Well one review agian. I wonder if anyone is reading this. Well if you are you sure aren't stateing that you are by not reviewing. I have the same problem with my other fanfiction.(which you should read.) You people should review, so I at least know to update. If you don't I will problemly finish it but not post any chapters up on this site. I'm not really desprate for reviews, I could care less if you don't review. But it would be nice if you did so I would know that people are reading my story and that you guys do want me to update. That goes for the people that read my other fanfiction too. Now lets start the chapter.
'Thoughts', "Words", and some thoughts won't be surrounded by this 'sign'.
Disclamer:If you don't own them then nether do I.
My Will ch.5
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The wind went through the trees and the grass. It seemed to lift everything into the air with it as if on wings.
A lone figure stood on the rolling hills of grass. Her back was turned toward the direction of the field and her chest toward the direction of the surrounding woods. Her black hair free of its ribbon, moved with the wind in a neverending dance. Her red and white robes, fluttered in the breazse.
The women lifted up a hand to her head and let her fingures trail through her hair. She then turned her head a little to the side and said:"Kurama..."
Kikyou woke up. She sat up in the middle of the clearing of the woods and put a hand to her heart. The dream may have been gone but it still upset her. What in the world could it mean?
Kikyou looked up at the sky. From the position of the sun it was noon.
"Damn."She cussed to herself. She was suppost to be up hours ago. Why was it that she was always late for important events? She was late to get the Shikon jewel, she was late for her training to be a priestess, she was late to her little sisters suprise birthday party, everything that was important that she was suppost to attend she was late to.
Maybe it was because of last night...
After being held by Kurama she felt a little sleepy. Maybe it was that she finally relaxed when she was held by him and let go of all of her stress. Or maybe it was his sent. He smelled like the calming scent of roses...
Kikyou's thoughts weren't on him as she rushed to pick up her bow and arrows. She ran through the forest to get back to the camp site. She didn't even stop to tye her hair into her regular hair style. Her ribbon was currently gripped by her right hand. And she was too much in a hurry to stop and fix her hair.
"She's late."said Hiei.
It was now four hours after the time that they were suppost to leave. And Kurama was worried.
Kikyou had left the camp site last night to go find somewhere else to sleep. She had said that she wanted to be alone and would meet them at seven o'clock to leave for the shrine.
"Maybe we should go look for her."said Botan. Botan walked back and forther in the same spot. It was obvious that she was worried about the priestess. It wasn't supriseing she was always worried about anyone in there team that went missing.
"So go send her boyfriend Kurama after her."said Yusuke. He sat with his hands behind his back, sitting behind a tree.
Kurama glared at him. "I'm not her boyfriend."
"Well then what exzactly do you mean to each other? Its obvious that you know each other very well and that you have met before."said Kuwabara.
At that moment Kikyou burst through the trees. She stood in front of the others out of breath and with her right hand over her heart.
"I...I...I'm sorry I'm late. W...w...we should problemly get going if we want to reach the shrine before Naruku catches on to what were doing." Kikyou tryed to regan her breath. She was never really that healthy when she was alive and thats why she never ran alot, besides in emergances. Now with her being alive agian she was aware of the fact that she wasn't very healthy now either.
Botan looked relived and concered about Kikyou, But turned her back and started walking in the direction of the shrine with the others when Kikyou told them to go ahead with out her.
Kurama looked at her with a worried glaze. He was both relived and worried about her health. He walked up to Kikyou and looked down at her. Kikyou didn't lookup and didn't sense him either. She was too worried about her own health.
Kurama in one quick movement had picked Kikyou up in his arms.(He picked her up like a groom would do his bride.)
Kikyou closed her eyes and put her head agianst his chest. She didn't move, didn't strugle, and didn't yell at him. She was just too tired to move or form the words she wanted to say.Her breaths went shallower as she drifted off into a uneasy sleep. She was reminded off how Inuyasha would always pick her up when she was too tired to walk. Her last words before falling asleep were: "Inuyasha..."
