapprovingly, 'I shouldn't be thinking such things anyway.' With that, I continued to meditate.
An hour later...
I felt more content now. I had let the previous anger and insecurities disappear into the depths of darkness, hopefully never to return. I felt better. I felt calm...
I stood up from the cargo hold floor and walked over to the door. I unlocked it, opened it, and gasped when I came face to face with the one person I did not wish to confront, at least not yet.
"Atton?"
He looked afraid and uncomfortable. I guessed he was on his way to see me, as I saw his left hand in the 'about to knock the door' position. He quickly put his hand in his pocket, look down to the floor, and scratched the back of his neck. "Err... Listen... I know I'm the last person you want to see right now, but... I'd really like to say sorry about... you know... all the crap you have to put up with me..."
I stared sympathetically at him, 'It must have been hard for him to approach me like this. I probably wouldn't have had the same courage.' "I guess... we should talk... we have a lot to discuss anyways." I said calmly, moving to the side to allow him to enter.
"... yeah..." He agreed, slowly walking in.
Once he entered, I closed the cargo hold, but didn't bother on locking it. There was no need to anyways. "Atton-"
"Before you start, I want to say what I have to say first." he interrupted.
I stared at him and nodded, "Go ahead..."
"First off, I'm sorry for being too forward on you, back in the cockpit. I had no right to and it was inappropriate." he apologized, uncomfortably.
"It's ok, you don't have to apologize for that. I should apologize for slapping you. It was highly uncalled for and I've should've been able to control my emotions better-" I stopped at mid-sentence when Atton placed a finger on my lips. I stared up at him, confused and shocked.
"NO! You had every right to react the way you did. I deservedit. Seriously... I did. Anyways, let my finish... " he interjected, while he removed his finger, "Second, I'm sorry for whatever I did that pissed you off that day in the cantina-"
"No wait, you don't need to apologize for that." I looked down at the floor, ashamed. "It was me... I let my emotions and personal feelings get the better of me." I sighed, "I'm suppose to be a Jedi now and I shouldn't have let those things dictate my actions or my better judgement." I looked up at him, shame and regret clear on my face. "I'm sorry, Atton. I'm sorry for targeting my regrettable and immature actions on you." I hung my head down, unable to look at him. I felt a pair of strong arms encircle me in a gentle embrace. Then, one of the hands came to my face, tilting it; which forced me to look up at him, and rested on my cheek. I looked up at him, confused. I tried hard no to let my blush show. I tried really hard.
Atton's POV
I looked down at her, "Don't ever regret your actions. Your actions make you... you. I never want you to regret being yourself."
"But, I'm a jedi. Jedi can't have their emotions fly out like the way I did." she frowned.
"Maybe so, but you're human. Humans feel emotion and it get's the best of them sometimes."
"But-"
"No 'buts'." I 'ordered'. I removed my hand and placed it on her back. I saw her sigh, defeated, lean in my embrace, and bury her face into my chest. "So... things are cool between us now, right."
She brought her head up and smiled a little, "For now." she teased.
"I'll take that as a yes." I smirked down at her. "So... you were jealous of that Twi'lek I was playing pazaak with? Don't worry, I prefer women of my own species."
"Atton." she warned.
"I mean, I know she was pretty hot and all, but no reason to be jealous of. She could get a million plastic surgeries, but could NEVER compare to you." I smirked.
"Atton." she warned again, slightly blushing.
"Seriously, you've got a body that could stop a war! Now, I've seen plenty of women, but not one of them can ever be close enough to compare to you."I chuckled. I was surprised when I heard her begin to giggle. I looked down at her, slightly confused. I then felt her arms finally return my embrace and felt her tremble with laughter.
"You're always able to lighten the mood." she laughed into my shirt.
"What can I say, it's my special talent." I chuckled. Soon we were both laughing out loud, in each others arms. Unknown to both of us, the cargo hold door opened up.
"Oh sorry!"
Our attention was brought to the entrance of the cargo hold; and there stood Bao-Dur, with a shocked expression on his face. Both Alanah and I gasped and separated from each other. 'Damn it! He just had to interrupt us, didn't he?' I glanced at Alanah and saw her blush heavily. She glanced back at me, but then looked at the floor, slightly embarrassed.
"Err... maybe I'll come back later." the zabrak said uncomfortably and started to leave.
"No! What did you want Bao-Dur? Is it urgent?" Alanah said.
'Yes, Bao-Dur, what was so important that you had to interrupt Alanah and I's special moment.' I rolled my eyes and crossed my arms, annoyed.
"General, we received a holo message from someone by the name of 'Visquis'." Bao-Dur informed.
A Few minutes later...
We all gathered outside the Ebon Hawk and watched the holo message. When it ended, I rolled my eyes. "Good thing it's not a trap." I remarked sarcastically.
