TheUbu (I'd be Ubu but someone took it!)

I'm a crazy Canadian and some of my writing may reflect that. Don't be alarmed and run for the hills, I'm sure it won't hurt too badly.

After having written a sufficient amount of tragedy (The story isn't finished and I'm not sure if I will finish it), my muse has come back with a vengeance and has filled my head with ideas for a sequel to this story. Keep in mind that I plan to write my road trip story first, but that should only take a couple months or so.

I've received many questions to the tune of 'are they going to switch back?' and I'm going to tell you all right now: No. I have plans for them in the sequel that requires them to retain their current powers. If you don't like the idea of them staying as they are now for half of another story, don't fret because they won't. Without ruining the story I can tell you that they will have their rightful powers back in the first chapter.

Disclaimer: I don't own the Teen Titans; any characters contained within are not mine and belong to their respective owners with whom I have no affiliation.

Chapter Eighteen

Something was wrong. Something was very wrong. Beast Boy could smell blood, the air was thick with it and he could feel it seeping into his clothes. He opened his eyes and tried to get up, the hand he tried to prop himself up on made a sickening squishing noise in the blood soaked carpet.

The room he was in was dark, too dark to see much of anything and it was completely silent, save for Beast Boy's heavy breathing. He knew he was still in the tower and judging by the general quiet, it was probably very late at night. But where was he? And where did all the blood come from? Was it his? The last thing he remembered was going to sleep in his own bed, but this wasn't his room; the lights of the city illuminated his room.

He felt around his body to try and determine the source of the blood but found nothing; he couldn't be conscious if all this were his.

"Hello?" He called out.

No reply came from the darkness. Wild thoughts were beginning to race through his mind: What had happened? Did he hurt someone? Where was he? He quickly found his way to the nearest wall and bumped into a set of closed blinds. Moonlight crept under the edges of the swaying blinds and he yanked on the cord, desperate to see what was going on.

His heart froze at the scene the light had revealed; blood was everywhere, the walls were smashed, bookcases shattered, the bed torn, and there laying in the midst of it all was Raven. This destroyed room belonged to her and it was apparent that the blood did as well. On her face was a contorted look of horror and her mouth formed a perpetually silent scream. She was dead, completely eviscerated and Beast Boy was sure he would have been sick if he weren't petrified in place.

This couldn't be happening, it wasn't right. He raised a hand to cover his mouth and saw the blood; his hands were covered in it, all the way up passed his elbows. All he could do was stare at the blood, it looked almost black against his pale skin in the dim moonlight. Tears started to fall from his wide eyes.

"What have I done?" He whispered.

'You killed her.' Answered Rage. 'It's in your nature, demons kill, cause pain and suffering, and they enjoy it. Do you see what happens? Do you see what happens when you are not allowed to kill those who deserve death? We hurt the ones we love.'

Beast Boy collapsed to his knees and doubled over, spilling the contents of his stomach. The sight of her like… Like that, was just too much. He knew that he couldn't bear to live without her, but knowing that he killed her? No, it couldn't have been him, he wouldn't.

"You did this!" He cried angrily.

'Me? You still don't understand it do you? There is no me, I'm just one of your emotions, just a piece of you. You were the one who did this.'

Beast Boy quickly stood, his expression of sorrow quickly replaced by one of a wrathful rage. The shattered remnants of the room became awash with dark energy and objects began to fly off, smashing into walls and one another with violent intent. Beast Boy's face no longer depicted just his anger, but is four glowing crimson eyes betrayed his recently acquired demonic heritage.

"BULLSHIT! YOU KILLED HER! I'LL MAKE YOU SUFFER!" Beast Boy yelled in his inhuman voice.

He reached for the hand mirror perched on the vanity and everything went black.

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Beast Boy shot bolt upright in bed with a sharp gasp. He felt moist all over and quickly ripped the blankets back to check for blood. Nothing but sweat. He was in his room, the lights from the city filtered in through half-drawn blinds to reveal his bloodless carpet.

The objects in his room were beginning to rise off the ground and he quickly shut his eyes.

'Azerath Metrion Zinthos… Azerath Metrion Zinthos…' He silently chanted.

