It's A Wonderful World Chapter 18: my only sunshine, a yu-gi-oh fanfic

A/N: Hey, y'all. I am trying to write as fast as i can. grr. I have no clue how to start this chapter. grr. and, for some reason, for the past few days, my vocabulary has been cut in tenths. Sorry if this chapter is repetitive; i only have, like, five words now. i know that the last chapter was pretty dull. This one will be too, at some parts, as well as dumb/ bad/ boring. Don't have anymore to say at the moment... enjoy!

warning: adult words used later (meaning cussing), also, i will be hurting 4 people in this chapter (mentally). 3 of them you will get mad at me for harming. the other one, however, i will personally enjoy writing it (only a little).

Disclaimer: I don't own windex. Or twix. Or that minty flavored space food that comes in a tube. What is it called? oh, yeah. Colgate Total-Whitening Gel. What an odd name.

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------ My only sunshine ------

August humidity danced in the air with the smell of cleanness. Yami absentmindedly rubbed his thumb over the scars running down his forearm. He had developed several nervous habits, and feeling the raised lines was one of them. Not a tear had graced his face for a month. Why should he feel sad? With each passing day, his love got better and better. The pale boy didn't move a lot, but internally he was back to normal.

The Pharaoh grabbed his light's hand. It was as warm as the hikari's cheeks were when he blushed. The dark brought his other hand to the pale boy's face. He rubbed a scar that ran from Yugi's hairline to an inch within his forehead. "I love you, don't give up on me. You mean everything to me." Within his hand, Yami felt one of his love's fingers twitch. Though he knew that it could just be the teen's body finding its way to work again and not an actual response, the dark smiled and kissed his other half's hand.

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Then the rainstorm came, over me

And I felt my spirit break

I had lost all of my, belief you see

And realized my mistake

But time through a prayer, to me

And all around me became still

I need love, love's divine

Please forgive me now I see that I've been blind

Give me love, love is what I need to help me know my name

Through the rainstorm came sanctuary

And I felt my spirit fly

I had found all of my reality

I realize what it takes

'Cause I need love, love's divine

Please forgive me now I see that I've been blind

Give me love, love is what I need to help me know my name

"Yami!" Bakura snatched the headphones from his fellow yami's ears. The dark pouted. "Shit, grave raider. That was my favorite song!" Bakura rolled his eyes and yanked the smaller teen out of the blue chair. In the same move, he sat down and pulled the dark onto his lap. Yami tiredly nuzzled the other's chest with his head. "What do you want, Bakura?"

"How long has it been since you went to your house, or even eaten?" Bakura said calmly. Yami thought for a second and frowned. "How long, Pharaoh?"

"A couple of days."

Bakura sighed. "Are you so in your own world that you don't realize that your body is eating itself?"

"Isn't it obvious? I am lost in Yugi's world, not mine. He has been getting better. My love moves his eyes, mouth and hands all the time. Bigger moments every time. Leira told me that they would usually document everything, but since I would be here all the time anyway, I record it. They have some dude come in when I am sleeping, or when I want to leave the room." Yami said.

The elder of the two sighed again. "Okay, so you got an excuse. But you still need to bathe and eat. Go home for a couple of hours. I'll watch over your puny hikari."

Yami smiled. "Thanks, my friend. Where would I be without you?"

"You would be screwed. Now go before you die of starvation."

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"Love... Wake up... Come on, my little love... Please... I love you... I can't live without you..." Yugi couldn't see. Or move. Or in any way react. He was surrounded by darkness. It squeezed him, taking any chance of breathing away. Pain was attacking him from every which way. He knew that this was Death. But he did not know it would be so cruel. Letting the voice of the one person he had ever loved play in his head- fading, fading... The words repeated over and over again.

"Love... Wake up... Come on, my little love... Please... I love you... I can't live without you..."

"I love you, don't give up on me. You mean everything to me..."

Yugi gasped. His eyes flew open. Everything was blurry, though it was only one color- a pale blue. His head hurt and was beating along with an annoying beeping sound. The light gingerly pushed himself up and looked around rabidly for something familiar. He saw a pair of wide, gray eyes. They looked like round pebbles. "Ba- Ba- Bakura?" Yugi croaked. His throat felt as if someone had scratched at it and had left it raw and bleeding.

The tomb robber smiled. "Hello, hikari. How was your sleep?" His voice was indifferent but by his face, the light could tell he was extremely relieved.

"What? Sleep? Where am I?" The violet-eyed boy asked.

"The hospital. We were all worried about you. Yami is going to be pissed that-"

"The hospital? For how long?" Yugi saw Bakura's face fall an inch.

"About two months..."

"Two months! Why am I in the hospital to begin with?" Bakura frowned and bit his lip. He ran his fingers through his corn silk hair. Yugi waited another minute before asking again. "Bakura, why the hell am I in a hospital? Tell me, now."

The tomb robber spoke softly. "Don't you remember?"

The light growled and closed his eyes. He tried to recall what exactly had landed him here in the white bed. "Okay. I remember yelling at Yami... Running... Crying... Then standing in an alleyway. There was a shadow in the water... A splash... Someone grabbed me and..." In a flash, everything came to Yugi. Keith. The pain. The handle of the knife. The blood. The desire for it all...

Hot tears rolled out of the light's eyes. He felt dirty, filthy and used. The hikari was disgusted with himself. He had willingly let some pervert have his way with him. He had enjoyed the touch. The act of passion and lust. Yugi brought his knees to his face and rested his head in between them. He wanted to curl up into a ball and die. He wanted to go to hell, where scum like him went. A warm hand touched his shoulder. "Shh... There, there, hikari." Yugi felt the fabric under Bakura's hand begin to heat up. It grew hotter and hotter. It was smoldering the boy's skin. The skin began to prickle and it felt close to boiling. The pale boy groaned from the pain.

Yugi pushed Bakura off the bed. "Don?t touch me!" He yelled as he saw gray eyes look at him, puzzled.

