Chapter 2
Kinu finally decided to go to breakfast. She wandered around the halls looking for the dinning room. She begins to huff and puff. How do I get myself into these things? I just want to lie down. No, I must act as though nothing is wrong or he'll…….she coughs up blood. She looks around to make sure no one saw her. No one was in the halls. She continues walking as she wipes the blood from her mouth. She sees a few servants running in and out a room.
"Excuse me, do you know where the dinning room is," she leans against the wall short of breath.
"Its right here ma'am. You must be Kinu. The Lord said to watch out for you and when you decide to come help you find your way," the servant brings her to large doors.
"Thank you," she pushes open the doors and enters a huge room.
It was empty except for a very long table and what seemed like million of chairs and only two chairs were occupied. One seat was occupied by Sesshomaru. He didn't look up when she came in. She could tell he was deep in thought. But one person looked at her with young curious eyes. It was a small human girl with long black hair. She jumps out of her seat and runs to Kinu.
"Hi I'm Rin what's your name?" she asks happily at the sight of someone new.
"I'm Kinu," she heads for a chair.
"She's trying to talk to you and you're being rude," Sesshomaru had finally come to.
"I'm so sorry Lord Jackass. I wouldn't want to do anything to offend you or the ones you love," she turns around and faces Rin, "I am yours to talk to and play with till I lay on my death bed. Which hopefully will be soon but till then I'm in your eternal service," she smiles sweetly at Rin.
"Let's go pick flowers in the garden. That will be fun. The Lord Sesshomaru will come out and play with us."
"Yes we will play but I can't play with the Lord."
"Why's that?" Rin looks at her with a look of disappointment.
She whispers something in Rin's ear. Rin gives her a look of utmost understanding, "We can still go though if you want."
"Oh course," Rin leads her out of the dinning room and into the garden.
What did she say? Why does she torment me with her ways? Was she implying that I loved Rin and not her? Why would she want me to love her? Do I love her? No I'm Sesshomaru I love neither her nor Rin but I'm obligated to take care of Rin. This must be just another way for her to piss me off. I wonder if Rin would tell me what she said.
Just then Jaken rushes in, "My Lord the girl has escaped!"
"What?" Sesshomaru was still in a daze and lost in his thoughts.
"She left Rin as soon as they were in the gardens and she ran. She might still be in the…" It was too late Sesshomaru was gone.
I must escape. I have to kill that stupid mutt. It's the only thing left in life. She nearly reached the gate to the outer gardens when Sesshomaru pounced onto of her until they rolled and he was on the top, "Bastard!" she yelled and growled for his hands had landed upon her breast, "Pervert!"
"This wouldn't have happened if you didn't try to escape," he removed his hands and got off her.
"Well I wouldn't have tried to escape if you had just killed me."
"Why are you so bent on dying?" he growls at her.
"Because that's what everyone wants me to do. Die!" she yells at him.
"I don't!" he stops and realizes what he had said, "There is a distant hot springs from the actual castle. Have a servant show you to it and wash. I expect to see you at dinner.
She looks at him dumfounded as he walked towards what seemed like the castle but wasn't. A servant she never saw and seemed new came up to her.
"Um…uh…hello ma'am," she bows as she stutters, "the…the...the springs…ar...is this….w…way."
"Okay," said Kinu following the stuttering servant.
The servant led her to an unknown part of the inner garden. A river led from the lake to an unknown source or vice a versa. The trees began to become closer as they followed the river. Farther down Kinu could see a…waterfall? She hadn't heard it and was still unable to hear it. But that wasn't the amazing part. There was a waterfall over top of that waterfall and over top of that one and so on till what seemed like it reached the clouds. Under the smaller waterfall it looked more like the inside of a cave.
"Here we are ma'am," the servant stopped at the base of the smallest waterfall the she quickly ran off.
