Um, hi. I er. can't think, so um. I get on with the story. Yeah. OK. I
don't know what to write. damn...
Disclaimer: I don't own Beyblade, how many times do I have to tell you?
Kai: 1000000000000000 more times.
Kai's Blue Angel: Oh shut up Kai and stop being sulky because Lan 4got you.
Kai: It's not fair.
Kai's Blue Angel: I know but I guess she only knows you in the story and not in "real" life but uh, it's too hard to explain, here you just go play with her, maybe you can be friends.
(By the way I'm only writing this cos I'm bored, u can read if you want but if you wanna get on with the story instead of reading my boredom then go ahead).
Kai: I don't want to see her.
Lan: Hi Kai.
Kai: (sarcastically) You learnt my name?
Lan: Yeah, that crazy black haired girl forced me to.
[Kai's Blue Angel is waving frantically behind the two with a 'matchmaker' sign on her shirt.]
Kai: Uh yeah, she's weird.
Kai's Blue Angel has a vein throbbing in her head and is rising her fist up slowly.
Kai: Um I mean she's my. friend.
KBA: ^_^
Lan: Kai, can I ask you something?
Kai: (hopeful tone in his voice) ok.
Lan: What's wrong with your skin? I mean are you diseased or something? Cos your cheeks have got this funny blue triangular crap on them, what happened?
Kai sweat drops and falls over anime style: NO! The reason why I have blue marks on my face is because..
Kai's Blue Angel: ON WITH THE STORY!!!!!!!! (Hehehehehehehe)
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It was early in the morning and Lan found herself to be the first person up, she was up even before Kai. She sat up in bed and looked over to Kai sleeping peacefully. Then she looked at the clock next to her bed, it read 7:32am.
{Wow, I'm up early, I guess I'll let the others have a little lie in till it's time for them to wake up.}
She slumped back down onto her bed again head hitting her pillow with a soft 'plump.' She closed her eyes then opened them again and looked at Kai again. She decided to give him a little visit.
Climbing out of bed she crept over to Kai's bed and saw him so cute looking while he slept. A sweet smile came over Lan's face as she bent down over Kai coming closer to him, her eyes sparkling with pleasure, she softly caressed the Kai's quilt cover and looked at him still smiling happily staring at his face.
She ripped the duvet off of Kai's body.
"Ahhh!!! What?!" Kai leaped up completely groggy and he heard a voice,
"Payback time Kai!"
"Are you crazy?" Kai hissed back at her trying to grab his blanket back, his hair was all tousled and he looked quite sweet desperate for his warm blanket back over his body. The cold was starting to get to him.
"Hey, I'm just getting you back for when you did it to me!" Even though they were talking they were careful not to wake the others up, especially as Lan danced around with Kai's blanket on her, she started to wrap it around her body and pretend that she was being really warm and comfortable to tease Kai.
Angry Kai slipped off the bed and started o charge at Lan with an angry face on him. Lan dodged him and silently and gracefully landed in front of her bed.
{Fine then, we'll just have fun then} Kai though in his head.
Smirking but still quite angry at Lan he leaped on top of the girl harshly grabbing her around the waist making them both fall onto Lan's bed while Lan was still holding the thick blanket. Lan had become quite squashed with the big blanket and Kai on top of her,
"Gak! I can't breathe!" Her voice cried out muffled.
"Good, and besides, you already paid me back by punching me in the stomach." Kai said triumphantly that he had succeeded in squashing Lan. He rested his head on the lump under him.
"I wanna breathe!"
But Kai was actually quite comfortable spread on top of Lan but not touching her because of the thick blanket covering her. Kai's strong arms were wrapped around Lan's body but he couldn't feel her because of the blanket.
"I'm dying!"
"Stop being so dramatic." Kai started to smile as he was finally able to torture Lan and get his revenge.
Reluctantly he slowly let go but taking his blanket with him leaving Lan collapsed and exhausted lying on her bed with a 'dead' look expression on her face with her tongue lolling out and eyes rolled to the back of her head. Kai looked at her dramatic faking and snorted quietly. She looked ridiculous.
