That Little Notebook

by aynechan

Sakura has already finished her studies and is now a business woman and is happy with her life with Ray.. But then, Syaoran appears and wants her back.. Will she agree? Or will she stick to her chosen life, without Syaoran.. Full summary inside

14. Never Gone

CHAPTER 14: NEVER GONE

AUTHOR'S NOTES: Hello once again, people! Thanks for putting up with me in this story… hehe… Anyway, I have my blog now where I'll be posting up the updates of my stories… here's the link to it: http/hopedreams. you guys can leave messages there and maybe some suggestions to any continuation of any of my stories just as you state the title of course… hehe…

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DISCLAIMER: I do not own Card Captor Sakura. Song is not also mine. It was sang by the BackStreet Boys in their album, Never Gone (Whoa! They are having a concert here! But I guess I won't watch… sigh…) and I got the lyrics of the song from CHAPTER:

"Guess so…" Sakura replied, again with a smile on her face. "Say Li-kun… Have you ever been in love?" Sakura asked as if it was a question that is being asked everyday.

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Syaoran looked at her surprised. "Excuse me?" he asked her.

"I mean, I know that I have been once because of those things that I suddenly remembered a while ago… So, have you?"

He stared at her for a few seconds. Sakura, on the other hand was staring at the ground. Then he answered, "Yeah… and I still am…"

Sakura answered him with an "oh" and then turned to him with a worried expression, tears starting to form from her eyes. Why? She doesn't know. Of course she can't remember the times that she was actually supposed to confess to Syaoran. But, she had that expression, hoping that she was the girl that he was in love with. "If you don't mind me asking, who is the girl?"

Now so much full of courage, Syaoran answered her, "You…" in a loud voice enough to be heard by the people in the whole room if there were any. "But, I understand if you don't answer me now. We can, as you said, start all over again… And, I'll wait for you patiently as I have been in the past few years, Sakura…"

Sakura just stared at him. She didn't know what this feeling was but surely, her heart was beating faster than normal. It was like she was safe around him, like nothing will go wrong while she was with him. It was just like having her other half with him, or maybe, he stole something from her before she even knew it, her heart.

"Li-kun…" not being able to control what she was saying that time, she spoke with honest and true words. "I don't know what this feeling is. But you know what, I feel safe around you. It's just like nothing can ever go wrong when I'm with you. I don't understand this… But, I know that I have never had this feeling before, that I'm pretty sure of." She continued.

"Sakura, like I said, we can start all over again. I know that one day you will remember that part of you that you forgot… And I'll always be here…" Syaoran said. "And, it's Syaoran to you…" he continued sarcastically.

At that last comment that Syaoran made, it made Sakura giggle which made Syaoran send a gentle smile at her. Then he leaned over to Sakura. At that time, Sakura was still giggling and didn't much know what was happening until she felt his lips upon hers. It felt good like it was really the right thing to do. Even though she knows that no relationship had happened between them before, she felt so good. And, it was also one thing that he needed to give her, for her to remember everything…

Sakura suddenly broke the kiss and placed both her palms in her forehead and looked down. It was so painful that she can bump her head to the wall for a thousand times and it still won't come off, which made her collapse on Syaoran's chest. Of course, he didn't know what to do so he reached to the button which called the nurse and pressed it.

o-o-o-o- ERIOL AND TOMOYO -o-o-o-o

Hearing someone running towards them, they woke up and saw that it was a nurse running. They so much hoped that she didn't walk right in Syaoran's room which was just beside them. Unfortunately, she turned and opened the room. They looked at each other, stood up ran inside the room only to see that the nurse was nursing Sakura who was unconscious on Syaoran's chest. Even though they know that Syaoran doesn't remember them, Eriol asked him, "What happened?"

"I don't know, I just kissed her then she suddenly had a headache then collapsed! What the hell is happening!" Syaoran asked. Then, after a few seconds, it was his turn to have a headache and collapse.

