I've decided to try to make a new chapter of My Will thanks to reading some great fan fiction. I have to say that it's not everyday that I come across good fan fiction. To be honest, most a half baked plots that are either horrible, boring, used a lot, or sound childish and fangirl/boy like. It's hard for me to find a real gem among the piles of rocks in the fan fiction world. Because of this, or maybe before this, I consider fan fiction not to be a real form of literature. Don't get me wrong, it's entertaining and all that, but until the day you can write or think up a original, a good original, plot with your own characters then you can't really call yourself a writer or a author at all. You're just a imitation.

Maybe this opinion is too harsh, maybe it's just right. But as I said to a person on Media Miner long ago, I don't really give a rats ass what you think. I'm not saying it to be rude, in fact I'm also not saying this to be hurtful, I'm just being my REAL self. And if that real self is arrogant, prideful, and a little to rash, well that's okay. I'm happy with it. I wish most people could be happy and not write something because of other people. That's when you become a real writer I think. When you don't write for your fans. You should never make a plot or a chapter because other people want you to. Reviews and fans should be there to give you a push, not to force you. And, as it is, I care for my fans (if I have any) and my reviews and feel like they are friends. And as friends I won't lie to you. I won't give you bullshit or half of my abilities. No. I will give you the best I have. And if I'm not satisfied with it, I'll rewrite it and continue to rewrite it until I am. I'll wait for the right time to write, the right moment, and then I'll write. And when I lose that feeling I'll stop and wait for it to come back. If it takes a year, a month, a week, or even a day, then I'll wait.

And if you really want the ending, if you really like the story, if you really care then you'll wait to. And I'm glad to say that there are some good, some of the best damn fan fiction "authors" out there. They're the ones that push past the line of the ordinary or enhance that line to make a true diamond among the rubbish. And for them I say thank you. Thank you for writing some of the best fan fiction this site or any other has. Thank you, I only hope that someday I can write like that. I hope that someday maybe you can write like that too if you really want to.

Just like love, there is a thin line between the extraordinary and the ordinary. And someday I strive to leave this world of fan fiction and make my own extraordinary plots with my own characters. So that the rest of the world can see my true talent.

I won't bore you any more with this long authors note. I'll let you read. Don't mind my ramblings. Please enjoy the chapter, and if you haven't already, visit my website to look for more fan fiction. Well I haven't posted anything new yet but I will. :) And thank you all who reviewed the pervious chapters and thank you Cold Kikyou for reviewing chapter 11. I'm glad to know I haven't lost all my readers. So with that, on with the story.

My Will ch. 12

The future continues on ward from one moment to the next. A continued spiral of loss, love, fellowship, and experience. All creatures feel it, and so, are truly alive...

"Here we are," Kikyou said sadly. "The cave of creation." ()

Kurama looked ahead and past Kikyou to see a enormous opening in what must have been a mountain at one time. Whether man made or not, it took ones breath away at how deep and pitch black it was. Nothing of the contents of the cave could be seen and a strange aura seemed to surround it.

"Okay, so all we have to do is enter it right? If that's the case then lets go!" Yusuke said quickly and walked past Kikyou to the entrance in front of them.
"No, Yusuke!-" Kikyou was too late, Yusuke "attempt" to enter the cave sent a jolt of electricity up his spine, stunning him and making his fall back.

"What was that?" Hiei asked. Not out of concern for Yusuke's current condition, just out of curiosity.

Kikyou shook her head. There would always be foolish heroes. Kikyou stepped toward Yusuke and helped him up, all the while saying: "That was what I was about to tell you all about. The only way you can enter the cavern is if you feel pity toward Midoriko and the lost souls in and surrounding this place."

Before Kurama could stop himself, the words: "That's kind of selfish of Midoriko, isn't it?" spilled out of his mouth. Whether this was of his own will, his other half's will, or some one or something else's will, it still seemed odd.

At those words, for some strange reason, Kikyou felt a miss placed kind of hate for him. Who was he to say what was selfish? He hadn't been there at all! No he had been some place else!

At these feelings Kikyou bit her bottom lip and succeeded in stopping Midoriko's anger before it evolved. If this kept up who knows what will happen. Midoriko had to be silenced, and soon.