The elder teen pushed a stray lock out of his face. "What?s wrong, Yugi?" He put his hand on the bedspread in order to push himself up. Yugi thought that he was going to touch him again and wobbled backwards, to the other side of the bed. "Yugi?" Bakura said, clearly concerned, once he was up. The boy on the bed continued to wobble backwards. When he hit the edge of the bed, he kept on going. He was about to topple over when the white haired teen reached over and put his arms around the boy's thin waist. The older pulled the light towards in an accidental hug.

The burning feeling returned, only this time it was centered on his torso. He couldn't breathe. His skin felt ready to tear itself to pieces. The light screamed, wiggled and flung his hand towards the other male's head. He heard Bakura gasp as Yugi broke his skin deep with his nails. Bakura, shocked by Yugi's attack, put his hand down without looking to see where it would land. It fell on the hikari's inner thigh, just below his pelvis. The light froze as he felt the tremendously painful feeling of heat fly down to the place where his friend's hand was. He began to pant and gag. "No! Don't! Please! Don't hurt me! Guardian, help me!" Yugi yelled, thrashing madly at the yami.

Careful not to hurt the boy, the grave raider grabbed Yugi's wrists and forced him down onto the bed. Bakura's knee was next to the light's thigh, his shoulders aligned with the ones below. "Calm down, Yugi." Bakura whispered, agitated. He felt Yugi shake beneath his hands.

Keith's voice yelled in Yugi's head. "Calm the fuck down, bitch." The events that happened right after those words played again and again in his head. He was now in the same situation. He was pinned down by a stronger man. No one would come and rescue him. Bakura was going to force a knife handle into Yugi. And when he was done, he was going to screw Yugi. Then he would beat him until death looked better than actually being alive. The light couldn't let that happen again. He began to wail and kick Bakura. "Guardian! Guardian! Help me! Save me!" Yugi kneed his friend in the groin. The white-haired teen winced. The hikari continued to kick at the yami. Uncertain what else to do, Bakura climbed onto Yugi, sitting on his pelvis, in an attempt to keep the frantic boy restrained. The light screamed at the top of his lungs, weeping at the same time "YAMI! YAMI! GUARDIAN, HE'S BURNING ME! GUARDIAN! YAMI! HELP! OH, PLEASE! GUARDIAN!" Bakura didn't notice Leira come in.

"What's going on?" The brunette asked. Yugi began to buck his hips hard and twist his chest.

"Help me." Bakura said loudly, though Leira only half heard him over Yugi's screams.

Leira quickly went over to the side of the bed. She put her palm on the boy's face. He began to cry harder, "YAMI! HURRY! THEY?RE GOING TO KILL ME! HELP ME, GUARDIAN!"

The nurse turned and ran out of the room. In what seemed like seconds, she returned to the room holding a syringe. She tapped it twice and grabbed Yugi's struggling arm. The woman plunged the needle into his delicate skin. It took three minutes for the sedative to take full effect. His last words before he fell asleep were, "Yami, they killed me. I love you."

Panting heavily, Bakura threw his leg over the hikari and slid off the bed. He and Leira looked down at the sleeping boy, horrified. "D-D-Does he usually act like this?" The nurse muttered.

The white haired male frowned and reached over to touch Yugi's pink cheek. "Of course not." The teen brought his hand up to his bleeding forehead. "Can you do something about this?"

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Soap suds followed the bar of clear brown soap as Yami rubbed it over his wet body. He took it up to his chest, touching the honey on every square inch. With the hand not holding the soap, he brushed his blonde bangs from his eyes. Frustrated by the rouge hair that constantly fell into his eyes, the dark leaned forward and then snapped his head back, sending droplets of water everywhere. As he made honey bubbles on his bellybutton, an ache formed on his shoulder. Thinking it was an itch, the Pharaoh scratched at it. But within seconds, the dull ache got more and more painful and hot.

Perplexed, the dark stood under the shower head, allowing cold water to strike the burning flesh. The heat didn't subside. It crawled under Yami's skin and wouldn't go away. Suddenly, the same feeling of strange warmth hit his waist, harder than the last. The feeling rose up his chest, causing him to cry out and fall to his knees inside the tub. Yami's head began to spin. Pain overwhelmed him. The hands he was using to support himself fell under him as his wrists burned. Yami hit the bottom of the shower with a soft thud. Tears of agony emerged from his rubies as the heat rung around the front of his hips. The male curled up into a ball. Soon, the burning dulled until it finally stopped. The dark slowly stood up. Exhausted, he massaged his temples and pushed his back onto the dripping shower tiles.

Six minutes later, the Pharaoh heard the phone ring. He cussed quietly and jumped out of the water, wrapping a towel around his waist. He went towards the phone.

"Hello. Mouto residence. May I ask who's speaking?"

"Pharaoh. Umm..."

"Bakura?" Yami said, wondering why the tomb robber had called.

"Yeah. Look, don't get overly excited... He's sleeping now..."

"What? Who's sleeping now?"

"Yugi. He woke up around twenty minutes ago..."

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The crimson eyed male stood in the cream colored waiting room, his fingers carelessly fiddling with the silver band on his right hand, which he had been wearing since prom night. He had gotten ready quickly, throwing on a deep plum tank top and the pants he wore to Joey's party. After combing his hair back into a ponytail, he had gone straight to his car.

Bakura came into the room. The second he did, Yami walked up to him. "How is he?" he asked even before the two stopped.

"He's still sleeping. Leira gave him a slightly stronger dose of sedatives than she was supposed to, but he'll be up soon," the grave raider said sluggishly.

"Sedatives? Why the hell would he need sedatives?" Yami saw his friend's face form the expression that doctors used when they needed to tell someone their relative had just kicked the bucket.