Kurama was a little hurt that she was thinking of him. But what was he suppost to do? He was her first love and she was free to love who ever she wanted even if it wasn't him.
He put his head ontop of her sleeping one and inhaled her scent. She smelled faintly of Kikyou flowers, the forest, and rainwater. Even if it wasn't raining.
Botan turned around when she noticed that Kurama and Kikyou wasn't a part of the group. She told the others to keep going and ran off back to there old camp site.
Botan was relived and stuned by what she saw. And debated with herself wether she should interrupt the moment before speaking.
"Kurama..."
Kurama sighed knowing that his moment with Kikyou was up and took his head off of hers. He looked up at Botan and sighed agian.
"I'm comeing."
Botan didn't question about him and Kikyou. In a strange way she knew what was going on, she left it up to them to decied and turned around and walked away.
Kurama started walking away with Kikyou still in his arms. He stoped and frowned. He should put her up on his back so the others wouldn't question him, but it was too late now. And who gives a damn what they thought anyway. Because when the clock struck midnight, and Kikyou woke up, everything would be back to normal and it would be like this moment never exsited.
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Kikyou walked through a cave. It was too dark to see, but see could see a few feet in front of her. And that she was wounded. Her shoulder had been ripped and one of her lungs were punctured.
It was getting harder an harder to breath. Kikyou stop to rest a bit and the darkness closed around her. It was so thick she thought it would swollow her. Scared of being acctaly swollowed, she quickly moved on.
Finally she entered a chamber in the cave. It was lit with some light reflecting off the puddles off water and the rock fectures. She looked down at herself. She was wearing the modern clothing that she had got at the mall. The boots had blood stains on it. Her blood stains.
She steped feather into the room and looked around. She heard a step behind her and turned around. The way that she had come into the room disappered. Alarmed by this she took a step back.
Arms wrapped themselfs around her shoulders.
"What do you fear the most?"said a familer voice into her ear.
Kikyou felt like she was about to cry for the first time in her life. The voice sounded so familer yet so evil. Who was it? Kikyou wimpered and didn't answer.
"What do you fear the most?"it said agian. This time it sounded more demanding. And more evil.
Kikyou couldn't help but answer. She said the first thing that came to her mind. "Love."
"Why? Is it because of the past? The betrales, the failures, the pinning for someone who will never love you? Or is the feeling of being used and then thrown away? Like yesterdays trash."
Tears ran down Kikyou's face. There was no exscape from the voice. It was like it could see right into her soul. But worser still was that it was someone she knew...
"Shuss...Now don't cry,"the person relised her and came around to stand in front of her with their hands still on her shoulders."I'll always be there for you. Kikyou." That flash of red hair, it was like blood in the dark and the way he said "Kikyou". Like he owned her like she was just another possision that he could easily do without. Kikyou sivered and put her arms around her waist and lowered her head.
A clawed fingure went under her chin and force herself to meet his green eyed gaze. He steped closer to her and put his face closer to hers. Too close.
"Do you stil believe that love can come to us? Did you wait all these years for someone who would hurt you more then Inuyash did. You know betrale is such a bitch."said Kurama. He smiled a very evil smile. Like his lips didn't move upward they slithered upward.
Kikyou stared into the eyes of her friend, her lover, her death. Green eyes met brown for one last stare. Kikyou could see nothing of the old Kurama in him, nothing of the little lost boy that she had fell in love with or the half demon half man that she had waited centaries for.
His hands let themselfs explore her and Kikyou didn't stop him. (Don't worry, she still has her clothes on. Or else this would be R rated.) After all what was the use, he always got what he wanted. His lips touched hers in a barely there kiss and then he deeped it. He pulled away and put one hand on her cheak. Only a thin trail of slaiva and their bodies conncted to each other connected them. He wispered something to her.
"You were always blind Kikyou, you just didn't know how blind. You can't teach a old fox new tricks." Then she felt the familer pain of a clawed hand through her heart as her blood spilled everywhere. He was right. Betrale is a bitch...
