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Chapter 12 guys! YESSS, I'm good- okay not really… This chapter is shorter compared to the ones before, but is mainly to tie up loose strands and set some mood for the next MUCH LONGER chapter to follow! Oh and that I have some plans for! PLEASE READ THE NOTE AT THE END!

- Like always, TajM

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Teen Angst?

" Lily!" asked a confused and slightly shocked voice.

"Uh… Hi James!" Lily stuttered with a forced broad grin. She had stood in the shadows by the corner of the room, until the kissing couple broke apart (which was quite soon) and the girl walked out of the portrait whole smiling. James' look had been- well nothing, neither of happiness, or disgust, it was impartial really. That was even more confusing.

"You're back early!"

"Um… yah, didn't think I'd make you start decorating on your own, didya?"

"No, I guess that would be uncharacteristic of Lily Evans, wouldn't it?"

Lily forced a laugh. "Definitely."

"Do you need help with your trunk?"

"Huh?" Lily had been lost looking at him, it was awkward, almost like no time had passed since the Quiditch match or something- that he acted like they where still friends or something-, which so was not the way Lily felt this second. She didn't want to think about how she really felt, not now, with him right in front of him.

"Would you like me to carry it upstairs for you?"

"Um… yah sure, no it's okay. You couldn't get up anyways."

"You're forgetting who you're talking to Lily Flower."

Oh, Don't you Lily Flower me you pervert! Just make out- wait what was she thinking? James was never anything to her; she hated him just a week ago! She had no reason to feel this way! She better keep her cool- he didn't realize what she saw.

"What?"

"I've done it before." Causing Lily to smile slightly, though her heart felt like screaming, at the thought of the memory.

"Please? Evans- you're gonna have to listen to me!"

"No I don't Potter- you big headed toe-rag! MY life at least, doesn't revolve around YOU!"

He ran up the stairs, "Oi Evans!"

"Hey- what did you do? Why didn't it turn into a slide like before? It said in a Hogwarts a History that… that…"

"I have my ways Evans."

"What do you want?"

"I just wanted to say, that you're life may not revolve around me, but mine does!"

"Of course your life revolves around yourself, you self conceited prat!"

"No Lily Evans, my life revolves around YOU!"

"I guess you have… can you please tell me how now?"

"Oh, au contraire, it's my little secret."

"Not your only," she muttered feeling sour. She wanted to kick and scream, maybe even cry, but not HERE, not now, she needed time to think. Whatever Lily may be, she wasn't usually one to act on impulses, eighty percent of the time she would prefer to think things over- but right now she felt like she could burst any second.

"What Lils?"

"Nothing"

"How was you're aunt."

"Oh- fine," she would probably have told him everything before hand. EVERYTHING, but not now. Maybe never. He moved on all right, that he did.

"Oh that's good."

"Yup," she said.

They where making their way upstairs, with James now carrying her trunk. She didn't want James Potter to carry her trunks, it suggested too much! Too much that would never happen. Why was she so confused right now? WHY? What did she do to deserve this? It was so much easier to hate the shallow idiot! But now if the prude with the loopy grin, unbelievably messy hair, and unmatched persistence following her around for the past six years, playing pranks on her, and asking her out in front of the entire student body wasn't bad enough, now that same prude was able to make her feel weak in the knees and cry her eyes out because of something he did.

Yes, it was much better to hate him. Much. Besides she didn't need some guy to hold her stuff for her like she was some frail ditz, or one of his make out partners- but what was the difference?

Great, now she was sour! She cared… Okay she knew she cared before, she was positive that she cared a lot… and he couldn't have planned it better to check herself to see if it was true. And boy, it sure was… This was weird. She had NEVER felt anything when she saw Potter flaunt around with his new flavor of the week- never having as many as Black, Hogwarts does have a way of over exaggerating- NEVER, but that relatively innocent snog in comparison was now freaking her out!

"Are you okay Lily?"