"Sit down, my dear Pharaoh." Yami obeyed. Bakura sat next to him. "When he woke up, he was confused at first. When he remembered why he was here, he began to cry. I tried to comfort him. Then..." His voice faltered, but shortly picked up again. "He started to yell about how I am hurting and burning him by touching him. I didn't mean to, Yami. Leira came in and put a syringe full of sedative into him."

The dark was unsure as to how he was supposed to act. He played with one of his bangs. "So when someone touches him, he thinks he is being burned?" The promise he had made was coming true... "If you wake up, my love, I will never touch you again..."

Bakura shrugged. "We only tested on me and Leira. So far, yes. But, on a lighter note, he was yelling for you." Yami smiled.

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Opening his eyes groggily, the hikari saw his beautiful guardian. He was sitting in a chair so close that Yugi could have sworn it was part of the bed. Yami gave him a half grin. "Hello, Yugi. Good to see you up." He sat cemented to his chair. The light was hoping for some sort of touch. But then again, who would want to touch such filth…

"Yugi? What did I tell you about that name? Do I have to tell you again, Guardian?" Yami stared into his hikari's violet eyes. He smirked.

"At least one more time, Yugi. How are you feeling?" The Pharaoh could see his love's hurt.

"Okay, I guess."

Yami smiled again and reached over to the headboard of the bed. He pushed a blue button. As he sat back down, he received a confused gaze from his love. Yami unknowingly laid his hand on the bed near his light's elbow. "I called for the nurse. Is there anything you need, Yugi? Tell me now or forever hold your peace."

The pale boy pouted playfully. He sat up. As he did, he noticed that when his hand was about to touch Yami's, the older half briskly yanked it off the bed. "Is he that unwilling to touch me?" he thought.

A knock came from the door frame. There stood a cheerful brunette woman. The same one that had poked a needle into Yugi. "Hey, mister Mouto. We met earlier– not formally, but whatever. My name is Leira." Her long hair swayed as she walked next to Yami. "Okay. If you would, Yami." The dark stood up, picked up the chair and gently put it a few feet away. "Yugi, I am here to see if everything is all right with you, 'kay?" The boy nodded.

"If at any time you feel uncomfortable, tell me and I will stop. Can you open your mouth for me?" The light locked eyes with his guardian before doing as the nurse asked. She tenderly put her fingers under the pale child's chin. At first, the light didn't notice the skin come in contact with his. But only seconds later, he felt it get hotter and hotter. He gasped as it gotten to the point that his eyes watered. Yugi distinctly heard Yami's breathing hitch as well. "Is something wrong?" the clueless nurse said, her hand still under Yugi's head. The light began to cry. "It hurts! MAKE THE BURNING STOP!"

Yami, ignoring the pain in his lower jaw, jumped next to Leira. He pulled her away, not making contact with his little love. "Yami! Help me!"

The weeping boy held out his arms, opening and closing his hands. He looked like a toddler, asking his father to carry him after he fell and got a boo-boo. The Pharaoh inhaled deeply before getting on the bed on his knees. He bowed his head and allowed Yugi to wrap his arms around his neck. The boy quickly pulled the dark into a hug. The Pharaoh brought his hands to the light's back to strengthen the embrace.

Instead of hearing more screams, Yami only heard his love's breathing calm down. Yami felt his hikari's warm skin next to his. Their hearts thumped to the rhythm of the other's breathing. The dark's nose was full of the scent of his light's hair. "I'm right here for you, my love." After another moment, the dark separated himself from the boy. "Are you ready?" Yugi nodded. The taller teen took off his shoes and climbed onto the bed. He took his other half and positioned him in between his legs. Yami let his hands stroke Yugi's stomach.

The Pharaoh finally looked up to Leira, who had been quiet the entire time. Her big eyes screamed, "Aaawww!"

"You may continue, Leira." The nurse smiled and she approached Yugi again.

"I'm serious. If you want me to stop, you must tell me. Now, open those beautiful eyes of yours as wide as you can." The nurse grabbed Yugi's chin. The light felt the fire come. He groaned in his head.

/What's wrong/ Yami's worried voice filled the hikari's mind.

/My chin... It hurts. Not as much as before, but still./ Yami kissed the nape of the light's neck, sending shivers down the younger teen's spine.

/I know, love. It hurts like hell, doesn't it/

Yami reluctantly let go of his light as Leira asked to check his heartbeat. /What do you mean, Guardian/

/I feel the burn as well.../

Yugi, with some of the dark's help, turned around in his lap to face Yami. The nurse began to check his heartbeat from the back. The boy's eyes were wide with guilt. /I am so sorry. I didn't mean for you to feel it. I- I- I could try to find a way to-/

The dark laughed through the link. /And you thought I looked pathetic when I ramble and apologize at the same time./

"Okay. You seem okay. But there are still a couple of more tests we need to run. I know it may sound silly and mother-ish, but Yugi should go to sleep soon. For now, I'll just leave you two alone." Leira winked at the Pharaoh before exiting the room.

Yami watched his love intently. The two cuddled for a bit. Yugi forced his face into Yami's muscles while the dark breathed on the boy's ear. The light closed his eyes ten minutes in. His head swung up and down. Yami didn't realize how tired his love was. He cradled his light, bringing him about a foot from the bed, then put the boy onto the sheets, stepping away as he did. The second he sat down in the closest chair, Yugi's purple eyes sprung open. He was sleepy and disappointed.

"You're not sleeping with me?"

"I don't think I would be allowed, even if I wanted to."

Only Yugi seemed to fully comprehend what the dark said. (\ Even if he wanted to... Meaning that he doesn't want to now... He hates me for what happened... /) The light frowned and rolled over so his back faced his guardian.

Sensing that he had done something bad, Yami sighed and got up from his chair. He plopped next to his love. He led his fingers through his light's fine hair. "What's wrong?"

The boy flipped to his back. "Kiss me."