Then nurse then called to back-up leaving Sakura and Syaoran in the care of Eriol and Tomoyo, trusting in both of them while she was gone.

o-o-o-o- SAKURA'S MIND -o-o-o-o

flashbacks (note with the "s")

- flashback 1 -

The things we did, the things we said
Keep coming back to me and make me smile again
You showed me how to face the truth
Everything that's good in me I owe to you

It was Sakura's 18th birthday and she was just treated out by her boyfriend, Li Syaoran. They went to the fanciest restaurant that Sakura had ever seen. At this time, they were both in college, attending the same university. But, this wasn't exactly the most memorable birthday that Sakura had. Not that it wasn't romantic. But, it had something that she didn't ever want to remember. Unfortunately, this time, she had to remember it.

"Sakura, I know that this is a bad time to tell you this, but I have to do it." Syaoran told her while they were at his convertible car in front of Sakura's dormitory.

Sakura was just staring at Syaoran, hoping that it wasn't something bad. Then Syaoran continued, "I'm leaving for Hong Kong…" he said loud enough to be heard by Sakura as a whisper.

She was just staring at him. But this time, she had tears forming and flowing from her eyes. "Why? WHEN!" she asked after a few seconds, not intending to yell.

"My mom is retiring and needs someone to take over our business there. I'm the only heir to that business. All my other sisters have their own lives and wanted nothing to do with our company. I leave tomorrow. My mom just told me a while ago when she called before I left the dorm. She had my flight arranged as soon as possible. I'm sorry…" he explained. "But, I love you and I did try to tell her that I didn—" he tried to continue but was interrupted by Sakura who kissed him.

When she broke off, she said, still with tears in her eyes, "I know you did… I understand your situation very well, Mr. Li…" she said then giggled.

He didn't expect her to giggle at this kind of situation. Just a while ago, she looked like she was going to explode out of anger. "Sakura…"

"Syaoran, honey, I understand your mom… really… But, I need you to promise me something…" Sakura said, once again with a serious look in her eyes.

"What is that?" Syaoran asked.

"Just, promise me that you will never forget me and that you will return…" Sakura said, once again, tears forming and flowing from her eyes.

Syaoran smiled at her and wiped her tears with his thumb, "Sakura, that'll be my only mission when I return here… To have you back with me… For you to be mine once again…"

Though the distance that's between us
Now may seem to be too far
It will never seperate us
Deep inside I know you are

Sakura then hugged Syaoran tightly, still crying.

- flashback 2 -

They looked like they were still in middle school where they were with Eriol, Tomoyo, Meilin, Yamazaki, Naoko, Rika and Chiharu and they were having a sleepover at Tomoyo's. This day was Tomoyo's birthday so she hosted a sleepover and had games. And right now, they were playing to old "Truth or Dare" game that never faded.

"So, Syaoran, who is your present crush?" Eriol asked Syaoran after he answered truth.

Syaoran started to blush. Since his crush was inside the room, beside him, he didn't want her to know. "Who is it? Who do you think it is! Kinomoto Sakura of course!" Syaoran yelled in his thoughts. After finally deciding that he was telling, he sighed then answered, "It's…."

Sakura then stood up and grabbed the pitcher that was out of juice, "I'll just go and mix some juice, alright? You guys continue the game…" she said with a smile on her face. Obviously, she doesn't know what she was going to miss. Syaoran sighed at this, but, Tomoyo and Eriol won't let her miss that. Eriol stood up and grabbed the pitcher from Sakura and said, "I'll do it Sakura. You just stay here."

Confused, she let Eriol do it and sat back beside him again. Syaoran once again got nervous and almost lost his guts to tell her, and in front of the others. "Okay… this is it… TELL!" Syaoran once again yelled in his thoughts. He once again sighed, then continued. "It's Sakura…" he murmured. Not even Sakura heard him.

