Disclaimer: I only own Millenia and Aira.

A/N: Sequel to Perfection! This one is rated M coz it's slightly graphical. Millenia seems a bit out of her mind in this chapter, thinking all that dirty stuff. But imagine her state!

Um, it has a kind of incest. Be warned!

Dreams and tears

Love and lust

I saw them… Piccolo… our daughter… they were dead. His heart was torn out, and Aira's face held a lost, cold look. No one came to help me. But… I didn't feel sadness or sorrow. I was completely uncaring.

I stood there out in the desert, staring at their bodies, when he landed several feet away from me. I backed away quickly, almost tripping, until my back hit the hard rock. His eyes were not that warm dark, but they were chilly and they held a look that made my soul sink to my feet. He shot ki chains at me, and as I was standing rooted to the ground, I was soon held to the rock. I tried to break free, but nothing. Suddenly, he fazed in front of me, and stared into my eyes with his cold ones. Then a smirk appeared on his face and it grew into a sadistic grin. I knew what he had in store for me.

"Please… no…" I whimpered as his hand caressed my face, while his other rested at the side of my head. He stroked my hair, and trailed his finger down my collarbone. I whined again, begging for him to stop. He just leaned in, and whispered in my ear.

"You…" He started then he breathed in my ear, making me shiver. "Are mine." He brought down his hand and massaged my breast. I shut my eyes tightly, as hot tears threatened to fall, and I bit my lip to stop myself from moaning. He chuckled, and trailed his hand down to my thigh. He stroked it, giving my body a whole new mixture of sensations and emotions. I couldn't hold myself back, and moaned from delight.

"Good girl…" He whispered, leaning in, and kissing my neck, biting it lightly. Then he found that place, my most sensitive place in the crook of my neck. Not even my love knew where that place was, and he found it. He trailed his expert tongue there, and I couldn't help but groan at the burning warmth of his lips. I suddenly felt cold and incomplete. I needed him more than anything else.

"Ah, yes… I am yours…" I whimpered, my mind completely blank from lust. He pulled away, and smirked at me. He finally let me go of the ki chains, and ripped down my clothes. I managed to take off his shirt, and I threw my arms around his neck, and kissed him. The sensation of our chests pressed together made me moan again. He was constantly biting my lips, resting his hands on my backside. Then he moved one of his hands to the front and took off his belt. He backed me into the rock again, and I coiled my legs around his hips. I screamed out his name loudly as he entered me.

"Gohaaaaaan!" I screeched, pulling him closer to me. Him, being in me hurt like hell, reminding me how it felt to be raped. I've long forgotten that kind of pain, for it only happened once in my life. But still, it felt oddly good. Then I woke up.

I've been having these strange dreams ever since he wished me to love him for one night. Yes, I remember that night with my nephew. Why do I have these dreams? What if they come true? The death of my family… I know that Gohan isn't the murderer. He's just there to finally get me.

I feel sorry for Gohan. He's such a handsome and smart man. Why did fate curse him with loving me? He doesn't deserve it. That Videl girl… it's so obvious she doesn't care about him. Well, not like it would matter to him. I wonder how the others didn't notice it. They're so blind.

I guess life hasn't treated me much better. I live with Piccolo. Yes, our life is beautiful… from the outside. We keep fighting every day, blaming each other for something stupid. But I still love him… I think… I don't know anymore. Well, yes, he loved me. Until Aira came, and I meant nothing to him anymore. His little princess captured his heart, and he can't see me now. Well, I guess he's more of a father type than lover type. Our child is his completely. They haven't been home since the day before yesterday. Piccolo told me they wouldn't be back till tomorrow midnight. I don't really mind. I'm kind of used to living alone now.

These feelings I have for Gohan since that night are obviously pure lust. Yes, I do lust after him. I won't tell him though. I don't want him to get submissive and give over to me. Perhaps I just lust after his gentleness, something I never really had. Vegeta raped me and left me for good. Well, only once. Piccolo and I just practically fucked, and then it was over. I could count on one of my hands how many times. I think I just want to feel that gentleness he could give me. I really want know how does a real lovemaking feel.

Still, the dreams I have show that I lust after his bad side too. The side he's hiding, but I know he has. Thinking of what could or would he do to me when we're alone makes me strangely excited.

The thought that he might still want me too makes me want him even more. I guess I'm sick. Lusting after my own nephew. I'm ashamed to admit it, but when I'm in the shower, I use to caress myself, imagining it's him. For a little time, it satisfied me… but now I need him truly. I feel all dirty and sinful… but somehow the forbidden pleasure is always sweeter, isn't it?

