Let Me Keep You
A heart to heart
A life for life
As healing as a kiss
As damaging as a knife
Am I not yours?
Are you not mine?
Love and hate
They bare a thin line
I want you here
Sweet one of such purity
That I want to keep
With me in security
It's torture to let you stay free
To think you might fly away
To never to be in my arms
To never stay
Each second with you I hold
You so tender and mild
That I want to claim
Capture you so free and wild
I want my way
And I will do anything to have it
But I love you too much to force you
So I'll ask you what you see fit
To hear you give yourself to me
To know I have your trust
Is something I need
And to keep it a must
I give myself away to
In my heart there's no question who
For you belong to me
And I belong to you…
Horo had been running for a little while now and breathed in slowly to gain back his lost oxygen walking over to the edge of the hill and sitting where he could overlook all of Funbari and see Tokyo light up as dusk settled in. This was his and Rens favourite spot they came up here often now. They liked that they had their own place to see the stars in the vast city. Horo sat thinking and remembering Rens little outburst not knowing why he got that mad or why Ren became so… possessive.
-Flashback-
"Ren, he's done" Horo shouted wiping his mouth in disgust and narrowing his eyes in annoyance
"No! Not while he's still breathing" Ren spat with a terrifying glint in his eyes
"Ren! Stop!" Horo commanded grabbing hold of the kwan-doa before it could be lunged into the balled up man coughing and out of breathe holding his stomach in pain. Horo struggled a little tightening his grip and getting an outburst of disapproval as Ren pushed him back roughly against the wall shouting at him
"He touched you Horo! He touched what's mine!" Ren shouted gripping his hand into a fist holding it high threateningly but his fist soon loosened when he realised he had pushed Horo hard against the wall like that. He loosened and relaxed slightly reaching forward to grab Horos arm to lead him away from the scene "Horo, I'm…" before Ren could even finish he was stopped in shock as Horo pulled his arm away and pulled out into the corridor away from Ren looking insulted and peeved.
"Is that what I am? YOURS, your fucking possession!" Horo turned around feet at the ready not knowing whether to stay or go. He heard Ren voice up but didn't want to hear it
"Horo it's not…" Horo abruptly cut off Rens explanation
"I don't want to hear it!" Horo shouted turning to glare at Ren for a final time before giving his finishing statement "I'm not yours!" Horo ran off down the corridor with Ren faltering the follower at first but soon packed up his kwan-doa and pursued. Horo ran through a doorway through a parlour where people were drinking and chatting finding the nearest fire exit and bursting though them surprising a few people. Ren followed bursting though the fire doors to looking right and left to see where Horo could of possibly gone. Well right was a dead end so Ren chose to go left out into the crowded streets. Ren would never find Horo in that crowd there were too many all pushing and shoving to make their way around. Another reason he wouldn't was because back near that fire exit just in the other side of that wall stood out of breath and still pissed off Horo. He stood for minute but heard Rens voice shout his name again so sprinted off down the alley and out the other side leading away and to a place he could think.
-Flashback End-
Horo cradled himself with his arms leaning forward wondering why he got so mad
'Rens possession, I'm Rens thing? I don't like that part of Ren. I thought I loved everything about him but I don't like that part that wants to keep me down and under his thumb… I don't understand it. Maybe it's me, something in my head. I seem to always argue between my heart and my head, my heart screams give, and my head shouts take… It's sad'
A heart to heart
A life for life
As healing as a kiss
As damaging as a knife
Horo was brought out of his thoughts by an approaching figure that softly treaded unnoticed until he spoke out
"Horo…" Ren spoke softly to get his attention with out sounding mad at him. Horo swiftly turned and looked Ren up and down that stood a good distance away looking at Horo sit there still with a hint of hurt pride stuck in his eyes, Horo though soon turned back round facing the edge of the hill lowering his head and closing his eyes voicing out in a tone that defied his feelings, a calm tone unnatural for the Ainu
"How did you know I was here?" Horo asked still remaining calm and bottled up
"I know you" Ren walked over and sat solemnly next to Horo but quite close not looking at Horo sat there eyes closed head dropped "I know where you'd go in these cases"
"So I'm a case now?" Horo asked in a more angry tone but still collect
"Don't twist my words" Ren though didn't hide his frustration with Horo letting his displeasure seep into his voice but Horo was unaffected
"Mine? You said I was yours" Horo added getting to the subject he knew Ren really wanted to talk about. Ren sighed and looked up at the sky seeing a trail of stars leading over the hill
"Horo…" Ren didn't know how to explain he just uttered Horos name and hoped Horo would continue
"You acted like a I belonged to you… like I was a mere possession" Horo whispered opening his eyes to look half-heartedly over the darkened city
