Title: converging fate and time
Author: ilovemilknhoney
Chapter One; kagomes feelings, and the boy who brings her new ones
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memories echoed though kagomes mind as she plunged her head under the steaming water, then once again brought it out gasping for air. pushing her dripping hair back out of her face, she rested her head on the edge of the tub, closing her eyes. her thoughts began to drift to one of the last outings she had with her friends, as she decided nothing had really changed since she finished her last year of school almost a month ago.
"kagome? hellooo?" yuka frantically waved her hand infront of kagomes face trying to shake her silence from the convorsation. kagome jumped a little as she broke her thoughts and turned, trying to force all of her attention to her friends.
"so how did you guys do in that last exam?" she initiated a convorsation, as if her silence was nothing more then contemplating over maths questions.
"it was a snap! dont ya think?" ayume clasped her hands together and pushed them into her chest, kagome sighed as she took a sip from her shake, it was typical of ayumi to find the hardest exam of the semester a snap. yuka and eris heads flung down in aspiration, obviously not very confident whith their efforts.
"ill be lucky to pass this time" yuka shamefully covered her eyes with her face as she finished the last chip from the large box they decided to share. they would all get together after school like this often now, with kagome previously spending so much time in the past, she was happy she could now spend more time catching up with her friends, even if it was hard for her.
"luck wont help me" eri grasped her partner in failures hand, as they hung their heads together in dismay.
"well ill definetly do better then last year!" kagome smiled at the girls, feeling self-assured that she aced this one for sure.
"i guess its because i havnt been missing out on so much school" she mentally hit herself at that last remark, knowing it would bring insentive for them to ask questions.
there was an obviously awkward slience as they all avoided looking at her. kagome had been so much more distant since she reterned from the feudal era and she knew that they all suspected her sudden attendance as having something to do with her attitude. but, she chose to ignored them, looking out the window into the distance, slowly returning to her earlier silence. she really did love her friend and hated being this way, but there were so many things she had left undone in the past. so many goodbyes left unsaid and so many memories left circeling her mind. then there was inuyasha.
"i bet its boy troubles" yuri lifted her head and rested it in the palm of her hand, realising kagomes temprement once again. kagome flinched turning to face them, they all looked interested now, realising this had some effect on her state.
"did you and your boyfriend broke up again, kagome?" eri began as they all stared at her with bulging eyes waiting for a response.
"i guess you could say that" surprised at herself, kagome struggled to fight back tears, not realsing just mentioning him would efftet her that much. they all realised this topic was sensitive to touch, and yuri placed her hand on kagomes shoulder to attempt to calm her tears.
"we are all here for you kagome", they looked up at her with such compassion, such sympathy, with such a willingness to help, and it was just too overwhelming for her. she was too emotionasl right now, and she didnt want them to see her cry. so, she stood up from her seat wiping her tears away as she made her way for the exit...
durning her last few years of school, kagome had become more and more dis-attatched from reality, always appearing to be in her own world. consequently to her withdrawal from her surroundings, she eventually stopped leaving the house for tasks such as food shopping or even going out with friends. she wasnt scared, and it didnt make her depressed, she just prefered it that way and enjoyed her own company. infact, knowing herself better then what could be thought possible, she was well aware that deep down she was still the same person.
but, with her radient new health and her excelent progress in school, now that she was attending more classes, it took people a while to realise she was so unhappy. subsequently, having her final warring era incedent during high school, didnt exactly make life easy for the girl. the pain it brought her, changed her, and she new that, but it didnt seem to matter. the thruth was kagome had never felt more torn. she was striving for something she would never reach, wanting something she could never have, and while her grades where better then ever, she was dying inside. she new people talked about her, and even as her friends became worried about her change in attitude, she still couldnt open up to them to let them help her heal.
... "can you believe kagome got top of the class for the maths examination?"
"shes so far ahead! isnt it amazing!"
"how does she do it? she was pratically failing last semester"
"kagome is exeling in everything! its so unfair"
"she spends so much more time at school now too, its so great shes not sick anymore"
"have you noticed how quite shes been? she must be really determined to catch up, since she missed so many classes"
"maybe the pressure of exams is getting to her?"
"no she cant come out this weekend she has shrine duties"
"i thought she was ignroing me but as she continued to stare i saw tears in her eyes"
"i dont think she likes me anymore, she dosnt talk to me like she used to"
"shes changed"
"shes a different person"
"i hope shes okay" ...
