Chapter 7: "A First For Both."

It had been four days since Rory had moved from Logan's apartment. Rory had thought moving in with Jess would be strange, but so far it had been fun. They were acting like they had before they dated and before any of the traumatic events from the end of senior year had happened. They would share books and flirt innocently with one another. Rory hadn't told her mother of the big move yet. She didn't need another lecture on bad life choices. She would tell her eventually right now she was enjoying being with Jess.

"Lucky Charms?" Rory asked as she and Jess stood in the cereal isle of a small corner store.

"We still have the fruity pebbles you never ate." Jess said.

"But look they have a new marshmallow, and they're magically delicious." Rory said with a knowing smile.

"Fine, but no more cereal after this, we're living on a budget remember." Jess said.

"Yes Dad" Rory said happily as she placed the box of cereal into the small basket jess was holding.

Jess shook his head at Rory's childish antics. He loved having her around again. Even if it was nothing more then friendship, he had missed her. He didn't know how long they could keep it a friendship his will power not to hold her or touch her was running thin by the day. As much as he wanted to give Rory time he didn't know if he would be able to.

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"I can't believe you are making me watch this movie!" Jess said half joking half dead serious.

"Spice World is a classic movie that everyone should watch once." Rory said through a giggle.

"They should torture prisoners with this crap." Jess said through a disgusted face.

"It's not that bad!" Rory said.

"Oh my God! The bus just flew…" Jess said hysterically laughing at Rory's movie choice.

"Stop, Jess you're missing the best part, JESS!" Rory said laughing uncontrollably herself.

Rory pushed Jess playfully to get him to stop laughing but it only made his laughter that much louder.

"It's not that funny." Rory said with playful anger.

"The bus it…over the….oh my god this is the best movie ever." Jess said laughing so hard he was now keeled over on the coach.

Rory leaned over to shake his shoulders. Jess' laughter stopped immediately when they both realized they were inches away from one another. The urge was there, it was something that never seemed to leave for both of them. Rory decided to throw caution to the wind and leaned in to capture Jess' lips.

It was slow at first. Rory was testing the water. She had kissed him at the record store that day, but that had been a kiss of passion, of regret. This was real. This was her life. It wasn't slow for long though because before she knew it Jess had taken control.

Jess was lost in Rory. He unknowingly eased her down onto the couch so he was lying on top of her, while he placed small kisses on her neck. Both parties were enjoying the sensations that were running through them. When Rory groaned it only sent Jess into an even deeper passion. He slowly put his hand on the waist band of her jeans. He had made the move many times when they were dating, but this time she didn't push him away. In fact she did something he never expected her to do, she undid his belt.

"Rory, what are you doing?" Jess asked.

"What do you mean what am I doing? Isn't it pretty obvious?" Rory said confused.

"Are you sure you want this?" Jess questioned.

"I never thought you would be the one stopping this." Rory said.

"I'm not stopping it. I just don't want this to be something we regret. I have so many regrets when it comes to you. I don't want this to be one of them." Jess said quietly onto her lips.

Jess was shocked when Rory jumped up from under him and walked into the bathroom slamming the door. It took him all of a second before he got up from his position on the couch to knock on the bathroom door.

"Rory, what's the matter?" Jess asked completely oblivious to what had just happened.

"Leave me alone Jess, you had no problem doing it a minute ago." Rory said angrily.

"What, Rory what the hell are you talking about?" Jess asked through the cheap wood door.

"I thought you wanted it all the signs were there. I'm such an idiot." Rory said trying not to make her tears known to Jess.

He had no trouble picking up on them however. "Rory will you come out of there please? I want you probably more then I want anyone that's the problem."

Suddenly the bathroom door opened and a shy Rory emerged. "It should have been you." Rory said in a sad tone.

"Huh?" was all Jess replied with.

"You should have been my first. I used to think about it all the time after it happened. I never liked anyone the way I liked you. I was stupid and confused. You had come to my dorm and I wanted so much to be over you, and Dean wanted me like he always had."

"Dean?" Jess asked now more confused then ever.

"I lost my virginity to Dean." Rory said in a quiet tone hoping he wouldn't hear.

Jess inhaled deeply as she said that. Out of all the things she could have said that hurt the most. He had always hated Dean. Probably because Dean had always been the better man between them. Now here he was hearing that Rory chose him to be her first. A small part of his heart died when he realized he would never have that part of her. It would always belong to Dean.

"Dean" Jess repeated in a hurt tone that Rory picked up on instantly.

"He was safe. He had always been safe. I wish I had chosen you, but I was scared you would hurt me again. Now I'm afraid that you don't want me." Rory confessed.

Jess shook his head at her last remark. "You are the one person I will always want. I wanted you from the second I saw you, and that feeling only grew stronger." Jess said.

Rory was thrown back by his sweet words. He was being honest and sweet to her. Something he had never done before. "I'm still in love with you." Rory said.

"I love you Rory. I never thought I'd be able to tell you that again. I thought you were gone forever." Jess said stepping closer to Rory's small frame.

"Me too, I wanted to forget you. I wanted to move on, but I don't think I ever would have. You said it that day you came to Yale. We're meant to be together." Rory said stepping into Jess' embrace.

"I know I did a lot of stupid things Rory. I hate myself for what I did to you. I hate that you slept with Dean instead of me, but what's important is that we're here now." Jess said.

"Why then are you asking me if I want this?" Rory asked as she leaned into kiss his parted lips.

"I just wanted it to be perfect, I wanted us to be perfect." Jess replied kissing her back.

"We'll never be perfect, but I like where we are." Rory said.

Jess nodded against her lips as he began to walk backwards into his bedroom. He continued his walk until he felt the foot of his bed hit his legs. He broke their kiss to look into her eyes. He smiled when her lips slowly made a smile themselves.

Rory raised her arms above her head. Asking him to remove her shirt with her movement. He obliged slipping the cotton shirt over her head. He then lifted her up from the floor while she clung to his neck and wrapped his small legs around his waist. When they made it to the bed Jess kissed her nose lightly as she slipped his pants off with her feet.

It may not have been either's first time, but at that moment they both felt like they were experiencing something together that they had never felt before.

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Sorry it took so long for an update I was having major writter's block on where I wanted to take the story. Let me now what you thought, good or bad! Also I know it's short but it was such a sensitive chapter I wanted it to stand on its own.