Kinu looked around the waterfall. Strange she still heard nothing yet she was less than a foot away. She walked to the waterfall and went under it. Now she heard the roar of the falls but wasn't wet. She decided that now hidden by the mysterious curtains of the falls it was safe to slip of her cloths. She looked around. She thought you would think it was dark but it was very bright. There was a hole on the side of the roof which was the source of light. There were deep indents in the wall so she could easily scale up it. She began scaling up the wall and so on for every waterfall but she began to become wet and hot. She reached the highest waterfall and was out of breath. The highest waterfall was truly n the clouds. The clouds were close together and there was a thick fog that she wasn't able to see anything. She walked around trying to see what was on that waterfall. As she walked over the rough surface she tripped over something and fell head first into a hot spring. She came up gasping for air and to her surprise when she opened her eyes she sat in none other than Sesshomaru's lap facing towards him. She blushes a deep red and is stunned.
"What are you doing in my hot springs?"
"I...uh…I," she was still blushing and unable to speak. Something told her not to get off him but stay a little longer.
"Do you plan to stay sitting on my lap or are you going to get up and leave?" He gave a sly look as to say go ahead and be smart and say you'd like to say because you really will stay. This look disappeared quickly.
"I…I…I'm sorry," she quickly jumps up off him and goes back down the way she came.
She runs and jumps as fast as she could to the bottom spring. She begins to get lost in her own thoughts. I sat in his lap way too long. My mom always told me I should never sit in a boy's lap. She said it would take some time to appear but I would have a craving to stay in his lap. Is that what I felt when I was in Sesshomaru's lap? A craving, a wanting, a need to have the comfort of a males body? Iie it can't be. Bankotsu's is the only lap I will ever crave to sit in. Just don't tell me I'm encrypted. She looks down at the inner part of her right thigh where she had felt the most sensation. There it was the six pointed star with a letter on each point spelling damned if you put it in the right order. Over the star was a cresset moon, the symbol for Sesshomaru. She picks up a nearby rock and tries to scrap away the encryption. This achieved nothing but a bloody thigh. She whines in pain and gets up going deeper looking for a hot springs. When she fount it she sat down in it.
Sesshomaru watched her then came from out of the shadows, "Why were you scrubbing yourself with that rock?"
She squeals and dives under the water, "Pervert!"
He threw her her cloths and turned around, "What's on your leg?"
"It's nothing," she gets dressed and walks past him.
He grabs her wrist and looks her deeply in the eyes. She tugs away refusing to look him in the eyes.
"You're naked…let go of me and get dressed," she tried not to sound embarrassed.
"You didn't mind that I when you were sitting in my lap and we were both naked," he roughly pulled her back pulling her closer.
"That..." she blushes and looks up at him finally.
"That what?" he lets go of her wrist.
"That was different," she says shaking her head and then runs off.
He grabs her by the wrist and pulls her in close so that they were touching, "Why did you stay so long? Did you like what you…"
She interrupts him, "No, no, no! My mind just went blank and I didn't know what to do!" she tries struggling from his grip and gets free. She runs away from the waterfall and back to the castle.
Sesshomaru flies back to the top springs and slips own his robes and armor then heads back to the castle begin lost in thought. She was scared, but why? Why did she fear the end of my sentence if I was only teasing her? Oh, I forgot to ask her about what she was doing to her leg? What was on her leg that she didn't want there so badly? I'm quite sure it had to deal with me. When can I get her alone? Maybe right as she's going to sleep. He begins to fall asleep into a deep dream.
He bumps into something. He looks up and sees Kinu with her hands covered in blood, "What's with you," he looks around for a bloody weapon.
Damn. I can't be healed no I can't. I must die and be with Bankotsu, "Nothing," she continues to walk towards the castle.
"Why are you bleeding?" he kept up with her in easy long strides.
"I'm not. Why are you following me.?" She jumps over the wall and walks up the stairs to her room.
"I'm not. I own this place so I can go anywhere I want," he jumps over the wall and follows her up the stairs.
She quickly jumps across the balcony and walks threw the doors. She closes them and locks them before Sesshomaru could come threw. She went to the fountain and washed off her hands and arms. She then slipped off her outfit and boots and sat on the edge of the fountain. She wiped the blood stains from the moon and star shaped encryption. She looked at the ripples in the water and gasped at the tall figure which stood behind her. She turns around and falls backwards into the fountain.
