Okay heres the next chapter of My Will. *sigh* Why I am I so sad? Because only one person reviewed chapter 3. You people could have been nice enough to leave reviews. *sigh*
I guess thats just how the cookie curmbles. Heres the next chapter. This time nothing is going to be funny in this chapter. But it is going to have romance and a little bit of singing.
"Words" and 'Thoughts' and some thoughts won't have this 'sign'.
Discalmer: Look I'm going to call the police on you people if you don't leave me alone. I don't own them dammit and I never will! Go ask someone else!
My Will ch.4
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That was the 5th demon she had killed. And Now Kikyou was just bored.
She had long ago tired of hearing Yusuke asking asking Botan if they were lost, and Botan not wanting to admit it saying that it was suppost to take this long to reach there destionation. Well no wonder it takes over 5 hours to get to there, you have to pass the same tree 5 times before you finally know where your going.
Kuwabara didn't help matters much when he took the map from Botan to prove that he had a better since in direction. And thats why they almost fell of a cliff. Because of his so called since of direction.
At least Hiei wasn't annoying. He was as silent and bored as herself!
And Kurama... Well she just couldn't talk to him. What exzactly would they say? Hi how have you been doing for the last 20 or so years?(I don't know how old he is.)
The Kurama she knew was a 6 year old little boy, if you didn't count his demon side. But the one now was all grown up. What the hell was she suppost to say to him!? One half of her was mad for him not keeping his promise and the other half was glad that she got to see him agian.
And that half of her was the side that she was afraid of.
He was suppost to mean nothing to her. She had seen many children come and go, some makeing the same promise he had and she had never thought or felt anything for them once they left her forest.
So then why did she cry for him? That day...The day he left and she held him and cried. The only time besides the first years of being a ghost had she cried. But why? She had seen a hundred children besides him leave her. Why?
Why indead. Why was he the only one that for days after he left she thought about? Maybe it was that she found something of herself in him. They were both alike, they both had a secret. For Kikyou it was that she was a ghost and when she was a child it was her powers. For Kurama it was the demon inside of him and his own powers. Maybe for that reson alone he told her his real name instead of the one his mother calls him.
It was just so confuseing. Just like it was so confuseing when she met and fell in love with Inuyasha.
Inuyasha huh? That was another secret and mistake that she would aways carry with her. Their romance had led to her and so many others deaths. Which was something she could never forgive herself for. Exspecily since because her death had killed her sister.
Kaede had always looked up to her, and when she died she was on her own. Without her sister and without something to believe in she started to blame and hate her. So it was only natural that when she was about to get killed she came to see her death.
Ironc isn't it that when she did it caused her own death.
And even more ironic was that she got to see her die on her own death bed. Her words haunted her even now.
"Kikyou. How could you leave this world to me. For that I hate you. I hope your own madness and insanity damns you to hell for enternity."
Those were her last words. At her death she could finally see her own sister. And damn her too.
The last words of her sister repeated itself in her head. It was almost to much to bare.
Kikyou waited untill Kurama and the others were far ahead, to sink to her knees. Her sisters last words were makeing her go insane.
"Your not there. Your dead. Leave me alone."she wispered the words to herself over and over. It was the same thing she had been saying to herself since her sister said those words to her years ago.
She almost didn't notice when Kurama walked back and put his arms around her.
When she did she pulled his arms off of her and stood up. She looked at him with anger. More angery at herself then him.
"I don't need your help I can take care of myself." She said it just loud enough for him to hear and just harsh enough that he got the point.
Kikyou walked away from him knowing that she had hurt his feelings and wanting to smack herself on the head because she cared.
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"We should be arriveing at the shrine tomarrow."
Everyone sighed or rolled their eyes at Botan's words. She had said the same thing today, except when she said "we should arrive before sunset." And now it was nighttime.
They had aready set up camp. And Kuwabara was trying to cook and failing badly. Botan yelled at the group to tell them she knew where they were going. Hiei told her she couldn't find her way out of her own office, so how the hell was she going to get them to where they wanted to go. Botan jumped on him and hit him with the rolled up map which started a fight between the two. As everyone was distracted Kikyou left the group.
