Love Songs Suck, and other such stuff…
A/N- Yikes guys… haven't updated for a while now… but I was never really able to be online long enough to type up a chappy! So I'm going to try to make this long to make up for it and try a change of pace… So at the AUTHOR'S NOTE at the end… you will find a list of questions… which I would adore any reviewer for answering! :)
Dedicated to the HMS Marauders… once again being some of the most incredible people anyone would be lucky to know… let alone be able to call friends like I CAN! Hehe! ;)
So whatever twisted quirk of fate created such an unlikely and unusual but unusually-perfect-for-each-other couple finally occurred… and to the shock and awe of many. Those who still absurdly kept bets on their 'break-up' date seemed to soon be at loss of a good amount of Galleons…
Sirius who found this utterly hilarious in his own manor, betted on the end of March or early April.
For that James turned Sirius's whole wardrobe hot pink which upsettingly Sirius found quite appealing.
What Lily on the other hand found quite appealing was the fact that honestly for the first time in any relationship she A.)was at total ease, B.)- well there was no need to continue that- because the truth was that frankly it was total bliss… (besides 26 letters were not enough to explain it all…).
It was the weirdest, sweetest minus the entire sappiness thing ever. And she felt safe with James Potter and oddly trusted him enough… and it was definitely a fact that it was not simply 'lust'…
You know like those couples that made out in the common room looking like they more or less were eating each other's faces?
All that PDA seemed way to much for them… those people seemed at times like they needed something to prove for some reason or another… but oddly enough James and Lily never really did…because believe it or not they actually enjoyed one another's company.
Not like they never had a snog or anything… believe me they both had a good deal of passion, and she would never rather be elsewhere except in his arms, but they both knew when to stop. They understood each other enough to know that and that's all one would have to say about that.
But then again at a school full of adolescents and teens there was a wonderful and horrible day of the year… that you may either look forward to or dread or loathe…
Yes you know the one…
Yes that one…
You guessed it Valentine's Day.
Ah yes St. Valentine's Day… day of hearts, red and pink, chocolate and other sickly sentimental garbage according to the straight-foreword thinking world of Lily Evans… but of course that was pre-Potter…
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"Oh look it's the Mrs. Potter!" Sirius shouted playfully as Lily came to sit next down to James at breakfast.
Lily rolled her eyes at Sirius' comment as James greeted he by pecking her cheek.
"I think it's easier to ignore him love."
"I for one think that they act like an old married couple and that for one is disgraceful for any Marauder, and I for one think that-"
"Wait Sirius thinks!" Mia said sarcastically. "Alert the Prophet… it is a momentous day in the history of the Wizarding World…"
"Shut it McKinnon, I'll have you know that I- Moony my boy what is it?" Sirius called noting that Remus seemed paler as he walked in to sit next to Frank.
Remus handed the newspaper to Lily while Mia and Sirius were going into a thorough discussion of the many things James and Lily do that many old-married couples do not do.
She opened it glancing at it briefly and frowned.
"Another Deatheater attack- Muggle again… God this is the third one this week," and glancing back down she paled slightly and turned to James.
"Remember the curse that Severus and them used last fall?"
"Crucio?"
"Yah- well just get a load of this. The Ministry says that the Deatheater are using that one and the two other 'unforgivables' and now they are letting the Auror's use them… but anyways… I never thought about it before but how exactly would three seventh year students be able to do such dark magic unless someone taught them?" she whispered.
"So Lils are you saying that we have Deatheaters in our school?" Frank asked simply. "Come-on why would the Dark Lord want to draft under-aged wizards right under Dumbledore's nose?"
"Exactly," whispered James in a disgusted voice. "Who else better to keep watch at Hogwarts? The one place where Voldemort himself could never reach. I can bet you anything that Snape, Malfoy and all those other gits are trying to crawl their way up Voldemort's ranks."
"James, you know you can't go around making accusations like that." Remus muttered watching a pair of fifth year on-lookers.
"Yes James you can't," Lily started. "Until we can prove it."
"Prove it Lily love?" asked Sirius. "But that may require the breakage of a good deal of rules and I'm sure as head girl are not one to endorse such a habit and all."
"Shut it Black, I know you despise them as much as I do so know what do we do."
"Dumbledore," Frank stated simply.
"No, we definitely cannot go straight up to the headmaster without any proof, besides he won't have reason to believe us considering your records with Snape and all… I mean, seriously… he most likely won't take any such thing seriously." Lily muttered shaking her head.
"But we have that night when they-" James started.
"But what would we say was are reason for waiting so long? I mean what, it's been practically four months."
"Well I always say go straight to the source." Mia said simply checking to see if anyone was listening in the noisy crowded hall… noisy halls, the best place to have ongoing private conversations. "And if Lily Evans feels strong enough about this to break some rules, I daresay I am whole heartedly devoted to the cause. And may I add, she is quite lucky to have Marauder as a boyfriend."