Getting back into his bed he left Lan to die. He knew he should have been waking up already but he just wasn't bothered.
Looking up Lan smiled and straightened out her already messed up hair and waited for Kai to get comfortable in his bed before she got up and pummelled him into the bed. Hugging Kai and smiling she rubbed her cheek on the thing it was touching which happened to be Kai's own cheek, {great, I'm going to die.} Kai thought.
Lan had a goofy happy grin on her face happy that she can still torture Kai. For some reason she felt very awake that morning. Kissing the tortured one on the cheek she relaxed onto his body and then rolled off landing next to him.
She looked at Kai and he was scowling.
"I hate girls." He muttered.
Laughing she kissed him lightly again making him blush slightly. Touching his nose she cuddled up to Kai and enjoyed thinking back to a few minutes ago when Kai had finally loosened up and tried to have some fun.
Kai hoped that Lan had wasted all her energy and wasn't going to touch him again. Cautiously closing his eyes he tried to go back to sleep again for about another 5-10 minutes. Lan felt quite happy to be around Kai. She wanted to stay like this or a while but she thought she heard a noise.
Looking up she saw Ray stirring and quickly leaped off the bed making Kai wake up and look over to see what was wrong.
He saw that it was Ray waking up. Cursing Ray because this was the second time he had disrupted a peaceful moment between him and Lan. Scowling as he saw Ray waking with a goofy grin on his face and hair all messed up looking like a clown without the scary makeup, Kai hastily turned his back to Ray and Lan and covered his head his anger spreading all over his body.
Lan looked at Kai and felt bad for him, he actually wanted to spend some quality time with her cuddling up to each other but then they got disturbed by a friend.
Kai was starting to wish he could have separate bedrooms again. Although his separate bedroom wouldn't include Lan in it, Kai feared that she was making him soft, she already had made him quite soft, and Kai just didn't want to turn into ice-cream.
Yawning Kai started to get out of bed and he just saw Lan walking into the bathroom so his chance of getting in was kinda impossible.
Ray still quite sleepy looked at Kai. "Hiya Kai, morning!"
"Oh shut up and leave me alone." Kai mumbled.
{Gees, what a sour puss.} Ray thought, "hey Kai, where DID you and Lan go last night?"
"That's none of your business Ray, besides; I'll think you'll find out sooner or later. Now stop irritating me and stop talking."
"Yes SIR." Ray muttered looking at Kai and frowning.
"And stop looking at me too."
"Well why don't I just go and move to Australia, would that be OK with you?" Ray didn't know why Kai was being this rude.
"That's fine with me; it'll do me some good actually, now I thought I asked you to stop talking to me?"
"Grrrrrrrrr." Ray clenched his fists, {what rudeness}
Coming out of the bathroom Lan was brushing her hair and she looked quite happy but Ray strolled in the bathroom with no smile or cheerfulness what so ever.
"What did you say to him?" Lan asked Kai sharply.
"How did you know it was me?"
"Who else would get Ray that pissed off?"
"Humph. I didn't say anything." Kai said looking away and crossing his arms.
Lan put her brush down and climbed on to Kai's bed and hugged him.
"Wha.?"
"Oh just shut up Kai. Forever."
Frowning and rolling his eyes Kai gently hugged her back with one arm and stroked her back. Lan was just about to kiss Kai on the cheek again but then Max was starting to wake up. So Lan had to quickly let go of Kai and sat on the edge of his bed.
Sighing Kai slumped his arms onto the bed having to let go of the only one who he really seemed to care for. Kai started to wonder why he really only cared for Lan, well, excluding Dranzer, but as Kai thought he knew that he hated all people and well, anything living but he wondered what was the thing that really made him interested in her, he was always so cold hearted but then Lan changed everything. Kai was always so cold but she didn't care. What was it? Kai couldn't remember.
