Chapter 3

Omnipotent

Our two souls linger in the same past and when we meet again I'll share with you every secret that I kept.

I woke up this morning to the smell of pancakes and sausages; I'm still not use to that. I looked over to the opposite side of the room and noticed that Heero was already up, his bed was made. I decided I wasn't gonna get up just yet, in fact I wanted to lay in bed for the rest of my life. I don't want to deal with what's starting to pick up around me. The door to the room opened and with it came the sweet smell of a familiar perfume I'd often come to associate with my mother. Sunday mornings spent getting ready for church in the early break of dawn. As a child watching my mom fix her hair, putting on her gold cross necklace, and the finishing touch…..two dabs of perfume on either side of her neck. I was a bit confused as to why she would even be here.

"Trowa, what are you still doing in bed?" she stood by the opened door.

I sighed, waiting for the end of the world. "Didn't feel like getting up yet."

"Well come on already, they're eating breakfast without you." she clapped her hands as she spoke, like it was urgent that I eat.

"What are you even doing here?" I threw the blankets off me. I ran a hand through my bangs, scratched the side of my thighs, and fixed the T-shirt I was wearing.

"God I don't know, I'm only your mother that's all."

She walked out the room and I followed her into the kitchen. Heero and my uncle were both sitting down at the table, my aunt was flipping what I guessed was her version of French toast. My mom sat down and I sat opposite her in the small kitchen. My aunt placed a plate down in front of me along with a cup of coffee. It took me a couple of days to convince her I was allowed to drink it. Part of me was glad Mom was here, it gave me a distraction, but another part of me didn't want it.

"So Trowa, what've you done here so far?" she was munching on some toast, staring directly at me.

"I haven't stolen, drank, smoked, or killed anyone if that's what you mean." I took a huge gulp of my coffee and stared at my plate.

"He scared the hell out of his cousin." said my uncle.

"He deserved it." and it wasn't like I did that on purpose.

"What he do to you?" asked my mom looking at me.

"Left him in that old cave." said my uncle as he turned the page of his news paper.

"Oh Trowa you poor thing I hope you weren't too terrified I know how you're scared to be alone in the dark, and spiders, and that you don't like getting your clothes dirty."

"Mom!"

"That's why you ran out of the shed that day!" laughed Heero.

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"Mom, don't read too much into this, but what exactly does it mean when you don't want to see someone, but at the same time desperately want to?" I licked the melting ice-cream making its way down the back side of my hand.

"Ah……did you meet somebody?" she gave me a look like it was the most impossible thing in the world.

"Don't give me that look! And I asked a question." we were sitting on a bench outside a store that was at least forty-five minutes away from Heero's house.

"Um…I don't know, I guess it means that even though you want to be around this person you're afraid of what might happen if you're alone with each other." she took a quick swig of the drink in her hand.

"Oh." maybe that was it.

"Or I could be wrong and you're just not ready for a real relationship at this point in your life." she smiled at me.

"I hate you." I glared at her for a second and sighed.

"Hate is such an angry word Trowa, exhale the anger inhale the peace." she paused for a second then started laughing.

"Where in Gods name did you get something like that." I gave her a look that clearly said I thought she was strange.

"Way too much T.V!" she leaned against my shoulder.

"You're heavy." I tried not to laugh.

"Let's see you pop out a kid and keep your figure."

"Let's not."

"Hey Trowa!" I looked up and saw Ebony walking up the steps.

"Uh…..hey Eb." she stopped in front of us.

"Trowa, who's your friend?" crap.

"Yeah, this is Ebony she's a friend of Heero's, Eb this is my mom." I lamely gestured at both of them.

"Nice to meet you." they both shook each other's hands.

"Well I gotta get inside, need to pick up some things for dinner." she winked at me and went inside.

My mom looked at me and was about to open her mouth when I cut her off. "No mom, not her."

"She seems nice, how'd you two meet exactly? I mean, I know you meet her through your cousin and all, but you seem pretty close for just meeting." she's my mom; I guess she'd be able to tell something like that.

"Heero invited me to go out with his friends and they all went out to uh….play hide and seek. I was a bit of an ass to them and stayed behind, I went off by myself and she stumbled across me. When we got back to the bonfire everyone else had fallen asleep and we just talked for a while." I could feel my face start to heat up, how could I have told Eb all that when I had barely met her!

"About what?" she took another sip from her drink.

"Un….that's a bit personal." my ears felt like they were on fire and I shifted in my spot, I knew I was blushing.

"Oh my God you're fidgeting! How cute!" she lightly pushed my shoulder.

"Mom!" I covered my face with my free hand.