"ARRHHHGGGGG" spilling water over the side, she sat up in the bath all at once, with an extreamly frustrated expression covering her face.
"damn" she muttered under her breath, cursing wasnt something kagome took pride in doing, but this was beyond pissing her off. it had been over two years since she left all her friends behind in the well, two years of her ignoring her friends and commiting to a life of lonliness, but she still couldnt move on. she still couldnt stop agonising over the actions she took, or what would have happend if she expressed things she didnt have the courage to say. could things have turned out better?
she shook her head, trying to calm herself a little, as she lifted her leg to rest it on her knee as she cleaned it with same soap, before returning it back into the water. bathing was something kagome loved doing, and did frequently. it left her feeling renewd, and replinished. she looked up at the misty roof, the moonlight shining in through the small window above her, and decided she had been so far from her true self for too long.
"tomorrow, i start living again"
the darkness was now so over powering, kagome could hardly see. she covered her face with her hands as the fierce wind blew up, and around her, until she was lifted off the ground. her heart pounded, she was too scared to open her eyes, she couldnt do it, her spiritual powers werent strong enough. her hair blew all around her, almost hurting through the force of the wind, tears bearly escaping from her eyes.
"INUYASHA" she screamed, tears now flowing freely. she waited for an answer, but he didnt answer.
she screamed again "INUYASHA!", but she was alone. crying, her body felt numb from the pain, from the loneliness. she moved her arms around her legs, crawling into a ball, not daring to open her eyes. she never wanted to open her eyes again.
"..ka..kagome"
that voice. the sent of fowledge slowly drifted through the now suddnly warm air and to her nose, as she felt her hair drop beside her, like the wind had just dissapeared. but her heart was still in pain, she wouldnt open her eyes. she could hear herself crying, weeping, the more she cried the more it seemed to hurt.
"INUYASHA DONT LEAVE ME" she cried out between her sobs. the air grew hot like a rising sun just touching her skin, as she felt a presence with her. still hinding from the world around her she wept, as she suddenly felt a warm breathe near her ear.
"i'll never let you go kagome"
she quickly removed her arms of her head, lifting it and opening her eyes. it was morning, the darkness had gone and she was kneeling under the god tree.
"inu, inuyasha are you here?"
kagome sniffled waking up early as usual, before she groaned, initiating her typical rutine of distress as her dreams unsettled her. rubbing her eyes to rid herself of her sleepiness, she looked out the window to estimate the time. it was still relativley dark out, irritated she turned over on her other side pulling her covers over her head, pretending she had never really woken up, while snuggling into her pillow. kagome tried to clear her mind of all thoughts, mentally batelling with herself for a while, but stopped, realising her efforts where usless.
she had always enjoyed sleeping, it replenished her, kept her sane. now she despised it, no matter what the circumstances, whatever time she chose to go to sleep, she would always wake up before the sun would show itself. she moped, her long hair falling in front of her face as she worked up the strength to move out of bed.
stepping over the crap that coverd the floor of her bedroom, she almost tripped flat on her face over a history book, but somehow skillfully managed to grip the end of her dressing table. she let out a deep breath, mumbling at her stupid behaviour as she pulled herself up to view herself in the mirror.
"it looks like ive been sleeping for a thousand years", she commented trying to flatten her messy hair with her hands. sighing, she turned around leaning against her dressing table, with one leg hooked up against an open draw, as she stretched her arms out in front of her.
"well.. if im going to wake up this early every morning, then ill make use of it" she demanded from herself, as she hopped into her slippers and made her way down stairs. she could, she decided, at the very least try be a little useful. it was the beggining of a new year after all, the bussiest time of the year for the shine, and there was lots to do around the place, in which she was expected to help.
"everyone's still asleep" she wispered to herself, as she turned towards the kitched deciding she could save her mom the trouble of making breakfast. she knelt down opening a bottom cupboard to search for a chopping board, when she was startled by a cool breeze which blew through an open door over the opposite side of the room. she stood up, crossed her hands over her chest as she rubbed the goosebumps away from her arms.
"grandpa?" she called out but there was no reply.
walking over through the breeze as it blew her long hair past her face, she leaned on the sides of the door peering her head through the opening, but she couldnt see anyone.