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Kikyou woke up with a start. She noticed that she was being carried and looked into the face of the one carrying her.
It was Kurama. She still remembered the dream and everything in it. She covered her hand over her mouth to prevent her from screaming, and pushed him away. She landed on the ground and quickly got up.
"Are you okay? You were moaning in your sleep."asked Kurama. Kikyou couldn't meet his eyes and lowered her head.
"I'm okay..."said Kikyou. 'How can I look at him? In the dream he was, he did, I just can't...But it was just a dream right?'thought Kikyou.
"Wheres the others?"
"There out trying to see where we are. Don't worry they didn't hear you screaming in your sleep."replyed Kurama. He leaned his back agianst a tree and turned his head to look at a tree to his right.
"Oh. Really. I mean, I was screaming?"said Kikyou. She looked at the ribbon in her right hand and tyed her hair in its regular style. She looked down at the grass instead of looking at him and wondered what to do. 'I was screaming? No wonder with the dream I had,'Kikyou thought to herself. She looked up at Kurama then and saw he still wasn't looking at her.'I wonder if its a vison of whats to come ahead. Would Kurama really do that to me? But then I don't know this Kurama, only the one when he was a child. And I could feel that there was more between me and Kurama in that dream then friendship. It was like a relationship really. Would Kurama betray me?'
"You know this is kind of like back then, when I was lost in the woods with you."said Kurama. He turned his head and looked straight at her. Kikyou didn't turn away, she looked back at him.
"Yes it is."replyed Kikyou.
"Kikyou...Are you afraid of me?"asked Kurama.
"What!?" Kikyou took a step back and placed a hand to her heart. His question reminded her of a simular one in her dream.
"I said, are you afraid of me?"replyed Kurama. He took a step toward her and she took a step back.
"You are aren't you? I can see it in your eyes..."said Kurama. He looked down at the ground.
"Kurama...,"said Kikyou. She was reminded of the day she had first met him and how he was afraid of her. Kikyou stepped closer to him, dispite her innerselfs protests."I could never be afraid of you. Just because my eyes are lieing doesn't mean my heart is too." She put a pale hand under his chin and brought his head up to look at her. She let her hand rest over his left cheek. He startled her a bit when he put his hand over her hand. He closed his eyes as he rubbed her hand across his cheek.
"Aha, there you to are!"yelled Botan. Kurama and Kikyou quickly pulled away.
"H..how long have you been standing there?"asked Kikyou. She put her hands behind her back and looked behind Botan to see the others.
"Not long enough I'm afraid. I missed the good parts. And Kikyou are you blushing?"asked Botan. Kikyou felt her cheeks grow hot and quickly put her hands over them and turned away, by Botan laughed.
"Ah I knew you guys were a item!,"exclamed Kuwabara. He ran up to Kurama and patted him on the back."Congragulations on getting a girlfriend!"
Before Kurama could answer Kikyou went up to him and put her arms around his waist. She looked angerly a Kwabara and said: "Yes were happly married and have two kids. Of course he's not my boyfriend you idiot!" Kikyou pushed Kurama away from her and crossed her hands over her chest.
"Now with out anymore interruptions or sidetracks, lets continue our jounery."said Kikyou.
"Well nice to see you back too, sleeping beauty."said Yusuke. Kikyou glared at him and walked past the others, she yelled over her shoulder for them to hurry up and follow her or she was going to leave them behind.
From far away a demon with a jewel smiled.
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Well thats it for this chapter. Next chapter Kikyou really does fight with someone and after all these years she and Inuyasha meet agian.
This chapter almost had some R content in it, luckly for you guys I erased it and you have the chapter you just read. I think I just skimed the bar between PG13 and R, hopefully this won't turn into a R rated fanfiction because I hadn't planned for it to be R. And as you already know I plan all my fanfiction in my head first. That way I already know the plot and where the storys heading. But the R rated stuff that I erased and the stuff in chapter 3 and this one I didn't plan.