Yami bit his lip. He wanted to. He had wanted to for so long. The dark licked the edge of his teeth. Everything in his body told him to oblige to the teen and bring their lips together. But a nagging voice in the back of his head sang, "There were signs that the sex between Yugi and Keith was consensual… He wanted it. He wanted him. He wanted Keith. He would rather have him then you..."

/Go to sleep, Yugi. You're tired./ Yami was about to sit back in his chair when he felt his love's hands envelop his wrists. The light tugged on the older until their noses were a hair's width apart.

"Please." The Pharaoh cupped his hand on the hikari's ear. He inhaled deeply and closed the little distance between the two's lips.

The kiss was a bit stiff when it started. But as the two got farther into it, the kiss became natural and sensual. The elder squeezed his love's thigh with his legs. Yugi's fingers flew over the dark's chest as his tongue licked Yami's teeth. The light's hand reached the bottom of his guardian's shirt. He was about to go under it when the dark pulled awkwardly away, shooing the hand from his tank. "Go to sleep, love."

Yugi laid back. An overwhelming feeling of self-disgust bubbled in the chambers of his heart. Yami hardly wanted to come in contact with the pale boy. Visions of the reason the dark wanted to be distant flashed in front of the violet orbs. Tears welted in his eyes. The teen began to shake.

"Oh, don't cry, love. Don't cry." Yami embraced his weeping love. (\Fuck it. Why the hell am I always fucking shitting it up/) the dark thought angrily. The Pharaoh took his love's head in his hands. Yugi's purple eyes met with his own. Yami leaned in and kissed his light again. This time, there was no hesitation.

Once both teens needed to breathe, Yami pulled out. Yugi smiled dreamily and nuzzled his guardian. "You really do need to go to sleep, love. Leira would be mad at me if you fall asleep while she's checking that thick head of yours." The light laughed.

Yugi tried to rest, but he couldn't. He felt something was going to happen if he wasn't paying attention. Yami might change his mind about sticking around with him and would disappear forever. Or Keith would come and take Yugi away.

Yami couldn't help but feel distraught. Yugi wouldn't go to sleep. The Pharaoh rubbed his love's cheek. He began to sing a lullaby he had heard one day at the nursery.

You are my sunshine

My only sunshine

You make me happy

When skies are gray

You'l never know, dear,

How much I love you

Just please

Don't take my sunshine away.

Yami's voice was so soothing. It meandered through the air, waltzing around like a feather in the wind. The light closed his eyes. His breathing slowed down, as well as his mind. /Sing it again, guardian./ He muttered, feeling waves of sleep roll over him.

The dark kissed his light. He started up the song that really symbolized what he felt for his love.

You are my sunshine

My only sunshine

You make me happy

When skies are gray

You'll never know, dear,

How much I love you

Just please

Don't take my sunshine away.

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"Love, you have to eat! You've only been awake for one day and you need all the nutrients you can get." Yami said. He sat next to his lovely light on his bed. The food tray table had been propped up and now held a plate of chicken, mashed potatoes and corn kernels. Yugi up scrunched his face and shook his head playfully.

"No. It probably is as disgusting as school lunch." The dark rolled his eyes and kissed his hikari's ear.

"I had hospital food for the past two months. And I had that trash they serve at school. This is much better." The Pharaoh grabbed the spork off the tray, spooned up some of the corn, and shoved it in his mouth. "See? If it was bad, would I eat it? You know how picky I can be."

His love smiled devilishly. "Fine. I'll eat it, but you need to help me."

Before Yami could ask exactly what he meant, the boy took the plastic utensil from him and began to mix his corn and potatoes together. He filled the spork with the mixture and brought it to Yami's lips. The light stuffed the head of it into the dark's mouth. He pulled the spork out. Yugi put his hand to Yami's neck, dropping the utensil to the tray. The Pharaoh felt his love's lips touch his before he saw what was happening. The light sucked on his lip, begging entrance. Yami squirmed but opened his lips anyway.

His love slipped his tongue in, licking up all of the lumpy cream. The dark did nothing to deepen or loosen the kiss until his teenage body's hormones could take it no longer. He took the hand on his neck and entwined his fingers with it. He began to push his love backwards into the tray table, making it roll away. A cough came from the door. Yami broke off from his hikari, panting.

"Sorry to interrupt, my dear Pharaoh, but I was afraid you were going to suffocate the darn boy." Bakura laughed. He wore his favorite blue tank with white stripes. He held his giggling boyfriend's hand. The two walked over to the chair next to the bed. Bakura sat into it, dragging Ryou, who was still chuckling, into his lap.

"Very funny, grave raider." From the corner of his eye, Yami saw his love lick some excess mashed potato from his lip. The sight made him strangely aroused.

"Hello, Ryou. What, no hug?" Yugi said, pouting. The albino boy stopped laughing and looked up at his yami's forehead. Four pink lines ran across it. The pale boy in the bed blushed, remembering that he was the one who caused them. Ryou looked back at the light, chewing his tongue. "Don't worry, I don't bite. Well, unless you are my guardian, of course." The Pharaoh turned a pink tint. Ryou suddenly jumped out of his boyfriend's lap and embraced the light so hard, he was having trouble breathing.

"Oh, Yugi! I was so worried about you! Ra, you had me scared!"

Yami felt a slight tingling where Ryou touched his love. It was better than the day before, though. Seeing his light's discomfort, he tugged on the albino teen's shirt. "Don't kill him now that he's awake."

The teen smiled and let go of Yugi. He returned to Bakura's seat. The tomb robber kissed his hikari's cheek. Bakura looked back to the Pharaoh. "Everyone will be coming soon. I think I saw Seth's car pull up when me and my sweetheart entered-"

"YUGI!" A raven-haired boy ran through the door. He pounced onto the bed, sending the table to the other side of the blue room. The wind was knocked out of Yami, who Mokuba had landed on. "Sorry, Yami." He said quietly. The young Kaiba turned to the light. "What's up, Yugi!" The child reached over and clung onto the hikari.