"how strange" she spoke to herself, as she walked slowly outside though the door, checking the area around it. seeing the well in view she turned away painfully staring at her feet. avoiding it, she moved quickly in the opposite direction, around the side of the shine to further investigate.
as she continued the sun began to light up the sky, creating shadowed patterns on the roof of the shrine. she began to hum, as the fresh sent of the fowledge of the god tree, drew her into its presence. looking up admiring the tree she smiled, even though the well somehow made her depressed, the god tree was different. this was the first place she met him, and that was enough to make her happy.
"who are you?"
she jumped not realising there was anyone with her. his voice was husky but familiar. turning to see where the voice was comming from, the sun peering over the roof of the shrine glared her view, and even while placing a hand above her eyes, she could only just make out a figure.
"im kagome, i happen to live here" she didnt particulally feel like being polite to whoever it was, she had a bad sleep, it was way too early, and she was in her pyjamas.
he moved standing on the bench under the god tree, looking up into the leaves. his hands were likley crossed over his chest, but she could still only see the back of his body. she squinted trying to make out who it was in the sunlight, he looked like someone she knew, thats for sure. he was wearing baggy dark grey pants, so long that the bottem of them bunched up under his white shoes, and a fitted white shirt hanging out over his belt. his hair was such a light shade of blonde it was almost white, it was short and scruffy, and it looked like he hadnt attempted to brushed it in a while.
"kagome, hey?" he moved his hand onto his chin as if he was thinking, and continued to stare up into the leave of the tree.
"so this is the god tree... not too impressive" he smiled crossing his arms again as the slight breeze, now diminishing, blew his hair. although irritated by his arrogance, in insulting her tree, she chose to ignore him.
"what are you doing here?" it was about six in ther morning after all and kagome was curious.
"some old man hired me for extra help, said he lived here, i didnt no there would be anyone else" he tilted his head to the side, as kagome looked at the sky again watching the sun start to rise higher, removing the glare and exposing more daytime light.
he spoke to her again, his back still facing her, as kagome observed his body language which seemed so recognizable to her, "so where the hell is the old man? he tells me to get here early and then hes not even up himself?"
expecting an answer from her he turned to look at her, as kagome looked at him, unable to understand who he was. she looked into his face as his eyes peered into hers.
gold, his eyes were gold just like inuyashas. not able to believe what she was seeing, she gasped, her hand covering her mouth.
she noticed him staring at her, confusion written all over his face. he jumped off the bench in front of her, bending down looking into her face.
"whats with you, girl?" he put his hand under her chin as he concentrated his eyes on her, trying to understand what was wrong with her.
"..your eyes..." kagome managed to spill out.
"what? something wrong with them?" he turned to the side puting his hands behind his head, looking pretty smug.
still unalble to speak, kagome stood motionless in the early morning light, her nighty flowing in the current drift, as the sun hit the toes at the end of her slippers, slowing warming them up.
"i was born like this okay? you dont have to be a bitch about it" he stuck his nose up in the air pretending not to care what she thought, but kagome could see him trying to see her reaction without turning his head.
realising his rudeness, or her rudeness, or the general rudeness of the convorsation, kagome tried to apologise without actulally having to apologise "i wasnt being a bitch... i just like your eyes, thats all.. they remind me of someone i knew"
he sighed sitting on the bench under the god tree, taking her compliment but not thanking her for it. "so you live here huh?" he acted as if he was thinking again, holding his chin with his thumb and index finger.
she decided to sit down next to him, feeling a little more comfortable, kicking her legs freely back and forth as she stared at her feet. "yeah with my grandpa, mom and little brother"
he turned his head slighlty, looking her up and down as if inspecting her, "hmmmm"
"what?" kagome blushed quickly standing up, forgetting she was in her pyjamas. she felt exposed. but he didnt seem to care, and cotinued to check her out.
"im here for the next two weeks, so you wonna give me a tour of the place or something?" he got up, and as if already expecting her to say yes began to walk around the shrine. he was a good head and a bit taller then her, kagome observed, as she watched him walk, hands casually in his pockets. she contemplated wether or not to get changed, but she tried to assure herself that it didnt really matter what he thought of her anyway.
"..i supose" she humphed in a delayed response to his earlier question, reasling he had already walked out of sight.
in an attempt to catch up to him she walked in his direction. confused that she still couldnt see him, she started to increase her pace, walking faster. then, still having not caught up to him, she changed to a slow jog, before realising she had almost fully crossed the back of the shrine. she bent down resting her hands on her knees as she puffed lightly.