He leaned in close and opened her legs wide, "So what is this?"
She blushes deeply as she finds it harder and harder to keep her body up, "It's nothing," she backs up closing her legs.
He pulls her back to him and reopens her legs, "What do the letters spell?" he looks at her chest after glancing at the six pointed star.
She smacks him and jumps out of the fountain. She makes a run for the bed and hides behind the silky curtains, "Pervert!"
He rubs his cheek and goes to her. He grabs her arm and tosses her on the bed. Then he opens her legs and traces the encryption, "So what does it spell?" he kept his eyes on the encryption this time.
"Damned," she shivers as his claws glide higher than that of the position of the encryption.
"What's that supposed to mean?" he looked at her face as he continued to sweep his claws over the encryption and more.
"It means anyone thinking to fuck me is out of luck. I'm someone's property and they're strong. You'll be damned if you..." she stops as he leans close and kisses heron the lips.
"You're mine," he says getting on the bed and closing the curtains.
He gets on top of her and begins kissing her bust then going lower. She blushes and tries pushing him without very much effort. He stops at her waist then begins licking lower. She moans as he stops at her soft spot. He licks and kisses up her legs back to her bust.
He smiles as he comes to. He sits out side in the outer garden and when he comes to its night, he walks to Kinu's balcony. She was soaking wet and had a towel wrapped around her. A trail of water led from the fountain to where she stood. She dried of with the towel then dropped on the floor. She stroked her tail and then dried it off. She seemed to have a dreary look in her eyes. She looked sick as though she was she was dying. She wavered a fell on the bed. He quickly went into the room.
"Are you okay?" he strides over to the bed where she beings to sit up. He could see it now. She was paler than when they first met.
"You pervert. You enjoy seeing me naked. Have you ever heard of knocking?" she is now completely up and looking at the floor. She takes careful consideration to keep her tail over the encryption.
He gets on top of her and presses down, "You want to die don't you?"
"Hai I do but I see you insist on fucking me first."
"Hmp. If I were to fuck somebody they would have to have a better looking body than yours. I have to be able to lick something but you have nothing," he slides his hand up and down her inner thigh trying to push past her tail.
"I can't have it that bad. You're still rubbing on me."
"Only to see what was on your leg."
"You'll have to fuck me before that ever happens."
"I'll be glade to," he slips out of his robes and armor and begins licking her at her bust. He slides his hand over her tail, seeming to lose complete interest in the encryption.
She moans as he goes higher and then pushes him off, "Stop! Just kill me!"
"Why are you so insistent on dying?"
"Because that is what everyone wants and the only way I'll have true peace is if I die."
"What about your sense of pleasure?"
"Hah. I have no sense of pleasure and am surprised you could even use that word correctly in a sentence. Don't you hate all human feelings? Pleasure is a human feeling."
"Yet you can use it correctly?"
"I never once mentioned I disliked humans. If you actually talked to me instead of enslaving me off the back, you would have found out that I was once in love with a human, but he is now dead and I shall avenge his death."
"Did he love you?"
"What do you know of love you cold hearted bastard!"
"You're right. I shall see you in the morning when you come to breakfast. This time do not run when you are to baby sit Rin," he leaves out sounding quite hurt by her comment.
"Damn bastard only cares about that stupid human," she mumbles under her breath.
"And you must hate this?" says a mysterious voice she had never heard.
"Who's there?" she looks around but sees nothing.
Just then a dark watery shadow emerges from the water. A young girl with water eyes and sea green hair materializes. She is wearing a shear top, so that you saw her bust because she wasn't wearing a bra. She had on a blue leather mini skirt and blue matching leather boots that had fur around the top. She was young but older than Kinu. Kinu was about fourteen old years but this girl was about sixteen or seventeen.
"So I guess you hate that he cares more about the human than you and want her to disappear?"
