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Chapter recap:

"He was put into prison. But we were all affected me, my father, my brother. We had a terrible time living without her. She was so perfect. She didn't deserve to die. Sometimes I wonder if I wasn't there distracting her, whether she would have paid more attention to the road and could have avoided the bastard."

"Don't say that. It wasn't your fault. Do you hear me? It wasn't your fault. You couldn't have done anything to prevent what had happened. Don't beat yourself up because of it. Look at me." He lifted my head and looked in my eyes. "It's not your fault. And no matter what you think or what others say, it will never be your fault, okay?"

"Thanks for listening" I whispered.

I looked up and met his eyes in an intense connection…

Chapter Five

A Broken Heart

Suddenly, the Ferris wheel jerked to a stop, causing them to both fall off the chair… (A/N: heh…. I just had to do it…)

"Ow…that hurt" Sakura said, rubbing her head.

"Yeah. Erm…. Can you get off me?" Syaoran asked, slightly blushing. Sakura looked down and saw that she was sitting on top of him.

"OH… s-sorry..." Sakura quietly said, blushing, quickly getting off of him.

SAKURA POV

Omigod… I can't believe that actually happened… were we going to kiss? I placed my hand over my heart, feelings it beating rapidly. I don't know what happened but… I don't know… I'm so confused with my own feelings right now.

"I wonder what happened" I asked walking over to the window.

"Erm, I think we just stopped" Syaoran replied as I blushed a deeper red, if that's possible.

"Oh…" I stupidly replied.

We sat at the top of the Ferris wheel, viewing the whole park of magnificent lights and color. After an odd silence passed between us, Syaoran finally spoke.

"I'm sorry about what was going to happen before. I have no idea what I was doing, and if I could, I'd take it back instantly" He said in a rush. I felt a constriction of my heart, not knowing what it was, I chose to ignore it.

"O-oh, that's okay." I replied quietly.

The ride was finally ended, and we both got off reluctant to face the evil duo, Tomoyo and Eriol.

"Sakura!" Tomoyo squealed. I inwardly groaned.

"So what did you guys do up there?" Eriol asked calmly.

We both looked at each other and blushed, which caused Tomoyo to squeal even louder. She took my arm and dragged me over to a secluded area.

"I need to talk to her alone. Be right back" she yelled behind us. She kind of looks scary… I wonder what she's up to.

She took me to a secluded spot near the trees and started pestering me with questions.

"So…. What did you guys do up there? Something happened, didn't it? I just know it!" She exclaimed with twinkled eyes.

"Er… nothing happened exactly" I said turning crimson.

"Uh huh. You can't just stand there beet red and tell me nothing happened. Now spill!" she demanded.

"I can't"

"And why not?" she asked. I racked my brain for something to say.

"Um, because, I'm thirsty! Yeah, thirsty! Are you thirsty? I'll get us something to drink! I'll be back in a second!" I said dramatically. I then a speedily walked towards a lemonade stand nearby.

On the way, I spotted Eriol and Syaoran. I was about to say hi when they didn't notice me. However, they started talking about the ferries wheel incident and curiosity got to me, so I hid behind a tree.

"So what happened between you and Kinomoto up there?" I heard Eriol ask.

"Nothing. We just fell when the ride stopped at the top, and we had a conversation."

"I don't think a conversation would make you blush. So what really happened?"

"Okay. Well, I don't know what came over me, but I think I might have almost kissed her. It was a 'in-the-moment' kind of thing. And that's when the ferries wheel jerked to a stop. And I'm glad that it did." He finally said.

My heart was thumping whether from the fact that he meant to kiss me or that fact that it was a mistake and he was glad he didn't. I ignored my heart and kept listening.

NORMAL POV

"So do you like her?" Eriol asked.

"What are you talking about? I don't even know her!" Syaoran exclaimed.

"So what? You can still like her. I liked Tomoyo the moment I met her" he sighed.

