Disclaimer: I do not own NCIS, nor do I own the song lyrics (James Blunt, "Goodbye My Lover"), I am just borrowing them for a short while…..

A/N: Yes, here I go again. Another Tate songfic. Why do I keep doing this to myself? Argh! Enough of that, the lyrics are from James Blunt's song "Goodbye My Lover", and the fic is from Tony's prespective… R&R

"Goodbye My Lover"

I'm so sorry Kate. I should have realised it sooner. All the time I wasted, all the tears I shed, all the pain we endured together… How could I have missed it? I have so many regrets, I should have done more, said more, cared more.

Did I disappoint you or let you down?

Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?

'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,

Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.

I never thought that I would meet someone who would give me this feeling, a rush of emotions every time you smiled. I admit, I had a lot of girlfriends, but they weren't serious, you were the only one for me. Now you're gone, and I feel like a failure.

So I took what's mine by eternal right.

Took your soul out into the night.

It may be over but it won't stop there,

I am here for you if you'd only care.

I tried to tell you how I felt, but my voice always trailed off…off into the darkness of the night, the smoothness of the wind as it blew, the roar of the sea… But you never heard me.

You changed me, ever since we met I've been different. Ever since I almost died, I took things into perspective. Facing death does that to you.

You touched my heart you touched my soul.

You changed my life and all my goals.

And love is blind and that I knew when,

My heart was blinded by you.

The many times I dreamed of you, dreamed of touching your lips to mine, holding your hand, stroking your hair, just being there for you…

I've kissed your lips and held your head.

Shared your dreams and shared your bed.

I know you well, I know your smell.

I've been addicted to you.

I have to face the truth, face the fact that I will never see your beautiful face again. Only in my dreams will I see you smile, hear your laugh, feel your presence.

I'm sorry Kate.

Goodbye my lover.

Goodbye my friend.

You have been the one.

You have been the one for me.

Never again will take things for granted, never again…

I am a dreamer but when I wake,

You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.

And as you move on, remember me,

Remember us and all we used to be

We were so great together, you and me, we were a team. But now out of the mist I see the truth. They took you away from me.

I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.

I've watched you sleeping for a while.

I'd be the father of your child.

I'd spend a lifetime with you.

I remember when you said you wanted to have children, look at their smiling faces, hear their blissful laugh, watch the wind rustle their soft hair. Now you'll never get your dream…

I know your fears and you know mine.

We've had our doubts but now we're fine,

And I love you, I swear that's true.

I cannot live without you.

Cruel fate, how could this happen? To her, the angel. To me, the one who loved her. To all of us, we all loved her, all in different ways. I can't life without you, I don't want to…

Goodbye my lover.

Goodbye my friend.

You have been the one.

You have been the one for me.

I want to hold your hand when you're scared, when life's whims are too much to bear.

And I still hold your hand in mine.

In mine when I'm asleep.

And I will bear my soul in time,

When I'm kneeling at your feet.

I won't ever let you be forgotten. Your presence will live on in all of those who loved you.

Goodbye my lover.

Goodbye my friend.

You have been the one.

You have been the one for me.

I'm sorry.

I love you, Kate.

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R.I.P Kate Todd

A/N: R&R