WARNING: The characters in this story either ARE or MAY BE out of character!

Disclaimer: I do not own InuYasha

As our love turns

Chapter 1

"I hate you! I never loved you!" The drunken woman said as she slammed her glass down. The man who was sitting next to her, and whom she was with, stared at her. He sighed and drank the rest of his drink in one gulp.

"Kikyo, please calm yourself down! You're starting to make a scene." The young man said to her. Every time they went out to bars and parties with friends the same thing always happened; Kikyo would always get trashed and lash out at her boyfriend while saying that she hated him. It was tearing at him since he loved her with all that he had. It was making him depressed and had all of his friends worried because of it.

"No I'm not!" Kikyo shouted. "Another beer, man!"

The young man grabbed her arm. "I think you've had enough, lets go." He got up out of his seat and started to walk while holding onto Kikyo.

"Let me go InuYasha! You're always ruining my fun!"

"I don't know why you would call getting drunk, fun. I need to take you home. You're getting out of control."

Kikyo snapped her arm free from InuYasha's grasp. "I'm not out of control. I'm perfectly fine. See!" She stepped away from her boyfriend and attempted to walk in a straight line. Not even two steps into walking did Kikyo fall over.

InuYasha bent over and helped Kikyo up. He looked around to see that just about everyone was staring. The bartender, whom InuYasha knew very well, just shook his head and continued cleaning some of the glasses nearby him.

"C'mon, let's get you home." InuYasha softly said as he walked Kikyo out of the bar and to his car. This time she didn't put up a fight.

Luckily the drive was quiet. Kikyo was extremely drunk and ended up passing out in the car. InuYasha on the other hand began to think. Everything just seemed to be getting out of control in their relationship. They had been together for nearly a year and a half and suddenly things are starting to crumble.

After arriving at Kikyo's apartment, InuYasha carried his intoxicated girlfriend to her room. InuYasha sighed as he stared at Kikyo's body. Why does she do this every time? She knows I love her and she loves me. It hurts me so much when she says that she hates me when she gets drunk. I guess I should spend the night so I know she's ok in the morning. InuYasha thought for a little bit longer and then stripped down to his boxers and slipped under the covers with Kikyo.

Early the next morning the sun stared to shine through the blinds and landed across the bodies of the sleeping people. The sunlight slowly crept up onto Kikyo's face and woke her up. She moaned at the bright light and then hid her face in InuYasha's side.

"Mmm…hey baby. Good morning." Kikyo lazily said as she placed her arm on top of InuYasha's chest. She leaned in and kissed him on the cheek.

"Morning." Inuyasha replied. He was unresponsive to Kikyo's kiss and didn't even move to put his arm around her.

Kikyo looked up at his face and saw that he was just staring up at the ceiling. "You ok honey? I love you!"

"I love you too. I'm alright. Just thinking, that's all." He responded.

"What are you thinking about?" Kikyo squeezed InuYasha tighter against her body. No response from him again.

"Last night and all the other previous times this happened."

"What about last night? I don't even remember what happened."

"That's because you were drunk…again. I don't know what to do about this anymore. It's becoming a big problem. I love you and don't want you to do this anymore."

Kikyo removed her arm and sat up. She held her head from the "morning after" headache. Everything started to come back to her. She remembered last night. "I'm really, really sorry babe! I promise I'll be better about it next time!"

InuYasha deeply sighed and got up out of the bed. "That's what you say every time this happens. I need to think so I'm going to leave." He picked up his clothes that he threw on the floor the night before, dressed and walked out of the room.

"InuYasha! Don't go! I'll make you breakfast! Please stay a while." Kikyo pleaded as she ran after him.

He stopped her before she could grasp him. "No. I need to go. I'm sorry." He said as he opened the front door and left.

Kikyo stared at where her boyfriend was standing. She wiped away the moment from her mind and went into the bathroom to take a shower. I know he'll be back for me. He always does come back. She smirked at her thought.