"What? Who?" Yamazaki said who happened to be in front of him, but he was like, 2-3 meters away from him.

"Yeah… who? I didn't even hear even though you are beside me…" Sakura said.

Syaoran turned red and looked down. Then he finally gathered up another pack of courage and said, now loud enough to be heard by Eriol who was at the kitchen 3 rooms away. "Sakura!"

Sakura, who was staring at him before he even announced that, now had big eyes which showed her beautiful emerald eyes, but, expressing shock in them. Syaoran on the other hand, was also looking at Sakura. Then she excused herself to go to the bathroom.

Never gone, never far
In my heart is where you are
Always close, everyday
Every step along the way
Even though for now we've gotta say goodbye
I know you will be forever in my life (yeah)
Never gone

- flashback 3 - (Sakura's POV from chapter 1)

"No, I'm fine… I just don't get it Sakura… I mean… Don't I have enough to make you stay?"

"Syaoran… It's not that… It's just that… 8 years has been too long… would you expect me to stay put? I mean…" I started. I really don't know how to finish it and how to explain how I felt during those times that he wasn't there… Of course, Ray understood me and was there. He kept on comforting me in the times that I needed someone.

"Okay… Sakura… I understand… I'll wait…" he said. He didn't even bother for me to finish my sentence. He just decided then and there. "I'll wait for you… no matter what…" then again, his soft voice came back. I knew he was mad a while ago… But, his soft self… I heard it again after so long…

"I missed that…" I said and then I smiled at him.

He stared at me confused. "Missed what?" he asked.

I smiled at him and said, "That… your voice, your soft and caring voice that you had…"

Syaoran smirked. I saw him. He really looked cute when ever he does that… I miss it… Wait… This can't be happening… Is my like for him actually returning…? This is absurd! This cannot be happening… "Really… So now you are actually telling me that you miss me?"

"Not really…" I replied with a smile on my face. Then I looked out in the window of the café. We were seated just right next to it. Then, there I saw the person whom I wasn't expecting to see… Ray. He was glaring at us, probably boiling deep inside. "Um, Syaoran, can you excuse me for a while…" I said then stood up and walked towards Ray outside.

No no no
I walk alone these empty streets
There is not a second you're not here with me
The love you gave, the grace you've shown
Will always give me strength and be my cornerstone

- flashback 4 - (Sakura's POV from chapter 3)

"Um… Actually… That business is you, Li Syaoran…" I told him as I held on to his wrists. He looked at me like I did something wrong to him or something. "Me! Business with ME! What did I do?" He started to panic. He didn't know what he did that I wanted to talk to him.

"Silly… You didn't do anything… I just wanted to talk to you… You know… We need some catching up to do… starting now… What happened to you when you returned to Hong Kong?"

"Oh… I see…" he said. His face… He looks disappointed or something. But, somehow I can see that he's happy… "Let's talk about this on our way… where?"

"Um… Your choice… My treat …" I said. But, he resisted. He wanted to treat me out. So, I couldn't do anything. I gave up and finally said yes. "Fine… You win… So, where do you wanna go?"

"Hm… I just saw this restaurant near the park. Guess we can hang out there…" Syaoran said, smiling. He smiled again. That rare smile of his… He shows it only to the people he loves. He doesn't show it often though.

Once we reached the place, there weren't much people inside so I guess we came at the right time of the day. After ordering some food, we continued to talk. About what? Nothing exactly. Just about what he had been up to in all those 8 years he stayed in Hong Kong. According to him, he was training. For what? Well, he is the next heir of their wealthy business. So I guess he was training to know the things that are supposed to know in their business. Which I think would be a lot.

"Met any girl on the process of your training?" I asked knowing he would say no to the answer if he did say that he still liked me…

"Well, yeah… But, they aren't you…" he answered.

(Somehow)
Somehow you found a way
To see the best I have in me
As long as time goes on
I swear to you that you will be

- flashback 5 -

As they reached the garden, Sakura turned around to look at Syaoran. "What is it that you would like to talk about?" she asked.

