TheUbu (I'd be Ubu but someone took it!)

I'm a crazy Canadian and some of my writing may reflect that. Don't be alarmed and run for the hills, I'm sure it won't hurt too badly.

First off, I'd like to tank everyone for their reviews! Several people have informed me that review responses and author's notes are only allowed to be one page long. It's very unfortunate seeing as my review responses often go on for two or three pages… I hate to do this but from now on I will only be answering direct questions. Even with that I'm sure it will go over a page but guess what? I'll do it anyway!

As for those of you who guessed Stephanie was my girlfriend, I'm happy to inform you that you are correct! Hero cookies for all! I did let her name slip a couple of chapters back (When I still had an uber crush on her…) Besides, I know that Dan has been attracted to Clair for the better part of our high school lives; he tends to fall apart when it comes to asking her out though. I'm not exactly the best judge in a situation like that but I think Clair likes him too. (Like Robin and Starfire much?)

Disclaimer: I don't own the Teen Titans; any characters contained within are not mine and belong to their respective owners with whom I have no affiliation.

Chapter Eleven

Beast Boy was in his room idly levitating objects in different directions. It was pretty simple but he thought it would be better to do that than nothing at all. He may have only been practicing for five minutes, but boredom was beginning to set in.

'Ok… So I've done the levitating thing. What now?'

The darkly dressed Titan lost his focus and all the objects dropped from the air. He was getting restless and it reminded him of his old self. What would he have done about boredom before the switch? Well, he probably would have played on the game station with Robin or Cyborg. If that weren't an option, he'd have pulled a prank on one of the two aforementioned Titans. He never pulled pranks on Starfire of Raven; that was because it was something they didn't laugh about. When one of his pranks backfired and Starfire was on the receiving end, she hadn't understood and thought he was a jerk. He long ago stopped trying to pull pranks on Raven because they most often resulted in his bodily injury.

Unfortunately these things often brought up emotions, and right now he couldn't afford to feel emotions. Is that all he used to do? No. He used to rot away in front of the television but he had no desire to do that right now.

'There has to be something I can do…' He thought.

The only other thing he spent his time doing was trying to get Raven to smile. She was doing that now though so he was left with nothing to do. Nothing to do short of continue to practice…

Beast Boy sighed and raised his hands again, this time he thought about forming a shield but only in front of his hands. He spoke the magic words and misty darkness seemed to flow more quickly than it had when he made an entire bubble. Was it because he was using less energy? He didn't know, but it always seemed to happen almost instantaneously when Raven did it.

He moved his hands back and forth and a dark streak of energy was left in their wake for a short time. He moved his hand quickly to one side and a long streak remained for a moment before fading away to nothingness.

'So that's how she does it.' Beast Boy thought. 'It's a lot easier than making a whole shield.'

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Raven paced around her room as she thought about what she'd say to Beast Boy. She had finally decided that she would do something about her feeling, but now she had to figure out what that something was.

'What am I supposed to do? Do I ask him out or is he supposed to ask me out?' Raven pinched the bridge of her nose and groaned. 'Stupid question, I told him I had to sort out my feelings. The fact remains that I need to tell him something. So do I tell him I love him?'

"What I wouldn't give to be able to talk to my emotions right now." She said as she eyed her hand mirror that was now the portal to Beast Boy's mind. "Damn it, I need some tea."

She made her way to the living room to find it empty.

'I guess they're up on the roof setting up for the barbeque.' She thought.

After placing the kettle on the stove, she pulled out her tealeaves and grabbed the teapot. A nice hot cup of green tea would be just the thing to relax her tensed nerves. She reached up for a mug but thought for a moment.

'Maybe Beast Boy would like one too. Then we could talk and I could just let things come naturally.'

Raven was surprised at her own impulsive thought. She usually liked to have things planned out before she tried anything. It seemed a little dumb to go in and try to talk without having a plan, but she wasn't coming up with anything else. She took two mugs down and pulled the almost-boiling kettle from the stove. She poured the water into the teapot where the tealeaves rested and waited for it to steep. Steam swirled out from the spout in delicate white wisps and Raven inhaled the pleasant scent.

Raven had always liked herbal tea. She didn't know what it was about it, but everything related seemed nice. Even shopping for it was enjoyable despite the fact that she disliked shopping. She didn't dislike all shopping though, there were two stores in Jump City where she liked to spend time. Both were small, secluded, and had a certain air of tradition to them that Raven found quite welcoming. One was a store where she purchased her loose leaf teas, and the other was an old bookstore that stocked older books. She loved the way both of the stores smelled, the must of the old books and the mixes of dried teas gave them a refined quality.