The bell over the door rung as someone stepped outside into the warm summer air. The smell of dust filled the air around us and a cool breeze wafted out of the store. Eb had paused and was talking to the store clerk; she'd said something about coyotes and their trash cans.

"She's pretty." whispered my mom.

"Not my type." I mumbled from behind my empty cone.

"Yeah he likes boys." my eyes widened and Ebony winked at me as she walked out the store and got into the passenger side of the car.

"Oh God she didn't just say that." I felt a shock pulse through my entire body and every inch of me felt numb.

"Kids these days and their jokes." she laughed and I just stared at her, she thought Eb was joking!

"Uh…..yeah." she finally stopped and noticed I was staring at her.

"……..Trowa? Are you ok, you look pale?" she placed the back of her hand on my forehead.

"Oh-ho-ho yeah, absolutely fine." I tossed what was left of my cone into the garbage can and wiped my hand on a napkin.

"She wasn't joking was she?" she had this questioning look adorning her features.

"Can we not talk about it?" I shouldn't have reacted that way, I should have just played it off as a joke, now it was too late for it. What was wrong with me? I never use to be this slow when thinking up some sort of lie. I wonder if she's disgusted with me……

"Trowa-" she placed a hand on my shoulder.

I shrugged it off and got off the bench. "I don't want to talk about it, let's just go back to the house ok."

I went and sat in the car, while my mom went back inside the store for a few minutes. I was never going to talk to Eb again! I can't believe she said that, even jokingly she shouldn't have said a word of it! Oh God what was going through my mom's mind right now? I covered my face with my hands and could feel my body shaking. I don't understand what's going on with me anymore….

The driver side door opened and my mom sat down. "Trowa, you're crying……."

"I'm terrified mom. I don't know what's going on anymore with me and I can't take not understanding." I kept rubbing my eyes with the heels of my hands.

"I have to admit, this is a little unlike you Trowa." said my mom in a small voice as she leaned across her seat and halfway pulled me into her arms.

"I don't know what to do, I like him a lot. When I'm not around him I feel so lonely, I miss his smile, his voice, and I haven't even been away from him or even around him that long." I clutched tightly to her for the first time in my life.

Never once since I got to junior high had I said a word to my mother about my life or even how school was going for me. Ever since she divorced my dad I'd held such a grudge against her, I blamed her for everything because we moved so far away and I never got to see him. I acted up intentionally so that she'd send me off to my dad's, but I found out he didn't even want me with him. I'd gotten so angry that I really didn't care what happened to me after that, I'd do whatever the hell I'd wanted. That is till I got caught. We'd argued so much and she tried sending me to a therapist, that didn't do much good so my mom just stopped my sessions. End result me winding up here……. I think I'm starting to get more screwed up than when I left.

"I'm not exactly sure what to do Trowa this is territory I've never treaded on before. But if it's anything like a norma…..regual…..well love is love and I'm not really judgmental so….oh…..ok this is a bit awkward." she ran her hands in circles on my back.

"Don't tell my dad, please, I don't want him to hate me more then he already does." I can't stop myself from crying, the tears just keep coming.

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We'd talked for a long time; I never thought I'd see the day when I'd actually tell her everything about me. It was that raw exposure that I think she'd been hoping we'd have with each other when I was a child. She always tried so hard to get me to open up to her, and the strange thing is it actually felt nice. My mom left after she dropped me off back at her sisters, apparently she'd also come down to visit her ex-boyfriend in the next town over. Small world. I asked her not to tell anyone in the family about…….well me liking another boy, it's not like I didn't want my family to know. You see, most of our family has this bad habit of talking shit behind each others backs and the last thing I want to hear is one of my little cousins calling me a faggot at our next reunion.

That same night my aunt took me, Heero, and his friends to the local video store and we rented a bunch of scary movies. She'd said that yeah she knew I was supposed to be grounded, but what my mom didn't know wouldn't hurt her. I didn't want anyone to know I'm afraid of scary movies so I sat next to Eb, regardless of my feelings at the moment, hoping she was also afraid of them, lucky me, she likes them…..Heero on the other hand kept jumping. What a fucking sissy, at least I didn't jump like he did, I just clutched tightly to the pillow I was holding and kept looking everywhere but the TV.

It sucks having to spend my time watching movies with these idiots when I could be outside spending it with Duo before I had go back home. Halfway through the second movie I fell asleep and when I woke up all the lights were out and I didn't see anyone. I was about to get up when I heard Heero's friends talking behind me.

"Lets go through his things!"

"Yeah!"

"You guys….."

"It's his fault; he shouldn't have fallen asleep with us here."

"Case, Trent, cut that shit out! Now!"

"Geez Eb, the guy turns you down and you're still on his side?"