"Iie and hai. I hate that he doesn't treat his workers as he treats what he claims to hate. He treats her with more respect than his loyal servants. But I don't want her to disappear. I'd like to either die which is going to be soon or be absent of all feelings and attachments I've ever had in life."
"I can do that too if you want. I am Discourse and I try to make the lives of fellow demons a little easier. Would you like that wish of yours?"
"Hai."
"All you must say is: I wish with all my heart and the Discourse of the world to be free of whatever ails me and be free as the moving water."
"I wish with all my heart and the Discourse of the world to be free of whatever ails me and be free as the moving water."
Discourse splashes Kinu with black water and sublimates into the air. Kinu looks around absent of anything that happened that dealt with feelings. She lies down on her back and stares and the ceiling on the canopy with, what demons or humans that had thrown away their souls called mixed feelings but she didn't exactly feel anything what so ever.
The next morning she was up when the servants came into to dress her in robes that were not hers. She did not protest as she did the first time. This time he had sent lavender robes with lilacs all over it. They quickly dressed her and whispered little comments of what seemed to be warnings.
"Please don't anger the Lord today."
"Just put these more sensible robes on."
"Don't call him names or he shall get mad."
"Don't try to run away again."
All these commands rang in her head as she walked to the dinning room and she felt she must be obedient and follow all of them. But there was one that she felt didn't fit in the group of commands. It was they one that she tried to push back when she heard it but couldn't.
"Reveal a little secret and he'll open up a yard."
She knew this saying quite well or at least she thought she did. It was meant to describe a man and a woman. It meant if you showed a man a little skin and look good as she thought she did and he would be ready to do anything for you if he thought he could get something by the end of the day (If you were even worth that long). She fount the dinning room and pushed the doors open. She thought she had been there before but wasn't quite sure. She saw a little human girl running to her that she thought she knew but wasn't sure.
"Lord Sesshomaru said you had to see your sick mom and that's why you ran. Is she okay?"
"I think she is but I'm not sure. I hope she is."
"But didn't you see her yesterday?"
"I think so but I'm not sure," she was then pulled off to the side by Sesshomaru.
"I am not in the mood to deal with your sarcastic attitude."
"I am so sorry Lord Sesshomaru. Please forgive me. I really didn't mean to seem sarcastic but I really am not sure what I've done all my life. I remember some things here and there and some people there and here but I honestly don't know."
He grabs her by the neck and pins her against the wall, "You must really want me to hurt you? Do you think I'm gonna let you slide because your acting as though you lost your memory or something?"
"I'm not sure. If I remember you I might be able to respond but I honestly have no clue who you are or where I am at," she says this indifferently and shows no sign of pain.
He drops her and she begins to cough up blood. Rin runs to her and is quite worried.
"Lord Sesshomaru, why would you do that?"
"She will be okay. Leave her and she and I will come for you. We shall journey out to obtain Tetsusaiga from my half breed brother."
"Hai sir," Rin runs off to the gardens to pick flowers.
He turned around to face Kinu who was still coughing up blood, "Don't force you self to cough up blood."
"I am not sir at least I don't think."
"What is this with you don't think and being respectful? Rin is gone now."
"I'm not really sure sir. I just don't remember a lot of things that I seem I'm supposed to remember."
He goes to her and lifts up her kimono. He looks on her thigh and sees the encryption. He recognizes it and looks up at her, "How did you get this?"
"To be truthfully honest with you I don't even know what it is," she had a truly clueless look in her eyes and under that there was that sick look she had along with pain, misery, anger, jealousy, envy, sorrow and wanting.
"You ever erased your memory must not have known of the encryption on your leg. I will give you back your memory as soon as I use this to my advantage," he thought of all the possibilities but then thought of what she had said.
He bent down and licked the crescent moon. She first glowed, the black liquid began to condensate, then she seem to give of her normal aura which had turned pleasant but was now full of mixed feelings. She looked at him them at where his hands were. She smacked him and stormed off.