Kurama watched as Yusuke finally stood up and attempted again to pass through the entrance after saying a few rude words, at these Kikyou's eyes seemed to darken a bit more. Worried over Kikyou, Kurama stepped toward her. Before he could lay a hand on her Kikyou looked up at him and snarled out: "Don't touch me!"

Kurama, stunned at her unusual behavior took a step back, hurt at her words. The others watched on with interest as Kikyou shook her head and tried to come up with a explanation, then stopped and walked through the cave instead. An explanation would have to wait until this was all over.

'I'm sorry, Kurama. Really I am. But for now things are just going to have to stay like this.' Thought Kikyou as she sensed that everyone else slowly followed behind her.

Night fell swift and cool upon the forest outside of the Demon Slayers village. Kuwabara had managed to catch a ride with a couple that had been heading for a main city near by from the hospital. On the way, and at the beginning, the couple had asked him where he was heading. Kuwabara had kept his mouth shut, it wasn't any of there business, and though he did feel a urge to yell: "I'm on my way to stop a possessed priestess before she can kill my friends, thank you very much!" Kuwabara managed not to scream.

Now it seemed that they should have never even trusted her. But Botan was right, it wasn't HER fault. And though it really was Midoriko's and Naraku's, you couldn't blame the spirit priestess or Naraku either. It was fate, plan and simple.

"Fuck fate..."Kuwabara mumbled under his breath. Fate had been VERY unkind to him in his life. Words like "destiny", "fate", or "the right path". Seemed as damaging as an old curse. When had a simple, "save the world from another psychotic and pissed off demon" turn into "save the world from a now human and possessed priestess , oh and the demon too!".

The driver, the man with the annoying Hawaiian shirt, seemed to hear part of what he said and turned to look over his shoulder, confusion evident across his face. Kuwabara looked up and faked a smile, saying a little harshly: "Watch the road please."

'Soon, just a couple more miles and I'll be there. Damn, I wish I had that broom of Botan's or hadn't wasted so much time!'

That time wasted had been spent on thinking up two plans. One if things went wrong, and one if they went right. That and making sure the "boss" was updated.

"If you get there in time and chant this spell I gave you, this should make Midoriko and Kikyou split from each other and Midoriko return to the Shikon no Tama. But if Midoriko is awakened before that...

Kuwabara stared at Botan as she wrung her hands, trying to say what she wanted to say. What she had on her mind wasn't easy to voice. But finally she was able.

"If that fails, if Kikyou's will grows to weak, then you have to kill Kikyou."

Kuwabara sat up in his chair, knocking it backwards. "You want me to kill Kikyou?"

Botan looked up, her eyes watery and full of emotion. "I know this is...hard...But you and everyone else has to do it! Midoriko using Kikyou's body is almost as bad as Naraku using both Kurama and Kikyou's bodies. Midoriko is full of rage, whether this rage came to life suddenly because of Naraku handling the jewel or Kikyou realizing her powers or came slowly over time. This rage will destroy everything. This rage will eventually destroy Kikyou if Midoriko tries to take back the jewel. If you're too late-"

'I'll kill Kikyou. But only IF I'm not too late. I pray I'm not...' With those thoughts burning with in him, Kuwabara turned to look out the side window and into the light of the full moon.

In another place, quite close to the village Kuwabara was heading to, Sesshoumaru surveyed the land from atop a hill that used to be used for a look out to watch for demons.

How many years HAD it been? Sesshoumaru had lost count, some where between carrying Rin away from Kikyou's body and marrying her he had lost count. But one forced counted...

Time. Persistent as always. Time had made the land owned by demons in the North, South, and East fall. Sesshoumaru's land had only reminded because dog demons could blend in quite well with humans. To humans he was just a business man with a large land deed. But that wouldn't last for long. Already his people had forgotten their old ways. The old ways were vanishing and old morals with it.

Once Sesshoumaru had hated humans, and then Rin and Kikyou came along and changed things.

"Sesshoumaru? What's wrong?"

Sesshoumaru turned around at the voice that came from behind him. Rin stood looking at him, her chestnut eyes darkened with worry for him, and maybe Kikyou as well. After all, Rin had showed more affection toward her then Sesshoumaru.