Kai started to think about all her good points. She was pretty; she was strong, she had things in common with Kai. But looks weren't everything and having things in common wasn't really much and Lan's strength could be a threat to him one day, actually it already has been a threat, she punched Kai a load. She was quite cheerful at times and she was quite funny at times but those things would have annoyed Kai, but they didn't. He wanted to know what it was that made Kai interested in Lan. She was affectionate, no that annoyed Kai. She was rude? But not as rude as Kai. She didn't like Tyson? Now these reasons were getting a bit silly but all of them explained little parts of why Kai was interested in Lan.
Kai cracked his brain and tried to think why he really fell for her. While he was thinking Lan looked at Kai and smiled at him.
{She has a nice smile. nah..}
Max looked around the room but then for some unexplained reason he fell asleep again.
Sweat dropping but also grateful Max had suddenly fallen asleep; Lan crept back to Kai again and gave him that kiss she planned to give him.
{She cares for me. She the only person who ever cared for me. That's why I care for her, it's because she stands by my side when things seem to go wrong, she looks after me, she holds me tight, and she kisses me, I can't hide my feelings from her. OK I hate all these things but as its Lan. For some reason she doesn't annoy me. She always wants to please me and make me happy, she just cares. She cares a whole load; she's the one who gave me all that love I needed. She loves me. That's why I love her.}
Looking at the one he loved he smiled. {I love this girl but why? I don't like to love people, I don't like any other person apart from my self, Lan beat me in Beyblade, and I should hate her. She also gave me this.}
Kai reached up to his cheek and felt around, his fingers running over a small thin line that was bumped on his skin, his scratch had sealed up and right now there was a line scar on his face.
{I try to shut her out but somehow she just manages to figure me out, how? Why? I hate that.} Kai's heart started becoming cold and frost was biting around its sides. He didn't want to hold Lan anymore but he still held on but he started to scowl. Lan didn't know what Kai was thinking so she stayed with him until there was noise coming from Ray when he walked out of the bathroom. But Ray wasn't out yet.
{Why do I like her? She's so affectionate and. and she's the one who softened me up, weakness will never get anyone any where in the real world, only strength and cruelty will help to survive. Lan is strong; she's stronger than me, physically, she's not weak. OK, cut that out from my head. But she's making me weak with this LOVE. I'm starting to get confused and irritated, damn that girl. Why does she have to give me problems? Why do I have to care for her? I don't want to care for anybody, this isn't me, I was just fine being cold and harsh with the Blade Sharks, why did I let Lan come into my life? Why did I let her be part of my life? Why did I let her follow me around and put me in uncomfortable positions?}
Lan felt Kai was becoming tense and restless.
"What's wrong Kai?"
"Nothing." Kai answered a bit too harsh.
Lan started to feel a little unsure, Kai was looking moody. {Gee, he sure got moody quick.}
Lan was becoming a little unsure that being on Kai's bed would be safe, so she slid off but pecked Kai on the cheek, it felt like kissing a smooth surfaced rock. She noticed his red scratch and felt a great pang of guilt in her stomach.
Ray had just come out of the bathroom; he still looked pissed but also looked as if he was trying to forget. By not looking at Kai.
{Good she's gone.} Kai thought in his mind, but he started to fell a little empty without Lan hugging him and resting next to him.
{Now, let's see} He looked over at Lan who lay on her bed staring at the ceiling and biting her lip for fun. Kai watched her for a bit, her eyes looked as if they were shining in the semi-darkness, they looked beautiful, in a boy's point of view, Kai just thought they just looked like normal eyes; he was too blind to see any nice features of a girl.
He watched as she breathed slowly, her chest moving up and down and her slim stomach was stretched out and Kai could see her stomach muscles through her t-shirt. She was so strong, she has been fighting since she was four.
Kai watched her attractive figure lying outstretched on the bed, Kai personally thought Lan wasn't bad looking and she had a nice figure, but every other boy thought so too, that made Kai jealous, showing he had feelings for her. Kai realised this and started to feel slightly ashamed of what he was thinking of her before, about hating her. He knew she was attractive and Kai was interested in her looks as well as her personality but Kai didn't want to be attracted to her looks, he thought they were meaningless, but he also thought love was meaningless but he couldn't help it.
Kai looked at the clock, it was 8:15. They had planned to get up at 9. Right now Kai just felt like he wanted to be alone so he got up and went into the bathroom.