"It's not like that" Ren assured but Horo remained un-assured by that he wanted more
"Oh… Then what was it? Horo asked intently briefly shifting his gaze Rens way before turning again to the view
"… I snapped…" Ren admitted remembering the little events beginning
-Flashback-
Horo had gone to the bathroom while Ren waited in the main part of the building, he and Horo had gone to have dinner wanting to be away from everyone for a night. Ren got bored hanging around on his own so went to see what was taking Horo so long. He went through the back corridors of the place that led to the men's room. Ren figured Horo had got lost it was a bit of a maze. Ren turned a corner leading to an open area where employees would walk in and out the parlour where the rich and powerful sat to have their drinks away from the common bar at the other end of the building. He saw Horo wondering around and was about to call Horo over when a guy came out the parlour doors where the loud music and voices were defining. The man took one look at Horo and decided to have words and this man was very drunk indeed but very large.
"Hey handsome" The man said with a grin standing in Horos way. Ren frowned at the man sending a dark look his way
"Get lost!" Horo said coldly before trying to get around the man but after only making it to the mans side he was forced against the wall and pushed against it with the mans body as he forced a kiss on the Ainus lips and rubbed his hands up Horo thighs getting a huge struggle. Horo managed to break away coughing and spitting to show his disgust. Horo turned to see the man being hit by Ren and forced against the wall with punches landed to his chest and stomach before he eventually curled up receiving kicks to his balled up form. With every kick Ren barked at the man
"How dare you!" Kick to the mans upper arm "How dare you touch him!" Kick to his shoulder "Filthy roach!" Kick to his side "insect!" Kick to the mans stomach "How dare you touch what's not yours!" Ren gave a final kick to the mans head knocking him clean out but this wasn't enough he quickly got his kwan-doa out eyes wide with anger teeth gritting and an unholy look upon the beaten figure below. He raised his kwan-doa only to have it grabbed by Horo…
-Flashback End-
Am I not yours?
Are you not mine?
Love and hate
They bare a thin line
"He forced himself on you" Ren paused to look at Horo with a deathly look "He touched you" Ren kept his cool like Horo, he didn't want to get mad at this point but boy was he
"You think I liked that huh? I didn't, but to add to the humiliation of being man-handled you had to proclaim me yours" Horo said glumly and frigidly
"If you want me to say sorry, fine, I'm sorry" Ren said uncaringly not sounding sorry at all
"Hnn… you can't just treat me like a possession, it doesn't work that way" Horo informed Ren sounding glum
"Maybe it should" Ren retorted
"Charming" Horo said sarcastically closing his eyes to finish with the rest of his sarcastic comment "Next you'll be telling me how beautiful my eyes are" Ren smirked before letting a calm face settle on his features placing a hand on Horos hand. Horo opened his eyes at the tiny squeeze to his hand and turned to Ren
"Vous êtes des yeux sont si beaux" Ren said with a smile knowing Horo wouldn't understand the French exactly but get the point. Horo liked it when Ren spoke French it was one of those odd things you saw in movies that made the moment seem special. Horo blushed biting his tongue trying not to, knowing he should be mad not blushing like a little giddy girl. Horo kept saying over and over in his head 'don't let him sweet-talk you with French' but his mind was never the strongest. His heart seemed to be winning the new argument of 'stand strong' and 'forgive' but his head stopped dead when Ren mounted him sitting in his lap facing him. Rens knees were on the floor either side of Horos legs and his arms wrapped around Horos waist while Horos still stayed leaning back onto the ground. Ren got comfy shifting down into Horos body fitting into place making Horo take in a shaky breath at the feeling of Rens motions. Ren leant forward almost nose to nose with Horo getting a dumbfounded look back from Horo as he looked into his eyes. Ren leaned over to whisper in Horos ear softly
"Let me have you" Ren whispered leaning back to look at Horo again
"W-What?" Horo stuttered. Ren leant in placing his lips just on Horos very lightly so his lips tickled Horos as he spoke
"Let me have you… Let me keep you" Ren repeated pressing his lips against Horos harder kissing his sweetly. After breaking away he went in again to kiss Horo longingly getting a response quickly as Horo gave in just wanting to deeply kiss Ren back. Horo allowed Ren to carry on and unbutton his jacket all the way down as they kissed. Once they parted for air Ren removed his own coat and scarf before kissing Horo again removing the jacket from Horo completely so he sat with a bare chest, Horo just sighed feeling light and warm. He helped Ren remove his t-shirt so both now were sat with bare chests. Horo looked at Ren briefly before pulling him into a very strong embrace and holding on tight. Ren tried to work his way around to kiss Horo but Horo didn't loosen his hold. He was defiantly not letting Ren go but Ren didn't object just hugged back.