"Nothing."

Rin frowned, even after all these years he could still shut her out. And even after all these years she still sometimes felt like a little girl that was always trying to catch up to him with little success. But no more. Clenching her hands into fists at her sides, Rin looked down and raised her voice slightly, though not enough to wake their daughter: "Don't shut me out. We're in this together now. It's Kikyou you're worried about isn't. Even after all these years-"

"Is that a hint of jealousy I detect in your voice?" Sesshoumaru, who over the years had grown a small sense of humor, teased.

Rin blushed slightly and tried to deny his accusations. "No. Not jealousy, I just know you too well. You used to care about Kikyou too. Didn't you?"

Sesshoumaru sighed, she still had that annoying habit of being able to read him to well sometimes. "Yes. I cared for her a long time ago. But that was a different time. I care for you now."

Rin smiled. That was as close as he was going to get to "I love you". "But you also still care for Kikyou."

"I'm just worried about her. That fox demon she's with probably can't see it yet. Foxes were always good at tricks, but not good at seeing through illusions that are right in front of them."

"Fox demon? You mean that red head man Kikyou was with?" Rin asked with a hint of confusion seeping into her voice. She wasn't able to sense anything, even though she had a long life she still wasn't a demon or a priestess.

Sesshoumaru turned toward her and attempted to smile. But like his regular efforts at trying to smile, it failed. Or maybe it failed because of how he felt now. "Yes, he was a demon. And Kikyou isn't in her right mind frame. Somethings taken a hold of her."

Rin's eyes grew big with fright. After finding Kikyou again it seemed like she and Kikyou could start over again, but now..."You mean that Kikyou-"

Sesshoumaru interrupted her and said a little coldly: "She won't die."

This made Rin's eyes widen with surprise. That tone of voice, sounding so much like his old self. Was he that confident that Kikyou wouldn't die again? "How...how...how do you know? How do you KNOW!" With that Rin burst into tears. Wounds had been reopened. One hundred year wounds. She hadn't cried this hard since Kikyou had died. Kikyou was a friend, a mother figure, and her and Sesshoumaru were her whole world. When Kikyou had died a part of Rin had died with it.

Sesshoumaru embraced Rin, trying to comfort her. He knew telling her would hurt her, yet it seemed the right thing to do. Last time, when he had known what was going to Kikyou he had done nothing. And Kikyou had died and Rin had blamed him for some time and things seemed to have sank into a black hole of morning and screaming at each other. Fate was cruel and destiny unkind. "I'm sorry." Was really the only thing that he could say to her.

Rin looked up at him and said through her tears, a accusing note in her voice. "Are you really? Why aren't you helping Kikyou now?"

"Because she must face this alone. This is her path. No one else's. If I had told her, if I had told her instead of keeping quite like several hundred years ago-"

"Sesshoumaru..."

"Let me finish." Sesshoumaru said and then continued. "If I had told her then and now would it had changed anything? Maybe so and maybe not. But we grow by experience. If Kikyou, me, and you had simply been told all our lives of the right path to take and what's in store once we take that path, if no one that we loved had died, if no one that we cared about had betrayed or left us alone, if no one had done anything cruel or kind for us, would we be standing here today?"

There was a grim sort of knowledge to Sesshoumaru's words. A wisdom grown from years of watching and learning the truth of the world. Rin could only nod her head in the presence of such knowledge and deal with the pain that was tearing through her heart. And pray that Sesshoumaru was right, that Kikyou would be all right.

'Come back to me Kikyou...Come back alright.'

In the cave of creation, things seemed to be going too slow for the group. ()

It seemed like they had been walking for hours through the dark cavern. And, as Yusuke checked his watch, they had indeed been walking for hours.

"How much further? We've been walking forever!"

Kikyou glanced back at Yusuke, but just like everything else, but she couldn't see him. "We should have been there long ago. I don't understand it, it's almost as if the cave has taken on a life of it's own." And maybe it has. In the back of Kikyou's mind, a dream replayed itself. But when she had dreamed it and what it was about seemed lost to her. But it seemed that the dream didn't have a happy ending.