She poured the tea into the two mugs and made off for Beast Boy's room.

'Here goes nothing.' She thought as she tapped the door with her foot.

"Yes?" Came his muffled voice from within.

"It's me." She said. "Can we talk?"

There was a slight shuffling behind the door and it slid open. He looked at her and the two mugs she held with a hint of questioning that was only revealed by the practically undetectable tilt of his head. He soon after moved out of the doorway and gestured for her to come in. His room was surprisingly clean as compared to its normal appearance; it had only been half cleaned the last time Raven had entered. Now, the floor was practically spotless, save for a few objects that where scattered on it next to his bed.

He gestured for her to sit down and eyed the two mugs of steaming liquid when Raven held one up to him.

"Would you like one?" She asked.

He nodded and took the hot tea from her. He didn't say any words of thanks, but he flashed her a small smile. That one small smile of his meant more than a few words of thanks ever would and Raven smiled warmly back. The pale teen blew across the steaming liquid and took a short sip.

"Well?"

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He brought the mug close to his mouth and felt the warm steam lick past his face. He inhaled the earthy scent and blew gently. His breath created frantic ripples in the surface and the steam seemed to leap away from him. After having gone this far into the uncharted waters, Beast Boy gently lifted the warm cup to his lips and took a tentative sip. The warm liquid flooded his senses and he let the calming flavor overtake him.

"Well?" She asked in a way that seemed to need his approval.

Beast Boy took another sip before he exhaled contentedly.

"It's nice." He confessed.

"Yea…" She agreed.

"So what was it that you wanted to talk about?"

"Well…" She hesitated. "I think I've sorted out my feelings…"

Beast Boy waited for her to continue but it seemed as though she would not.

'Does this mean she doesn't like me back?' He anxiously thought.

She emotions she was casting off were confusing. He could feel her apprehension, a little confusion, and a few more that he couldn't identify. The overall feeling was an unpleasant and somewhat suffocating one. His insides twisted at the prospect of what that meant. Was she tense about what she was about to tell him? That could mean anything… Right now though, Beast Boy was certain that it meant she did not care for him in the way he cared for her. He bowed his head slightly and took another sip of tea in an attempt to rid himself of the growing lump in his chest.

Some of the objects he had been levitating glowed a threatening black but Beast Boy didn't really notice or care. The fact that Raven didn't feel the same for him as he did for her was the only thing he knew at the moment. He felt his sadness and something in the back of his mind told him that this was something he wasn't allowed so he did his best to quell the horrid feeling.

"And what have you decided?" He asked in a quiet voice that sounded very much like that of a scared child.

"I… I think…"

That was it. The words she couldn't say told Beast Boy everything he needed to know. Why did it have to be this way? Did life truly not want to afford him this one happiness? That had to be it. To be able to freely love and be loved in return by Raven would be too much. Despite how desperately he wanted it, it would always be something out of his reach. It would always be there though; she would always be there just hanging out of his reach, as if to taunt him.

He wasn't angry with her though. It was he who was at fault. Something he had done had driven her away. He felt his despair returning but he couldn't do anything about it. He didn't want to do anything about it. He just closed his pale gray eyelids in an attempt to hold back the tears he knew would come. One managed to break through the barrier though and trickled slowly down his face until it hung on his chin. It then fell and landed it the half empty cup of still-steaming liquid.

"It's alright Raven. I know that dealing with emotions is new to you and I shouldn't have pushed you. I know that you don't feel the same about me so I'm sorr-" Beast Boy was cut off as Raven's green lips pressed against his pale ones.

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"Well… I think I've sorted out my feelings…" She said and tried to continue.

Her words failed her though and she just looked into Beast Boy's eyes. They looked right back at her but they didn't seem to see her. He looked very deep in thought but a look of dread set itself in his features. Did that mean he thought she was rejecting him? She desperately tried to speak again but her vocal cords seemed to not function. Only air silently passed by her lips as she tried to vocalize her feelings for him.

Some of the items that were scattered around the floor haphazardly began to gently shake with a black aura but they stopped shortly after, casting off their black energy. Raven watched as Beast Boy bowed his head and looked mournfully down at his tea.

"And what have you decided?" He asked.

'He's scared?'

"I… I think…" Again the words failed to come

'Damn it! Why can't I tell him how I feel?' She thought.