In the bathroom he questioned his feelings again.
{Alright Kai, do I love this girl or what?
Hmm.. Maybe that's too extreme to answer right now, I'll go back to that question some other time, not now.
Do I care for her?
Yes.
Do I want to be with her?
I guess.}
Love. Love was a word too strong for Kai's liking, so he just made up his conclusion without looking at the evidence or thinking it through again, it was making his hair turn white with stress. (Not really)
{I'm not going to question this any more, I. like her and that's that. No love. I have never loved and never will. Lan is not going to change my life. I won't allow it. She can fall in love with me for all I care; I'm just not going to love her back}
(KBA: It's such a shame that Kai won't allow himself to think that someone can love him and there is a time when he can love himself. It's because he's being challenged and he hates it if he's wrong or if he loses, he wants everything to go his way, no change in life at all, no excitement. It really is a shame that no one really cared for Kai-kun, this is why he's so confused, he doesn't want his barrier to keep people away to break, even though it already has, he's trying to fix it and get to the bottom of his relationship with Lan and try to find a way to show that their 'love' isn't really love at all, it's just something else, but it's hard to tell for Kai, he doesn't know what love really means, so it's Lan's job to show him. What a shame she doesn't realise what she has to do keep this relationship going. Hopefully Kai would be able to work this dilemma out for himself, before it's too late.)
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OK, I decided to end the chapter here or it'll get way too long. Kai's just been changing his mind quite a bit.
Gees, a 7 page long chapter to talk about something that happened in around 45 minutes. Eek, I need to stop getting carried away.
OK then, you guys know what to do. Review Review Review!!!!
KBA!
This is really unfair, Kai is SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO Out of Character but I can't help it!!! This is hard. whaa!!
Kai: Oh be quiet, I'm trying to think.
Lan: Check Mate.
Kai: WHAT?!?!?!?!?!?!?!
KBA: I could have told you where to move.
Kai: Then why didn't you?
KBA: Didn't think you'd need my help. And you were being rude so nah!
Kai: ¬_¬;
Disclaimer: I don't own Beyblade, how many times do I have to tell you?
Kai: 1000000000000000 more times.
Kai's Blue Angel: Oh shut up Kai and stop being sulky because Lan 4got you.
Kai: It's not fair.
Kai's Blue Angel: I know but I guess she only knows you in the story and not in "real" life but uh, it's too hard to explain, here you just go play with her, maybe you can be friends.
(By the way I'm only writing this cos I'm bored, u can read if you want but if you wanna get on with the story instead of reading my boredom then go ahead).
Kai: I don't want to see her.
Lan: Hi Kai.
Kai: (sarcastically) You learnt my name?
Lan: Yeah, that crazy black haired girl forced me to.
[Kai's Blue Angel is waving frantically behind the two with a 'matchmaker' sign on her shirt.]
Kai: Uh yeah, she's weird.
Kai's Blue Angel has a vein throbbing in her head and is rising her fist up slowly.
Kai: Um I mean she's my. friend.
KBA: ^_^
Lan: Kai, can I ask you something?
Kai: (hopeful tone in his voice) ok.
Lan: What's wrong with your skin? I mean are you diseased or something? Cos your cheeks have got this funny blue triangular crap on them, what happened?
Kai sweat drops and falls over anime style: NO! The reason why I have blue marks on my face is because..
Kai's Blue Angel: ON WITH THE STORY!!!!!!!! (Hehehehehehehe)
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It was early in the morning and Lan found herself to be the first person up, she was up even before Kai. She sat up in bed and looked over to Kai sleeping peacefully. Then she looked at the clock next to her bed, it read 7:32am.
{Wow, I'm up early, I guess I'll let the others have a little lie in till it's time for them to wake up.}
She slumped back down onto her bed again head hitting her pillow with a soft 'plump.' She closed her eyes then opened them again and looked at Kai again. She decided to give him a little visit.