"Well, not everyone's like you. Kinomoto and I were forced into this engagement. Neither one of us wants this. I surely don't. I don't want to be settled down with anyone right now, and NOT with someone I don't even know. She may become a good friend but I don't think she'll become anything other than that. We're too different. She doesn't like me and I don't like her. Not in that way, anyway." He said

"Calm down. No need to get all worked up."

"Oh, shut up." Syaoran growled.

"You were always moody. I was wondering when you'd get back to your old self. You were actually NICE when you first found out about your betrothal." Eriol smiled.

"I don't know what you're talking about" Syaoran replied walking away.

"Hey, where are you going?" Eriol asked, catching up to him

"Looking for the girls. They've been gone for a while."

SAKURA POV

I walked away from the tree, not knowing what this feeling is inside of me. I slowly went back to where I left Tomoyo, feeling as if my heart was deserted. Was what we shared up in the Ferris wheel nothing? I thought somehow we connected by our past. Maybe I was just being naïve and foolish actually thinking that this marriage could be something more, something WITH more, just…. MORE.

"Sakura!" Tomoyo said running up to me.

"Hey Tomoyo."

"Where's your drink?" she asked

"Huh? My drink? Oh yeah, I wasn't that thirsty anymore." I replied.

"Is something wrong?" she asked.

"No. I just had a realization of something."

"And what was that?" she asked.

"That nothing can ever be" I whispered.

"You're not making any sense. Be what?"

"More." I said plainly. "Let's just go find the guys and go home. All of a sudden, I'm not feeling so well."

Tomoyo looked at me with a concerned look on her face. She linked her arms with mine and we walked, her knowing that silence is the best way she could help me when I'm down. (I don't know if that makes any sense, but yeah…)

We met up with the guys near the entrance after phoning them.

Tomoyo, thank god, wanted to sit next to me, so I didn't have to sit with Syaoran.

"So Syaoran, did you have fun?" Tomoyo asked.

"Yeah" he replied

"How about you Sakura?"

"I guess" I replied also. Tomoyo sighed in frustration

"How about you Eriol honey?" she asked, a little threateningly.

"I had a blast Tomoyo! It was the most fun I had in years!" he said, trying to be excited, but in actuality being scared of his wife.

"Good." There was a long, awkward silence after that.

"So is anyone going to ask if I had any fun?" Tomoyo asked, as we all sweat-dropped.

AT HOME NORMAL POV

Sakura wanted Tomoyo to spend the night to catch up on things. They both stayed up at night talking about what happened while they were away from each other.

Sakura and Tomoyo sat in front of the television after popping in a movie. On the sofa, Tomoyo suddenly turned to Sakura.

"So are you going to tell me what happened at the amusement park, or what?" she asked.

Sakura was a little taken back by the outburst and recalled what she overheard.

"Okay. If I tell you, you won't freak or anything, right?" Sakura asked

"Of course not" Tomoyo responded. However, Sakura knew that that would never happen.

"Okay, well, I think we were going to kiss." Sakura started to say, Tomoyo trying to muffle her squeal. "But we didn't. The ride stopped and we fell over instead. But I think, I mean, thought… thought, I liked him."

"What do you mean by thought? Why the past tense?" Tomoyo asked confused

"Well, remember when I was going to get the drink?" Sakura said, as Tomoyo nodded.

"Well, on the way, I kind of heard Syaoran and Eriol talking. Do you want to know what he said? He told Eriol he didn't like me. I thought we had a connection, something different from other people. But I guess I was wrong. Foolishly, I thought something could actually happen between us, and we wouldn't have to live our whole lives suffering, living in a loveless marriage. I can't do that. I'm going to meet someone else. I don't care if I have to marry Li later. I might as well have a little while of happiness before my doom, right?" Sakura said quietly, a little bitter

"Oh Sakura" Tomoyo sighed, embracing her. "It'll be okay. I'm sure everything will turn out just fine."

"I hope you're right Tomoyo, I hope you're right" Sakura closed her eyes.

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