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Lily and Mia were sitting in on a table in the corner of the restricted section of the library- no longer restricted to them though because of the fact that they both were taking advanced DADA and Potions that is.
Lily was pouring over an overly thick dusty one with explicitly detailed portraits of jinxes. She was determined to discover something… anything… everything was making her feel so helpless really… everything was unraveling in the world outside the walls of the highly protected castle that it seemed that they were untouchable- but that was just an idealistically lie. It was with guilt she had spent those days with James filled with simple pleasures while she knew inside that soon they would all be slammed in the face with a horrible reality. She felt inside that it would not be long that until it really affected them.
"Lily I really don't think it's any use," sighed Mia slamming another book down frustrated and creating large quantities of dust around her.
"Uh-huh," Lily murmured then sneezed.
"Bless you," called an ever so familiar voice sitting down next to her putting an arm around her waist- of course causing her to shiver with that annoying swooning feeling.
"James." Lily acknowledged still deeply engrossed in the old book.
"So what are you guys doing?"
"Well Lily is obsessing over the Unforgivable Curses… and I'm trying to do the same but it oddly hard after you've done it for over four hours." Mia groaned.
James chuckled softly and rested his wet head on Lily's shoulder.
"And how is it going?"
"Miserable," Mia said. "I don't think that any of us found anything. Lily let's admit it that this has been completely useless. Now what we really should find out is more how we can spy on the Slytherins without them finding out…"
"Uh-huh," muttered Lily ruffling the hair of her wet-straight-from-Quiditch practice boyfriend absent-mindedly.
"Lily?"
"Mm-hmm?"
"Love, have you found anything because this is getting a bit un-healthy."
"Uh-huh, and so is Quiditch practice in February."
James grinned mischievously, "Guilty."
"I mean- she kept me in from Quiditch practice!" Mia moaned. "And for what, to look at use-less books no less!"
"You have a cold." Lily said simply.
"No I don't! I told you that this morning when-"
"Yes you do Amelia." She said again in a bored-like voice but with a bit of force flipping the page.
"Sniff, Sniff," Mia responded weakly.
"That's my Lillers for you," James said with a mixture of mock and candid pride.
"Well then we will let Evans here continue on with her process… but now that you're here what are you two doing next week… oh let's say on the fourteenth?" Mia asked pointedly at James recuperating quickly.
"What's on the fourteenth," asked Lily finally looking up from her book. "Oh God don't tell me it's a test! I can't take any more studying on top of it!"
She then disappeared into the wonderful world of researching on whatever was bothering her.
"No Lily Flower it happens to be Valentine's Day."
She groaned loudly escaping from her world for a second.
"Lily despises Valentines Day," Mia stated unnecessarily.
"It's really just an evil excuse created by the card companies, candy companies, and hopeless hormonal people who need another reason to act all sappy and-"
"But Lils I don't think you've ever had anyone to spend the day with." Mia laughed shaking her head. "Wait I take that back."
James looked up from his comfortable spot with an annoyed expression with loathing.
"Diggory…"
"And Nealson." Added Mia laughing.
"And Nealson," And Nealson James repeated with a pouty expression.
"You are not helping matters." Lily added. "And oi you Potter- though the fact
that I had boyfriends you never managed to suppress trying to 'woe' me and such."
"Oh yes- it was always quite sweet. A lily every year and a public plead for your company at Hogsmeade."
"Oh yes that's why I always despised that oh so wonderful holiday."
"Hey!" cried James. "I also had girl-friends when I was asking you!"
"Wait James, you do realize that makes it ten times worse?"
"Well just you wait Lily this heart-day will be your best yet. I'll make sure of it." And there he went with that roguish grin again.
"James stop it you are looking possessed."
"Exactly with the idea of what we will be doing…! Just you wait and see!" He ended this thought with a mad 'mwa-haha' laugh just for effect.
"Lily your boy-friend is acting fanatical again."
"Yes, well I think flying is kind of like a natural high for the poor sole," in a one-mother-to-another concerned voice Lily answered patting his head. "I do hope we can spend all day in the library with me researching."
"Of course… you keep thinking that Lily!"
"Yes, you too James, you too…"
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Walking down to the common room on the fourteenth inside Lily slightly dreaded whatever James may have planned.
She was a bit late that day so skipping breakfast she made her way to her first class, History of Magic.
Not going to The Great Hall in the morning she missed the yearly public display of affection and popularity. What a disappointment…
Five minutes later James walked in as the class started to fill up pecking Lily on the cheek as usual, flashing the same swoon worthy smile and went to sit in his seat behind her.
Nothing out of the ordinary here.
Well honestly there wasn't much out of the ordinary all day.
It was kind of like every school day.
Quick soft kisses in in-between moments… but other then that, nothing.
