Chapter 15

There was a chill in the air that sparked the beginning of December. He could see her shivering and with a smile snaked his arm around her waist hugging her body close to him. "You okay?" he asked tilting his head resting his cheek against the top of her head.

Kagome looked up at him, "Mmhm," she slid her arm around him moving her faded bag/purse on her other shoulder and leaned into him as they walked. She smiled happily and looked into his eyes again just to make sure this was real. I can't believe this! After all of this time we're finally together! Kagome hugged him tighter and put her cheek on his shoulder, she didn't want to let go of him now walking so close together it was as though she was trying to mold into him, to become one person.

He pressed his lips against her forehead, Lord, this feels so right please don't let me ruin this! Sensing the urgency in her tight grip around his waist Inuyasha looked down at her, "Do you have to go anywhere?" He asked his eyes showing his worry.

She shook her head, "Not until six. Work has been pretty slow today so they let me leave, but I need the hours." Kagome met his gaze his shoulders slumped a little with disappointment, she assured him, "I don't have to be back till six."

They walked together in silence, separating a little they were content in holding hands for a while, Kagome brightened seeing an empty park behind the library, the library were he found her over one year ago, "I didn't know there was a park down here, I should bring Kloie sometime."

"I'm sure she would love it," he said.

"Wanna swing?" she asked a childish grin on her face.

"Huh?" He watched her run off to the swings; she set her bag next to it and sat down. He shook his head and ran after her. This girl was one surprise after another. She could be so mature and wise yet so childlike so… He smiled, "beautiful."

Kagome let her head fall back a little as she swung her hair blowing in the wind. When was the last time her life was this simple? She felt so happy right now. Okay running for the swings in a park like a little school girl was probably over doing it but with Inuyasha she could be anything. She was also relieved to have a moment of to breathe no matter how random it was to run for them but this relationship was something she wanted to keep. She didn't want to chase him away by her own desires.

He walked behind her watching her for a long moment, God, this can't be wrong she is so amazing and a wonderful person. Please don't let me mess her up. Inuyasha wanted more then anything to hold her before he could think of anything else he pulled her swing to a stop and stood in front of her, his hands firmly gripping the chains holding her up. "Kagome," his hand came up to caress her cheek, his eyes looking for something in her own. His heart pounding so hard he could feel it in his temples, "Kagome…" he whispered her name almost pleading, his hand covering hers on the chain.

She leaned her face closer to his wetting her lips she managed a weak smile. Oh my God, this is it!

Inuyasha moved forward hesitating for the longest moment their lips barely touching. His own trembled feeling the warmth of her face so close to his, this was maddening! One hand cupped the side of her face while the other lowered himself on the chain and finally he kissed her. He kissed her sweetly a gentle peck that turned into the soft caressing of their lips which grew deeper as each second passed. He kissed her tenderly as she returned his kiss with equal fierceness.

She wrapped her arms around him with a force that robbed him of his balance sending them both to the ground. She gasped in surprise as he wrapped her in his strong arms, pulling her against him tightly. His hands felt wonderful against her skin. Kagome whimpered and slipped her tongue into his mouth, exploring, gently moving over his bottom lip before toying with his. He tastes so good, she thought dreamily.

He returned her caresses with his tongue; he felt the heat rising in his face Mmmm she smells good she's so soft. He shuddered feeling her hands move over his chest, Inuyasha broke the kiss at last for air after an unknown amount of time had passed. His body ached for more of her; he breathed deeply taking in the scent of her trying to calm himself.

"My god," she whispered into his ear, twirling a strand of his hair around her finger "You have….no idea how long I've wanted to do this."

He gasped feeling her hot breath against his ear. Inuyasha buried his face in her hair as he held her desperately to himself. "I think I have an idea." He kissed her forehead and sighed happily a gentle breeze moving over their skin, "I can't believe I'm holding you."

"I know," she whispered. Kagome thought she would go mad with desire, lost in another world, her feelings surging about within her like a raging sea. This was so different then anything she had ever experienced in her life. He was amazing in every way; he made her feel beautiful and wanted without even trying oh god and when he did! He really did! Resting her head against his chest she breathed in his scent. She knew very well what it meant to be aroused but this…She flushed deeply, what was this exactly? There was so much more passion in this, she felt right in his arms, safe and content. There was a deep sense of devotion while raining their love for one another on each other yet an alarming level of arousal in this, this felt like something sacred. "What happens now?" she asked softly not wanting to break the spell around them.