Kikyou stepped into what she had been looking for.
The lake with the red flowers growing in it. (The one in the 1st ending for Inuyasha.) It had always been her favorite spot to sit and think so long ago. It also marked that they were close to Inuyasha's woods and her home. It was supriseing that it still stands. Many thought that it was built on where Kagome's parents shrine is, but the truth is her parents shrine just looks like the original shrine which was the one they were heading to now. The one where they were going to so they could question Inuyasha.
"Inuyasha...even after all these years your presence still haunts me. I wish you would just leave. Theres just to much for time to erase."Kikyou said to herself. She sighed and looked up at the cresent moon.
"I can't hold on to my feelings for you, if I do when I see you it will just make it all much more harder."
Kikyou stepped on to the lake. She used her spirit power to inhabit the water so she could walk on the surface.(Just like in Final Fantasy 10.) Kikyou deicide to do what she always did to express her feelings. She decided to sing...
(Play if you have it the song My Will at this part. Theres Three lines of lyrics then theres what shes doing while shes singing.)
Quitely awakeing...
My world has no meaning
But my ways not easiy to go
Kikyou walked out to the middle of the l lake. She out streached her hand and the water rippeled.
Years...
Thousands of years in exsitence
When I see love I have to take my time
The water under her came upward so that she was standing on a pedestal of water.(Agian. Its like in FF10 when Yuna did the sending or what ever its called on that one city in the beganinng of the game.)
Spent my days alone
Being by myself
Without you...
She Let the water splash up around her where she moved her hand. she let it make a dazzeling display of effects.
Thinking of you...
Made me cry
So many times
'Its true the lyrics. I do think of you all the time Inuyasha. But the lyrics seemed to have changed from what they were before.'
But I have...
My will to be strong with out you
'Know I have to be strong without you but its not as easiy as it seems.'
I have...
My will to be with you agian
'I don't want to be with you any longer. And I know you don't want that either. Somehow amiting it to myself doesn't hurt as bad as I thought it would. Maybe I've found something else to live for'
Believe...
Believe...
Believe...
'Or maybe someone else to live for...'
(Okay you can stop playing My Will if you want. The singing parts over.)
Kikyou voice faded away with the song and the waters went back to normal. She stepped back on to the dirt ground and sat down with her knees to her chest and put her arms around them. Kikyou rested her head on the top of her knees and closed her eyes. She reopened her senseing powers and sensed Kurama. She took her head off of her knees and looked at the bushes besides her, when she heard rustleing in the bushes.
"How long have you be standing there?"asked Kikyou. She didn't turn to look at Kurama she turned her head to look at the lake instead.
"Long enough."said Kurama. He sat down beside her and followed her gaze across the lake.
"Kikyou-"
"I don't want to talk about it!"She stood up and looked down at him. Angery brown eyes met clam green ones, as they both stared at each other.
Kikyou bowed her head so shadows would crossover her face. So he couldn't see what see was feeling inside.
"If...you have to leave...I wish you would just leave! Your presence still haunts me too. Maybe there are things that time can erase..."
"Kikyou...I know things are a little...confuseing..."
"Confuseing? How can you possiblely know what I'm feeling? You have kept your life, while I have lost mine. So don't tell me what the hell is confuseing!"
"Kikyou...Why do you hold such anger toward me? Is it about what happened back in the woods so long ago?"
"Kurama...Its...not that..."
Kurama stepped up to her and placed his hands firmly on her shoulders and pulled her into a embrace. Kikyou strugled to get away from him, but since he wasn't about to let go she gave up. She relaxed into the embrace but didn't put her arms around him like he did with her.
"Its not weakness to give into the pain of the moment."said Kurama.
"I don't care. I don't want to feel anymore, its too hard. I can't..."
Kurama pulled away sightly to put both of his hands on her cheaks and pull her head up untill their foreheads were touching. Kikyou brought her hands up and let her fingers trail through his long red hair. Their lips almost touched when they pulled away when they heard a strange noise.