"Mokie, if you don't get off of Yugi now I will not allow you to see Rebecca for a month." A harassed looking Seto came into the room, followed by his blonde puppy. His brother huffed and got off of Yugi. He crawled over to the light's feet. Mokuba took off his shoes and crossed his legs. Yami rubbed his love's thigh.

Joey smiled and went over to his best friend. He leaned down and kissed the light's check. Yami felt his skin burn a bit more than when Mokuba hugged his love. "Hey, Yug. Don't mind Seto. Mokuba couldn't shut up the entire morning. And Seto is kind of sore and has a bit of a headache since last night from…" The blonde stopped, red as the sky is blue, as he realized what he was about to say.

The pale boy grinned as well, pretending not to have heard Joey's last sentence. "Mokuba, better be good for my legal guardian. If he is in a bad mood, he won't want to pay the hospital bills."

Seto pulled up the second chair in the room next to the one Bakura was sitting in. He slid into it gingerly. "So Yami has told you. And don't call me that. It makes me sound... old. And no matter what my mood is, I still have to pay your bills... Not so fricken hard, puppy!" Seto ended as Joey sat down on his probably sore hips.

"Ra, Seth. I have never heard anyone complain about someone being rough. That must have been some wild se-" Bakura started. "If you even dare end that sentence with my brother in the room, I will make you regret it," the CEO good-humoredly interrupted.

"What would you do, Seth? Bite me? I think I would rather enjoy that." Everyone laughed, except Yami's light, who had been sucking softly at his other half's ear lobe.

/Love, stop it. Mokuba is right here./ Yugi sighed and plopped back down on his side of the bed.

/No one was even paying attention, Guardian. They were listening to Seto and Bakura./

Yami knew it was true. The brunette was now trying to see how far the white-haired yami would go with him. The things were M-rated, but the CEO asked in PG language, for his brother, of course. But Yami still had that nagging voice in his head. This time, it was telling him that Yugi was thinking of Keith when he kissed him.

"Seth, I would do anything with you as long as I had my whore's permission." The said whore smiled. The blue-eyed teen muttered something about saying that word in front of innocent ears.

"Seto, by innocent ears, whose ears do you mean? Your brother's?" Serenity's voice filled the room. She was standing beside Honda, his arm around her waist.

"Of course I mean my brother's. Why do you ask?" The newly proclaimed couple walked to Yugi. They let go for a moment, to kiss Yugi or give him the macho handshake-hug that men use to show affection.

"Judging by that very subtle color change on his neck, I'd say that your fifteen year old brother is attempting to hide his first hickey. He did so very well, indeed. He even used oil-based makeup instead of just powder." The room fell silent. Everyone was trying to stifle their laughter. Everyone except the two young Kaibas. Mokuba turned purple with embarrassment, while Seto's facial features were trying to figure out whether to arrange themselves in an expression of parental horror or what may have been brotherly pride.

Sensing the tension between the brothers, Yami shot up. There was only one way to find out how the elder Kaiba felt about this. The crimson-eyed Pharaoh walked over to Joey. The puppy-faced blonde got onto his feet quickly. The dark pulled the shocked brunette out of his seat, forcing Joey back into it. He motioned at Bakura to stand up as well. The other yami, who was trying his best to not burst out in a fit of giggles, got up, cradling his hikari. He placed Ryou on Joey. "We shall be back momentarily." said Yami.

The two yamis and the CEO left the room, not stopping until they reached the end of the intensive care unit and a stairwell. When they did, Seto started to laugh, a rare thing for the brunette to do. The darks watched him curiously. "I never thought that my puppy's sister could be so thick headed." He said at last.

"Why do you say that, Seth?" The tomb robber asked.

"Did she really think that I didn't see it? I heard him putting it on. I was going to talk to him later." Seto added, chuckling.

"What would you have told him?" Yami said.

The brunette smiled. "First, I would have to be Mr. Dad and talk to him about safe sex, as punishment." Seto grinned wider. "Then I would get to be his brother. Teach him how to cover a hickey up properly. Stupid kid, he just applied on the cream. He didn't mix it up with the powder shit to match his skin tone."

Bakura raised an eyebrow. "And how do you know about this?"

Seto blushed. He reluctantly brought a finger to his evenly toned neck. He rubbed at a one spot until it began to uncover a hint of purple. "Shall I show you more, or do you get the idea?"

Yami was about to say something when Yugi's voice appeared through the link. /Guardian/

/Yes, love/

/How is Seto reacting/

/He is fine. How about your Kaiba/ There was a pause. /He's crying. Half because he is scared of what Seto might do. Half because Serenity and Honda ran out of the room, laughing./

/We'll be back soon, love. Comfort him as I do you./

Yami turned his attention back to his friends. "I think we should start go-"

Bakura blocked his path. "Not so fast, Pharaoh. Before I will allow you to return to molesting your hikari..." The three teens smiled. "... I need you to tell me how you are holding up."

Yami rolled his eyes. "Is this really necessary?"

The tomb robber and the brunette frowned. "Yes it is, Yami. Your health means just as much to us as Yugi's." Seto said sternly.

The dark fingered his scars. "I am fine. Let's just go back to the room and-" A familiar, eerie feeling entered his heart. It gripped the beating organ. "Bakura, take your stupid truth spell off me now!"

The grave raider shook his head. "How are you feeling, my dear Pharaoh?"

As if he were a zombie, Yami answered flatly, "I am uncertain exactly how I feel. I am happy that I have my little love back and that he wants to kiss me and things of that sort. But then, when he touches me in an affectionate way, I can't help but feel like he wants me to be Keith..." The Pharaoh felt the tomb robber's truth spell lift as the caster of it embraced him. The CEO looked at him sympathetically.

"Yami, he loves you. He loves you, not that... that..." Bakura couldn't find a name terrible enough for the beast who hurt Yugi. "Well, I would call him a bitch, but that would be offending Seth's puppy." Seto chuckled.