She saw the hint of tears in the former changeling's eyes as a sheen of moisture grew over the two emerald pools. He closed his eyes tightly as though to stop them but a single tear made it's way past. It trickled slowly down his cheek until it dangled on his chin. It stayed suspended momentarily before falling into his cup of tea and gentle ripples grew from where the tear hit the water.

"It's alright Raven." He sadly said. "I know that dealing with emotions is new to you and I shouldn't have pushed you. I know that you don't feel the same about me so I'm sorr-"

Raven couldn't tell him in words how she felt for him, so she let her actions speak for her. She kissed him fully on the lips and pushed him back a little. He pulled back a moment after and looked into her eyes, his were still glistening with potential tears. His eyes seemed to search for something that only he could find and when he did, some moment of understanding passed between the two of them and a sort connection was made. No words were spoken but Raven threw her arms around his neck and began to fiercely kiss him. Beast Boy didn't hesitate a second longer and reciprocated her actions, he wrapped an arm around her waist and pulled her up onto his lap.

Beast Boy broke their deeply passionate kiss shortly after and looked around the room.

"And why has nothing exploded?" He asked, raising an eyebrow.

Raven looked around the room as well and noticed nothing had moved.

"I'm not really sure…" She then let out a small giggle and pushed him down on the bed they were both sitting on. "Does it really matter though?"

Beast Boy shrugged and gave her a very full and pleasant smile. "I guess not."

He then pulled her down to him and kissed her once again.

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A large chorus of happy cheers echoed throughout the vastly differing landscape that was Beast Boy's mind. All of Beast Boy's emotions, even some of the less agreeable ones were celebrating albeit in different ways. Happy was hopping around in circles and spun with any emotion that ventured too closely. Knowledge was tearing through piles of books as though he were franticly looking for something, while Wisdom sat closely by with a smile on his face. Even Timid had managed to smile and converse with his fellow emotions.

"So… Does this mean that Raven's our girlfriend?" He asked Bravery.

"Hmm… You know, I'm not sure." He replied. "But I'll be damn if I'm not going to make Beast Boy ask her out tonight!"

Something tapped lightly on the shoulder of the emotion dressed in brown.

"Uh… W-Wisdom?" Asked a wavering and uncertain voice.

"Yes Fear?" Wisdom asked gently.

"D-Do you th-think Raven will come here again?"

"I don't know." He said. "But it would be nice to speak to her again."

"Yea."

Off in another, far less pleasant part of Beast Boy's mind, a solitary emotion fell to his knees on the dusty ground. The red sky and dirt of the surrounding cliffs reflected the crimson of his clothing perfectly. He wanted to fight, he wanted to break free and tear through this mind like a hurricane but his strength had left him.

Rage had his eyes on the ground ahead of him and tears were freely flowing down his face. What was the point of fighting now? The one he loved, the one that was supposed to return his love, had confessed her love for him. He had no reason to go on, no reason left to live.

"Why?" He quietly breathed.

'Do you understand now? This is why she must be destroyed.'

'NO! It doesn't matter!' He boldly thought back. 'There's nothing you can do to make me hurt her!'

'Soon, young one, soon you shall see the power of Trigon the Terrible. And when you do, you will know the full extent of what I can and cannot do. As this boy is now my portal to Earth, so are you my portal to his mind.' He told Rage malevolently. 'My daughter will be among the very first to perish painfully at my hands for stopping me the first time.'

"I'll sooner die than let you lay a finger on her." Rage stated out loud with all of his resolve.

'Believe me when I say, I will take control whether you like it or not. Make it easy on yourself and just let it happen.'

Rage stood but did not fight against his bindings. He had a new reason to fight, one that was far more important than making others suffer. He was again called upon to protect Raven. It didn't matter if he couldn't be with her, he was the only one strong enough to protect her. If he were to fail, the other emotions would fall like a house of cards and only Beast Boy would be left to protect her. He was weak, pathetic, insignificant, and he would surely fall like the others.

This wasn't for him, it was for Raven. As long as Rage drew breath, he wouldn't let Trigon get anywhere near Raven.

"Fuck you Trigon."

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Beast Boy held Raven snuggly against his chest and breathed in the delicious scent of her hair. Though his senses were dulled, he could pick up her sweet scent of lavender, the smell of her herbal teas, and a weak must of her old books. That perfect combination made him happier than he ever thought possible. She gently nuzzled her face into his shirt and he began to stroke her hair.

"I love you Raven." He said with all his heart.