"Kuwabara be quite! They'll hear us." wispered a Botan.
"I can't help it. this kind of tree makes me snezze."wispered back Kuwabara.
"Would both of you shutup. God I wish I had some popcorn or something."said Yusuku.
"I find it disgusting. Who cares what they do, they can makeout or have se-"said Hiei before he was interupted by someone jabbeing him in the ribs.(We all know what he was about to say.)
Hiei started to take out his sword to slice Botan(Who had hit him in the ribs) When everyone made a tried to stop him and they all fell out of the tree and landed on their heads.
Kikyou pulled away from Kurama and started giggleing. While Kurama for once looked slightly mad. And everyone else made excuses for being there.(Except Hiei. He just left.)
"How long have you been hideing up in that tree watching us?"asked Kikyou.
"Not long. We came just when you Kurama was saying that things are confuseing."Said Botan,"Well we have to go see you at the camp site." all three of them ran off leaveing Kurama and Kikyou alone.
"Kurama...Would you have kissed me if they hadn't interfered?"
"I'm not sure...Would you?"
"No. I think we were both caught up in the pain of the moment."
Kurama started walking away untill Kikyou steped in frount of him.
"That song you heard me singing...Lets keep it between you and me. It will be like our secret song. Okay?"
"Yes I understand. It wil be our secret song, I won't tell anyone."
"Thanks."said Kikyou. She kissed him on the cheak and started walking back to camp. She looked over her shoulder to see that Kurama was still standing there, then she looked in frount of her and dissapered from view.
Kurama stood there for a moment, then he looked up at the moon."Maybe it was just the pain of the moment..."
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Aw that was all sappy and what not. Oh well. Its Not like I don't like romance its just that I think that might have been too sappy. Well the next chapter will have some action in it, Because Kikyou has to fight-
Dark side of Jazz7:Don't tell them! They'll just have to read the next chapter to find out.
Light side of Jazz7:Yeah, read chapter 5 to find out. But the only way your going to get it is if you review.
Jazz7:So review. Just hit that little button that says "Go" and review please.
I guess thats just how the cookie curmbles. Heres the next chapter. This time nothing is going to be funny in this chapter. But it is going to have romance and a little bit of singing.
"Words" and 'Thoughts' and some thoughts won't have this 'sign'.
Discalmer: Look I'm going to call the police on you people if you don't leave me alone. I don't own them dammit and I never will! Go ask someone else!
My Will ch.4
~~~~~~~~~
That was the 5th demon she had killed. And Now Kikyou was just bored.
She had long ago tired of hearing Yusuke asking asking Botan if they were lost, and Botan not wanting to admit it saying that it was suppost to take this long to reach there destionation. Well no wonder it takes over 5 hours to get to there, you have to pass the same tree 5 times before you finally know where your going.
Kuwabara didn't help matters much when he took the map from Botan to prove that he had a better since in direction. And thats why they almost fell of a cliff. Because of his so called since of direction.
At least Hiei wasn't annoying. He was as silent and bored as herself!
And Kurama... Well she just couldn't talk to him. What exzactly would they say? Hi how have you been doing for the last 20 or so years?(I don't know how old he is.)
The Kurama she knew was a 6 year old little boy, if you didn't count his demon side. But the one now was all grown up. What the hell was she suppost to say to him!? One half of her was mad for him not keeping his promise and the other half was glad that she got to see him agian.
And that half of her was the side that she was afraid of.
He was suppost to mean nothing to her. She had seen many children come and go, some makeing the same promise he had and she had never thought or felt anything for them once they left her forest.
So then why did she cry for him? That day...The day he left and she held him and cried. The only time besides the first years of being a ghost had she cried. But why? She had seen a hundred children besides him leave her. Why?
Why indead. Why was he the only one that for days after he left she thought about? Maybe it was that she found something of herself in him. They were both alike, they both had a secret. For Kikyou it was that she was a ghost and when she was a child it was her powers. For Kurama it was the demon inside of him and his own powers. Maybe for that reson alone he told her his real name instead of the one his mother calls him.
