Year 9

" Derek, come join me," I called from inside the shower.

" Addi, I can't. I'd love too, but I just got a 911 from the hosipital."

I poked my head out, " Is everything okay?"

He came over and pecked me on the forehead, " I don't know. I'll be home as soon as I can. I'm sorry."

" Don't be."

" But it's Christmas."

" It's okay, Der. Have fun. Go save lives."

" Ok, Bye."

" Bye Derek. I love you,"

" Love you, too."

I finished my shower and proceeded to call all my family members to wish them a Merry Christmas.

" Hello," my niece, Andrea had answered.

" Hi, Andi. Merry Christmas."

" Merry Christmas, Auntie Addi."

" Did you get anything good for Christmas?"

" Lots of clothes. Thanks for my gift."

" You're welcome. Can I talk to your Mom?"

" Yeah, sure."

" Merry Christmas!" Elaine answered cheerfully.

" Merry Christmas, Sis."

" So did you, you know, yet?"

" No, he was called to the hospital,"

" Darn! So when are you going to tell Mom?"

" Umm, I guess you haven't been over there already,"

" What does that mean?"

" It means I put my sonogram picture in a frame that says 'Baby's First Christmas,"

" Aww!"

" I know, so i just have to wait for him to come home."

" I'm so happy for you, Ad."

" I know. It feels like it's almost too good to be true,"

" If anyone deserves this, it's you guys. You tried so hard for so long."

" I know. I'm still a little nervous on how he's going to react though."

" Are you kidding me? Derek will be estatic,"

" Let's hope so,"

" Alright the gang's calling. I'll talk to you later."

" Bye, Lainey,"

" Bye, Addi,"

Derek didn't come home until almost 3.

" Addi?" he called.

" In the kitchen." I had been making sugar cookies.

" Hi," he came up, gave me a kiss on the cheek, and took a snowman cookie.

" Hello,"

" I'm sorry. Spinal hematoma. The thing was huge and the guy didn't make it off the table,"

" I'm sorry,"

" Yeah. So, what can I do to make it up to you?"

Not freak out at me, I thought to myself. " You can open your gift,"

" Ok." We both walked into the next room and I plucked his gift out from under the tree. He ripped the wrapping paper off, opened the box and looked at me confused.

" It's a...,"

" It's a mini stethescope." He pulled it out of the box.

" Well, thank you, but I'm a little confused."

" You can't give a baby a big stethescope silly."

" Oh, my God. Are you serious?"

" I have never been more serious in my whole entire life."

" Oh, my God. Does it feel like a boy?"

" Umm. Right now it feels like morning sickness."

" Oh, my God," He ran over to my side and gave me a huge hug. I sighed with relief. Elaine was right. Then, he started to talk to my stomach, " Hello in there. This is your Daddy. Me and your mommy are very excited for you to come out of there." I toussled his hair. Everything was going to be okay.

" How long have you known?" This was the happiest I had ever seen Derek in a long time.

" About two weeks. I had a blood test and all that stuff."

" Who else knows?"

" My mother and my sister."

" Ok. Well, let me call my familia." He reached over me to get the reciever off the couch.

" Hey mom. Guess what? Addi's pregnant!" I laughed." Yeah, I know. Thank you. Wait. I want to tell them. Yeah. Give me someone. Hi, Donna. Guess what? Addi's pregnant! Thanks, sis. I know. Yeah. I will. She doesn't know yet. Ok. Yeah Give me Sam. Hi, sis. Guess what? Addi's pregnant!" He continued to do this the rest of his sisters. I just wished his father could have been here to see this.

" I have never been more excited in my whole entire life. I can't wait to share this with you, Ad." I smiled and then started to cry. " No. No. No, don't cry. This is a good thing."

" I know. I was just worried with how you would react and now you're so happy and it's just the hormones." He handed me a tissue. "Thanks."

" I can't believe you were worried about how I would react."

" Well, we are at the high piont of our careers."

" Addi, I could care less right now." He smiled at me and gave me a kiss. " Come on. I think a few of those have your name on them." He pionted to the tree.

Two weeks later, I misscarried. It was awful. I couldn't look at Derek for a while. I thought I had failed him. He was so happy and then, I screwed it up. I just wished she could've stayed with us. I just wished that we could've been parents.

I know it's sad. I like to write sad things. I love when something I write makes me cry. I like to think of it as if I'm crying, the reader is crying and that means I can really write. What did you think? Did I make you cry?