What does happen now, God? A tremor passed through him, "I-I'm not sure but we really need to be careful," He said with a frown.

She drew back and looked into his eyes, "What do you mean?"

"I mean we could get into a lot of trouble very quickly. I mean we're…."He stopped, "Kagome, you are the most beautiful person I have ever met I mean on the inside as well as the outside and my feelings for you are very strong I don't want to mess this up somehow by wanting more…"

She blushed, "me either."

"I really don't know what I'm doing." He said quietly, "I don't have much experience with woman."

Kagome bit her lip; she hadn't thought about that, a man like Inuyasha with lack of experience? In a way that made her terribly sad she wished oh how she wished she could say the same thing! But her little girl was the evidence she was more then a little experienced in the matters of intimacy. She swallowed the lump in her throat as the reality set in that the man she held in her arms could be a virgin. That reality filled her with wonder and humiliation. She felt so unworthy to be holding him, to be held by him. He made her feel so beautiful and she knew she did not deserve that. I knew it…this is what's going to destroy us. "Inuyasha….you know I have been with…other people" she lowered her eyes.

Inuyasha's eyes softened, this was going to get very complicated very fast if he wasn't careful. She was really struggling with this he could tell, the shame in those eyes told him more then he needed to know. "Kagome, you weren't a Christian then and you know that with God you are a new creature," he smiled as she met his gaze again, "You've started over."

She nodded and spoke the words that had been tormenting her for the passed few months, "I know that, but I worry that you'll think I would compare you to someone else or you'll think I just want to have sex with you or something." She sighed heavily, "And whenever I see Kloie I worry that she won't be honored I mean does God look down on her because of how she was made?"

He shook his head, "No, Kagome, he doesn't. If she is anything like her mother God will honor her greatly." Inuyasha kissed her cheek brushing a stray hair out of her eyes. "As far as you and I are concerned, the temptation will always be there we just have to…be careful." He was telling himself just as much as her. In all honesty he wanted her now he wanted to show her his love for her with every part of him. Calm down, Inuyasha told himself, you really need to calm down.

"Thank you, Inuyasha," she smiled, "I have a feeling that we'll be able to work things out." Gazing into those violet eyes she was captivated once again by their beauty those eyes held such innocence yet such wisdom and strength, those eyes that spoke of his complete adoration of her God, can't you see how much I love this man? Please guard us, Lord, let me be able to show him without destroying him! Kagome kissed him feverishly on the mouth moving to his neck, such a wonderful thing it was to pour out her love on him physically showing him her love and to feel his delicious response. His hands moved over her back pulling her against his chest as they both marveled in their irresistible longing for each other. Breathing heavily she wiped his lower lip with her thumb as he had done to her once before, "I-I don't think I want to bring Kloie here anymore," she grinned and claimed his lips again with a fierceness that made both their heads spin.

Inuyasha's hands trembled as they moved over her body, her shoulders down her back stopping just above her bottom. Her skin met his fingers slowly, he whined desperately wanting more.

Kagome groaned pulling away she managed to say that she needed to head back to work. She licked her lips tasting him on her.

UGH! He closed his fist caressing her cheek with his knuckles and forced a smile, "I'll walk you," he helped her to her feet. Both straightened their clothes, Kagome grabbed her bag and they went on their way arm in arm.

"I'll meet you after work," he said hugging her once they got to Charlie's Place.

"Inuyasha, I'm a little worried."

"Me too," he said letting go of her.

She stiffened, "About what?"

"I feel like I'm losing control in this, I've never felt so vulnerable you know?" He said trying to read what she was thinking.

"I feel that way too, like I don't know what's going to happen." She looked at the ground. I'm scared I'll get hurt, she thought sadly.

Inuyasha lifted her chin so he could see her eyes, "We have to trust God, Kags." He gave her a reassuring smile.

Kagome touched his hand, "I guess I still don't know how to do that…"

His kissed her cheek, "I'm still learning, we can talk about it when you get off work. I'll bring Kloie to your place, when do you get off?"

"11:30"

"Okay, I'll see you then," Inuyasha held her close.

Kagome drifted through her shift as if in a dream, she had never felt so good, despite her worries she knew things would be okay with him.

Tyler folded his arms grinning, "You made out with her didn't you?"

Inuyasha's eyes went wide, "What?"

"You made out with Kagome," the boy chuckled at his friend's obvious embarrassment.