It was just so confuseing. Just like it was so confuseing when she met and fell in love with Inuyasha.
Inuyasha huh? That was another secret and mistake that she would aways carry with her. Their romance had led to her and so many others deaths. Which was something she could never forgive herself for. Exspecily since because her death had killed her sister.
Kaede had always looked up to her, and when she died she was on her own. Without her sister and without something to believe in she started to blame and hate her. So it was only natural that when she was about to get killed she came to see her death.
Ironc isn't it that when she did it caused her own death.
And even more ironic was that she got to see her die on her own death bed. Her words haunted her even now.
"Kikyou. How could you leave this world to me. For that I hate you. I hope your own madness and insanity damns you to hell for enternity."
Those were her last words. At her death she could finally see her own sister. And damn her too.
The last words of her sister repeated itself in her head. It was almost to much to bare.
Kikyou waited untill Kurama and the others were far ahead, to sink to her knees. Her sisters last words were makeing her go insane.
"Your not there. Your dead. Leave me alone."she wispered the words to herself over and over. It was the same thing she had been saying to herself since her sister said those words to her years ago.
She almost didn't notice when Kurama walked back and put his arms around her.
When she did she pulled his arms off of her and stood up. She looked at him with anger. More angery at herself then him.
"I don't need your help I can take care of myself." She said it just loud enough for him to hear and just harsh enough that he got the point.
Kikyou walked away from him knowing that she had hurt his feelings and wanting to smack herself on the head because she cared.
~
"We should be arriveing at the shrine tomarrow."
Everyone sighed or rolled their eyes at Botan's words. She had said the same thing today, except when she said "we should arrive before sunset." And now it was nighttime.
They had aready set up camp. And Kuwabara was trying to cook and failing badly. Botan yelled at the group to tell them she knew where they were going. Hiei told her she couldn't find her way out of her own office, so how the hell was she going to get them to where they wanted to go. Botan jumped on him and hit him with the rolled up map which started a fight between the two. As everyone was distracted Kikyou left the group.
Kikyou stepped into what she had been looking for.
The lake with the red flowers growing in it. (The one in the 1st ending for Inuyasha.) It had always been her favorite spot to sit and think so long ago. It also marked that they were close to Inuyasha's woods and her home. It was supriseing that it still stands. Many thought that it was built on where Kagome's parents shrine is, but the truth is her parents shrine just looks like the original shrine which was the one they were heading to now. The one where they were going to so they could question Inuyasha.
"Inuyasha...even after all these years your presence still haunts me. I wish you would just leave. Theres just to much for time to erase."Kikyou said to herself. She sighed and looked up at the cresent moon.
"I can't hold on to my feelings for you, if I do when I see you it will just make it all much more harder."
Kikyou stepped on to the lake. She used her spirit power to inhabit the water so she could walk on the surface.(Just like in Final Fantasy 10.) Kikyou deicide to do what she always did to express her feelings. She decided to sing...
(Play if you have it the song My Will at this part. Theres Three lines of lyrics then theres what shes doing while shes singing.)
Quitely awakeing...
My world has no meaning
But my ways not easiy to go
Kikyou walked out to the middle of the l lake. She out streached her hand and the water rippeled.
Years...
Thousands of years in exsitence
When I see love I have to take my time
The water under her came upward so that she was standing on a pedestal of water.(Agian. Its like in FF10 when Yuna did the sending or what ever its called on that one city in the beganinng of the game.)
Spent my days alone
Being by myself
Without you...
She Let the water splash up around her where she moved her hand. she let it make a dazzeling display of effects.
Thinking of you...
Made me cry
So many times
'Its true the lyrics. I do think of you all the time Inuyasha. But the lyrics seemed to have changed from what they were before.'
But I have...
My will to be strong with out you
'Know I have to be strong without you but its not as easiy as it seems.'
I have...
My will to be with you agian
'I don't want to be with you any longer. And I know you don't want that either. Somehow amiting it to myself doesn't hurt as bad as I thought it would. Maybe I've found something else to live for'
Believe...