The image of Raven, bloody and torn struck him and all concentration was lost, it proved to provoke his emotional imbalance and things in his room were getting worse. The window blinds tore themselves off the wall and broke apart with a loud racket, carpet rip to shreds, the window shattered, and the drywall began to crumble.

He couldn't calm himself, the thought of Raven dead still made him feel ill and he knew he wouldn't be able to control his powers. He thrust open the door and ran down the hallway as quickly as he could. The darkness followed him, causing the metal walls to crumple and every light bulb he passed to shatter. He moved to the stairs as quickly as he could, hoping to get to the front doors before he caused too much damage. He didn't trust his ability to fly from the nearer exit on the roof at the moment.

The loud noise was bound to wake someone and Robin appeared in his doorway ahead of Beast Boy.

"What's going on?" He asked.

Beast Boy didn't answer, partly because he was trying to prevent damage to the tower, but more so because he could still feel the anger from the dream seething within him. Robin's hand shot forward as he passed and he caught Beast Boy by the arm.

"What's happening Beast Boy?" Asked the Titans' leader as he surveyed the destruction going on in the hall.

"I don't have time for this!" The empath shouted angrily as he knocked Robin back into his room with a large amount of telekinetic force.

He was off again before Robin hit the ground, down the hall and through the stairway door with a loud bang as it crashed into the wall. His powers were causing more damage now, metal handrails were breaking and the concrete steps around him were crumbling but still he ran. He ran because he had to get away from his friends, from Raven, so he didn't hurt any of them. The beach outside the tower was fairly barren; the only casualties to he lack of control would be the rocks, if only he could get there faster.

He exited the final flight of stairs into the lobby next to the elevator. The elevator would most likely have been a little faster but the damage the powers were doing now would probably caused it to plummet, along with Beast Boy, to the basement. As he approached the massive front doors, the thick metal began to twist and bend leaving a large enough opening to move through with little trouble, it also saved the pale Titan from having to deactivate the security system.

Rocks began to crack and splinter while others just rose up into the air, the calm ocean water of the inner bay was now broken with twisting eddies and the splashes caused by flying rock fragments. Beast Boy sat and quickly began chanting to calm himself, however, his voice was far from calm and it sounded as though every syllable took a great effort to force out.

"Azerath Metrion Zinthos… Azerath Metrion Zinthos… Azerath Metrion Zinthos…"

'What the hell is going on here Rage?' He thought angrily. 'I know that wasn't just a nightmare, what are you going to do to make me hurt Raven?'

'Did that little dream teach you nothing?' Came Rage's malevolent voice. 'You say you want to protect her but you soon won't be able to protect her from yourself! Demons kill! There is someone here who wishes to do harm to the one you hold dear, would you really rather let her live and let your demonic side release it's need for blood on Raven?'

"That's not going to happen Rage! That nightmare was something you created and it's something you're going to do!" Beast Boy shouted out loud.

'How many times do you have to hear this? THERE IS NO ME! I am simply a part of you and anything that happens to Raven is a result of your own doing.'

"I refuse to believe that I will ever do anything like…" His voice wavered for a moment. "Like that to Raven!"

'You'd better believe it because that's the truth. Have you ever considered that you may just want to hurt Raven? Could it be that you're powers are going to act out and harm her for the way she treated you before? Think about it, she never once gave you a reason to be kind to her but you always were, you always bounced right back to cheer her up even if she physically harmed you. She's not a kind person, why do you think she's so special? You should eliminate her along with all the others, they do nothing but cause you pain.'

The calm and calculated manner that Rage was speaking in was fueling Beast Boy's anger along with what he said. He knew that it was all bullshit and he would never raise a hand to Raven, but the fact that the emotion actually though he would even consider killing her along with the rest of his friends was something that made his blood boil.

He was angry, he was too angry to say anything to this emotion. What could he say? Shut up? That's a lie? There was obviously nothing he could say to stop Rage from spouting his violent ideas and they were causing his powers to act out that much more. Boulders were imploding all around and the dark energy that was doing it all blocked the night-lights of the city from his view. He was sure that the destruction was causing a great deal of noise, but he could barely hear it for the rage he felt.