"I need some older friends," Inuyasha muttered tying his belt over his black uniform, the Japanese words written in red that declared him a sixth degree black belt facing up, he grabbed his bag and left the changing room, the object of his discomfort trailing him.

"Considering the fact that I am only two years younger then Kagome you need an older girlfriend too."

Inuyasha glared at him, "Okay what does my age difference with her have to do with me 'making out with her' as you put it?"

"So you did?"

As they entered the room they bowed, closing their right fists into their left hands, Inuyasha turned to him, "Since when have you been so interested in my dating habits?"

Tyler laughed, "First of all this has to be the only girl that could turn your head at least since I've known you. Second, Sari isn't here and when I call her tonight she said she has to have some details."

Inuyasha stared at him, "Man, you are so whipped."

"Hey I'm in love."

"True, so where is your better half anyway?"

"Sick," Tyler answered, "Turns out, Sari's mom saw you two at the coffee shop."

The older man groaned, "Sometimes small town life sucks. I, honest to God, forgot she worked there," He sighed.

Tyler laughed.

"Hi, Mr. Kiami! Hi Tyler!" Students from the children's class started to file in, breaking both men away from their personal lives and into their roles as teachers.

"A'de!" Kloie said munching on frosted Cheerios, "A'de Yaaya!"

Inuyasha came through the door just in time for the little girl to grab onto his leg.

"Yaaya!" She burbled.

Kaede smiled, "the child knows what she wants."

Inuyasha picked on the squirming girl and hugged her, "Hey Kloie," he looked over at his grandmother. "I need to talk to you about Kagome."

Kaede put the dishes away and joined him in the living room, "What has she done this time?"

He set Kloie down on the floor, "She hasn't done anything well….it's what I did."

Kloie walked over to where Kaede sat, "Mama?"

"What happened?"

"I went too far with Kagome," he said dejected.

"Mama!" Kloie shouted hearing her mother's name again. There was no response the little girl's forehead wrinkled in confusion, "Mama?"

"You did what?"

"I went too far with her."

"Oh Lord," Kaede looked as though she would faint.

His eyes went wide, "Whoa wait a second! Not like that!" He flushed.

The old woman sighed in relief "I'm not ready to be a great-grandmother just yet, Inu. Now tell me what happened?"

"I ran into Kagome at the coffee shop," he tried to sound believable that his 'running into her' had been an accident. "We took a walk and stopped at a park, you know the one behind the library……" When he was finished he lowered his head.

"Are you thinking of breaking things off?" Kaede asked, her forehead wrinkled with worry.

"NO! No of course not! I'm just worried because all of this is happening so fast. I don't want to lose her because of myself. We're adults but right now I feel like a hormonally stricken teenager like I'm not in control of anything anymore." He clinched his jaw in irritation, "I want to stay with her, Kaede!"

She smiled, "Good. Because I'd rather not have to give up this little one," she said motioning to Kloie playing with a Lion King puzzle. "Is that a gray hair?" She chuckled.

"Do you think this is just some big joke? I'm going insane here and you're laughing?" Inuyasha didn't realize he was shouting until he noticed Kloie staring at him, those big blue eyes tearing up. "I'm sorry," he patted her head then looked back to his grandmother, "I'm just really struggling right now. She's done so much I feel so inadequate in this area. Ugh! I mean I don't want to have-" he eyes followed Kloie as she hobbled into the kitchen for more Cheerios, he lowered his voice, "I don't want to have sex with her I mean not now…I mean she's amazing I would I mean…I'd be lying if I said I didn't think about it…ugh NO! I…I mean we're not married!"

Kaede bit back a smile; she could tell how deeply he cared for this girl but she was driving him crazy. She shook her head no matter how devoted to God he is he's still a young man, "It seems you got to the wedding night pretty fast." She raised an eyebrow making him blush even more, "You just started dating, Inuyasha, but I know you two have cared for each other a very long time. When I first met her I could tell there was a connection between you two. You also have to think about this, if you get involved more with Kagome by that I mean consider marrying her you have to realize that you won't be just a husband to Kagome you will be a father to Kloie." Kaede paused, "Even if you just date her remember there is a child in the matter. Children make any matter complicated."

Inuyasha listened, this was a whole new situation entirely, he hadn't thought about Kloie. "What am I going to do?"

AUTHOR'S NOTE:

STILL looking for fanartists and possible scene pictures.

!¡I'M SORRY! Chapter 16 is kicking and screaming its way into existence I should have it up in a few days I hope...any sermon ideas? I NEED IDEAS!¡