"Let me just hold you for a minute, k?" Horo asked softly. Ren sighed and nodded just closing his eyes and letting Horo think
'Ren, you continue to confuse me. Why were you so dominating? Why did you loose it? What is going through your head? Then again you're used to being in charge, in the shaman fights you were boss from the fights to the food we ate but you were always fair I guess. Have I been fair? I mean I'm always getting the upper on you now and you don't say anything yet you're possessive and I flip out. I shouldn't be so selfish' Horo sighed and cuddled up closer but looser just getting a feel for his position before beginning where he left off in his mind. 'I shouldn't deny him what he gives me, I love him enough to entrust myself to him completely…'
Horo took a deep breath and whispered his answer into Rens ear softly…
"I'm yours" Horo stroked over Rens back who had tightened his grip protectively
"Horo…?"
"You can keep me" Horo replied kissing his way up Rens neck then kissing Rens lips allowing himself to fall back under Rens weight.
I want you here
Sweet one of such purity
That I want to keep
With me in security
Ren began kissing Horo hungrily caressing his lover in the warmth offered. Horo laid back and let Ren work but Ren didn't seem to get what Horo was really offering along with the promise of being his. Ren got a little frustrated that Horo hadn't made a move, Ren didn't get it did Horo want him? Was Horo unsure or something else? Ren pulled back with a frustrated look but that soon faded when he saw the glint in Horos eyes as he just waited for Ren to understand why he was holding back. Horos smile foretold of his intentions, he really was giving himself… all of himself. Ren finally realised Horo was entrusting a lot in him so Ren didn't want to disappoint smiling back. Ren moved his hand down Horos body and to Horos shorts slowly and teasingly removing them skilfully. Horo helped with the removal of Rens trousers and it wasn't long before each had removed all their clothing. The moon had set high in the sky and the sun had set long ago leaving the scenery bathed in the light of the stars and moon. Ren admired his Koi for a minute stroking his hand over Horos cheek examining it like he'd done a hundred times before. Ren delicately worked Horos legs apart from under him but didn't do anything else just kissed Horo hard before grasping Horos member in his hand touching it softly torturing Horo who just wanted release. Ren played around a little more softly biting Horos lower lip and softly working his kisses south. Ren covered Horos nipple with his mouth sucking hard a few times getting appreciative noises from Horo who had shut his eyes tight trying to endure the tease.
Ren made it all the way down making Horo shiver as his hot breathes blew over the tope of Horos shaft. Ren kissed the top before then taking it in but not completely just enough to make Horo moan out loudly. Ren smiled to himself liking the switch in role. Ren savoured the sweet tastes of his Ainu as his lips slid over the skin increasing in motion. Ren did all this painfully slow driving Horo to the brink of insanity. Ren slowly pulled his mouth away licking his lips and staring up at Horo who groaned with disappointment breathing in deeply with sweet glistening. Ren had a light touch surprisingly for such an angry and violent person. Ren slowly crawled back up to face Horo eye-to-eye smiling at the tired look of need.