'Do it now, you could destroy the tower and it would all be over, they'd all be dead.'

Beast Boy was about to start screaming that he would never do such a thing when it suddenly struck him; there was something wrong with what Rage was saying. His demonic side had confessed that he loved Raven, wasn't that supposed to be the part of him that would kill her? Something was wrong with Rage, there could be no part of him that would willingly do harm to Raven, no part would even think to hurt her.

He did the best he could to calm himself and most of the objects affected by his energies were released back down to the earth.

"What are you trying to do?" He asked aloud.

'I'm just telling you your true desires, you try to tell yourself you don't, but it's all you really want.'

"I told my demonic side the lengths I would go to protect Raven and that applies to you too Rage. You want me to hurt her and everyone else for some reason but I won't do it, I'm going to come into my mind and deal with you there, I'll do whatever is necessary to protect Raven."

'Is that a threat? Is that your way of telling me that you'll kill me? I welcome you to try.'

The last of the powers had released their hold of the objects around him and the only evidence that anything had happened at all was the jagged edges of the newly formed small rocks and the rapidly calming surface of the water.

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Trigon frowned slightly. He had intended for this boy to come in to his mind eventually so he could take control of him, but he had planned to gain more power before he did so. That was not to say his power was not already vast seeing as it had practically doubled with the nightmare he'd planted, but he would have preferred to have gained more before his confrontation.

In retrospect, it probably would have been wise to stop angering the boy by suggesting he kill all of his friends, but Trigon had been wrapped up in the rush of all the talk of bloodshed and the desire to rid himself of his daughter and the others. Oh well, he now had the pleasure of killing them himself.

'It looks like Beast Boy won't let you take over, he won't let you hurt Raven.'

Trigon quickly forced the emotion down. He didn't want to hear whatever Rage had to say right now. The fact that the emotion had again risen up to speak against him was an insult in and of itself. There were more pressing matters to deal with in any case, he had to get to the boy as soon as he came into his mind to be able to take over his physical body.

Even then it would take several hours to fully posses his body, some of the time would be spent breaking his will, but he didn't expect that would take very long; what's a few hours to a being who's existed for eons? It's very easy to break someone's will if you know what they hold dear, and it was easy to see what this boy cared for.

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Jinx followed Cyborg down the hallway toward the common room. She was forced to jog to keep up with Cyborg's large stride and they both arrived to meet Robin and Starfire in a small amount of time. Starfire looked to be in her night ware as she was wearing sweat pajama pants and a worn t-shirt, she had a look of confusion on her face and was looking to Robin for the reason of their awakening. Robin was also out of uniform in a pair of shorts and a shirt, he unlike Starfire, was obviously concerned and looked uncertain.

"Dude, what smashed up the tower?" Cyborg asked, waving his hand to the disarray in the hallway behind him.

"Beast Boy." Robin simply replied.

"Why would Beast Boy want to destroy our home?"

"I don't think he really wanted to destroy it Star… Do you guys remember when Raven pulled Dr. Light into the darkness inside her? That was because she lost control of one of her emotions, I think the same thing is happening to Beast Boy because he seemed really angry." He explained.

Jinx hadn't heard of the prior incident with Dr. Light but Robin had summed it up well enough. The hallway looked thoroughly trashed and it probably took a great deal of power to do it. They had to get him back in control.

"So the Trigon is in Beast Boy's mind and is making him do the mean things?" Asked Starfire.

"That's not exactly what happened with Raven." Said Cyborg. "Her personification of Rage took on the appearance of Trigon when it tried to take over. You're thinking Rage is acting up in Beast Boy now?"

"That's the only I could see him acting that way. The security system says he's out on the beach now, he's been there for a few minutes."

The Titans' leader hit a few keys on the computer consol and the camera overlooking the inner bay came up. Quite a bit of destruction was going on around the empath and he seemed to be talking to himself. The camera's lack of a microphone left them to guess as to what he might be saying.

"Should we not alert Raven and go into his mind to defeat his Rage?"

"When BB and me went into Raven's mind, she warned us that if Rage won we'd be trapped in her mind forever. We were able to beat Rage, barely, but Raven had to join up with all her emotions to do it. Maybe Beast Boy can do that too but I don't know if he can control his powers enough to fight like she did."