"Yeah, yeah. I know but-" Yami stopped. An unusual burst of rage suddenly surged through the link. His blood started to boil as hurt and hate welled up inside him. "Get the fuck away from me! Why would I need your pathetic excuse for pity, you stupid cock-sucking druggie?" The Pharaoh yelled, throwing the grave raider onto the stairs. Bakura's eyes were as wide as Seto's with shock. The white haired teen looked like he had just been stabbed squarely in the back, which he kind of had been. The dark began to shake as he advanced on Bakura.

"Your sympathy is as false as your return to goodness, you weak piece of crap." The tricolor-haired male was now an inch from his fellow yami. The teen sitting on the staircase steps, frightened by Yami's outburst of aggression, trembled slightly. Seto, scared as well, seemed rooted to the ground.

"How could anyone have ever even thought you had changed? You, the person who sent his own father and mother to the Shadow Realm. You, who sent so many more innocent lives to that awful place. You, who molested a six year old girl and her seven year brother in front of their dying grandfather! The one who tortured a man for sixty-nine days until he begged for death. You, who in a state of being high, anally raped your sleeping hikari, beating him half to death afterward... Your hikari, asshole! Your hikari! The one whom you promised to protect from all dangers. How could I have let you live a day longer than needed? As Yami brought up the horrible things he had done in his past, tears filled the guilty Bakura's eyes.

The dark leaned in to whisper into the white-haired teen's ear. "Oh, now you weep. You deserve to be tortured and hung." Yami drew back his fist and plunged it into Bakura's stomach. He was about to do it again when Seto finally moved and grabbed his elbow.

"Y- Y- Yami-" The brunette stuttered. The crimson-eyed teen attempted to pull out of the death grip with no avail.

"Get the fuck out of my room, Anzu!" Yami yelled.

Though hopelessly scared, Seto tilted his head in confusion. "What?"

The Pharaoh blinked. His red rubies grew to the size of walnuts. He looked from Seto, to his fist, to the sobbing yami. The dark huffed as he tried to calm himself down. "Damn. Let go of me, Seto," he said, his voice breaking. The taller teen obliged. Yami immediately hugged the tomb robber. "Oh, Ra. I am so sorry, Bakura. I know you have changed. We all do. I- I don't know what came over me. Please forgive me?" Yami ran his fingers through his friend's silky hair.

"Did you just say to get out your room?" Seto sheepishly said.

Yami frowned. "Bakura, I need you to check on Yugi. What do you see?" The teen bit his lip, tears streaming down his face. His eyes clouded over. In seconds, Bakura"s orbs snapped to normal.

"Anzu has arrived," he said slowly.

Yami kissed his white haired friend's forehead. "Seto, stay here." The said male nodded as the dark jumped up and sprinted to Room 2.012.

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"Mokuba, don't worry." Ryou offered from Joey's chair. Mokuba's eyes were filled with tears that were now wetting Yugi's hospital gown.

"What do you mean, 'don't worry'? Seto's going to kill me. And-"

"Look, Mokuba. Do you really think Seto didn't see it? He normally notices those things a mile away." Joey said calmly, smiling slightly.

"And Yami said that Seto is fine. Like Joey said, he probably already knew. But all that doesn't matter right now. So, how was it?" The light said, petting the raven-haired Kaiba's head.

Mokuba blushed and stopped crying. "Good." He said quietly. The two teens sitting on the chair giggled.

Yugi pouted falsely. "I am going to miss Rebecca having a crush on me. I can't tell you how much I will hate not to have her affection." He said, faking a tear. Suddenly, he smiled. "However, now I won't have to break her heart when I tell her I'm gay."

The faces of the other teens in the room glowed. Yes, they had always known Yugi's sexual orientation, due to the intimacy between the pale boy and his dark. But to actually hear him say it was like a breath of fresh air.

"I knew we could cheer you up." Ryou said to the now grinning Mokuba.

"Yea. And all it took was for me to completely come out of the closet, right?" The light playfully hissed, causing his friends to blush. Yugi opened his mouth to say something when he stopped. He gasped.

"What's wrong, Yug?" Joey asked, concerned.

"Do you realize how much of my shows I missed! All my stories…" The hikari said, shaking his head mournfully. "I will be so confused the next time I see any of my shows and-" Yugi heard someone come into the room. His gaze automatically went to the door. A chill of bitterness penetrated the violet-eyed teen's skin. His heart beat slowed. His brain spun.

In the frame of the entryway stood Anzu. For once, her entire chest was covered with a pink t-shirt rather than the usual slutty tube top. She wore a pair of somewhat new jeans. They looked like they had been bought only about a month and a half ago. An odd choice of clothing for the girl who's motto was, "the more skin, the better." Her brown eyes were twice as round as they normally were.

Joey, Mokuba and Ryou finally realized that the brunette had entered. The puppy and Mokuba smiled towards the female. The albino boy, however, frowned. He knew of some vague details of what that witch had done, enough to know that this confrontation was going to be a nasty one...

"Hey, Anzu!" Mokuba said, getting up and running to the said teen, hugging her once he got to her.

The brunette stood still, hardly noticing the Kaiba. She stared at Yugi. He could feel her eyes shine on him. A surge of anger shivered down his spine.

"Yugi..." Anzu whispered. She sounded like she was choking on something.

"Did you want something?" The light sneered icily.

The rest of the boys looked worriedly at Yugi. "I want to tell you how sorry-" She started.

"Sorry? Sorry! Is that where you want to start, you bitch?" Yugi snarled, panting slightly. Everyone around him gasped. He remembered then that the boys were still in the room. "All of you, leave," He whispered, talking to his guy friends in a way that made him sound surprisingly like an angry Yami. The teens jumped and ran out, leaving behind a shaking Anzu.

"So why the hell are you here, slut?" Yugi growled.

Anzu chewed on her tongue for several seconds before responding. "Yugi, I am so sorry, I swear. I- I- I really, really am." Her voice was hardly audible.