"I returned your memory after someone erased it and that is how you repay me!" Sesshomaru was enraged. He grabbed her by the wrist and thrashed her into the wall. Water dripped on his claws and he noticed she was crying.
"No one erased my memory. A demon called discourse came to me in the room when you left. I was made because I didn't like the way you treated your servants, especially your loyal servants. She heard me say that all you cared about was that human and no one else. She thought I was jealous and wanted Rin gone. I told her I had no grudge against Rin but one against my self for harboring such feelings. I told her I wanted to rid myself of feelings all together. That also meant any event that was linked to a feeling. And since my whole meeting you was one big gigantic feeling that might have changed over time, I didn't remember you. For a moment I felt no pain what so ever and I was happy on the inside yet I didn't know it. Now I must feel internal and mental pain once again."
"Internal?"
"I'm dying you bastard! You'll finally have me at of your way and can have a clean conscience that it wasn't you. The blood you saw on me that day wasn't from wounds. It was from me coughing up blood. After my true love was killed I cut up the inside of my body. I will die soon and will leave this world filled with eternal hatred of life."
"There has to be a way to save you. Isn't there some way to heal you? I can use Tensaiga to bring you back to life!" He began to sound more and more anxious then suggestive.
"Nothing for even if you bring me back the weapon in which I injured myself once with lay inside of me causing ever more damage. You would just bring me back to cause me more pain. It's nice to know you have human feelings about me though," she gives him a sly smile and heads to the gardens to play with Rin.
He began to think and wonder what he could do for her. What am I doing? I worry about her as though I have feeling for her. But I do deep affections that I feel. A piercing scream broke threw his thoughts. It was Rin. He quickly ran to her. There he saw Kinu lying on the ground: dead.
"Lord Sesshomaru," Rin runs to him crying and wraps her arms around his waist, "She came out and began picking flowers. She said that this was the time she mention before and had fulfilled her only promise that had in the end meant something. She said you were right about her true love not loving her and now she saw no point in trying to avenge his death against that stupid mutt. She said it suited her most that she got to leave and lay in a beautiful silk kimono and a beautiful field of flowers. Then she began coughing up blood and then just fell. I think she's dead Lord Sesshomaru!" Rin had soaked the entire front of Sesshomaru and by the time she had finished he to began to cry.
A figure rose from the water and materialized into Discourse, "Tsk, tsk, tsk. She hoped to die a pain less death but she was unfortunate."
"I want you to take the knife out of her. NOW!"
"Oh, now aren't we mister grumpy. I don't do permanent things. That's why she always said she thought she remembered, but if you'd like something that involves another's misery that that shall make it permanent. So to say you always being able to be with her would be permanent because you'd be leaving Rin."
"Iie Lord Sesshomaru! Don't leave me."
"You mean I will always be with her?"
"If you mean if you decide to be with Kinu than, hai."
"I'll do it. I want to have timeless affection with her," he said this with no hesitation pushing away Rin.
"Iie Lord Sesshomaru! Please don't leave me!" Rin cried and tried to hug Sesshomaru.
"All you must say is: I wish with all my heart and the Discourse of the world to have timeless affection with the one who has stolen my heart and to continue to love as continuously as the flow of water."
He repeated with a now newly found feeling, "I wish with all my heart and the Discourse of the world to have timeless affection with the one who has stolen my heart and to continue to love as continuously as the flow of water."
Discourse sprinkled dust which pierced his and Kinu's skin. He could her Rin's cries fade in the background and her singing which he became drawn to. He soon saw Kinu come into appearance and it was she who sung like the sirens of the Odyssey.
"Kinu," he called her name lightly almost a whisper.
She wheeled around and had astonishment written all over her face, "Sesshomaru? What are you doing here? This is where star crossed lovers meet."
I've come for you. I love you."
"Oh," she sound very disappointed, "Sesshomaru, this is my love Bankotsu," she stepped aside to reveal a young handsome human man.
(This story is like fables because I'm gonna teach you a lesson. You will always have many loves but not everyone is that one person you'll give up everything for just to gain Timeless Affection)
The End