It's torture to let you stay free
To think you might fly away
To never to be in my arms
To never stay
Ren decided to end Horos tortured body and mind working his hand down and laying Horo with his legs open. Horo couldn't take the suspense, he had no idea what this felt like and after seeing Ren limp after being the Uke for the first time he got nervous. Ren kissed Horo deeply before then inserting a finger at a time with Horo making an unexpected yelp into the kiss amazingly with out breaking it. Horos eyes watered with the slight burn of the movements but felt great relief when they were removed. His relief soon turned into panic and pain when he felt Ren slip in inch by inch. He knew it would hurt but he didn't know it hurt that much. He bit his lip cutting it slightly turning his head away and mustered up his words shakily
"Shit… you w-weren't joking when you said it hurt" Horo tried to joke sounding on the verge of tears but holding strong for the most part. Ren leaned in soothingly making circles in smooth motions with his hand on Horos skin. He traced his hand up to Horos face to wipe the underlining of wet tears under his eyes. Horo felt the pain slightly subside but still couldn't shake how much it hurt tensing up into a rigid state.
"It's alright your in safe hands" Ren said in an assuring manner kissing Horos forehead letting Horo adjust a minute. Horo still felt like screaming to high heaven but decided if Ren could bare it so could he
"You can move now" Horo said through clenched teeth. Ren was sceptic so kissed Horo deeply to relax him playing tag with the Ainu before moving out then back in with one solid thrust getting a small cry muffled into the kiss from Horo. Ren slowly began to build a pace in hopes Horo would relax into it but Horo only tensed further. Horo felt like his muscles were being torn apart with every movement but kept silent about it but he couldn't hide the pain on his face. Ren knew he needed to loosen Horo up or this was just going to be constantly agonising.
"Horo relax" Ren cooed into his ear pulling him closer, Horo calmed little by little finding that once his muscles relaxed the sting lost its edge and the pain died down. Ren felt Horo loosen up so began to move again, he thrust in regaining the pace just to get Horo into it. Horo moved along with him instantly feeling a shockwave through his body with every thrust. He gasped as Ren got quicker sending pulses of pleasure through every fibre of his body. Horo just wanted him to go deeper closing his eyes and thrusting himself at Ren harder heightening the sensations and thrills. Horo couldn't contain his little noises as Ren made love to him. Both were gasping with racing hearts, the speed doubled and sweat trickled down them both. Ren being flexible could work himself into a good position while Horo gripped his arms tightly locked around his body fingernails digging into him slightly as he tried to contain himself. Both were edging towards climax when Horo screamed out Rens name reaching the point of no return and releasing with Ren who gasped for air lying ungainly over Horo in the sticky mess they had both made.
Each second with you I hold
You so tender and mild
That I want to claim
Capture you so free and wild
Horo still couldn't catch his breath he felt something completely new, it was painful at first but worth it at the end. He didn't know Ren could do that, reach down that deep making him feel incredible all over. Ren rolled off and cuddled up to Horo with his nose rubbing against Horos cheek. Horo took in big deep breaths
"Ren… that was amazing… but… don't think your going to be the Seme too often" Horo side with a smile, Ren smiled back but kept quiet deciding it wasn't worth voicing up over. Ren knew now this was about the best relationship you could have, both partners equal in everything not just one lead the other follow or one more important than the other. This was down the middle. This was almost the perfect deal… just one last thing to make it perfection was needed. Ren was nearly asleep when Horo shook his shoulder forcing him to open his eyes and pay attention to his Ainu.
"We cant lay here naked all night you know" Horo said with a smirk, Ren blushed and sat up grabbing his garments of clothing from next to him and threw Horo his before giving a more stern look to his Ainu
"I knew that" Ren didn't feel the need to start an argument feeling to tired to do so and worse was it wasn't exactly a short walk back either. Horo stood up putting his clothes back on along with Ren as soon as he had got all the grass off his back. They began to walk home with Horo walking a little oddly feeling as uncomfortable as hell. Ren smirked at Horo knowing he'd have a limp later once he had a sleep. It was the same for him and boy did he limp, Horo gave Ren a dirty look for the smirk but this only made Ren stifle his laughter just wanting to taunt Horo so badly. They paced themselves for the long journey having a rest on a bench on the way back with Rens sitting and Horo laying on his side and his head in Rens lap… there was no way he could sit down right then. Eventually they reached Funbari Inn casually walking up to the door at 2am and unlocking it trying to sneak in only to be stopped as someone flicked on a light. Anna was sat in the chair with Yoh sat on the arm peeling an orange.