Yugi crackled. "Is that all you have to fucking say? 'I'm sorry?' And here I thought that you were the queen of speeches. 'I'm sorry.' Don't make me laugh."

The girl shook her head. "I really am, Yugi. I swear. Please, I am so sorry-"

"Again with the sorry! Please, if that is all you are going to say, you might as well take your sick whore self out of my room." Yugi glared into the other teen's chestnut eyes.

"Yugi, you need to understand! I am truly sorry. I never thought about what would happen after I... But I was different then! Please, believe me. I have a steady boyfriend now and- and I-"

Yugi clenched his fists. "Don't give me that shit, bitch! I don't care! Will you get that through your thick-ass head" I honestly don't give a rat's ass!" he bellowed.

The girl began to cry. "Please, Yugi. I am so sorry. I didn't mean to- I just was so jealous of you and Yami…"

"You knew how much we cared about each other. What the fuck made you think that he would ever get with a whore like you? What, did you think he wanted some kind of STD?" Yugi hissed mercilessly.

"I don't know-" She coughed out.

"Do you really think that is what is upsetting me? Yami?" Anzu tilted her head, perplexed. Yugi laughed. "You stupid prostitute. I know now that he won't ever leave me, especially for you. But do you realize that I wasn't there for my father's last moments? Of course not. You were always a drama queen, only concerned with things a big-breasted cheerleader would do."

The girl sobbed, her eyes even wider than before. "You didn't think of that, did you? You are worse than a blonde," Yugi retorted.

Anzu gasped several times before beginning to speak. "I- I don't know what to say..."

"Of course you don't know what to say, fucking cur. I didn't get to hear him say his last words, do you know that? I didn't get to hear him tell me that he loved me..." For the first time in the conversation, Yugi's voice cracked. But that didn't overcome the overwhelming feeling of hatred that ran through him.

Anzu frowned. "Who told you he said that?"

"Yami, who the hell else?"

"You do realize that wasn't what he said last, right?" The light could see easily that she wasn't lying. But if she wasn't lying then that would mean that Yami lied...

"You nasty-ass liar. Get out!" Yugi yelled. She was lying. She had to be. Yami would never lie about something like that, would he?

"I am telling the truth, Yugi. He said something about remembering what he said to Yami. I wouldn't lie about this. Please, Yugi, forgive me-"

"Get the fuck out of my room, Anzu!" Yugi screamed. The brown-eyed female began to cry loudly again. The hikari watched her, breathing heavily. That whore wasn't listening. She wouldn't leave him alone. "Leave me alone, bitch. Now."

"Yugi, please..." The brunette pleaded.

"?Listen to me you sex-paid hoe! Leave-"

"Love, that is enough." Puffing slightly, Yami entered the room. He saw the anger still boiling in his light's face. The dark walked past Anzu. He had allowed her to come and visit Yugi on one condition. She wouldn't try to speak to Yami. It worked pretty well. The Pharaoh sat down next to his love. Yugi nudged away from him, confusing him. The dark reached to touch his other half's shoulder, only to have his wrist grabbed by Yugi.

"I need to talk to Yami, Anzu. I may forgive you, but I have to know something first. Get the hell out of here." Yugi whispered. The girl finally listened and flew out the door.

"What's wrong, my love?" the dark asked.

Yugi bit down on his tongue. /Tell me what Grandpa's last words were./

"I already told you-"

/Tell me the truth, Yami. Or should I call for Anzu and make her repeat what she told me/ The light saw his guardian rub the bridge of his nose hard.

/He wanted to remind me to protect you forever. That was what he said./ Yugi felt tears at his eyes. He let a few come out.

"Why did you lie to me?" Yugi breathed.

He saw a distinct flash of depression run across his dark's face before he started to talk. "I was at my father's side when he died. He was extremely sick and was bedridden for several months. People got impatient and left him alone. But I stood there, watching as my father slowly deteriorated. His last day, his dying day, Seth had come in to my father's room to ask if he wanted to be buried in blue or white robes, I think. Anyway, as Seth was about to leave, my father grabbed his hand. He said to him, "Seth, my most loyal priest, watch over Atemu. Do not allow him to cause the collapse of Egypt."

"Those were his exact words before he died. He spoke to Seth last as apposed to me, who had been there for him. It took me about 2000 years to realize that he didn't say this out of fear that I would do something stupid. But out of love. Even so, I couldn't help but be upset that he couldn't just tell me that he cared. I didn't want you to feel that way for our dad. He loved you and was always worried about your happiness and safety over his own. So much that he gave up the chance to say how much he loved everyone just to insure that you were okay..." At this point, Yami's voice gave in. Salty tears fell down his cheeks. He looked down at his love, who was no longer weeping.

Yugi felt so... light. He was astounded that his dark had so much going on in him. The violet-eyed teen rubbed one side of his guardian's jawbone. Yami stopped crying and the two teens just looked at each other's orbs of beauty. The light leaned upwards and kissed the Pharaoh softly. Yami put his hands on Yugi's cheeks, deepening the kiss.

When the dark pulled out of it, he pressed his forehead to his love's, staring into his purple orbs once again. "You're perfect, do you know that?" Yami whispered.

Yugi blushed stupendously. /And you're beautiful./ He said before blushing harder.

The elder teen smiled and pecked his love's hot cheek. "That's not nice. You shouldn't make fun of plain-looking people. It really hurts our feelings." Yugi rolled his eyes and was about to counter when Yami interrupted. "I need to check on Bakura. I said something and I kind of upset him. I shall invite Joey and the others back into the room. They are probably right outside, listening to every word we say. I'll be back, my love."

Yugi sighed and pecked his guardian's lips with his own. /Fine. But do be quick. And if she is out there, call in Anzu. I should really forgive that piece of-/

/Don't be mean to her. Even I have to admit she has changed. I didn't think that she could stay with one boy for so long. That Duke character must have some magic going on for him.../

/She's with Duke? But I always thought he was... you know... like us.../ Yugi blushed.