And as much as Lily Kirsten Evans hated to admit it… she was improbably disappointed. She knew she made a bit of a big deal about how stupid it was… and Lily wasn't much for the fairy tale-love song type of deal… but she… oh well… it didn't really matter right? Right?
Besides with a guy like James who really needed a particular day for the expression of love… compassion…devotion…. Right? RIGHT?
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She and James had been sitting in the library for precisely ninthy minutes with a bit o progression when Madame Prince came barging into the section.
"What juvenile delinquent let out a dung bomb in the LIBRARY…" The poor obsessive librarian seemed on the brink of a nervous break down.
"God have mercy on the poor sole who ever did that," James whispered in her ear as she smiled slightly.
"And where were the HEAD BOY AND GIRL while this was happening!"
As if that was their cue to leave James grabbed her by the hand to lead her out of the library… not before Lily made sure they grabbed a few books each.
But instead of going back to the common room James muttered something about it being-quite-stuffy-wouldn't-you-rather-go-outside-by-the-lake-perhaps.
Funny how it seemed being a Marauder had it's benefits… expecially estensive knowledge about the school and it's grounds… including perfect late-night romantic picnic grounds…
How cliché…
Sappy….
Cheesey…
And utterly sweet…
Thoughtful…
Lily groaned…
Why did it seem James was so oddly perfect?
Well, said an all- knowing head in her voice.
Because he obviously is.
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Less then a week later the seventh year Gryffindors were studying for the upcoming Transfiguration, DADA, Charms, and Potions test… a pre-NEWT sort of thing.
Yes these were real ones believe it or not.
Lily yawned stretching from her position against James' legs... The conversation between the nine of them was along the lines of:
'What the heck does the Draft of the Living Dead do?'
'Didn't we make that last year?'
'I don't know- if I knew why would I be asking?'
And:
'Wait so if I want to make myself into a whale would I use the incantation used for marine life, or the incantation used for mammals?"
'I don't know ask Sarah Garden.'
'Why?'
'Well I thought that she turned herself into one.'
'No! She just gained some weight over the summer.'
'Some?'
When a owl carrying a black letter made its way through a window.
It may have been just Lily but it seemed to carry an eary chill of un-earthly news…
And dropped it's letter in the awaiting and outstretched hands of James Potter.
IT may have been her imagination but the whole room seemed to become oddly silent and James's hand seemed to shake a bit as he opened it. Glance over it his eyes moving at an alarming speed… folding it again, and closing his eyes. Standing up he softly placed the letter in Lily's hand and walked out of the common room- no one seemed able or willing to stop him.
Glancing back at James her stomach started to knot as she slowly opened the letter that would most likely be written to the one she cared so much about, about the murder of the two people he cared most about.
As the others looked at her while she glanced expecting the same, and with a heavy heart and horrible feeling she nodded at them, and said softly, "I'm going to go find James."
"Lily," Sirius said as soon as he found his voice- the Potters meant a lot to him as well. "Let him be."
Lily wanted no more then to know if she left him alone that everything would be all right, but she knew against it.
"I have to be with him Sirius- to make sure he is all right."
"You really care about him don't you Lily?" he said in a forced voice at what seemed like the most inappropriate moment if it were any two other people.
She nodded and he nodded back- a mutual understanding between two people who held a sacred but different bond with the same person.
She didn't know what told her where to go… she just seemed to know. And as she walked towards the astronomy tower she didn't know what to do or say to make anything out of the tragedy that just happened… but she knew it had to be something, anything… that at that time he would shut everyone out- except her.
And as she opened the door slowly she saw the messy jet-black haired boy, tall and lanky- features he got from his father, but physique from Quiditch training a skill he developed from both his parents.
He was staring out at the stars… just staring… not even noticing the cold. But as she slowly approached him he knew she was there… and he whispered in a hoarse, strained voice, "Lily?"
"Yes James, its me." she said, tears threatened her as she saw traces of them on his. And for once she knew exactly what to do.
She wrapped her arms around him and held him close, through out the night. She was going to be there for him, now, later, and as long as he needed it… because she needed him.
And so it seems oddly enough when the world is full of so much darkness and so much misgivings that there are in some ways a bit of hope… and right now Lily was James's.
Okay… I tried… how was that as a chapter? I truly tried… eeks!
So anyways I have to POST NOW! My mom is giving me 20 minutes and that was a while ago! She seems serious! LOL! So anyways I am SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO sorry there are no replies… but my internet right now is very slow… and going to that area takes triple the time it should! So I am going to post now and everyone get's double replies next time to any questions etc!
So I know it wasn't that good…
AND A QUICK NOTE TO KELSO- MY E-MAIL IS WEIRDLY DOWN! I MISS YOU AND EVERYONE ELSE BACK HOME TONS AND TONS! Please tell them so! ;)
So anyways I'll have many questions for next time for anyone willing to answer them!
And wasn't HBP awesome?
Like always,
TajM
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