"I love you too Beast Boy. I love you so much." She squeezed him tighter as she said this. "I was so scared when you jumped off the bridge… I don't ever want to loose you."

"You never will."

Raven murmured something indistinguishable and it looked as though she was falling asleep. Beast Boy tucked a dark green lock of hair that had fallen across her face behind her pointed ear and smiled. She was amazingly beautiful. He began to rub her back and a large smile spread across her face. She grabbed a handful of his shirt and pulled it close to her.

"You're so beautiful Rae, I always want to see you smile." He said.

She giggled something as a reply and nuzzled into him a little more.

"You're laugh is like music to my ears."

He received more incoherent sleep talk as a reply.

"You're so smart and you're really funny, no matter what you say."

"Some people are trying to sleep here. Do you think you can shut up?" Asked Raven as she brought her violet eyes to meet his emerald one.

Beast Boy gave a little chuckle and then spoke in a playful voice. "Are you going to make me?"

"You bet." She said, kissing him once again.

A loud banging from the metal door rang throughout the room startling the two Titans on the bed.

"Yo BB! Dinners up!" Came Cyborg's loud voice. "Tell Raven to come too if you see her."

"Yea, I'm coming." He said, then he turned to the green girl in his arms and whispered. "Remind me to kill Cyborg later."

"Definitely." She said as she rose from the bed. "Want to go eat?"

"No. But we should make an appearance anyway."

Beast Boy looked at the clock and saw that it was already 7:15PM. They walked down the hallway toward the stairwell. He reached over and took her hand in his, offering her a small smile. A wave of warmth washed over the pair as the outside air stuck them. It had begun to cool off but it was still very warm as compared to the conditioned air of the tower. Beast Boy could smell the sickly sweet scent of recently grilled meats and saw the table laden with them.

There was more than just meat there though, it looked as if Cyborg had been courteous enough to make him a couple of his veggie burgers and some tofu dogs. The rest of the Titans were sitting around the table and had already began to eat. Starfire was the first to notice their arrival and put down the mustard bottle she was drinking from when she did.

"You have arrived Friends!" She happily exclaimed then looked down to their hands, which were still clasped together. "Are you two doing the 'going out'?"

At this, both Cyborg and Robin looked up from their meals. Beast Boy blushed slightly and did his best to stay calm. He wasn't sure of the answer himself and he looked to Raven for guidance.

"I'm not sure Star." She said squeezing Beast Boy's hand. "I guess we're going to find out soon enough."

"Marvelous!" She said, leaping from her seat and giving them both a bone-crushing hug.

"Alright BB!" Cyborg cheered and held up his hand. "High five!"

Beast Boy looked at him blankly for a moment but eventually slapped the palm of his metallic friend with the enthusiasm he would have used before the change. As a result of this unchecked emotional display, Cyborg's half eaten burger began to rise off of his plate.

'Crap! One… Two… Three… Four… Five…' He internally counted. 'Wait… I was getting a heck of a lot more emotional with Raven and nothing happened. Why is the power going off now?'

"Oh, sorry man."

It was apparent the Cyborg was a little saddened by the slump of his shoulders and tone of voice, but the emotions hit Beast Boy much like the warm air of outside had. He could understand why he was saddened. Cyborg was his best friend, he used to do all that pointless fun stuff with him. Had it been playing on the game station or pulling some kind of prank on Robin, even battling one another about what was truly classified as food in the mornings. Beast Boy did wish that he could do all the old things he used to be able to do with him, but things had changed.

"It's alright." He replied. "How about we get something to eat?"

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Dr. Light looked down the shaded alley with apprehension. It was still the middle of summer so it was light out until 10:00PM but the little shadow was still there. He looked at his watch and saw that it was 8:30, precisely the time he'd agreed upon. Why had he agreed to meet him in a dark alley though? He'd have to tough it out for the moment, because it would soon be all over. All the fear would melt away when she was dead.

"Hello?" He called into the alley.

'He'd better have shown up.'

"Come in here. Get out of sight of the street." Said a voice from the shadows.

Every fiber of his being screamed out against what he was about to do and temporarily held him in place. It still wasn't safe, they could strike at any moment. The sooner he dealt with it though, the sooner it would be safe.

'Just get it over with damn it.'

He took a step forward and entered the darkness.

"Did you bring the money?"

"Y-Yea." Dr. Light mumbled and he hurriedly tried to remove the wad of bills from his pocket. "H-Here you go."

