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Chapter 1
Love cannot endure indifference. It needs to be wanted. Like a lamp, it needs to be fed out of the oil of another's heart, or its flame burns low.
Henry Ward Beecher
I kept everything hidden since then... It broke my heart yet I know that it has made me stronger than ever... For me he is the unreachable one... He's the Sun and I'm the moon... Everytime I tried to get near... I always get burned... and it hurts...
I guess it was something that wasn't meant to be from the start...
Botan closed her old journal that she was reading. "Sun and moon! What in the world ran through my head when I wrote this thing?" Botan was frowning while reading through her journal.
"Knowing you, it definitely is something crazy!" The small Koenma spoke from outside the room and laughed. "Oooohhh... the great Botan is writing about the sun and moon!"
"Hey! How long have you been there?"
"Long enough to see your face twitch in all sorts of direction while reading." Koenma answered while laughing.
Botan frowned a bit then smiled "You know that its bad to intrude other people's privacy just like that! " she snapped her fingers to demonstrate
"Your door was open!" he answered defensively
Her eyes narrowed "Really now?"
"Of course! Since when did I lie to you?" he asked in return
"Well.. let me count the times... The first one was when you wanted MY strawberry cake.. you gave me something to do which you told me was important.. however... it turned out that it was not that urgent after all... and when I came back.. it was gone! The second one... " but then she was interrupted
"Okay okay you win! I came here because I wanted to tell you something" he sat beside Botan on the sofa inside her bedroom.
"Is it that important? I mean.. it is definitely unusual that you had to come over here to tell me something.. you'll usually wait for me in your office..." her eyes narrowed again.
"unless you wanted some of my sweets again... oh no! you're not going to fool me again! Hah!" she formed a fighting stance.
A big sweatdrop appeared on his head "of course not! I know how to order now if I wanted too!"
"So what is it then?"
"You've been the most stressed out ferry-girl here in Reikai as you must know by now" started Koenma "You know, having those most difficult missions at the same time."
"Of course! That's a part of my job isn't it?" not completely clueless. "Where are you coming at? Giving me a day-off? You know I wouldn't want that right?"
"I was pretty sure earlier that you're going to say that thing. This is not a day-off I'm talking about. This is something you truly deserve after all."
"Errr... something like a great vacation, all expense paid trip to a private island?" Botan was trying to be funny but was really wishing it to be true.
"Uh... no..."
Her face dropped. "I knew it..."
"But this is something different and you might not have the opportunity like this again!" he quickly defended his side
"Just stop beating around the bush because this excitement might give me a heart attack any minute!" she was too exasperated already.
"We're giving you you're most deserved job-off for now... you're going to the human world and be one of them for a while!" Koenma was so excited to give her the news.
"A WHAT!" But for Botan, it seemed otherwise.
"A human! Duh! Unless you want to be a youkai instead!" he was just joking.
"Of course not! I don't even want either of those! Especially when... when..." she trailed off.
"Especially when what?" he was now curious. "I thought this would make you happy since you haven't seen anyone of them for a while now..."
"Well yeah! But then... I don't wanna leave my job here... besides... I still won't have a peace of mind because of different stuffs running through my head... and it will bother me just the same, in fact, much frequent because I'm not going to do anything when I get there..."
'Oh no, I'm not going there... I don't know if I'm really ready for anything... or if I'll ever be!' she thought to herself.
"Peace of mind, different stuffs running to your head... So, you want your mind to rest?" Koenma contemplated and smiled as an idea came in.
"Who wouldn't? Of course I'd want that!" for her, it was the only thing she was sure of now.
"You want to have a temporary amnesia!" he pointed out the 'matter-of-fact' way; grinning as if he was the ingenious guy that ever existed.
Botan dropped from where she was sitting. "Oh dear! I knew it... why am I not surprised?" she sighed. "You know, I was ready to pull all my hair out if you got it right"
"Ooooh! I'm so hurt!" acting as if he was having a heart attack. "But you know... I'm serious about it."
"You're going to take my memory off! That's just the craziest idea I've heard in ages!" she kind of freaked out at the thought.
"Will you listen to my suggestion first?"
"Why not? Fire away sir!"
"The vacation offer still stands... with a twist that is!"
'now he was really serious! Oh dear!' she thought
"Everything will be arranged, including your home; then again, as a human, you wouldn't remember anything about being a ferry-girl... that way, all you troubles will temporary leave you... whatever that is."
"Not so bad..." she was not really surprised.
"Am I a genius or what!" he grinned proudly.
"Uh... suit yourself..." and she laughed at how his face dropped. "Anyway... even if it did excite me... it's still something I have to think about first..."
"No problem...I'm going to leave you for a while... You can tell me your answer tomorrow! See yah!" and Koenma left the room without hearing her protest.
"Tomorrow! That's too soon! It's night already!" but he was already gone.
She plopped down on her bed and tried to consider the 'wild suggestion' that Koenma gave.
It has been a year since everything was put in order and in their rightful place... no more missions... and with that, everyone went on with their normal lives, which were sort of stolen by us.
I wouldn't want to remind them again of those fateful times by suddenly showing up and destroying what was supposed to be their 'normal life'.
Then again... forgetting everything even for a while seemed tempting to me... what is it that I want to forget anyway?
She frowned as realization came in.
Not what... the question should be, who do I want to forget anyway?
With that, a decision came to her mind and finally drifted off to sleep.
Love is like war, easy to begin but hard to end.------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
Botan was pretty determined as she was talking to Koenma in his office.
"I did have a hard time thinking last night but I was able to meditate and came to a decision." She joked. "I'm accepting the offer."
"That's the spirit!" He smiled, knowing that she's really going to accept it. "You know... you really deserved to have that break!"
"On some specifications though..."
"And what is that?"
"Don't tell anyone anything... I wouldn't want them to know... and don't locate me somewhere near to them..."
"Seemed to me like you're avoiding a plague or something! You'll need someone to watch over you after all. You're not going to be a monk"
She twitched her face as she imagined herself on a temple, wearing very loose robes, having a bald head and meditating near a waterfall... 'Ugh! Definitely not acceptable!'
"Alrighty! Put me somewhere near them but just the same... don't tell anyone... I s that okay? Or am I asking for too much?"
"Well not really... oh well... this is going to be a major scriptwriting for me!" he grinned
"Errr... and don't add anything stupid please!" she stuck out her tongue then laughed.
"I'll think about it! Hahah! Anyway this will be your last day of work for now... when you wake up tomorrow... everything will be different!"
To his surprise, Botan hugged him tight.
"So this will be the last time I'm seeing my cranky and grumpy boss for now... Thanks Koenma! You're great!"
"I know! Hahaha!" he replied jokingly.
"When will I get back here?" she suddenly remembered.
"You'll know when its time..."
Author's Note: So that's for the first chapter! Sorry for the long wait... I sorta got busy and all.. plus I suddenly got crazy over Naruto fics for awhile... XD don't worry though, I never leave anything unfinished.
I had three versions of the first chapter (3 different stories)... the first one was utterly boring... the third one was so fluffy it almost choked me to death... lol and this is the second one... sorta boring but not downright boring... right? (please tell me its not) lolz
So after everything I went through... please have to heart to review! It gives me inspiration. XD (last time I checked... the ratio of those who read and reviewed is 500:5... heheh just kiddin!) Healthy criticisms are accepted too... I know that this chapter was too long for an introduction... but I was so obsessed with details... gomen gomen XD
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