"Yes James, perfect, never better!"

"Lily!"

"Really James, I'm just tired. It's been a long day- and it's late. But otherwise I'm peachy almost!"

"You sure Flower?"

"Yes- and didn't you guys say I was the one who nagged?"

James chuckled softly. "But that was the truth."

"I'm hurt really, deeply heart and wounded because of that James Potter!" she joked- being a bit more serious than she seemed to let on.

"I like you're socks by the way James." she was angry now, he wore those stupid socks (stupid but cute socks need I add) and made-out with some other bimbo! Now WHO did that?

"Oh yah… I wonder where I ever got them."

"Thanks for the um… locket." She started to concentrate on recurling a strand of hair.

"Yes, I still felt so bad about last year…"

"Oh it was nothing. Accidents happen." She laughed, again slightly forced.

"Yah… yah they do…" James replied, it was all too awkward, if only he knew why. "They're really cool- you remembered that!"

"Well, yes, I've always valued my memory." That I use to remember stuff like grudges, James Potter, ones especially against you, I wish I kept them more faithfully.

The fake laughing, and polite conversation was getting way too much! They where at the door now. Both speaking quietly now so no to wake up anyone in the dorm.

"Night James."

"Night Lily Flower." He turned to walk away, and she started to open the door slightly.

I ruined everything, I had everything perfectly fine! I should have stayed enemies- or at least tried as hard as I could to keep it at friends- but no- I had to go and ruin it. But after I ruined I had to start having FEELINGS! I hate myself. James Potter has given up on me- no he doesn't care anymore… he's moved on like I always wish he would have, now I want him to turn back… I'm such a moron! He's really moved on… he will never turn back now.

Only if she knew how wrong she was… The real reason the kiss occurred… The truth… that she was wrong to ever suspect any of those things…

"Oh, by the way Lily Flower," he called turning back to her, and kissed her forehead, "Merry Christmas."

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A/N- … AND HAPPY WHATEVER HOLIDAYS YOU CELEBRATE! I know… not very politically correct… LOL! I know, this chapter was weird, and lots of things where left unsaid… BUT NEXT CHAPTER WILL BE LONG AND EXPLAIN ALL OF THAT!Did you think it was weird she didn't start yelling or screaming? Please review and tell me what you think! And also tell me, if you could some suggestions about what was left out in this chapter (if that made sense- tell me what seemed awkward- for the welfare of the story! LOL!)… How was it? Now another poem to encourage you're wonderful reviews-

If you reviewed my story,

It helps me to be encouraged, update faster, and write better

And eventually it'll be less corny!

Yes I know- the chapter was quite badly written- you can review and tell me! Now this si important- I HAVE DECIDED TO WRITE A NICE LITTLE 4 PART STORY (IT THINK THAT'S WHAT IT'LL BE BUT I'M NOT EXACTLEY SURE) TITLE SOMBODY LOVES YOU LILY EVANS, IT'S A WEIRD IDEA, BUT I HAD IT SPUR OF THE MOMENT AND HAVE TO WORK ON IT! EXCPECT IT TO BE POSTED SOON! I HOPE YOU WILL READ IT AND CHECK IT OUT! BUT NEVER FEAR- I PLAN ON MAKING THIS STORY SMALL STEPS, FIRST PRIORITY! NOTHING WILL STOP ME FROM UPDATING IT LIKE CLOCK WORK! THE OTHER ONE MIGHT B EA BIT MORE- SLIGHTLY MORE- "DRAMATIC" THOUGH I'M NOT A DRAMATIC PERSON, SO I REALLY HOPE TO BRING SMALL STEPS BACK TO HUMOR- THE REAL BACK BONE OF THIS STORY! SO WHAT DO YOU GUYS THINK? So, remember review, please keep reading, tell me how stupid this chapter was, and have a wonderful day! I love all of you guys! I swear I have the best reader of all!

Like Always,

TajM