After leaving Kikyo's apartment InuYasha spent a good portion of the day just driving around aimlessly. It was his way to think and to get himself relaxed besides going out and drinking. To him it was really ironic how he got better about his alcohol issues and Kikyo has been getting steadily worse. So many thoughts were flying around in his mind. He didn't know what to do. He wanted to be with her forever, she was everything to him and he'd do anything to stay with her. He was even questioning whether or she actually loved him like he thought. InuYasha shook his head at that and got rid of that thought. He knew her. She DID love him.

Back at his own apartment InuYasha sat on his couch and stared at the blank TV. Everything in his place reminded him of Kikyo. Mostly because a good portion of the stuff was either hers or she bought for them during the course of the relationship. He moved his gaze from the TV to the wall clock in his kitchen. It was a quarter to seven. Inuyasha then looked out the window that was next to him and noticed the sky getting a brighter orange. It was now starting to get late.

He began to dispute with himself again. Should he go back to her apartment and apologize or wait for her to come to him? Without thinking twice he grabbed his car keys and ran out the door. He had to see Kikyo.

The two live about twenty minutes apart but this time the trip took five. InuYasha was in a desperate hurry. Once he parked his car, InuYasha darted from his car to the building. The first of the fallen autumn leaves danced under his feet and he ran. The stairs were nonexistent as he flew up the staircase to floor where his goal was.

"Kikyo! Please open up!" InuYasha cried out as he pounded on the apartment door.

Moments later he heard running footsteps and then the door open. InuYasha lunged forward and grabbed Kikyo.

"I'm so sorry about earlier! I love you so much and want to be with you! I don't know what I'd do without you." InuYasha was almost in tears.

"I'm sorry too babe!" Kikyo hugged InuYasha back. I knew he'd come back. He's so pathetic, but he's so…good. She thought during the embrace and smirked.

InuYasha picked Kikyo up and carried her to her bed. He laid her down and then softly kissed her lips. Inuyasha started to rub his hand on top of her stomach and then slipped underneath to under her bra. Kikyo pulled InuYasha closer to her body so he was on top of her. Everything around them disappeared as they began to make love.

The next evening InuYasha was alone again in his apartment. But this time he felt better about everything between him and Kikyo. He looked up at the clock and it read almost eight. Kikyo was supposed to have called him at seven so they could do something together. Now his easiness turned into anxiety. This wasn't like her, but it was starting to happen more frequently.

He called her apartment phone and no answer. Next he tried her cell phone and it went straight to her voicemail. InuYasha took a deep breath and thought.

"Where the hell could she be?" He thought out loud.

Then it struck him. She's probably at a bar again with her friends, but the thing was that there were quite a few bars she loved to go to. InuYasha made up his mind and grabbed his car keys. He was going to search for her.

The first bar was only minutes from his apartment. No luck; she wasn't there. InuYasha tried text messaging her a couple times between the first bar and the second. She never replied.

The second bar, O'Malley's, and the bar that they were at last night, turned up empty too. InuYasha started to get angry along with his worry. He hated chasing after Kikyo.

While driving, InuYasha passed by another bar but Kikyo hardly went there so he wasn't going to check it out. Suddenly, out of the corner of his eye he saw her car. InuYasha made a sharp turn into a nearby driveway and turned around. InuYasha and his friends always went to this bar to drink and have "guy time". Kikyo never liked the bar because it was the one were his friends always got the rowdiest because the owner never cared.

InuYasha pulled into the lot and went around to the back. It was a Thursday night so not a lot of people were there. The back door was open and it exposed a good portion of the main bar area. There InuYasha saw Kikyo sitting at the bar with her best friend, Rin, drinking and whatnot. He was relieved that she was only with her friend, but not so relieved that she was out drinking again after saying that she'd stop.