"OI DOWN HERE KAGOME", still resting on her knees, she turned her head in the direction of the well to trace the voice. it cant be, the voice sounded so familiar. she closed her eyes trying to match it to the voice in her dreams. was he calling to her from the well?
"YOU COMMING OR WHAT KAGOME?", she opend them again trying to snap back to reality, its just in your head kagome, she tried to convince herself.
setting aside her fears, she headed towards the well which she hadent been in for over a year. "IM COMMING ALREADY", she ran to the door, gripping both sides with her hands as she peered though, her eyes adjusting to the apparent darkness.
".. maybe if you didnt run so far ahea-" she stopped, as in the darkness she spotted two legs kicking out of the opening in the well.
holding her breath she moved further down the stairs into the darkness. as she stood off the last step, she spoted the lid of the well on the floor beside her. she took a step closer.
"inuyasha..?" the words drifted softly off her lips, with her imagination taking over common sense.
"kagome is that you?" her eyes adapted allowing her to see the figure leaning over into the well, half in, half out.
"WHAT THE HELL DO YOU THINK YOUR DOING" in a rage, kagome grabed his legs attempting to pull him back, instead causing him to lose his balance, tripping her up and falling over the side. not letting go, kagome held onto his legs tightly trying to stop him, but rather followed in after him.
"YOU STUPID GIRL" he screamed at her, covering his head with his arms as she squeezed her eyes shut, bringing him down faster. certain that they would both break something, they were equally stunned to suddenly stop falling in mid air.
"that was a close one" he wispered to himself, looking straight to the bottom, his face was only two feet away from being smashed into the well floor. turning his head slowly, trying to make the least amount of movement, he glanced up at kagome, who was still holding on to his waist. her eyes were closed, and he could see her foot caught on the edge of the well, as he tried to ignore her nighty which had fallen exposing most of her body.
he spoke slowly and camly, "kagome.. pleases dont..", at the sound of his voice kagome opend her eyes, looking down at the boy she had her arms wrapped around.
"AHHHHHH" she screamed, feeling peverted at her own actions. taking her hands off him as fast as she could, she not only dropped him, but caused herself to lose grip on the well, sending them both to the bottom together.
"FUCK", he cursed bracing himself for the drop, hitting the bottem and then breaking kagomes fall shortly after.
being less injured, kagome was the first to move slapping the boy across the cheek, "JUST WHAT DID YOU THINK YOU WERE DOING"
he moved his hand rubbing the spot she had slapped him, unable to do anything else, as she lay flat ontop of him.
"ah, would you mind getting off?" he motioned her with his eyes. blushing, she got off him, almost as quick as she had let go of him.
"GRRRRRRAAAAANNNNNNDDDPPPAAAAA!" she screamed at the top of her lungs desperate to get out. not only was she upset that nothing happend when she fell through the well, but the fact that she was stuck down there with the idiot who made her fall, was unbarable for her.
not hearing any reply, she fisted her hands at the side of her body in anger, turning to face the boy "THIS IS ALL YOUR FAULT YOU KNOW!"
he stood up off the floor brushing the dust off himself, obviously as irritated as she was "HEY WHAT ARE YOU BLAMING ME FOR, IF YOU DIDNT PUSH ME IN HERE, THIS WOULDNT HAVE HAPPEND"
"PUSH YOU? I STOPED YOU FROM FALLING IN, BUT IF YOU DIDNT RUN OFF IN HERE TO START WITH, I WOULDNT HAVE NEEDED TO" she wasnt going to lose this without a fight.
"WELL IF YOU DIDNT DROP ME WHEN WE HAD A CHANCE OF GETTING OUT, YOU WOULDNT HAVE FALLEN ON TOP OF ME"
fuming, kagome was about to slap him again, before her grandpas head appeared at the top of the well. "oh i see you've met jiro, kagome!"
jiro grined at the old man waving, while kagome just closed her eyes crossing her arms with her back to him "JERK!"
A/Notes: okay so i dont really like this chapter, i really needed to work on it some more, but what can i say? im lazy! plus i want to write more chapters and get more into the stroy, so it will have to do!
this is my first fanfic ever, so please write reviews so i no if its worth writing more chapters or not! (ive already pretty much finished chapters 2 and 3)thanks! hope you enjoy!