A/N: Here's my answer to icklebitodd's question (also posted in reviews):

Your not actually lost at all. Hehehe...Sara said ALOT of things to Catherine, MANY of them we don't know yet. For some "reason" there are some things that Sara doesn't want anyone to know, you readers included, at least for now. She told Catherine, feeling like she had to tell SOMEONE or else it would eat her up inside, and also knowing that she was the best candidate. As much as she obviously is very close to Nick, there are something's when it comes to women that are much better just to tell another woman.

As for the note...well...I guess you can all assume something's it said already but as to what else, that's for me to know for now, and the rest of you to wait! Let your imaginations soar, see what you come up with – here's a bit of a hint though - I've left some clues around as to what it would be. Some more obvious that others, unless maybe their just obvious to me lol.

Keep your predictions coming - it really helps me shape the story better and understand my readers!

Hope that's clears things up – any other questions let me know! Sorry for the delay in update, things at my place at university went a little messy and I haven't really felt like writing the last few days…Being kicked out by my grandparents set me back a little bit emotionally lol…

Chapter 11:

"I talked to Catherine in the locker room." Warrick announced. Grissom looked up from his papers, as Warrick quickly went to shut the office door to avoid anyone overhearing.

"And?"

"She is hiding something. Something she promised not to tell, but she did tell me, in so many words, that if this wasn't Sara and she wasn't bound to secrecy, she would investigate more into Chris." Grissom sat deep in thought. After a few moments of silence, Warrick continued. "I told Catherine that we would start investigating him, and that she and Nick should stay out of it – Catherine so she doesn't break her word to Sara, Nick because he just doesn't need to know right now."

"It must be something really big that she's hiding. It had to have taken a lot to push Sara off the edge." Gil responded quietly. Warrick nodded.

"I'm worried about Catherine too – you can tell this secret is really bothering her. There is something we're missing."

"There is a lot were missing – I think we need to go over that note again, and start researching into Chris Hartman's past. Why don't you take Greg and see what you can find. Brass might even be able to wrangle a warrant to search his apartment. I'll start going over the note again. It might be a good idea to check out Sara's place again too."

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Sara walked slowly back into her apartment, Nick close behind holding her bag. She stopped in the doorway, hesitating to go inside. Nick was instantly at her side, her bag lying on the floor.

"Sara? What's the matter?" he asked urgently. She just closed her eyes and shook her head.

"Nothing – its okay." She replied quietly.

"It's not nothing – you're shaking. Do you want to sit down?" She nodded. Nick put his arm around her and led her to the couch. She lowered herself and closed her eyes as Nick grabbed her things from the hall and locked her door. He gently took the seat beside her, as she leaned and rested her head on his shoulder, cuddled up next to him.

"What's the matter?" he asked softly.

"Memories," was all she replied back.

"Do you want to talk about it?" Sara sighed again. The doctors told her time and time again how important it was to express her emotions, talk about what happened. They knew that there was plenty she wasn't telling her friends, and she had requested that they not disclose any of her personal information prior to her collapse. She did, however, tell Catherine. Her psychologist agreed that was a good step, if not telling everyone at least talking to someone she knew she could trust and who would understand. Sara just prayed they would leave Chris alone, so the rest of the team would not discover the horrible truths of what happened.

"I was just remembering the last time, he was here." Nick's fists started to ball up. When he had moved most of his stuff into her apartment, he had gone through the place to make sure every reminder of Chris would be gone. The pictures that had been lying on the counter were ripped into the garbage, phone messages erased. He didn't want anyone to haunt her thoughts ever again, especially Chris Hartman. Sara could tell as she leaned against him how tense he had become at the mention of 'him'. "Nick?" she whispered.

"What is it sweetie?"

"You want me to press charges don't you?" It was Nick's turn to sigh. She lifted her head and turned to look at him. He noticed how emaciated and pale her face still looked. A hurt beyond her eyes hit him, a scar that ran deep but not evident on the surface. The doctors had released her early, at her request, knowing how cooped up she had been feeling. Since physically she was healing, and mentally she was still seeing her therapist, they found no reason to keep her, as long as she wasn't alone for long periods of time. Nick had no intentions of letting her out of his sight; at best he could help it. The only times she would be alone was at night when he was at work, when hopefully she would be asleep.

Nick had approached Sara's landlord about the need for better security, and he had gratefully complied. They installed cameras everywhere, as well as more secure locks all over the building; they fit Sara's locks with new keys. It would be immensely difficult for anyone unwanted to enter. Nick had also spoken to the other tenants and shown them Chris's picture, as to alert them not to let him in.

"To be honest Sara," Nick answered, "I don't completely understand why you don't want to. He hurt you, and you deserve justice for it. What if he starts abusing someone else?" She was silent. Didn't he realize that she tortured herself with the same questions all the time? Then again Nick didn't know the whole story. Once Catherine found out, even she understood her reasoning.

"It's hard to explain Nick but I don't want this hanging over my head forever." It looked like Nick didn't believe her explanation. Either that, or he doubted her decision. Sara couldn't blame him – he was right.