Jinx sighed a little, it all sounded so far fetched and she would have thought they were all crazy were it not for the serious way they were talking. It sounded like there was a risk, but people could get hurt if they didn't do something. This whole good guy thing was starting to affect her better judgment.

"So what are we supposed to do?" She asked.

"Well, there are obvious dangers involved in going in to his mind and there are obvious dangers in doing nothing. We don't know enough about what's going on though; we need to find out more before we make a decision that could put everyone at risk. Did Raven sleep through all that noise? We need her to tell us everything she knows about this."

"I shall go raise her from her sleep." Said Starfire as she flew out of the common room.

The Titans were too busy paying attention to the conversation to notice that Beast Boy had walked off of the giant screen behind them in the direction of the tower.

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It was actually quite frightening to think of the devastation Beast Boy's powers could cause if he weren't in control. Raven moved quickly down the hallway to meet with the others. The hallway itself wouldn't take all that long to repair, they had had much experience with replacing damaged sections of the structure following Terra's betrayal, but that was the last thing on Raven's mind at the moment.

Starfire had told her that Beast Boy had lost control and was outside the tower at the moment, Robin seemed to think an emotions was behind it but he really had no experience with such things so she decided she'd draw her own conclusions. She was concerned that he could harm himself but she was also concerned about what was causing him to loose control. Over the past week and a half, he had gained an amazing deal of control over his emotions and suddenly just loosing all that didn't seem right. Then again, he was still very troubled about what happened with Dr. Light; that may be testing his control. Another possibility was that Robin might be right, could Rage be trying to take over Beast Boy as it had tried her so many years ago? There were too many unknowns and now the Titans were looking to her for an answer.

The doors slid open and she and Starfire walked in to see the others looking directly at her.

"Starfire told you about what's going on?" Robin asked.

"Yes, you think Beast Boy has lost control of his emotions and they're controlling him now."

"I don't know if he's being controlled, but I do think something's going on to make him act this way."

"What did his eyes look like? How many were there?" She asked.

"They were normal I think, just two of them and green. Why?"

That was a bit of a relief, it meant that Rage was not trying to control his actions.

"That means that Rage is not doing this, it could just be the fact that he's still very unsettled about what he did to Dr. Light. If that's the case we just have to talk to him about it, normally I'd suggest a counselor, but reliving the event and discussing it would cause his powers to lash out."

"Do you think it wise for all of us to see him now? Maybe it would be better if only a few of us see him at a time." Said Starfire.

"We still need to find out what is the definite cause of this, do you think you can try to find out Raven?"

"Sure, where is he?"

Cyborg turned to the main screen. "Out on the-hey! He's not outside anymore." He typed a few quick commands into the computer. "Looks like he's in your room."

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It was dark and quiet, just like the dream. Beast Boy slid the door open the rest of the way to see that unlike the dream, the room was immaculate except for the mess of blankets on the bed. He didn't know if he was sad or relieved to find that Raven wasn't there. In any case, he had to get this over with so he wouldn't hurt his friends.

The ornate hand mirror sat to the side on the large vanity, to the uninformed it would be no different from any of the other antique objects in the room but this was different. This object had a stronger connection to him than anything else on the planet and he grabbed it.

One might think that you would hold to portal to your mind with the greatest of care, but Beast Boy's hands were moving with intent. Intent to do everything possible to stop that horrid nightmare from ever becoming a reality.

He looked to the reflective surface and felt something odd, instead of a dark vortex, he just felt cold. It came from the handle, almost like it was sucking his body heat into it. Before he could even think to put the mirror down, some invisible force violently wrenched him inside.

Ok, I know this chapter is uber short and it took me like a gujillion (yes that's a unit of measure I created) years to post this but fear not! Chapter 19 is soon in coming and will be out some time next week. So please, put down the sharp sticks and be ready for the evilness that is Trigon next week!

The last few pages would still be nonexistent were it not for CalliopeMused telling me to get off my procrastinating ass to write them. Send her something nice for Christmas, better yet, check out her stories and REVIEW them!

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