"He didn't turn me down; I decided I was way out of his league. So I'm just saving him the heart break, so shut the fuck up you dick!"

From behind me I heard Case mutter under his breath "He turned you down."

An alarm clock landed next to my head and it took all my strength not to flinch. That girl is crazy, what the hell was she thinking throwing that heavy crap around the room for? To be honest I really don't give a shit if they go through my things, it's not like I have anything to hide really. I could hear Heero and his friends in the room picking through stuff and just tossing it on the floor. Someone had picked up the acoustic guitar that Heero had stashed in his closet and started messing with it. Whoever was trying to play couldn't play for shit.

"Trent put that down, it took forever to tune it." said Heero.

I could hear heavy stuff hitting the floor and paper being shuffled around. Taking a deep breath I told myself I was gonna get up and raise hell for everyone. Two seconds later I discovered I was too lazy to get my ass up off the cold damn floor to do anything. Sighing I resigned myself to a blob on the floor listening to their inane chatter. I heard a door shut and assumed all of them went to run around and act like fools in the field behind Heero's house. Hell I was almost asleep till someone sat down next to me.

"Dude I know you're awake."

"Fuck Off." I mumbled pulling the blanket over my head.

"God you and Eb both act like you're on a constant PMS."

"What the hell do you want Case!" I threw my blanket off me and sat up and glared at him.

"Man you look so funny when your hair is messed up." he laughed hard and I wanted to hit him.

"Shut up damnit!" I quickly ran my fingers through my bangs.

"Anywho Eb just wanted me to tell you that she's "sorry" for saying what she did in front of your mom."

"Well tell her to go to hell!" I got up and went to the room and slammed the door shut.

I could hear them outside, all of them, laughing and talking without a care in the world, it pissed me off. I watched as the moon crept into the room making the swirling dust in the air look like glitter. I lifted my hand slowly in the air and flexed it. Was life always going to be this way bitter, hurtful, strange….

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I wanted life to come to a standstill hell or even a crawl! I wanted moments like these to last forever, where I could stare at Duo sleeping peacefully, next to me. Earlier we took off to the little lake and got our feet wet for a while after Duo "taught" me how to climb a tree. Needless to say I ended up with a bit of scrapes and bruises and instead of carefully climbing down, I fell.

Right now we're lying down underneath a tree; we were only going to lay down for a little bit till we felt rested. But I guess Duo just got tired and fell asleep with his head pressed against my chest. I keep running my fingers through his hair, I can't help it. He looks so angelic while he's asleep.

"Nmm….Trowa?" mumbled Duo sleepily.

"Yeah Duo?" I ran my hands up and down his back.

"Kiss me." whispered Duo.

"Duo?" I looked around as if people might be hiding in the trees waiting any second to catch us.

"That's me." he half mumbled/ giggled, I could feel the vibration of his voice slowly pulse through my chest like a ripple on water.

"You know, you have a way with making me feel awkward sometimes." I pulled him up slightly so that we were face to face.

"Awkward?" he touched my face, lightly ghosting warm trails near my temples.

"Never mind." I shook my head and smiled.

I could hardly breathe; he'd managed to push all his weight on my chest. Small pulses of shock kept quietly bolting throughout my lower body. I have no idea what the hell I'm supposed to be doing. Strange to me as it was Duo seemed to want to take the lead. Me being the secret cowered that I am about this, let him. Duo seemed to make even the most simplest of kisses electrifying. He started running his hands slowly up my sides; his hands ended up in my hair and my heart somewhere at me knees.

Now it seems that most of my time is spent ditching Heero and his retard band of idiots for friends; just so I can go and spend it with Duo. I never would have figured that life could be so absolutely wonderful, minus a few inconveniences. In a month and a half I'll have to go back home and back to school, back to the city. Leave all this, leave……Duo. None of which, to be honest, I wanted.

I'd like to say that what happened in the days to come were spent lounging around peacefully with Duo. That I'd managed to convince my mom to let Duo come and live with us and that Duo agreed as well. That we spent the rest of our live together happily enjoying ourselves. That Duo went to school and became someone truly important to everyone and not just me. But to say all that now would be a lie…………

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A/N: I had quite a hard time figuring out the title for this chapter, I'm still a bit unhappy about it, but part of me feels it fits.

If you can feel the end coming on, that's because it is. From the beginning I hadn't planed on this being anymore then 4 to 5 chapters. Well the next one is almost ready for posting, save but a few editing glitches I must fix, and some add on's I'll come up with a wee bit later.

I'd like to thank: kuro no baka, darksaphire, and Rori Barton for leaving me a review V they made my day!

Ps. darksaphire I'll try writing a 1x3 just for you!