Climbing out of bed she crept over to Kai's bed and saw him so cute looking while he slept. A sweet smile came over Lan's face as she bent down over Kai coming closer to him, her eyes sparkling with pleasure, she softly caressed the Kai's quilt cover and looked at him still smiling happily staring at his face.
She ripped the duvet off of Kai's body.
"Ahhh!!! What?!" Kai leaped up completely groggy and he heard a voice,
"Payback time Kai!"
"Are you crazy?" Kai hissed back at her trying to grab his blanket back, his hair was all tousled and he looked quite sweet desperate for his warm blanket back over his body. The cold was starting to get to him.
"Hey, I'm just getting you back for when you did it to me!" Even though they were talking they were careful not to wake the others up, especially as Lan danced around with Kai's blanket on her, she started to wrap it around her body and pretend that she was being really warm and comfortable to tease Kai.
Angry Kai slipped off the bed and started o charge at Lan with an angry face on him. Lan dodged him and silently and gracefully landed in front of her bed.
{Fine then, we'll just have fun then} Kai though in his head.
Smirking but still quite angry at Lan he leaped on top of the girl harshly grabbing her around the waist making them both fall onto Lan's bed while Lan was still holding the thick blanket. Lan had become quite squashed with the big blanket and Kai on top of her,
"Gak! I can't breathe!" Her voice cried out muffled.
"Good, and besides, you already paid me back by punching me in the stomach." Kai said triumphantly that he had succeeded in squashing Lan. He rested his head on the lump under him.
"I wanna breathe!"
But Kai was actually quite comfortable spread on top of Lan but not touching her because of the thick blanket covering her. Kai's strong arms were wrapped around Lan's body but he couldn't feel her because of the blanket.
"I'm dying!"
"Stop being so dramatic." Kai started to smile as he was finally able to torture Lan and get his revenge.
Reluctantly he slowly let go but taking his blanket with him leaving Lan collapsed and exhausted lying on her bed with a 'dead' look expression on her face with her tongue lolling out and eyes rolled to the back of her head. Kai looked at her dramatic faking and snorted quietly. She looked ridiculous.
Getting back into his bed he left Lan to die. He knew he should have been waking up already but he just wasn't bothered.
Looking up Lan smiled and straightened out her already messed up hair and waited for Kai to get comfortable in his bed before she got up and pummelled him into the bed. Hugging Kai and smiling she rubbed her cheek on the thing it was touching which happened to be Kai's own cheek, {great, I'm going to die.} Kai thought.
Lan had a goofy happy grin on her face happy that she can still torture Kai. For some reason she felt very awake that morning. Kissing the tortured one on the cheek she relaxed onto his body and then rolled off landing next to him.
She looked at Kai and he was scowling.
"I hate girls." He muttered.
Laughing she kissed him lightly again making him blush slightly. Touching his nose she cuddled up to Kai and enjoyed thinking back to a few minutes ago when Kai had finally loosened up and tried to have some fun.
Kai hoped that Lan had wasted all her energy and wasn't going to touch him again. Cautiously closing his eyes he tried to go back to sleep again for about another 5-10 minutes. Lan felt quite happy to be around Kai. She wanted to stay like this or a while but she thought she heard a noise.
Looking up she saw Ray stirring and quickly leaped off the bed making Kai wake up and look over to see what was wrong.
He saw that it was Ray waking up. Cursing Ray because this was the second time he had disrupted a peaceful moment between him and Lan. Scowling as he saw Ray waking with a goofy grin on his face and hair all messed up looking like a clown without the scary makeup, Kai hastily turned his back to Ray and Lan and covered his head his anger spreading all over his body.
Lan looked at Kai and felt bad for him, he actually wanted to spend some quality time with her cuddling up to each other but then they got disturbed by a friend.
Kai was starting to wish he could have separate bedrooms again. Although his separate bedroom wouldn't include Lan in it, Kai feared that she was making him soft, she already had made him quite soft, and Kai just didn't want to turn into ice-cream.
Yawning Kai started to get out of bed and he just saw Lan walking into the bathroom so his chance of getting in was kinda impossible.
Ray still quite sleepy looked at Kai. "Hiya Kai, morning!"