Oh and I don't know if I put this up in the last chapter but: Do not take the lyrics that Kikyou was singing in the last chapter. Those belong to me. So if you want to use them, ask me first. So don't steal them. Okay?
Well I'll see you guys next chapter and don't forget to review.
'Thoughts', "Words", and some thoughts won't be surrounded by this 'sign'.
Disclamer:If you don't own them then nether do I.
My Will ch.5
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The wind went through the trees and the grass. It seemed to lift everything into the air with it as if on wings.
A lone figure stood on the rolling hills of grass. Her back was turned toward the direction of the field and her chest toward the direction of the surrounding woods. Her black hair free of its ribbon, moved with the wind in a neverending dance. Her red and white robes, fluttered in the breazse.
The women lifted up a hand to her head and let her fingures trail through her hair. She then turned her head a little to the side and said:"Kurama..."
Kikyou woke up. She sat up in the middle of the clearing of the woods and put a hand to her heart. The dream may have been gone but it still upset her. What in the world could it mean?
Kikyou looked up at the sky. From the position of the sun it was noon.
"Damn."She cussed to herself. She was suppost to be up hours ago. Why was it that she was always late for important events? She was late to get the Shikon jewel, she was late for her training to be a priestess, she was late to her little sisters suprise birthday party, everything that was important that she was suppost to attend she was late to.
Maybe it was because of last night...
After being held by Kurama she felt a little sleepy. Maybe it was that she finally relaxed when she was held by him and let go of all of her stress. Or maybe it was his sent. He smelled like the calming scent of roses...
Kikyou's thoughts weren't on him as she rushed to pick up her bow and arrows. She ran through the forest to get back to the camp site. She didn't even stop to tye her hair into her regular hair style. Her ribbon was currently gripped by her right hand. And she was too much in a hurry to stop and fix her hair.
"She's late."said Hiei.
It was now four hours after the time that they were suppost to leave. And Kurama was worried.
Kikyou had left the camp site last night to go find somewhere else to sleep. She had said that she wanted to be alone and would meet them at seven o'clock to leave for the shrine.
"Maybe we should go look for her."said Botan. Botan walked back and forther in the same spot. It was obvious that she was worried about the priestess. It wasn't supriseing she was always worried about anyone in there team that went missing.
"So go send her boyfriend Kurama after her."said Yusuke. He sat with his hands behind his back, sitting behind a tree.
Kurama glared at him. "I'm not her boyfriend."
"Well then what exzactly do you mean to each other? Its obvious that you know each other very well and that you have met before."said Kuwabara.
At that moment Kikyou burst through the trees. She stood in front of the others out of breath and with her right hand over her heart.
"I...I...I'm sorry I'm late. W...w...we should problemly get going if we want to reach the shrine before Naruku catches on to what were doing." Kikyou tryed to regan her breath. She was never really that healthy when she was alive and thats why she never ran alot, besides in emergances. Now with her being alive agian she was aware of the fact that she wasn't very healthy now either.
Botan looked relived and concered about Kikyou, But turned her back and started walking in the direction of the shrine with the others when Kikyou told them to go ahead with out her.
Kurama looked at her with a worried glaze. He was both relived and worried about her health. He walked up to Kikyou and looked down at her. Kikyou didn't lookup and didn't sense him either. She was too worried about her own health.
Kurama in one quick movement had picked Kikyou up in his arms.(He picked her up like a groom would do his bride.)
Kikyou closed her eyes and put her head agianst his chest. She didn't move, didn't strugle, and didn't yell at him. She was just too tired to move or form the words she wanted to say.Her breaths went shallower as she drifted off into a uneasy sleep. She was reminded off how Inuyasha would always pick her up when she was too tired to walk. Her last words before falling asleep were: "Inuyasha..."
Kurama was a little hurt that she was thinking of him. But what was he suppost to do? He was her first love and she was free to love who ever she wanted even if it wasn't him.
He put his head ontop of her sleeping one and inhaled her scent. She smelled faintly of Kikyou flowers, the forest, and rainwater. Even if it wasn't raining.