/Well, your gay-dar isn't completely screwed. You're only half wrong; turns out, Duke swings both ways. I really have to go, love./ Yami kissed his light and got up. Once at the door, Yami smiled at Joey, Mokuba, Serenity and Honda, who were standing as close to the door as possible. Anzu, however, was still standing quietly further away. "You can go in now. All of you." He said, looking at the brunette girl. The teens entered the room quickly. Yami turned to the staircase where, hopefully, Bakura and Seto still were.

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Yami returned to the staircase. The grave raider's gray eyes still sparkled, but him and the brunette were able to clean him up well enough so it seemed nothing had happened.

"Are you okay, Bakura?" He said quietly, hugging his fellow yami tightly.

"I will be, once you let go of me." Yami smiled and let go. "What you told him, about your father, was it true?"

Before the dark could answer, Seto sighed, "Yes." He earned curious stares from his friends. "Bakura told me what you told Yugi..." Seto said, explaining to him how he understood what the grave raider said. "Anyway, that is one of the few memories I have of being Seth..."

The other two nodded. "Do you remember anything else, Seth?" The white-haired teen asked.

Seto smiled and turned so his eyes met Yami's. "Before Atemu was put into the Puzzle, I had a rather interesting conversation with him... Do you recall it, Pharaoh?"

The said teen frowned and shook his head. "Well, it had to do heavily with how you wanted someone to love you as you and how you were still... pure." Seto grinned foolishly.

Yami blushed. "How long have you known?"

"Long before you said that I slept with you. A very harsh thing to joke about."

Ignoring what was last said, the Pharaoh continued with his questioning. "Why didn't you say anything, if you knew?"

Seto merely shrugged. "I am polite. At least I didn't almost blurt it out like some people..." His blue eyes flashed to Bakura, who coughed.

"And don't be ashamed of being a virgin, Yami." He snapped as he finally noticed the dark"s blush. The brunette walked closer to him. "Don't be. It is the greatest thing in the world to have... it… taken by your soul mate." The CEO flushed. "I should know."

"Should we tell your puppy that he is not your soul mate?" The white-haired teen said. For some odd reason, the blue-eyed teen turned an even darker red. "Who said that I was with someone other than my pup?"

There was a thick moment of silence. Yami liked it. He had never heard anyone actually say how it was to have your first time be with your true love. Bakura, sadly, couldn't describe the feeling as he never felt anything for anyone he had been with, except his hikari. The tomb robber tried to tell the dark the overwhelming feeling he had when he was making love with Ryou, but there was something different between what the gray-eyed male felt and what the first time was like. The adventurous sensation that filled every cell. The passion that not only came from the body's natural functions, but from the act of expressing unknown amounts of love without the boundaries that held one back throughout their life. To imprint that first one with a part of you forever. A bond that would always stay with both of you, no matter how far apart you were.

"Seto, what is it like?" Yami whispered.

Seto's hand rested on the shoulder of the red-eyed teen. "When Yugi receives your first time, Yami, it will be magic, just as it was when I gave Joey mine. The creation of the universe is right there, all around you. Specks of shiny space dust fill your eyes. Gravity plays with your heart. The colors of new born stars whirl and won't ever stop. You will be able to show your world how much you adore it with every part of your soul. You will feel like nothing will ever go wrong, ever again. And when that happens, my dear Pharaoh, nothing will go wrong."

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Songs:

The first song is "Love's divine" by Seal. I think it is one of the best songs there is out there. I was planning to use it later, but I thought it fit more here. but seriously, it is an awesome song that makes me cry when I hear it. The lullaby is "My only sunshine." I grew up listening to it. I actually had this bear, Sunshine, who played the tune to it. I thought it was a perfect for yami to sing it to yugi.

Explanations:

i think i made this clear, but just in case i didn't: yugi feels like he is burning when anyone except yami touches him, who he is acting a lot more clingy toward. yami is a little upset about the whole consensual sex thing. yugi thought that duke was gay but it turns out that he is bi. seto was a virgin before he got with joey.

Reviewers:

i dont normally do this but i need to for reasons that i shall not express:

1) to the reviewer that asked me to write a sequel... I am truly honored that you asked. it made my heart explode with happiness. anyway, I strongly suggest that you finish the story before you think of a sequel for reasons that i can't say because i want people to be surprised at the ending. but if you want, you could get a chapter and continue from it. (for example, you can begin your story from chapter 20. actually, if you were going to do this, i think you should start from 20) thank you so much for asking.

2) to the reviewer who answered my sick-ass question: thank you so much. it will help me feel content while making my lemonade stand knowing that i had that piece of the instructions.

3) to the reviewer who asked to be an editor: thank you for asking. My present editor, ifthedeadwerealive, says that she doesn't really want to edit anymore. and i really need an editor because the mistakes that i make are horrible. i really would wish that you would edit my story.

Thank You:

to my editor, MFAstari, who i briefly mentioned before. i noticed that some people sadly didn't listen to me in my last chapter. i am serious, go read ifthedeadwerealive's wonderful story that i personally wrote a chapter to.

A/N:

you all know you loved the ending. even i must say that i loved it. yes, a lot of this chapter was dull and terrible, but this was beautiful. I love it and if anyone dare says that they thought it was corny or such, i shall never write again. (I am just kidding. once I post this, i will start hating the ending, so say as you wish.) I hated hurting bakura. he has changed and is totally guilty for doing all those things. About Anzu... I, for some reason, felt sorry for hating her so much, (I think it was the opium) so i changed her, but still made yugi yell at her for all you anzu haters out there. I don't know exactly when i decided to have yami tell his story about his father. Oh, my Ra! i made yami tell yugi he thought he was perfect and yugi say that yami was beautiful. One step closer to... you know what. i even planned out what they are going to wear, if i actually do write the citrus, of course.

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