InuYasha looked down at this phone and noticed that it was a little past nine thirty. He had spent an hour and a half driving around trying to find her. InuYasha wanted to go into the bar and get Kikyo to leave, but it would just make it look like he didn't trust her.

When InuYasha looked back up from his phone Rin was gone and a guy had taken her place. Now InuYasha started to get real furious. Kikyo was flirting with the guy and everything. InuYasha wanted to rip the guy's balls off and mount them. He controlled himself and just waited for either the guy or the two together to leave.

About a half an hour later both Kikyo and the guy got up from the bar and walked out the front door. InuYasha walked from where he was to the side of the building that was next to the parking lot. They both stopped by her car. It was close enough for InuYasha to overhear.

"You're so great!" Kikyo laughed. She was pretty tipsy but not completely drunk.

"So are you," The guy replied as he hugged Kikyo. "Are you sure you can drive home? You're pretty tipsy. I can always bring you back in the morning to get your car."

"No no, I'm fine. Thanks for tonight though!" Kikyo said and kissed his cheek.

"You're welcome. We definitely need to meet up again." The guy kissed Kikyo back and walked away to his own car.

InuYasha waited for the guy to get far enough away and then ran up to Kikyo. She was having a bit of trouble unlocking her car. "Kikyo! What the hell was that about? I thought we were supposed to go out tonight? I went out searching for you all night! And who was that you were with?"

"I'm sorry babe! I called you and told you that Rin wanted to do something." Kikyo said while still concentrating on the lock.

InuYasha grabbed her keys. "I never got any phone call or message from you on either of my phones. Who was that guy you were with?"

"Oh! You know him, so don't worry."

"If I knew him then why am I asking you who he is?"

Kikyo was quiet for a moment. "It's Chad. Don't you remember him? I showed you a picture of him."

InuYasha rolled his eyes. Yeah…and I'm supposed to know him from a picture. "Fine…whatever. I'm driving you home. You can get Rin or even Chad to take you to get your car."

Kikyo's eyes grew wide. "You were spying on me! You don't trust me do you!"

InuYasha's blood was starting to boil more. She NOW just realized that… "I was concerned about you! I drove all over town just to find you. And when I did find you, you were with another guy!" InuYasha walked away and headed for his car.

"HEY! My keys!"

"You can get them back when we get to your apartment."

Later that night, after he took Kikyo back to her apartment, InuYasha laid on his bed and began to think again. He was broken up inside. He loved her so much and what Kikyo was doing was just tearing him up inside. It was becoming unbearable. InuYasha could feel himself slipping away back into depression, the depression he was in before Kikyo came along and saved him.

InuYasha sat up and dialed up his best friend, Miroku. It was one in the morning but he knew that Miroku would be up. Either that or "getting it on" with his girlfriend, Sango.

The phone rang a couple times before someone picked it up. "Hello?" The person on the other end said groggily.

"Hey man, sorry if I woke you up." InuYasha apologized.

"Don't sweat it. What's up? Something's gotta be going down if you're calling me at this hour. Normally you're with your ball-and-chain getting some action."

InuYasha wanted to laugh but this time he wanted to punch Miroku. "Well…it is about the "ball-and-chain"."

InuYasha began to explain what happened the past couple days. It was so painful for him to talk about but he needed to do something.

"Wow…this is serious. I've noticed you not being your crazy happy self lately but I didn't know it was this bad. And plus you never talk so openly about it." Miroku responded to InuYasha's lengthy speech.

InuYasha wanted to cry but he knew he was more of a man than that. "I know. I love her but I can't take it anymore."

"I don't know what to tell you dude. But I know what you CAN do…"

"What?"

"Talk to someone on the 'outside'. Someone you know, who's a friend, that isn't involved in this whole thing."

InuYasha thought for a bit of who he should talk to. Then it hit him like an oncoming train. "Thanks man!"

InuYasha hung up the phone and started searching through a box of things from his high school years.