Botan turned around when she noticed that Kurama and Kikyou wasn't a part of the group. She told the others to keep going and ran off back to there old camp site.
Botan was relived and stuned by what she saw. And debated with herself wether she should interrupt the moment before speaking.
"Kurama..."
Kurama sighed knowing that his moment with Kikyou was up and took his head off of hers. He looked up at Botan and sighed agian.
"I'm comeing."
Botan didn't question about him and Kikyou. In a strange way she knew what was going on, she left it up to them to decied and turned around and walked away.
Kurama started walking away with Kikyou still in his arms. He stoped and frowned. He should put her up on his back so the others wouldn't question him, but it was too late now. And who gives a damn what they thought anyway. Because when the clock struck midnight, and Kikyou woke up, everything would be back to normal and it would be like this moment never exsited.
~
Kikyou walked through a cave. It was too dark to see, but see could see a few feet in front of her. And that she was wounded. Her shoulder had been ripped and one of her lungs were punctured.
It was getting harder an harder to breath. Kikyou stop to rest a bit and the darkness closed around her. It was so thick she thought it would swollow her. Scared of being acctaly swollowed, she quickly moved on.
Finally she entered a chamber in the cave. It was lit with some light reflecting off the puddles off water and the rock fectures. She looked down at herself. She was wearing the modern clothing that she had got at the mall. The boots had blood stains on it. Her blood stains.
She steped feather into the room and looked around. She heard a step behind her and turned around. The way that she had come into the room disappered. Alarmed by this she took a step back.
Arms wrapped themselfs around her shoulders.
"What do you fear the most?"said a familer voice into her ear.
Kikyou felt like she was about to cry for the first time in her life. The voice sounded so familer yet so evil. Who was it? Kikyou wimpered and didn't answer.
"What do you fear the most?"it said agian. This time it sounded more demanding. And more evil.
Kikyou couldn't help but answer. She said the first thing that came to her mind. "Love."
"Why? Is it because of the past? The betrales, the failures, the pinning for someone who will never love you? Or is the feeling of being used and then thrown away? Like yesterdays trash."
Tears ran down Kikyou's face. There was no exscape from the voice. It was like it could see right into her soul. But worser still was that it was someone she knew...
"Shuss...Now don't cry,"the person relised her and came around to stand in front of her with their hands still on her shoulders."I'll always be there for you. Kikyou." That flash of red hair, it was like blood in the dark and the way he said "Kikyou". Like he owned her like she was just another possision that he could easily do without. Kikyou sivered and put her arms around her waist and lowered her head.
A clawed fingure went under her chin and force herself to meet his green eyed gaze. He steped closer to her and put his face closer to hers. Too close.
"Do you stil believe that love can come to us? Did you wait all these years for someone who would hurt you more then Inuyash did. You know betrale is such a bitch."said Kurama. He smiled a very evil smile. Like his lips didn't move upward they slithered upward.
Kikyou stared into the eyes of her friend, her lover, her death. Green eyes met brown for one last stare. Kikyou could see nothing of the old Kurama in him, nothing of the little lost boy that she had fell in love with or the half demon half man that she had waited centaries for.
His hands let themselfs explore her and Kikyou didn't stop him. (Don't worry, she still has her clothes on. Or else this would be R rated.) After all what was the use, he always got what he wanted. His lips touched hers in a barely there kiss and then he deeped it. He pulled away and put one hand on her cheak. Only a thin trail of slaiva and their bodies conncted to each other connected them. He wispered something to her.
"You were always blind Kikyou, you just didn't know how blind. You can't teach a old fox new tricks." Then she felt the familer pain of a clawed hand through her heart as her blood spilled everywhere. He was right. Betrale is a bitch...
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Kikyou woke up with a start. She noticed that she was being carried and looked into the face of the one carrying her.
It was Kurama. She still remembered the dream and everything in it. She covered her hand over her mouth to prevent her from screaming, and pushed him away. She landed on the ground and quickly got up.