Believe...
Believe...
'Or maybe someone else to live for...'
(Okay you can stop playing My Will if you want. The singing parts over.)
Kikyou voice faded away with the song and the waters went back to normal. She stepped back on to the dirt ground and sat down with her knees to her chest and put her arms around them. Kikyou rested her head on the top of her knees and closed her eyes. She reopened her senseing powers and sensed Kurama. She took her head off of her knees and looked at the bushes besides her, when she heard rustleing in the bushes.
"How long have you be standing there?"asked Kikyou. She didn't turn to look at Kurama she turned her head to look at the lake instead.
"Long enough."said Kurama. He sat down beside her and followed her gaze across the lake.
"Kikyou-"
"I don't want to talk about it!"She stood up and looked down at him. Angery brown eyes met clam green ones, as they both stared at each other.
Kikyou bowed her head so shadows would crossover her face. So he couldn't see what see was feeling inside.
"If...you have to leave...I wish you would just leave! Your presence still haunts me too. Maybe there are things that time can erase..."
"Kikyou...I know things are a little...confuseing..."
"Confuseing? How can you possiblely know what I'm feeling? You have kept your life, while I have lost mine. So don't tell me what the hell is confuseing!"
"Kikyou...Why do you hold such anger toward me? Is it about what happened back in the woods so long ago?"
"Kurama...Its...not that..."
Kurama stepped up to her and placed his hands firmly on her shoulders and pulled her into a embrace. Kikyou strugled to get away from him, but since he wasn't about to let go she gave up. She relaxed into the embrace but didn't put her arms around him like he did with her.
"Its not weakness to give into the pain of the moment."said Kurama.
"I don't care. I don't want to feel anymore, its too hard. I can't..."
Kurama pulled away sightly to put both of his hands on her cheaks and pull her head up untill their foreheads were touching. Kikyou brought her hands up and let her fingers trail through his long red hair. Their lips almost touched when they pulled away when they heard a strange noise.
"Kuwabara be quite! They'll hear us." wispered a Botan.
"I can't help it. this kind of tree makes me snezze."wispered back Kuwabara.
"Would both of you shutup. God I wish I had some popcorn or something."said Yusuku.
"I find it disgusting. Who cares what they do, they can makeout or have se-"said Hiei before he was interupted by someone jabbeing him in the ribs.(We all know what he was about to say.)
Hiei started to take out his sword to slice Botan(Who had hit him in the ribs) When everyone made a tried to stop him and they all fell out of the tree and landed on their heads.
Kikyou pulled away from Kurama and started giggleing. While Kurama for once looked slightly mad. And everyone else made excuses for being there.(Except Hiei. He just left.)
"How long have you been hideing up in that tree watching us?"asked Kikyou.
"Not long. We came just when you Kurama was saying that things are confuseing."Said Botan,"Well we have to go see you at the camp site." all three of them ran off leaveing Kurama and Kikyou alone.
"Kurama...Would you have kissed me if they hadn't interfered?"
"I'm not sure...Would you?"
"No. I think we were both caught up in the pain of the moment."
Kurama started walking away untill Kikyou steped in frount of him.
"That song you heard me singing...Lets keep it between you and me. It will be like our secret song. Okay?"
"Yes I understand. It wil be our secret song, I won't tell anyone."
"Thanks."said Kikyou. She kissed him on the cheak and started walking back to camp. She looked over her shoulder to see that Kurama was still standing there, then she looked in frount of her and dissapered from view.
Kurama stood there for a moment, then he looked up at the moon."Maybe it was just the pain of the moment..."
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Aw that was all sappy and what not. Oh well. Its Not like I don't like romance its just that I think that might have been too sappy. Well the next chapter will have some action in it, Because Kikyou has to fight-
Dark side of Jazz7:Don't tell them! They'll just have to read the next chapter to find out.
Light side of Jazz7:Yeah, read chapter 5 to find out. But the only way your going to get it is if you review.
Jazz7:So review. Just hit that little button that says "Go" and review please.