"Oh shut up and leave me alone." Kai mumbled.
{Gees, what a sour puss.} Ray thought, "hey Kai, where DID you and Lan go last night?"
"That's none of your business Ray, besides; I'll think you'll find out sooner or later. Now stop irritating me and stop talking."
"Yes SIR." Ray muttered looking at Kai and frowning.
"And stop looking at me too."
"Well why don't I just go and move to Australia, would that be OK with you?" Ray didn't know why Kai was being this rude.
"That's fine with me; it'll do me some good actually, now I thought I asked you to stop talking to me?"
"Grrrrrrrrr." Ray clenched his fists, {what rudeness}
Coming out of the bathroom Lan was brushing her hair and she looked quite happy but Ray strolled in the bathroom with no smile or cheerfulness what so ever.
"What did you say to him?" Lan asked Kai sharply.
"How did you know it was me?"
"Who else would get Ray that pissed off?"
"Humph. I didn't say anything." Kai said looking away and crossing his arms.
Lan put her brush down and climbed on to Kai's bed and hugged him.
"Wha.?"
"Oh just shut up Kai. Forever."
Frowning and rolling his eyes Kai gently hugged her back with one arm and stroked her back. Lan was just about to kiss Kai on the cheek again but then Max was starting to wake up. So Lan had to quickly let go of Kai and sat on the edge of his bed.
Sighing Kai slumped his arms onto the bed having to let go of the only one who he really seemed to care for. Kai started to wonder why he really only cared for Lan, well, excluding Dranzer, but as Kai thought he knew that he hated all people and well, anything living but he wondered what was the thing that really made him interested in her, he was always so cold hearted but then Lan changed everything. Kai was always so cold but she didn't care. What was it? Kai couldn't remember.
Kai started to think about all her good points. She was pretty; she was strong, she had things in common with Kai. But looks weren't everything and having things in common wasn't really much and Lan's strength could be a threat to him one day, actually it already has been a threat, she punched Kai a load. She was quite cheerful at times and she was quite funny at times but those things would have annoyed Kai, but they didn't. He wanted to know what it was that made Kai interested in Lan. She was affectionate, no that annoyed Kai. She was rude? But not as rude as Kai. She didn't like Tyson? Now these reasons were getting a bit silly but all of them explained little parts of why Kai was interested in Lan.
Kai cracked his brain and tried to think why he really fell for her. While he was thinking Lan looked at Kai and smiled at him.
{She has a nice smile. nah..}
Max looked around the room but then for some unexplained reason he fell asleep again.
Sweat dropping but also grateful Max had suddenly fallen asleep; Lan crept back to Kai again and gave him that kiss she planned to give him.
{She cares for me. She the only person who ever cared for me. That's why I care for her, it's because she stands by my side when things seem to go wrong, she looks after me, she holds me tight, and she kisses me, I can't hide my feelings from her. OK I hate all these things but as its Lan. For some reason she doesn't annoy me. She always wants to please me and make me happy, she just cares. She cares a whole load; she's the one who gave me all that love I needed. She loves me. That's why I love her.}
Looking at the one he loved he smiled. {I love this girl but why? I don't like to love people, I don't like any other person apart from my self, Lan beat me in Beyblade, and I should hate her. She also gave me this.}
Kai reached up to his cheek and felt around, his fingers running over a small thin line that was bumped on his skin, his scratch had sealed up and right now there was a line scar on his face.
{I try to shut her out but somehow she just manages to figure me out, how? Why? I hate that.} Kai's heart started becoming cold and frost was biting around its sides. He didn't want to hold Lan anymore but he still held on but he started to scowl. Lan didn't know what Kai was thinking so she stayed with him until there was noise coming from Ray when he walked out of the bathroom. But Ray wasn't out yet.
{Why do I like her? She's so affectionate and. and she's the one who softened me up, weakness will never get anyone any where in the real world, only strength and cruelty will help to survive. Lan is strong; she's stronger than me, physically, she's not weak. OK, cut that out from my head. But she's making me weak with this LOVE. I'm starting to get confused and irritated, damn that girl. Why does she have to give me problems? Why do I have to care for her? I don't want to care for anybody, this isn't me, I was just fine being cold and harsh with the Blade Sharks, why did I let Lan come into my life? Why did I let her be part of my life? Why did I let her follow me around and put me in uncomfortable positions?}
Lan felt Kai was becoming tense and restless.