"Are you okay? You were moaning in your sleep."asked Kurama. Kikyou couldn't meet his eyes and lowered her head.
"I'm okay..."said Kikyou. 'How can I look at him? In the dream he was, he did, I just can't...But it was just a dream right?'thought Kikyou.
"Wheres the others?"
"There out trying to see where we are. Don't worry they didn't hear you screaming in your sleep."replyed Kurama. He leaned his back agianst a tree and turned his head to look at a tree to his right.
"Oh. Really. I mean, I was screaming?"said Kikyou. She looked at the ribbon in her right hand and tyed her hair in its regular style. She looked down at the grass instead of looking at him and wondered what to do. 'I was screaming? No wonder with the dream I had,'Kikyou thought to herself. She looked up at Kurama then and saw he still wasn't looking at her.'I wonder if its a vison of whats to come ahead. Would Kurama really do that to me? But then I don't know this Kurama, only the one when he was a child. And I could feel that there was more between me and Kurama in that dream then friendship. It was like a relationship really. Would Kurama betray me?'
"You know this is kind of like back then, when I was lost in the woods with you."said Kurama. He turned his head and looked straight at her. Kikyou didn't turn away, she looked back at him.
"Yes it is."replyed Kikyou.
"Kikyou...Are you afraid of me?"asked Kurama.
"What!?" Kikyou took a step back and placed a hand to her heart. His question reminded her of a simular one in her dream.
"I said, are you afraid of me?"replyed Kurama. He took a step toward her and she took a step back.
"You are aren't you? I can see it in your eyes..."said Kurama. He looked down at the ground.
"Kurama...,"said Kikyou. She was reminded of the day she had first met him and how he was afraid of her. Kikyou stepped closer to him, dispite her innerselfs protests."I could never be afraid of you. Just because my eyes are lieing doesn't mean my heart is too." She put a pale hand under his chin and brought his head up to look at her. She let her hand rest over his left cheek. He startled her a bit when he put his hand over her hand. He closed his eyes as he rubbed her hand across his cheek.
"Aha, there you to are!"yelled Botan. Kurama and Kikyou quickly pulled away.
"H..how long have you been standing there?"asked Kikyou. She put her hands behind her back and looked behind Botan to see the others.
"Not long enough I'm afraid. I missed the good parts. And Kikyou are you blushing?"asked Botan. Kikyou felt her cheeks grow hot and quickly put her hands over them and turned away, by Botan laughed.
"Ah I knew you guys were a item!,"exclamed Kuwabara. He ran up to Kurama and patted him on the back."Congragulations on getting a girlfriend!"
Before Kurama could answer Kikyou went up to him and put her arms around his waist. She looked angerly a Kwabara and said: "Yes were happly married and have two kids. Of course he's not my boyfriend you idiot!" Kikyou pushed Kurama away from her and crossed her hands over her chest.
"Now with out anymore interruptions or sidetracks, lets continue our jounery."said Kikyou.
"Well nice to see you back too, sleeping beauty."said Yusuke. Kikyou glared at him and walked past the others, she yelled over her shoulder for them to hurry up and follow her or she was going to leave them behind.
From far away a demon with a jewel smiled.
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Well thats it for this chapter. Next chapter Kikyou really does fight with someone and after all these years she and Inuyasha meet agian.
This chapter almost had some R content in it, luckly for you guys I erased it and you have the chapter you just read. I think I just skimed the bar between PG13 and R, hopefully this won't turn into a R rated fanfiction because I hadn't planned for it to be R. And as you already know I plan all my fanfiction in my head first. That way I already know the plot and where the storys heading. But the R rated stuff that I erased and the stuff in chapter 3 and this one I didn't plan.
Oh and I don't know if I put this up in the last chapter but: Do not take the lyrics that Kikyou was singing in the last chapter. Those belong to me. So if you want to use them, ask me first. So don't steal them. Okay?
Well I'll see you guys next chapter and don't forget to review.