"Busted" Yoh said in a mock tone smiling broadly. Ren crossed his arms and glared at the two while Horo stood looking sheepishly at Anna thinking they were in for it
"What possessed you to think you could wander into my house at all hours?" Anna asked coolly and evilly, in the kind of tone your parents use to show disappointment and extreme agitation
"Well you see…" Horo started but was cut off abruptly by Rens sharp voice
"We don't need to explain ourselves Horo" Ren turned to walk off
"Don't you dare walk away from me Tao Ren!" Anna shouted loud enough to halt him but not to wake everyone else in the Inn up
"Sorry Anna it won't happen again" Horo said shyly
"Your right Horo, it wont" Anna stood to leave walking past Ren giving him a dangerous look before heading up stairs. Yoh walked over to Horo and picked a twig out of Horos hair smirking assertively
"Soooooo, what have you two been up to?"
"N-nothing" Ren said quickly turning pink and having to face another direction to avoid the giddy smirk Yoh had
"Horo, why do you have grass in your hair?" Yoh asked casually still keeping his amused smile
"I-I was… just laying down in the grass, nothing else" Horo said smiling trying to convince Yoh of his innocence not really caring if Yoh knew or not but he wasn't going to admit it
"Sure you were" Yoh said playfully nudging Horo with his elbow and winking emphasising he was winking by saying "wink, wink" out loud. Ren gritted his teeth growling lowly with by now rosy red cheeks as Yoh made his way upstairs looking back to wink at Ren to add to the already pissed off Chinese mans anger. Horo walked by Ren taking hold of his hand taking him upstairs and into the shower.
I want my way
And I will do anything to have it
But I love you too much to force you
So I'll ask you what you see fit
Horo removed his clothes slowly not liking to bend down feeling sore already. He didn't know how Ren put up with this but Horo guessed that it got easier after the first time because Ren didn't limp at all after the second or third time they had… intercourse. Ren sympathised watching Horo move around awkwardly. After Horo had somehow managed to get undressed with out bending down or making sudden movements they climbed into the shower washing away the grass twigs and other products of their love making cuddling under the stream of water for a few minutes after tiredly.
They both got out grabbing towels and drying off. Ren put on pyjama bottoms but Horo didn't think it was worth the pain to get his on so depends on Rens body heat to keep him warm through the night. Ren climbed in shifting the covers for Horo to climb in. It was amusing to watch him wince after sitting to get into bed. Horo could tell Ren was smiling at him probably loving every second, though Horo couldn't talk he wasn't exactly sympathetic with Ren. Horo felt achy and sore all over
"How do you stand it Ren?" Horo asked
"It got easier" Ren plainly stated
"Do you feel this sore after?" Horo asked again wondering whether Ren endured this every time
"No" Ren replied shifting some of Horos hair behind his ear away from Horos eyes. Horo smiled and kissed Ren briefly broadening his smile
"You were amazing though" Horo purred into his ear giggling at Rens blush and shy behaviour
To hear you give yourself to me
To know I have your trust
Is something I need
And to keep it a must
Horo rolled onto his side facing Ren cuddling into Ren and snuggling down.
Ren played with Horos fresh clean hair a little thinking a little more. He encircled Horo and decided keeping Horo awake a little longer wouldn't kill either of them. Ren nudged Horo until he heard Horo make a noise that was supposed to signify he was awake.
"Hmph?" Horo made a grumbled noise in the form of question
"Horo, you said I could keep you…" Ren trailed off at the end
"Yeah I did" Horo said waiting for the rest
"Well…" Ren began again pausing wanting to look Horo in the eye to say this part
"Well?" Horo waited for the answer shifting to look Ren in the face sleepily snuggling into the soft pillow
"I'm yours too" Ren spoke softly closing the gap
Ren?" Horo asked with a quirked eyebrow, Ren only leaned in closer sealing a small kiss before finishing with a faint smile
"I'm yours" kissed Horo again only more sweetly, playfully and seductively "You can keep me" Ren cuddled up into Horo tight hug and closed his eyes at ease with the world. This was all perfect, him and Horo sleeping close with Horo holding on the his Ren and Ren holding onto his Horo…
I give myself away to
In my heart there's no question who
For you belong to me
And I belong to you…
Let me keep you…
And I'll let you keep me…
Don't get much mushier than that hope you enjoyed and sorry for slow updates hit a busy time so everything is moving very slow
Rock-On!