Chapter 18 of 'Anything would be Fine

by: pissiMissi

AUTHOR'S NOTE:

The song lyrics used in the chapter are from Lifehouse's "Spin".

I'm sorry for the shortness of this chapter

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Kagome leaned her head on his shoulder as his arm slipped around her waist. Both couples sat together on the sofa in Kagome's apartment, Inuyasha pressed a kiss on the top of her head. She smiled and leaned closer to him feeling his fingers slowly entwine with hers.

Sari eyed her friend from the other end of the couch, she smiled seeing them, they're so cute! She leaned close to Tyler's ear, "Let's go," she whispered..

"What? Why?" Tyler looked at her confused.

"I think we should go."

"But the movie's not over and-" His words were caught off with her mouth, once he had his voice back, Tyler looked at Inuyasha, "Man, I need to get her home. I'll see you tomorrow."

Inuyasha looked at the two of them raising an eyebrow, "Alright be careful you two."

Once they were gone Kagome scooted closer to him no longer paying attention to the movie but to the faint touch of his breath on the back of her neck. She smiled and squeezed his hand.

Inuyasha felt the gentle squeeze and smiled, he touched her chin and pulled her to look at him. God, thank you for bringing this woman into my life, this was commonplace for him it seemed. Inuyasha hugged her closer and brushed his lips on hers. Her eyes sparkled as she smiled, her fingers brushing his dark locks of hair. They had been through so much in the past year and now that they were dating it was almost too much to register sometimes.

"Now about this afternoon?" She asked, twirling his silky hair around her finger and gave him a sexy grin. It was mean she knew but she wanted to know why he had acted the way he did. "Please tell me."

He sighed, his cheeks reddened, "Well I've never seen so much of you before and...that outfit..." Inuyasha cleared his throat and she could tell he was struggling to tell her, it was so adorable. "I saw you in that outfit and I wanted you so bad. That's why I left so quickly I wouldn't have been able to control myself." Okay I said it, now look at her.

"God, Inuyasha," Kagome said staring into his violet eyes, she touched his face with her hand and kissed him deeply her tongue moving over his bottom lip before sucking on it getting a low moan from him. "I love you," she whispered with a smile.

"I love you too, Kagome," he said stroking her cheek with his fingers.

She kissed his cheek moving down his neck feeling his arms wrap around her tightly. God, I need him. Their kisses became fevered and rushed. His fingers were tangled in her hair as he kissed her, one hand leaving her hair wrapping around her waist pulling her tightly against him. They moved to play back on the couch breathing heavily they stared at each other. Hungry lips found hungry lips.

Kagome's heart was pounding it was amazing to feel this man's passion his love for her through such kisses and caresses, and to return her thirst for him. She was practically lying on top of him now as they lay on her couch.

Inuyasha was in a whole different world, his mind was racing, again with the coffee table! How easy would it be to push everything off and- He opened his eyes and gasped, her hands were all over him. The way her chest rose and fell with each breath she took, her brown pools sparkled in excitement and longing. Her cheeks were growing pinker by the minute his name was on her lips, those lips slightly wet from her tongue or was it from his? Inuyasha groaned as she shifted her weight her hips pressing against his, his only reaction were dilated pupils.

She let out a soft moan loving what she was doing to him and feeling his longing response in return. This is so amazing he has no idea... Kagome bit her lip as he moved beneath her stirring far greater feelings within her then she ever thought possible. His violet eyes captivated her those eyes filled with adoration for her and amazement, probably from what they were doing. She smiled, her hand undoing the buttons on his shirt and pulling on the under shirt beneath it.

Oh my god what is she- Inuyasha shook his head in attempt to regain his senses, they couldn't do this. He grabbed her wrists tightly holding them together.

Kinky. She grinned and tilted her head, "Wow, Inuyasha, I didn't know you liked it that way."

He winced they were both far beyond morals he wanted her just as bad as she did but...his eyes softened, "Kagome."

"Yes?" Her sparkling eyes made this so much harder. (No dirty thoughts!)

He took a deep breath and let it out slowly, "We need to stop this." Inuyasha felt her whole demeanor change, her smiled less happy, her eyes became soft and sad. "You know we can't do this," he said at last giving her a little push to get off of him.

Kagome pulled her hands away from his grip and climbed off of him. After a silence that seemed almost forever, she looked over at him, "You act like this is something so wrong," she said, "You act like we were going beneath the clothes or something but we weren't." She sighed and folded her arms, this is nothing compared to what I've done.

"That's not the point, Kagome, you know as well as I do that you wanted more," a glare from her made him realize how that sounded, "-And you I wanted more then that. That's why it's wrong, Kagome, we both wanted more."

"How the hell is it wrong?" She burst out in frustration, she knew they had been getting out of control she just didn't want to gain control just yet. Kagome felt hot tears fill her eyes, "You were only showing love for my body."

He held his face in his hands, "I just didn't want us to do something like this, this was something I wanted to avoid."

Avoid? He wants to avoid being close with me, the woman he loves? That doesn't make sense!

Inuyasha met her gaze, she could see the hurt in his eyes, "I'm sorry I yelled," she said, "It's just what we did is so little compared to what I've done before." That reality only made her feel worse. She wondered if she would ever be able to live under this Christian standard.

"You're judging what just happened on things you did before you became a believer, Kagome, I don't want our relationship to be like that. Say we were to get married we will be so glad that we waited but if for some reason we don't stay together and we have slept together I don't want you to feel like I used you. That is something I would never do."

She sighed, she knew what he was saying was true, but she didn't want to, "I'm not saying your not right...but," she blushed, "I like making you excited I really like it when you are. You probably think I'm a whore but it makes me feel good that you have such strong feelings for me that you could lose control like that..."

He looked over at her and grinned, "For you...I could lose control a lot more then that," he held her hand and squeezed it, "And because of that fact we can get into deep trouble."

Kagome sighed, I give. "I agree, we need to be more careful."

Inuyasha pushed open Kaede's door, she offered him a cup of coffee and joined him at the table.

"What's troubling you, Inuyasha?" The old woman was tired from keeping Kloie so late the night before but she was always there to listen.

His mind replayed the images of last night on the couch, he rubbed his eyes as if trying to forget them but it didn't work. The burden he felt was so heavy it filled him with great sadness. What bothered him the most was that he enjoyed what happened last night and he found himself wanting to do it again and wanting to go even farther!

But how could anyone resist such a woman like Kagome? She was beautiful, smart and kind, and an amazing kisser, how could anyone say no? Inuyasha felt like crying. He knew just how much trouble they were in and he just wanted it to end, but in reality he knew they would never be able to control themselves alone again.

"Are you going to tell me?" Kaede offered him a comforting pat on the hand.

He poured out the tale of last night and the helplessness and horrible guilt he felt right now. After hearing it, Kaede nodded. "I know God has forgiven me, but...I feel like I've done damage that will never be reversed to our relationship."

Kaede took a sip of her coffee, "First of all you need to stop taking responsibility for Kagome and sort this out between you and God."

Inuyasha spoke, "I've confessed my sin and repented already."

"You are denying the power of God by thinking she is damaged irreversibly."

He shook his head, "I know what you're saying is right...but why don't I feel it?"

Kaede touched his shoulder, "Son, give this to the sovereign power of God." There was no response from him and she squeezed his shoulder, "You think God can't handle Kagome Higurashi? You think God can't handle Inuyasha Kiami?"

He shook his head.

"Just trust Him and things will be alright, you'll see."

Author's Note:

I haven't been able to update since I moved to Florida.There have been some family problems so I haven't been able to write. I apologize.