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Scream
-hajime
He couldn't remember how it all started.
The only decent memories he had of the incident before was walking towards Hinata, to check up on her, when the rain started to pelt down. He noticed how soaked he was getting and when he saw his cousin's drenched appearance...
he just found himself slamming his cousin's body against a tree by the use of his very dependable right hand. Perhaps she crashed too much that blood suddenly spilled out of her lips and she was already barely conscious. Neji thinks that her legs were standing only because of her willpower.
Which he had no intention of tolerating.
As expected, Hinata seemed to lose most of her speed since she wasn't able to react properly when Neji held out an arm and aimed at Hinata's stomach.
She blacked out for a moment and when she opened her eyes, she felt warm.
Uncomfortably warm despite the cold rainwater.
"N-neji-n-niisan…"
Neji was holding her upright by his shoulder. His hands weren't holding her. And she began to fear for the worst.
"…d-don't do this…please…n-niisan…"
She couldn't see his face since it was practically buried in the nape of her neck, but by the tone of his voice, she could've sworn that he was amused.
"Don't do what, Hinata? How come you know what I'm going to do to you?"
His breath unconsciously tickled the back of her neck. Was he doing this on purpose?
Placing a leg between Hinata's thighs, he licked her earlobe, making her squirm and close her legs so tight that Neji almost thought that she was fighting back.
She did fight back; however, the gap between them was so little that the attempts that her arms made only succeeded in trying Neji's patience. He frowned and grabbed both of her arms and pinned them above her head.
"Don't scream, Hinata-sama. It will only prove more of your weakness."
Ragged breathing was all there was when Neji slammed himself inside Hinata for the first time.
He had been there for more than twenty minutes, first scaring the wits out of Hinata, and then… and then this…
"…so tight…"
If only she could tear her ears out, maybe she would've. But, seeing that her cousin had rendered both of her hands paralyzed, she really had no choice.
She had been struggling, although she knew that her efforts would only be in vain.
But she kept trying.
And trying.
And trying.
Until Neji backhanded her with his left.
The boy was actually able to utter something else aside from moans.
"…why don't you activate the damned seal?... THAT would definitely stop me from harassing you…"
Maybe he was bluffing because he knew that his cousin wouldn't go that far.
Or maybe he was just suicidal that day, breathing with the want to stop everything.
Either way, he found himself on a certain kind of high.
It was on the third thrust that tears streaked on the girl's cheeks, knowing that she had just lost something important.
She thought that her first time would be gentle. She thought that it would be somewhere private and special. She thought that it would feel nice and sweet.
But reality proved her wrong.
Calloused hands held her body with no amount of tenderness whatsoever. Worse yet, to know that it was her own blood relative doing these unspeakable things to her… she felt so wrong… so dirty that she might want to throw up.
How she wished that Neji was Naruto instead. She wished that it was blond strands of hair that she could see in the corner of her ashened eyes, not chocolate brown.
She stopped in the middle of her thoughts.
Thinking about Naruto during times like these would seem blasphemous.
Meanwhile, Neji thought of nobody else but Hinata. By the way she shut her eyes closed, he could almost make sure that she was thinking of Na-na-na-naruto-kun again.
Who gives a damn about that brat? Probably only herself.
There were only two things Neji wanted in his life. One was to be recognized by the Main Clan while the other was not as abstract as the first : Hinata.
After he was defeated by Naruto, he lost all hope. Until now, he still believed that had it not been for the kyubi inside the brat, the tide could've been reversed.
But Destiny was at work. Fate chose Naruto to be the victor.
There was no other way to change that since time is irrevocable.
But as for his second goal…
…even he himself is quite surprised to learn that he had always wanted his cousin. He tried to shrug it off at first because he thought that all he felt towards her was hatred. But somehow, sometime during his sleepless nights, the line between love and hate cease to exist.
He didn't believe it in the beginning but when he found himself restless whenever he's not near her, his doubts began.
He started off as a sincere bodyguard, watching her wherever she went despite the fact that she also works with other people who would normally lend her a hand if the need arises.
He stalked her whenever he had some free time. He always watched from afar, knowing that she'll never notice him.
Five years was enough time for him to think about what he does.
And, even after five years, his passion had not wavered.
It was still there, though he failed to express it through his rough grip, harsh breathing and aggressive actions.
He wanted her so much...
…he didn't want to hurt her. Really, he didn't. It's just that he knew Hinata wouldn't give her consent even if he asked so politely.
But Neji made up his mind.
He would have Hinata, one way or another.
"Hinata-sama, if you stop resisting… this might even be a nice experience for you…"
He meant it.
This hurts me more than it hurts you…
Hinata was a sensible girl at that. She knew that until her cousin stops, there would be no escape. She could only go if he allows her to.
With more tears staining her cheeks, she gave up fighting and slumped against Neji's shoulder.
Neji smiled bitterly to himself and with a final thrust, he came. He was barely standing leaning into the tree for support.
Five minutes and he still didn't let her go. His arms were still glued to her hip and the small of her back.
Slowing his erratic breathing down, he nudged her temple and inhaled her scent.
Lavender…
If he could still remember right, that was the soap that was used by both Hinata and Hanabi… yes, he even went as far as sniffing their soap when they take a bath…
Placing both hands on her waist, he pulled away from her.
"I…I promise to be gentler next time…" With that, he cleaned himself and zipped his pants.
…next time?
Hinata was visible scared.
She only came back to reality when Neji offered her another clean piece of cloth.
She didn't speak but she took cloth anyway.
After cleaning herself for about ten minutes, she heard her cousin's voice.
"We should go, Hinata-sama. They must be waiting for you."
The rain still did not let up.
-owari.