"I… Sakura… I told you before that I only had something to fix here, right? Now that it's already fixed, I guess there's no reason for me to stay here anymore…" Syaoran started.

Sakura stared at him with both confused and teary eyes. "What are you talking about…?"

"I'm flying back to Hong Kong this coming Friday, Sakura…" Syaoran said trying to hind his regret. Regret on what…? Regret on doing this. Regret on leaving Sakura and saying these to her…

Sakura stood there staring at Syaoran. She didn't know what to say. She felt her heart being torn into pieces. "Syaoran… I… Why!" she said yelling softly.

"It's not your fault Sakura. I just felt that…" Syaoran didn't know how to explain. He didn't want to bring up Ray to this conversation. "You don't deserve me… You deserve someone better… And besides, my love for you has faded after all these weeks... Don't worry, it's not your"

"NO!" Sakura once again yelled softly knowing that if she yelled really loud, Touya will bust out from the house and yell. "Syaoran… You can't leave!"

Syaoran was somewhat shocked at her expression. She was already crying… Tears were already flowing out from her eyes. And she was kneeling on the ground. He bent down and held her at her shoulders and said, "Sakura… look... I told you… I just don't love you anymore… So please make this easy for me… Forget about me, okay?"

She just sat there staring at the ground. "Alright… If that's the way you want it. LEAVE THEN! GO AWAY!" she yelled never bothering the silence of the night.

"Sakura…" Syaoran whispered as he was staring at Sakura. Her eyes were full of anger and hatred. It was obvious that she hated him now.

"Sakura, what's wrong!" Touya asked, concerned about his sister.

"GET AWAY FROM HERE!" she yelled, looking at Syaoran.

He held her shoulders and said, "Sakura… I'm…" still he couldn't continue for Sakura interrupted him.

"DON'T TOUCH ME! LEAVE ME ALONE!" Sakura yelled then she stood up and ran towards the house and ran up to her room where she locked herself.

Never gone, never far
In my heart is where you are
Always close (always close)
Everyday (everyday)
Every step along the way
Even though for now we've gotta say goodbye
I know you will be forever in my life (in my life yeah)

- flashback 6 -

"Sakura, wait just a minute…" Yukito said walking closer to Sakura and holding her arm to prevent her from throwing the notebook.

Sakura looked at Yukito with angry eyes, still. "What? You want to keep it? Here!" Sakura said pushing the notebook to Yukito's chest.

"Mate ne, Sakura-chan… This notebook… It's… It has…Syaoran wanted me to give it to you… Please read it… I know for a fact that this wasn't written to hurt you… nor was it written to make you cry, I think…" Yukito explained.

Sakura, calmed a bit, grabbed the notebook back from Yukito. She started to flip the pages of the notebook and saw the very last entry that Syaoran had placed there. She didn't know, but somehow, this entry had attracted her… And it said, "I don't know what has gotten into me that I would even dare to leave her… But, nothing's ever what it seems… I guess… we really aren't just meant to be… This is the last for this notebook… Last entry… Last Memory… Goodbye… Kinomoto Sakura… I will always love you and will never forget you, my angel…"

Upon reading that, Sakura had felt tears crawling out of her eyes. Her anger was washed away and was filled with… love? No, it wasn't filled with love… It was filled with so many emotions that Sakura didn't know how to explain it anymore… She looked at Yukito with red eyes once again. But this time, those red eyes didn't resemble anger... But resembled sympathy.

"I… Yukito… He… Me… Loved… Where is he?" Sakura asked Yukito as soon as she found her voice.

"Right now, he's at Tomoeda Hospital… He–" Yukito was about to continue but then, Sakura ran off, towards the hospital which was 6 blocks away from their house.