The man took the money from him and then opened the bag he was carrying. He drew a handgun from within and a box of ammunition along with it.

"Here. It's only a 9mm but it still packs a punch. Semi automatic with a 12 shot clip capacity. There's another clip in the box too." He said. "If you don't mind my asking, what are you going to do with it?"

Dr. Light examined the firearm in his hand for a moment and then put it into his pocket.

"I'm going to take care of something that's been haunting me for a long time." He said.

So there you have it. I did want to have a fight scene and some action in the end of this but the writing took me in another direction. It contained some of that fluff that I love of so much so I'm fairly pleased with it. This was a little bit shorter than I had hoped but it's here nonetheless.

I'm not sure if that last part made sense to some of the American readers what with the right to bear arms and all (I'm really not sure how that works so forgive me if I goofed up) but Dr. Light was purchasing a firearm illegally. In Canada, you require a license to purchase a firearm but I don't think that's the same in the US… Oh well, my excuse is that he's a convict and he cannot legally purchase one because of it. (Or does right to bear arms apply to those convicted of a crime as well?)

Poor Cyborg, everyone seems to be getting hooked up but him! On top of that, he best buddy can't joke around with him anymore… I'm thinking about getting Cyborg hooked up with Jinx, what do you think about that? That'll only happen if I make this story longer than I had planned though.

And on the topic of making the story longer, I'd like a little of your feedback on something. Up to this point, the story has been fairly light. And by that I mean there haven't been and major topics dealt with. With this upcoming fight with Dr. Light, I was thinking about doing something that would deal with the topic of murder. Not in the sense of a character death (Definitely not any of the Titans anyway) but something that the Titans have to deal with in that way. This would make the story longer and probably give me a chance to pair Cyborg up. In the end I know it's my call to make, and I'll probably do it anyway but I thought I'd get your feedback on the subject.

I took four cans of Coke to write this chapter. I think they did their part and I'm proud of the little guys.

As for reviews, I'm damn near speechless… If anyone had told me that this story would get over three hundred reviews when I was writing the first chapter, I would have told them that they were stark raving loony. It has though and I'm very grateful. It saddens me that I can no longer reply to you all individually but I will do my best to answer all of your questions.

First off, thanks to everyone. I have not received one unpleasant review from anyone! You have all been incredibly supportive and it warms my heart to know that there are still good people in the world.

(Also thanks to anyone who pointed out spelling or grammatical errors. I know I should read my stories through before I post them but sometimes I neglect to do so…)

I can agree that Beast Boy is not very knowledgeable, but I believe that he is wise beyond his years. He's not the brightest all the time (Or anytime for that matter), and often follows the motto 'leap before you look' but he does hold great wisdom in the fact that he knows when to drop the clown act and support his friends. I think he's the kind of 'glue' that holds the team together.

I also agree that Rage is not truly evil but is simply aggressive in the way it lives and sees others. Though Rage does hate Beast Boy for his weakness, that is simply because he believes that it's survival of the fittest. He too loves Raven as all of Beast Boy's emotions do so it enrages him that the one he loves is with Beast Boy. Not only for the fact that he loves Raven and hates Beast Boy's weakness, but because he feels Beast Boy is too weak to protect Raven from possible harm.

I know it seems that Beast Boy can handle Raven's powers with relative ease, but I wanted to portray how he has a strong will and isn't just the joker everyone seems to take him for. This in no way means to show that Raven doesn't have what it takes to handle Beast Boy's powers, but again to show that it takes a lot more than the others think to be the little green guy.

I'm pleased to see that I have astute readers. I was about to have Beast Boy say that a Bull is an effective creature in battle but I had to take a second to realize that there's no such thing as a female bull! It's unfortuenate that nature deemed male animals the stronger of the sexes because this leaves Raven at a disadvantage. She may not be as versatile as Beast Boy was but she still has an amazing power to her. Have you ever gotten between a female bear and her cub? If you have, you're lucky to be reading this.

I've unfortunately not had the pleasure of reading any of the Teen Titan comics so I've pieced my knowledge of their universe together from the television show, cross-referenced information in fanfics, and what I find while browsing sites on the Internet. Having said this, if any of my information is incorrect, I would only be too happy to fix it should you point it out to me.

I think that's covered most of it… I'm still really disappointed by this so I think I'll go back to the way I did them before, answering each review individually. You were all kind enough to write me something, I should be kind enough to reply. Yep! I will reply to each review for chapter twelve on! Rules be damned!

Thanks for taking the time to read my story!