"No Atton, I think it is a trap." Mical exclaimed.
I looked at him, annoyed. I was about to retort something witty, but, 'Forget it, way too easy...' I thought. I looked over to Alanah, "So, what are you going to do?"
Alanah sighed and crossed her arms, "What else? I'm going to meet with this Viquis, what other alternative do I have? I know it's a trap, but it's the only way I can meet with an Exchange representative and get this damned bounty on Jedi lifted."
"Are you sure you should go alone?" Visas questioned.
"I'll have to, I have no choice." she sighed, rubbing her temples in annoyance.
She soon left, leaving us to wait for her return. We all watched her back as she disappeared into the dark alleys of Nar Shaddaa on her way to the Jekk'Jekk Tarr. Everyone made their way into the ship, but I stayed outside.
"Atton?" I voice behind me called out.
I glance back to see Bao-Dur, "I'm going to the Cantina. I'd rather be playing Pazaak or having a drink of Juma, than wait on the ship." I said, before running off. That wasn't the real reason I didn't want to stay in the Hawk. It was Alanah. I had a bad feeling about this whole Visquis thing. I just had to warn her.
Alanah's POV
I was on my way to the Jek'Jek Tar at the Docks' north end.
"Alanah!" I stopped and looked back. I saw Atton run towards me. I waited for him to finally reach me.
"Atton? What are you doing here?"
"Listen, the Jek'Jek Tar is very dangerous, especially for a human. And, now the Exchange is involved." he warned, "I have a bad feeling about this whole thing and I... I just don't want you to get hurt or worse." He stared at me with concerned eyes. "Here, just in case..." He handed me some antidotes and medkits.
'He came all this way for me?' I smiled at him. "Thank you, Atton. I really appreciate your concern." I leaned up and gave him a quick peck on the cheek. I turned around, about to leave for the Visquis encounter when I felt Atton gently grab my wrist. I turned my head and stared up at him. He was blushing and looked embarrassed.
"Err... when your done... I'll be right here... waiting for you..." he whispered, blushing.
I smiled softly and nodded, "I'll come back, when it's all over." With that, I ran off to the direction of the Jek'Jek Tarr. I know Atton wasn't really going to wait outside for me, at least not at that same spot. He was going to the Cantina to wait for me there. What he was going to do in the Cantina didn't concern me, right now, I had more important things to focus on.
"So, you're the jedi causing all of the commotion." A female voice said out of nowhere. I stopped immediately and looked around. "You know, for someone with a huge bounty on their head, you don't really know how to keep a low profile." Finally, a young redhead, dressed in green leather appear from a nearby ally.
"What's it to you?" I eyed her cautiously. I held my light saber in my right hand, just in case.
Author's Notes: Done with chapter 4! Hazzah! Anyways, I decided to give Atton and Alanah a break and to give you all a treat! Therefore, a bit of Atton&Alanah(Exile) fluff to make all you fangirls and fanboys squeal in delight. I originally wasn't planning on adding more Atton&Alanah(Exile) fluff, until a few more chapters. I wanted to create more drama and conflict between the two, but I'll save it for future chapters. I tease. :wink: Thank you for reading and thanks to all my wonderful reviewers.
Reviewer Responses:
Tela: Thank you for reviewing! Heh, yeah I know about Atton's real name. Randy Jaq? I thought it was just Jaq. :shrugs: Oh well, Atton will always be Atton Rand to me; Atton Rand the Pazaak Whore. :snickers:
N. Snicket: Thank you for reviewing! Really! I actually inspired somebody? Yay! Good luck with your fic.
Waygate:ROTHLMAO: If I had put something like that, Alanah would've given Atton a black eye! Or drill her light saber through his head. :lol: 'Mr. Prince Charming', I'm glad someone notice that little 'Easter Egg'. Mical sounds just like Prince Charming from Shrek 2, doesn't he? I think they have the same voice actor. :shrugs: Thanks for reviewing!
Sarah: Thanks for reviewing, glad you loved it!
Kuramas Girl Angel: Great minds do think alike! Atton is a perv, one of the reasons I love his character so much. It also makes it more fun to wrie about him. Sadly, Atton doesn't react when your PC wears the dancer outfit. He doesn't even say anything when your dancing for Voggo the Hutt and he is present. Damn Obsidian... I would have loved it if when you talked to Atton, while wearing the dancer's outfit, he'd say something flirty/perverse/funny. But, noooo... us fangirls get nothing. :sigh: Thanks for the review!
Trillian4210: Thanks for reviewing. I absolutely love your work. You're a fantastic writer! I'm glad you liked my writing style. I was concern it wasn't really good and I was hoping my vocabulary didn't make it seem I was a C average middle school student. I'm actually really self conscious about my writing.