Hi everyone! Here's chapter two.
Warning: Hatori will seem out of character, but that's only because we've never really seen his truly happy side.
I would like to thank my three reviewers,
kireina
Ari-fm-yk
And veronica
Chapter 2: Love is just only a word to me...
"No matter how many waves crash down as I cry out to my memories, I can't ever return to the shore you were on..." Tasogare no Umi (You can see the Hatori/Kana-ness in there! Hatori's crying out to his memories, but Kana will be forever unreachable... Poor Ha'ri!)
Secretly, I yearn for you, Kana. I know… Momiji, Shigure and Ayame all know that I do. But I want you to be happy, you can be happy without me, yet… I cannot be happy without you. The day you left, I cried. Momiji was worried about me, I tried to reassure him that I was fine, but each time I tried... I choked. I choked on the words that weren't meant to leave my mouth. I wasn't fine. I was miserable. I didn't know how I was going to continue living knowing you didn't remember me, our love, our dream. The dream to become married… The one that Akito shattered. I didn't blame him. I didn't blame him at all. It was all my fault. Mine. Not yours. You continuously apologized to me. It hurt my heart to hear you say it.
"Hatori, please forgive me... your eye, it's all my fault!"
No Kana, it was my fault. I pray that you find happiness. And you have. You're married, and I, I am all alone. I will be forever. Please forgive me, Kana. Oh god… Kana, it's all my fault… from the mind of Hatori Sohma.
Kana sighed, it had been a long day. Looking over to the doctor, she smiled. Had it really been three weeks? Three weeks since they had met. She had developed a crush on him. She could hardly look him in the eye anymore- it drove her insane. She paused for a moment and looked back over to the standoffish doctor, whom was scribbling rapidly on some paper. She laughed to herself. He worked so hard and hardly got any sleep. Kana noted that he looked tired, maybe she shouldn't try asking if he wanted lunch. But wouldn't that be rude? How could he work under those conditions? Silence resumed until Kana stood.
"Um. Hatori? I'm going to go get some lunch, would you like to come?" Standing also, he replied.
"All right, I'll go." Hatori grabbed his coat and followed Kana out the door.
"The place I was thinking of isn't too far from here, why don't we walk?" Hatori smiled slightly.
"That sounds like a wonderful idea." They began walking off toward the front gates and then off Sohma property. As soon as they stepped off of Sohma property, they stepped on to a sheet of ice. Kana slipped on the ice and fell.
"Ouch. I guess we'll have to watch for ice sheets on the way there, huh?" Kana said, getting up. Before he could even think, a snowball hit him in the chest and he slipped. "Oh, I'm sorry, I just meant to hit you, not knock you over," Kana said, holding out a hand. Instead of taking it, Hatori found himself picking up some snow and throwing it at her. Hatori laughed to himself as he got to his feet. Kana smiled. Hatori watched as the whimsical spirit he called Kana danced through the snow.
"Isn't the snow beautiful, Hatori?"
"Yes, yes it is…" Kana beamed as she twirled in the snow.
"When you were younger, what did you think the snow was?" Hatori thought for a moment.
"I don't really know. It was always just frozen water to me."
"I thought the snow was angel feathers, falling down from heaven. Then, my mother told me that they were angel tears, frozen angel tears to honor the men and women upon the earth." He just stood there. Kana began twirling again. He stood there and watched Kana the angel twirl in the snow. His eyes softened and he suddenly snapped out of a joyous reverie.
When the snow melts-
I think I love her
Spring!
Angel tears...
Angels...
Angel feathers…
No! boomed a voice in the back of Hatori's mind. Love. Love is just a word to me. Hatori sighed. Who are you kidding, Hatori? You love her… You love her a lot. More than you ever loved anything...
"Hatori?" Kana asked, she had been calling his name for a few minutes now. "Hatori? Are you all right?" Her tone became worried. Hatori snapped out of his thoughts.
"Oh, I'm sorry, Kana, I got caught up in my thoughts, I'm okay."
"You're overworked, Hatori," she said. Hatori shook his head in a hasty attempt to ward off his arguing thoughts.
"I must admit I am tired, but I'd rather eat right now. I can rest later." Kana sighed and smiled.
"All right, come on, Hatori, we're here!" Kana dragged Hatori into the restaurant. After they were seated, like a mother to her child, Kana said, "When we get back to the office, you're taking a nap mister!" Hatori smiled slightly.
Kana… I love you…
I apologize once again. For Hatori's OOCness.