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o-o-o-o- SAKURA'S POV -o-o-o-o

Never gone from me
If there's one thing I believe (I believe)
I will see you somewhere down the road again

As I slowly opened my eyes, I saw someone looking at me in a worried expression. I couldn't much see her cause it was blurry. But when I finally opened my eyes to see who that person was, she screamed and said, "She's awake!"

Now I know who it was. Tomoyo was so caring. But, I wondered, where's Eriol? "Sakura! Are you alright? What happened? Is something painful? You want me to call the nurse?" Tomoyo said, showering me with more questions as I saw Eriol walk inside the room. Apparently, he was also taking care of another patient at the other room.

"Whow… Easy there with the questions… one, I'm alright. Second, I don't know what happened. If I could recall, I'll tell you. Third, no, nothing's painful. And fourth, no, I think I don't need a nurse. I just want to rest for a bit. What happened anyway?" I said.

o-o-o-o- NORMAL POV -o-o-o-o

"I don't know… That's why we are asking you. We left you with Syaoran to talk. Tomoyo and I suddenly fell asleep. Before we knew it, a nurse was running towards Syaoran's room. When we looked, you were unconscious, lying on his chest…" Eriol explained.

"Syaoran?" Sakura asked. "Syaoran's here? What's he doing here? Why was I lying on his chest! What did we talk about? WHERE IS HE?" Sakura was now the one to ask a bunch of questions.

"Whow…. Sakura-chan… Calm down… He's here 'cause he had an accident. I told you, you were unconscious. We'll have to ask him when he comes around. Apparently, a few minutes after you collapsed, he did too. I like Eriol said, we were outside the room so we don't know what you guys talked about. And lastly, he's at the other room." Tomoyo explained.

Sakura then stood up hurriedly and ran towards Syaoran's room. She sat beside Syaoran who was still unconscious. Having a so much messy hair, Sakura brushed a side his hair to get a perfect look of his face. "What happened Syaoran?" she asked him as if he'd hear her.

After a few seconds, Syaoran opened his eyes only to meet Sakura's. "I don't know, Sakura…" he answered with a smile.

Sakura, so glad to have Syaoran there beside her, she smiled and hugged him as tears flowed from her eyes. "SYAORAN!"

What they don't know is that someone is watching over them. 2 pairs of eyes that were longing to see the couple reunited.

"I'm guessing Syaoran took the right step…" Eriol said.

Tomoyo stepped forward and reached for the door knob to close the door. It's a miracle that she actually let an opportunity like this to tape Sakura pass by. It wasn't like her. But now that she was so much happy to even witness it, she'd let it go, for now.

Never gone, never far
In my heart is where you are
Always close (always close)
Everyday (everyday)
Every step along the way
Even though for now we've gotta say goodbye (yeah yeah)
I know you will be forever in my life (in my life)

o-o-o-o- SAKURA AND SYAORAN -o-o-o-o

Syaoran didn't know what was happening to Sakura but, he hugged her in return. When Sakura pulled off, she had tear trails on her cheeks. "Sakura, I wanted to tell you something. I'm guessing that Yukito-san gave you the notebook and that you have read it. Everything there is –" Syaoran was interrupted by Sakura who gave him a kiss. He surely wasn't expecting this but he was glad that Sakura now had the same feeling for him.

"Syaoran… taiski…." Sakura said after breaking the kiss and looked at Syaoran with, once again, tears flowing from her eyes.

Never gone, never far
In my heart (in my heart is where) is where you are (you are)
Always close, everyday
Every step along the way

Never gone, never far
In my heart is where you are

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AUTHOR'S NOTES: Hello once again! Hehehe… Anyway, I'd like to thank you guys who kept on reading this fanfic until it comes to an official end… This is the last chapter. I'll leave it to you guys to think to whatever happens to them after that…

There's another fanfic coming. I'll try to start it tonight after posting this. I already have the plots and stuff and, I hope you'll like it once again and continue to read my next fanfics…

Again, this is aynechan, signing off…