"What's wrong Kai?"
"Nothing." Kai answered a bit too harsh.
Lan started to feel a little unsure, Kai was looking moody. {Gee, he sure got moody quick.}
Lan was becoming a little unsure that being on Kai's bed would be safe, so she slid off but pecked Kai on the cheek, it felt like kissing a smooth surfaced rock. She noticed his red scratch and felt a great pang of guilt in her stomach.
Ray had just come out of the bathroom; he still looked pissed but also looked as if he was trying to forget. By not looking at Kai.
{Good she's gone.} Kai thought in his mind, but he started to fell a little empty without Lan hugging him and resting next to him.
{Now, let's see} He looked over at Lan who lay on her bed staring at the ceiling and biting her lip for fun. Kai watched her for a bit, her eyes looked as if they were shining in the semi-darkness, they looked beautiful, in a boy's point of view, Kai just thought they just looked like normal eyes; he was too blind to see any nice features of a girl.
He watched as she breathed slowly, her chest moving up and down and her slim stomach was stretched out and Kai could see her stomach muscles through her t-shirt. She was so strong, she has been fighting since she was four.
Kai watched her attractive figure lying outstretched on the bed, Kai personally thought Lan wasn't bad looking and she had a nice figure, but every other boy thought so too, that made Kai jealous, showing he had feelings for her. Kai realised this and started to feel slightly ashamed of what he was thinking of her before, about hating her. He knew she was attractive and Kai was interested in her looks as well as her personality but Kai didn't want to be attracted to her looks, he thought they were meaningless, but he also thought love was meaningless but he couldn't help it.
Kai looked at the clock, it was 8:15. They had planned to get up at 9. Right now Kai just felt like he wanted to be alone so he got up and went into the bathroom.
In the bathroom he questioned his feelings again.
{Alright Kai, do I love this girl or what?
Hmm.. Maybe that's too extreme to answer right now, I'll go back to that question some other time, not now.
Do I care for her?
Yes.
Do I want to be with her?
I guess.}
Love. Love was a word too strong for Kai's liking, so he just made up his conclusion without looking at the evidence or thinking it through again, it was making his hair turn white with stress. (Not really)
{I'm not going to question this any more, I. like her and that's that. No love. I have never loved and never will. Lan is not going to change my life. I won't allow it. She can fall in love with me for all I care; I'm just not going to love her back}
(KBA: It's such a shame that Kai won't allow himself to think that someone can love him and there is a time when he can love himself. It's because he's being challenged and he hates it if he's wrong or if he loses, he wants everything to go his way, no change in life at all, no excitement. It really is a shame that no one really cared for Kai-kun, this is why he's so confused, he doesn't want his barrier to keep people away to break, even though it already has, he's trying to fix it and get to the bottom of his relationship with Lan and try to find a way to show that their 'love' isn't really love at all, it's just something else, but it's hard to tell for Kai, he doesn't know what love really means, so it's Lan's job to show him. What a shame she doesn't realise what she has to do keep this relationship going. Hopefully Kai would be able to work this dilemma out for himself, before it's too late.)
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OK, I decided to end the chapter here or it'll get way too long. Kai's just been changing his mind quite a bit.
Gees, a 7 page long chapter to talk about something that happened in around 45 minutes. Eek, I need to stop getting carried away.
OK then, you guys know what to do. Review Review Review!!!!
KBA!
This is really unfair, Kai is SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO Out of Character but I can't help it!!! This is hard. whaa!!
Kai: Oh be quiet, I'm trying to think.
Lan: Check Mate.
Kai: WHAT?!?!?!?!?!?!?!
KBA: I could have told you where to move.
Kai: Then why didn't you?
KBA: Didn't think you'd need my help. And you were being rude so nah!
Kai: ¬_¬;