Chapter four: I don't want to fall in love

Don't want to have you hangin,
Around me like a leech.
I think you're just a problem,
So stay the hell away from me because I don't believe in you.
And I wanna sit here all my life alone.
This may sound a little rough,
Don't wanna fall in love.
Don't need security.
I ain't no dog without a bone.
Don't have no time for love.
So stay the fuck away from me because I don't believe in you,
And I wanna sit here all my life alone.
This may sound a little rough.
Don't wanna fall in love.

-Don't want to fall in love by Green day

I can't be in love can I? Zabuza asked himself as he lay on his bed resting his wounds and sore muscles. No way I can't be, I don't want to be in love at all. I have to push her away. Zabuza thought to himself. "Hey." Josephine said in a depressed and somewhere else kind of voice. "What's wrong?" Zabuza asked in a cold voice as he sat up and looked over at her. "I miss my family and friends back at home." Josephine said in a sad voice. "Tell me about them." Zabuza exclaimed as he laid back down a little bit away from Josephine. "Oh…okay. Well there's my best friend Kato, she isn't really my sister but were so close that we count each other as sisters and her real sister Rebecca is really cool she's just like Kate and I, she always reads our fan fictions and she upholds our inside jokes with us. She's really cool just like Kato, so is Rebecca's husband and the rest of the family is the same way. They all coupe with my insane hyper ness and…" Josephine paused as she stood up.

"Then there's the nickname they gave me, monkey." Josephine smiled at the word monkey. "There whole family calls me it, it's like they adopted me in way or something. And I miss my parents and even my brother Richard, my family is cool now that I realize it, I really miss them. Especially my dad he's so awesome, he picks on me all the time and we argue constantly but it's awesome the way we go back and forth with small insults like idiot and stupid my mom is too strict and is always yelling at me and my dad for bickering." Josephine turned around and made it so Zabuza could only see her back as tears started to streamed down her cheeks. "I didn't say goodnight or I love you before I went to bed because I was so wrapped up with my notes for my fan fictions." Josephine said trying to hide her shaky voice so Zabuza wouldn't know that she was crying. "And Heather, man Heather and I have been friends since I was in Kindergarten. We count each other as sisters too, we never have fought once just like me and Kato. Heather gets along with Kato too so where the three ninja otakus." In that sentence Josephine couldn't hold back her shaky voice so Zabuza knew she was crying. Zabuza quickly stood up and walked to Josephine, he flung his arms around Josephine's waist and rested his chin on her shoulder, his body to close for comfort to Josephine's. Josephine didn't do anything she just stood there tears streaming down her cheeks rapidly. "Zabuza." Josephine whimpered.

"Yes, what is it?" Zabuza asked not nearly prepared for what Josephine was about to say. "Why does my heart speed up so fast when I'm around you?" Josephine asked him. Zabuza held Josephine tight not able to answer her question. Zabuza released the girl with a slight smile on his face. I need to block her out but I can't bring my self to do so. Zabuza told himself. "Zabuza do you have family or friends?" Josephine asked. "No." Zabuza said coldly and then he went and laid back down. "Zabuza…" Josephine trailed off. "What?" Zabuza said harshly. "Where's Haku?" Josephine finally came out with it, she had been wondering where Haku was since the morning but she was too afraid to bring up the matter. "He's…" Zabuza trailed off. "He's what?" Josephine asked in between Zabuza's pause. "Dead." Zabuza finished his face changing from a glare to a sad look. "Oh Zabuza I'm so sorry." Josephine said as she laid on the bed next to him. She wrapped her arms around Zabuza's waist and snuggled her face into his shirt. At first Zabuza took it in a comforting way but then he sat up leaving Josephine on the bed. "Zabuza what's wrong?" Josephine asked as she too sat up. "Nothing I just need to be…alone right now that's all." Zabuza lied.

Josephine's face smiled softly and warm like. "Okay no prob, I'll go make us some ramen." Josephine said as she stood up and walked to the kitchen. When Josephine finished with making the ramen she brought it back to Zabuza's room. When she came back she found Zabuza asleep, stretched out on the bed. "Poor Zabuza, Haku must have been his only friend." Josephine whispered to herself. "I'm so sorry Zabuza." Josephine whispered to herself some more. "Why does he have to suffer such pain and Haku, poor Haku his parents disowned him and the world hated him only Zabuza would take him in." Teats pricked Josephine's eyes again. "I wish I could stop his forever suffering." Josephine said quietly. "But how could I do that. It isn't possible." Josephine said sadly. Am I in love? Josephine asked herself. I can't be in love can I? How is this possible, I don't show emotion. I hate emotions they get in my way, they always have.

A/N: I'm sorry I had to add a little sorrow, but our little fag boy died so we had to have some sorrow. Sheesh what are we gonna do without our little fag boy? I'm gonna miss him! NYAR! You should see the tears running down my cheeks right now! This is the saddest moment of my entire life… Starts balling