A warm hand reached out of the darkness and grabbed Kikyou's right hand. Kikyou gasped and turned blindly to the right to see who it was. The hand gave her's a comforting squeeze and Kikyou smiled nervously with relief. And even though she couldn't see it, Kurama smiled as well.

Though something still wasn't right. In the back of her mind a similar yet completely different scene had happened between them. But it was only a dream, a dream that could only show one path that was possible.

Suddenly a stunning light washed over them all and forced them all to close their eyes. When the light had grown at least manageable and their eyes had grown accustomed to it, they could see that they had all finally reached their destination. How and why were something no one dared to ask. After all the weird things that had happened it would have been pointless to ask.

The room they now stood in was bathed in a light that seemed to radiate from the stone walls themselves. Through the room was enormous the statue that graced the far end of it took up much of the room. The statue was really the earthly remains of what appeared to be several demons and a large dragon demon wrapped around a human priestess/general, Midoriko.

"This is the place right? Now what priestess?" Hiei asked harshly of Kikyou. Kikyou just merely stared at the tomb with her hands over her heart. It seemed to feel familiar some how.

Kurama saw Kikyou's far away look and commented on it. "Kikyou? Are you all right?"

"I've been here before...No not me. What's inside of me has..." Kikyou said to herself with out answering Kurama's question. Kurama frowned and repeated her name once again.

"Betrayal..."

A pain, like someone stabbing her, gripped Kikyou and she sank to her knees. Eyes wide as a monotone voice, Midoriko's voice, started chanting in her head.

"Anger..."

Far away, no not too far away, Kuwabara, one of her teammates, was getting out of a old and battered tan car and heading toward them. His intent was to stop this, to stop her. How Kikyou knew this she didn't know.

Nearer still was the Lord of the West. He stood watching the town and cavern below. Knowing that she was already starting to lose.

And farther away was Inuyasha. Some how he knew too. And closer, much closer...

"Sadness..."

Kurama was much closer. Kurama was what stood in the way. Kurama was what need to needed to be dealt with. Him and his promises of love and peace. Love between a demon and priestess? Never!

"Awaken your old feelings, feelings that you and me share! Let me out."

Kurama felt something stir and change around Kikyou. It was like she had suddenly became a different person. Unsure of if his senses was telling the truth or if it was the place they were in. Kurama hesitantly called out her name: "Kik...you?"
"Let me out...Let me out...LET ME OUT!"

Kikyou trembled for a few seconds, hands flying to her face in a vain attempt to try to keep Midoriko back. And then Kikyou was still. At the sound of Kikyou's name being called again by Kurama. Kikyou turned around to give him a unfamiliar evil smile.

"Kikyou's gone away for a little while. You're stuck with me. And I want to end our contract."

Yes, this is the end of the chapter. Sorry if it was a little short. And yes I fooled you again. It seems that the battle will be next time. Oh and did any one have a feeling of deja vu at the end? What Kikyou said and what happened, including the dream part, was almost the same as what lead up to Kurama being controlled by Naraku. I guess this isn't called My Will for nothing.

If this keeps up the last chapters will all be out by the end of next week. If I work on a chapter a day sooner. I know this seems so short. But the end IS coming.

I think this chapter really just dealt with everyone's feelings toward what was happening so far. I stuck with the regular Kikyou and Kurama thing and then I stretched and did Kuwabara and Sesshoumaru. Which is always hard since it always seems I'm messing up him, and Kikyou at some points, character. But in a good way. I think in the end it doesn't matter how ooc a character was as long as the story and the chapter is good. And as long as the character isn't too ooc. Making Sesshoumaru burst into tears and do the chicken dance is a fine example for what too ooc is. Through that would be good in a comedy story. But that's another story. Literally.

Oh and another thing. All of those "()" marks were to inform you that I really don't know what that cave is called. Now days, due to lack of interest and my ears saying "turn the tv off so we won't have to listen to Inuyasha's name being called continously", and because I like to watch other more interesting things, my Inuyasha knowledge has went down. So I renamed the cave and turned Midoriko into a bitch. Through she's not really, she's just been turned that way because of years of having to repeat what happened to her.

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