I heard knocking from the front door. Who on Earth could it be? I opened the door, only to see the very person I've been thinking about.

"Hi, Millenia. Mind if I come in?" He asked, smiling at me.

"Gohan…" I whispered softly, and let him in. My mind was all blurry, what should I do?

"I wondered… didn't you have strange dreams recently?" He asked suddenly. I jumped at that question. How did he know?

"Yes, I did…" I answered, my voice barely above a whisper. Images of the event were spinning in my mind, making my hand tremble. 'I want you…'

"I know you did… I've heard you scream my name last night." He heard me? Was he spying on me?

He turned to look at me, and looked me all over. It became a habit of his, since that day in the forest, but he only dared to do it when we were alone. "Millenia… tell me, have your feelings for me changed?" He asked, walking in front of me. I shut my eyes, blocking the way of my tears. 'I can't lie to you. Damn it all, I can't lie.'

"They did, Gohan… but not to what you're hoping. I still don't love you that way…" I said. 'Don't ask any further, please!'

"Then how did they change?" He asked softly. I knew he feared that I might hate him because of that wish. I didn't know if he noticed too, but his voice was really scared.

"Why does it matter to you this much how I feel about you? Why? Why do you love me? Don't… please… don't…" I turned away, suppressing my sobs.

"You hate me, right? You hate me for that wish, you just don't want to break my heart by telling me." He again, walked in front of me, stroking my hair softly. "I'm so…" He started, but I interrupted his sentence, by placing my forefinger on his lips. I didn't want hear him say sorry. I couldn't bear it when he treated me like a goddess. I was truly not perfect.

"What I feel for you right now is…" I took a deep breath, and averted my eyes, frightened by my own sinful words to him. "…pure, sexual lust. I guess I'm just desperate, considering I have been alone in my bed since Aira was born." I tried to explain, and convince myself as well, not meeting his eyes. "But perhaps I just yearn for the gentleness you could give me… I don't really know." I finished with a sigh. 'I do know. I simply want you inside me, cause I'm going to rot if you don't screw me right now.'

"Millenia…" He breathed. I knew my words surprised him, and I knew what he was going to ask. "Why didn't you tell me?"

"I didn't want you to become submissive. I don't want to use you, Gohan." He put his finger under my chin, and lifted my head up to look at his smiling face. 'Wash that smile off, please! It makes me go insane. And your scent… so luxurious… I wonder if you know how you smell… all your acts, and everything about you is an aphrodisiac for me, Gohan…'

"Millenia… I'll let you use me, okay? As a payback for my wish." He added bending down slightly. 'I'm going to bite your sweet lips into a bloody swollen pulp…'

"Do you know what you're doing? If I start this… I'm afraid there's no way back…" He just stared in my eyes for a few minutes. 'Yes, there's no way back. I'll suck you drier than a desert.'

"Millenia… you're making my dream come true…" He whispered. "I gave you my first kiss. I wanted to give you my innocence too. Seems like I will." He smiled gratefully, and I couldn't help, but feel strangely special. I hesitated, but gave over to the lust and kissed him. We slowly walked over to my bed, enjoying the other's warmth and taste.

The next morning when I woke up, I found him sleeping next to me. I sat up, and a sudden feeling of guilt coursed through me. I took his innocence. 'How could I? What am I?'

He woke up, and I embraced him instantly. I felt the tears burn my eyes as I held on to him.

"Millenia… what's wrong?" He asked confusedly.

"I'm so sorry…" I muttered out. He laughed as he hugged me back.

"Millenia, are you worried about taking my innocence?" He asked, still chuckling. I nodded, not knowing what is so funny. "I told you I wanted to give it to you." He said sternly. I looked at his smiling face and I sighed.

"Doesn't it matter to you that I don't love you?" I asked. He shook his head.

"I'm glad that it actually happened. Nothing else matters right now." I smiled and bent down to kiss him. "I'd better go home. Mom must wonder where I was." He said, sitting up, pulling me with him. He kissed me gently then he dressed up. He gave me one good-bye kiss then walked to the door. He then turned back to me with a challenging smirk.

"Hey, Millenia. Whenever you feel lonely… you know where to find me." He said winking then flew out. 'Was that an offer? Well if it was, I'd definitely keep it in mind.'

It wasn't a bad offer anyways. I was quite content with it. We'd have our desires satisfied, and nothing more. My feeling of guilt was soon replaced by his smiling, happy face. I haven't seen him that happy in months. I was glad that I could make him cheerful that easily.